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by Jp Barnaby


  “Jayden, son, what is going on with you?” My father asked with nothing but concern in his eyes. Sighing, I knew I couldn’t tell him the real reason that Kim and I were fighting, but I also knew he wouldn’t let it go without some explanation. “You barely talk to us anymore and now Kimberly says you’re in trouble? She said she doesn’t know how to help you.” I turned around and glared at Kim. For the first time in our lives she looked ashamed and a little frightened.

  “Dad, I’m fine. There is nothing wrong with me. School is fine, home is fine and I’m not in trouble,” I said, shrugging off his hand and walked to my truck, not wanting to have that conversation with them. God only knows what Kimberly had told them. After I got into the truck, I put my hands on the top of the steering wheel and laid my forehead against them, sighing when I felt Lexi’s fingers against my hair.

  “Lexi, I am so sorry.”

  “Jayden, it’s okay. She’s just upset because she doesn’t understand.” I picked my head up and started the ignition. Looking up to check the mirror, I noticed that my family was still watching me. My mother was holding hands with my father, who had his arm around Kimberly.

  I had never felt so alone.

  Chapter Eight

  The next two weeks passed in a blur of papers, exams and meetings with my advisor. I was starting to get things lined up to start grad school in the summer as I would be graduating tomorrow and staying for my postgraduate work here in Seattle. Just as with my undergrad degree, I wanted to work through the summers so I could finish a little faster. I felt like I’ve been in school forever and I know that Lexi was also getting things ready to leave for New York; she would be starting in the summer semester as well. Due to my schedule, I hadn’t seen much of her since the wedding and I hated it. I felt like I should be spending all of my free time with her, seeing her as much as I could before she left. I tried hard not to think about the time when she would be gone. Over the course of our convoluted relationship with Ethan, she had become my closest friend. Now, we would only have webcams and phone calls. I pushed that thought away as my cell phone beeped. It was a text from Ethan.

  Be in the room at 9AM.

  Why in the hell would he want a session the day of graduation? Lexi and I had to be on the field at eleven for the ceremony, since she would also be walking across the stage today. Throwing my phone onto the bed next to my suit, I growled in frustration. I was still trying to decide on a tie when Lexi came in. Smiling, she looked down at the four ties lying across the suit jacket. When I looked at her, I felt my whole face soften and I smiled back.

  “I like the blue one with the grey suit, definitely,” she said, scooping them off the bed and holding them up to me. “First, because the blue brings out your eyes and second, because the blue and the grey is just so appropriate for a history major with a Civil War specialty.” She tried hard to keep a straight face, but then broke out into soft giggles.

  I raised an eyebrow at her. “Won’t the blue and the grey fight? I’d hate to have my clothing at war,” I joked, with at least a good attempt at a straight face. That comment only made her laugh harder as she hung my newly chosen clothing up on the hook attached to the closet door. She put the rest of the clothes back in the closet as I hung the graduation gown on the other hook. Lying back on the bed, I looked at them hanging side by side. I would be graduating from college tomorrow and it seemed so surreal. Lexi came over and lay down next to me, putting her head on my chest.

  We lay like that for a long time. Silently, she was playing with the hem of my t-shirt while I ran my fingers through her long hair. We didn’t need to say anything; both of us knew what graduation meant…she would be gone soon. That thought brought a dull ache to my chest and I pulled her closer to me in a fierce hug. She wrapped her arm around my chest and we held each other like that until nearly midnight.

  “Lexi, honey, we need to go to sleep,” I said gently and, for a moment, I thought she’d fallen asleep, but she nodded. She pulled back slightly and whispered to me.

  “Jayden, can…can I stay here tonight with you? I don’t want to be alone.” Her voice sounded so broken, I couldn’t have refused even I wanted to and I certainly didn’t want to. I was perfectly content to sleep with this beautiful girl in my arms. If she needed my comfort, I would absolutely give it to her.

  “Of course you can, baby. Let me get you a t-shirt to sleep in,” I said quietly to her, and then crawled off the bed after kissing her forehead. I found one of my high school track shirts in my dresser and handed it to her. She looked at it with a strange expression and then turned it around. Just as I started to ask her if she wanted a different shirt, she walked into the bathroom to change. I heard her crying softly for just a minute before she came back in and crawled back into bed, right into my arms and I held her until she fell asleep.

  I had a hard time sleeping. Lying with Lexi in my arms was something that may never ever happen again and I didn’t want to miss any of it, even though I knew sleep was inevitable. As I stroked her hair gently, she moaned softly and became restless.

  “Shhh…” I murmured, trying to soothe her and held her a little more tightly, stroking her face.

  “Ethan…No…” She changed positions roughly and once she started to settle, I held her against me again. “Not alone… Ethan…”

  “You won’t be alone sweetheart,” I whispered and she sighed, burying her face in my chest. She said something else, but I couldn’t make it out. Finally she calmed and went back to sleep and I soon followed.

  The morning dawned bright and clear. We couldn’t have asked for better weather for an outdoor ceremony. I looked down at the sleeping girl in my arms and sighed, knowing that I could really get used to waking up like this. She felt so completely perfect here and I wondered for just a moment why she hadn’t stayed with Ethan. Surely she’d rather sleep in his arms? Then I thought about my first day with Ethan when he explained the rules, one of which was that subs never slept in his bed, ever. Surely Lexi was more than just a sub? I decided that I didn’t want to think about this now; I just wanted to enjoy the feeling of her in my arms for a little while longer.

  Around seven, I heard a soft knock on my door and Ethan stuck his head in. When he saw Lexi sleeping in my arms, his brow furrowed. “Well, that answers my question as to why Lexi’s car is here. I’m sorry I bothered you.”

  “She was upset about leaving and didn’t want to be alone,” I whispered so as not to wake her and, immediately, his face softened. Nodding, he looked at her for a moment more before pulling back from the room.

  “I’ll see you both at nine,” he replied as he closed the door. I sighed and shook Lexi awake.

  Lexi and I were in position at nine, just as we should be. We were both nervous and excited about graduation today and weren’t sure why we were having a session. I knelt beside Lexi and looked straight ahead no matter how much I wanted to look at her. I wondered briefly if this was the last time we would be together like this. Before I could contemplate it too deeply, the door opened and Master Ethan came in, standing in front of us in dress pants and a light sweater.

  “There are just two things I want to do today before you get ready for your graduation,” he said and I relaxed. It wasn’t actually a full session. “Go over to the long padded table in the center of the room and bend over it, side by side. Spread your legs wide.” We moved to the table on our knees and stood just long enough to bend over the table, our hands still clasped behind our necks. Lexi and I both continued to look straight ahead as I spread my legs as far as I could while still maintaining my bent posturing on the table.

  “I love seeing you both in this position for me. You are so open, so ready for me. God, I wish I could take you both over the table, but there just isn’t time,” he said in a low moan as he moved over to Lexi. I heard Lexi gasp next to me and then moan deeply. Not daring to turn and look, I figured I’d know soon enough.

  I felt him move behind me and then felt his warm fingers spreading o
pen my buttocks. He began lubricating my anus and I moaned softly as his fingers moved in and out of me; already hard, this just exaggerated my problem. Next, I felt him push something into me and secure it with a harness. I moved experimentally, minimally, but the thing just shifted. He left us bent over like that for a few more minutes while he walked around the table, looking at each delicate detail of our bodies, touching various places on me, causing me to squirm a little on the table and then he chuckled and stepped away.

  “Now, let’s make sure the remotes for these plugs work.” Suddenly, I felt the plug start to vibrate. Lexi and I moaned in unison as he clicked it again and it vibrated faster. Fuck that felt good. Then without warning, he turned them off and Lexi and I both let out a breath.

  “Please wait for me by the door.” He bent to pick up something out of a bag on the floor. I growled under my breath at being all riled up only to be dismissed, but I went to get the shorts I’d worn in. We dressed quickly and assumed our positions once again. It felt odd to be in this position at least semi-clothed, but we waited patiently. Walking up to me, he opened a small black leather box, like something an engagement ring would be in. I was intrigued. He held out a thin chain with an unassuming pendant and I looked at it. It was some kind of Japanese symbol.

  “This kanji symbol is hokori, which means pride. You are someone to be proud of, Jayden. As a sub, as a student and as a man – I hope this reminds you of that. It is my graduation gift to you,” he explained as he put it on me and then kissed my forehead. Awestruck, I could tell he had this made for me by the engraved initials of ‘ERHB’ on the back. Briefly, I wondered what the ‘R’ and the ‘H’ stood for. He moved over to Lexi and took out a similar chain with the same symbol that was engraved on our cuffs.

  “This is to remind you that you are never alone, that you have a family. It is my graduation gift to you,” he whispered and put the chain on Lexi. She looked up at him with tears in her eyes and nodded as he kissed her on the forehead, his lips lingering a little longer there.

  “Let me know when you are ready to leave for the college.” After he left the room, Lexi and I looked at each other for a moment, still staggered by his gifts. Then we both stood up and I took her hand.

  “I have a gift for you too, Lexi.”

  “And I have one for you.” She smiled. “Let’s exchange them later tonight, okay?” I nodded and we went to get dressed, as Lexi still had to go home and get ready. Thankfully, she didn’t live far and didn’t require much maintenance. The plug felt slightly uncomfortable as I made my way to my room. As I dressed, the harness that was made of light leather felt like it weighed a hundred pounds. Certainly, everyone would be able to see it through my clothes. My erection just wouldn’t go down either, so I went into the bathroom and splashed cold water on my face. That helped a little, until the buzzing started. I growled and it stopped when I heard Ethan’s wicked laughter from the hall.

  Finally, we were ready and it was time to make our way to the college. After four years of hard and strenuous liberal arts busy work, we would be able to start taking on the stuff that mattered. Lexi and I were nervous but excited. Well, in my case, very excited. I didn’t know if he was doing it to Lexi too, but he kept turning my plug on and off randomly throughout the drive. By the time we reached the college, I thought I was going to explode. Pulling into the parking garage, Ethan parked next to a large conversion van. We got out of the car, Ethan and I from the driver’s side and Lexi from the passenger side. Suddenly, he pushed me back against the car and I felt his erection grinding into mine. He leaned close and whispered, “I love it that you are so fucking hard for me.” Then he walked around and took Lexi’s hand and they walked towards the school. I was contemplating the punishment I’d get if I just opened my pants and jacked off quickly before everything got started, but a quick vibrating in my ass told me that he was still watching. Fuck!

  I grabbed my gown from the hanger in the back seat and put it on before I followed them at a jog. At least the gown would hide my raging hard-on. As I caught up to them, Lexi took my hand. We walked toward the large open area where Lexi put on her gown. I looked around, but didn’t see anyone I knew, so I decided to stay with Ethan and Lexi. It was almost time for us to take our seats when I heard my name being called. Turning around, I saw my parents and Josh standing a few yards away. They waved and came over.

  “Hi,” I greeted, a little uncomfortably. My parents smiled at me and Josh just looked concerned. “Well, um – Mom, Dad, this is my friend Lexi. Lexi, you’ve already met Josh and these are my parents, Harry and Janet Carter.” Lexi smiled politely and shook hands with them. My mother smiled almost too happily and I knew she thought Lexi was my girlfriend. “And this is Ethan, my roommate and friend.” I introduced him, indicating Ethan on my left. When he shook my parents’ hands graciously, he looked down at the ground. Something about Ethan right now screamed socially awkward and I just didn’t understand. He was so confident in almost every situation we’d been in, but meeting new people seemed to unnerve him. He looked so shy and unsure of himself. As I thought back, I realized this was the first social function I’d ever known of Ethan attending since we lived together.

  “Ethan, have we met? You look familiar.” My dad said scrutinizing Ethan closely.

  Ethan looked up at him for just a second and said, “No sir, we haven’t met.” The tone suggested that there was no room for ambiguity. I noticed that he didn’t say ‘I don’t think we’ve met’ as most people would have. It was a subtle, but distinct, difference. Lexi looked as bewildered as I did. Then Ethan looked to me, his face uncomfortable and said, “I’m going to find a seat. I’ll see you afterwards.” In a flash, he was gone.

  So there I stood with my parents and brother-in-law, feeling fairly uncomfortable not only because of the toy that I prayed Master Ethan wouldn’t set off, but from his sudden departure. Did he know my father? I couldn’t imagine my dad or anyone in my family knowing Ethan in the same capacity that I knew him. I almost snorted in amusement at the thought until Josh’s voice brought me back sharply.

  “Kimberly is here, Jayden. She went to the ladies room.” I nodded. I had no interest in seeing my sister. While I knew we had things to talk over, today wasn’t that day. Just as I looked over at Lexi, she reminded me that we needed to get to the staging area where they would call us up to get our degrees. We were both graduating with honors, so we also had to pick up our second tassels. Taking Lexi’s hand, I told my parents that we would see them afterwards and caught sight of my mother’s beaming face. I couldn’t imagine what that meant. It was like she’d never seen me with a girl before. Maybe it was just because I was graduating.

  As we got to the staging area, I felt the toy turn on and I fought the urge to moan. Standing with my parents had certainly quelled my erection, but it was starting to return in full force now. I looked down, seeing Lexi had her eyes closed and I knew hers was on too. Moving quickly, she stood in front of me, pushing her hips back into mine. I felt my plug vibrating and now I could feel hers too as my erection pressed into her buttocks and I nearly came right there. Grabbing her hips, I pushed her forward a little so that we were no longer in contact. She giggled and then the vibrations stopped. I rolled my eyes and then stepped forward into line with the other history majors. Lexi went to find the other literature majors and we waited for our time to walk across the stage.

  After an eternity of waiting, which included several minutes of teasing from Master Ethan, names were being called to head up to the stage. As they got to the history majors, I started to get nervous. I would be walking across the stage in front of my family, friends and fellow students with a raging erection. I was so fucking aroused that it didn’t really matter, but I could just imagine myself having an orgasm in the middle of the stage. Fuck, I hoped he didn’t torture me with that thing while I was on stage. Looking around, I didn’t see him, but he had to be close because of the range on the remote.

  The vibrations started a
s I got to the top step to walk onto the stage. I paused briefly, but then kept walking, as it would cause more suspicion if I didn’t go out there. My cock throbbed. I tried to think about all of the people that I would embarrass myself in front of, the audience watching, but that just turned me on more. What the hell was the matter with me? Thankfully, Master Ethan must have been watching, because he turned the plug off half-way across the stage and I was able to get my diploma without releasing in front of thousands of people. Hurrying to the other side of the stage, I sat quickly, trying inconspicuously to adjust myself to be more comfortable.

  When it was over, I looked around searching for Master Ethan. I wanted to beg him to just let me come; I don’t think I’d ever been so hard. My parents found me first and, thankfully, my erection died completely before my mother hugged me. Of course, they wanted to go out to dinner tonight to celebrate, so I told them I’d meet them later and, once again, went in search of Ethan. I knew my parents could tell I was distracted, but I prayed they didn’t know why. Finally, I ran across Lexi, who had been looking for me.

  “He’s at the car,” she informed me and we made our way back to the parking garage. Sure enough, when we entered the structure, Ethan was sitting casually on the back bumper of the Audi, smiling at us as we approached.

  “Lexi, honey? Would you mind if Jayden sat up front on the way home?” he asked sweetly and she agreed. I had no idea what that meant, but he held the door open for her to sit behind me and then came up to me.

  “Take your jacket off and put it on the back of the seat.” I followed his instructions, getting into the car as he got in behind the wheel. He told me to put my hands behind the head rest, but that it was my choice, because we weren’t in the room. I put my hands behind the head rest, it didn’t matter where we were; to me he was my Master. I felt him cuff my hands to the head rest, with my jacket covering the cuffs, so it looked like I was stretched out relaxing. Before he pulled out of the parking spot, he leaned over and unbuttoned the center button on my dress shirt, pulling up my undershirt. Then, he unzipped my dress pants, leaving my straining erection inside them. Because of the harness, I hadn’t bothered with underwear. Being exposed like this made me so much harder; I only prayed that I made it home without making a mess of myself.

 

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