Contents
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Epilogue
“AGAIN.”
Calen quickly closed his eyes, trying to refocus. He knew that closing his eyes made little sense, given the perfect darkness of the vast hall surrounding them, but it seemed to help. And he needed all the help he could get.
He pictured the hall in his mind as clearly as he could, imagining the long empty tables, the wooden benches, the huge windows like gaping open mouths filled with thick glass. He pictured the tattered banners hanging limply from the rafters and the cold stone floor and on every surface — tables, rafters, floor, windowsills, everything — hundreds and hundreds of candles. Maybe thousands of candles, certainly more than he was ever able to count. They sat in the ceiling fixtures hanging from heavy iron chains above him and blanketed the stones around him except for a narrow pathway leading to the hallway door.
He envisioned them all, tried to hold every last one firmly and completely in his mind. Then he took a breath, and on the exhale released a burst of magic energy, lighting every wick at once.
Or . . . almost at once. No, curse you. Calen opened his eyes just in time to catch the last few candles flickering into life at the far end of the hall. He’d felt them, at the last second, struggling to light. He tried to control his heartbeat, tried not to let his — concern — show as he looked at last to the older man sitting at the table beside him.
Mage Krelig smiled slightly in the glow of the candles around him, but that didn’t mean anything. The man smiled when he was angry as often as when he was pleased. His face rarely gave clues to what he was thinking or feeling, and Calen had learned to just be wary at all times. Wary, but not afraid. Krelig had no patience for fear.
“That wasn’t quite perfect, was it?” Krelig said.
Not afraid, Calen reminded himself. You’re not afraid. He willed his breathing to be even and steady, willed his heart to slow down.
“No,” Calen said. The mage’s back had been to the straggler candles, but he still would have been able to feel their lateness to light. Bluffing was not even a remote possibility. “The last few were slow.”
He waited to see what Krelig would do. He remembered how he used to be afraid of Serek. Afraid of being yelled at, or insulted, or given tedious tasks as punishment.
He could almost laugh.
The first time he’d failed one of Krelig’s tests, the mage had struck him, hard, across the face. That had been a shock, but now Calen missed those first few days, when the back of Krelig’s hand was all he had to worry about. The next time Krelig had been sufficiently disappointed in his new apprentice’s progress, he’d set Calen’s hand on fire. Just for a few seconds, and Krelig had healed him immediately afterward — but those few seconds had been agony. Since then, Krelig had demonstrated various ways he could inflict pain as a consequence for failure. Knowing that the mage would heal Calen afterward didn’t matter when the pain was happening. It wasn’t always fire; sometimes it was pinpricks, or knives, or cold. Cold was surprisingly painful. One time he’d sliced off the tip of Calen’s ear. He’d put it back; you couldn’t even see a scar. Since then, though, Calen had noticed that he’d developed a nervous habit of touching the top of his ear with his finger. Just to make sure it was still there.
It was an effective method of teaching. Calen had never worked this hard in his life.
“Once more,” Krelig said finally. He blinked, and all the candles went out.
Okay, Calen thought, closing his eyes once again in the new darkness. I can do this. I can. He set about envisioning the hall again, every feature, every candle. He had to do it this time; Krelig’s “once more” had suggested that one more attempt was all he would allow, and then there would have to be punishment. Calen really, really didn’t want to be punished. He wanted to go back to his room, to lie down on his bed, and think about his plans. And then he wanted to go to sleep.
When he slept, he dreamed. And sometimes he dreamed about Meg.
About home.
But that was for later; first, he had to do this. He cleared his mind, thinking only of the candles, of the countless wicks waiting to burst into flame at his command. He imagined them wanting to please him, wanting to help him please Mage Krelig. No stragglers, he thought at them firmly. All at once. Together.
He took three breaths this time, in and out, and as he released the third breath he released the magic with it, pushing it outward to reach those farthest candles a few seconds sooner than before, willing all of the wicks to ignite as one. Please, he started to think, and then crushed that impulse. You don’t beg magic to work for you, Krelig had told him that very first day. You don’t ask. You don’t hope or plead or wish. You command. You direct the magic to do your will, and it obeys.
Obey! Calen shouted in his mind as his energy reached the candles. Light!
They lit. All at once.
He felt it, felt the single great rush of his command received, his goal accomplished, and didn’t need Krelig’s satisfied grunt to know that he had done it perfectly this time. He opened his eyes again and took in the brilliant glow from the combined flames and smiled a little smile of his own. It felt good, being able to do it, to light so many at once. The candle-lighting spell was one of the first things every new apprentice was taught, but he’d never lit more than a handful of candles at a time before today. And he’d never even attempted lighting multiple candles at the exact same instant. He understood, of course, that it would probably never be necessary in a real-life situation to light a thousand candles exactly at once. It was impressive, sure, but not very practical.
But this wasn’t about the candles; it was about learning control, about learning precision. And he was able to do something tonight that he hadn’t been able to do this morning. Just like the night before, and the night before that. Whatever else Krelig was, and he was a lot of very, very terrible things, he was keeping his promise. He was teaching Calen more magic, more swiftly, than Serek had ever done. He had not yet told Calen that anything was beyond him, that there was anything he wasn’t ready to learn. Quite the opposite, in fact.
There was a price, of course. And it was more than just the pain and punishment, more than being alone with a madman in some distant fortress, preparing to wage war against the Magistratum and anyone else who stood in their — in Krelig’s — way. It was the memory of his friends’ faces as he’d turned away from them and gone off with the enemy. It was the knowledge that his true master thought he was a traitor. It was having to be away from Meg, knowing she needed him and that he’d left her alone to face the insanity of everything that was going on without him. Not that Meg wasn’t totally capable of doing anything she wanted with or without his help, of course. Meg was the most capable person he’d ever met. But he knew what it meant to have a true friend to count on when things were bad, and he knew he’d been that person for Meg just as she’d been that person for him. And now neither of them had the other to count on, and it was because of what he’d done. He’d done it for her, for all of them, to stop Mage Krelig from killing them all on the spot. But they didn’t know that. And so they
probably all hated him now. He wanted to believe that Meg, at least, wouldn’t have given up on him, that she would know in her heart that he’d had a good reason for leaving. But she might still hate him for it. She might trust him and believe in him and hate him all at the same time. She wasn’t exactly the most even-tempered person.
But he still believed that he could make it right. He would pay for his new knowledge, do whatever it took, suffer whatever he had to. And once he had what he needed, he would escape. He’d get back to Meg and Jakl and Serek and the others, return to Trelian and help them win the war and defeat Mage Krelig once and for all. He’d show them all that he was not a traitor, and more — that they had been wrong not to trust him in the first place.
But not yet. Not tonight, and not tomorrow, and probably not for weeks and weeks to come. But . . . soon. Eventually. As soon as he’d learned everything he needed to know.
“Pleased with yourself, are you?” Krelig asked, jarring Calen out of his own thoughts. He looked up, startled, but the mage’s good humor seemed genuine.
“Yes, Master,” Calen answered truthfully. “I like how it feels when I get something right.”
The mage nodded. “As you should. There’s no shame in acknowledging your own accomplishments. Every mage should be proud of his talent. Proud and unafraid to use it. Our ability is what sets us apart, after all. It’s the most important piece of who we are.”
“Yes, Master,” Calen said again. Krelig often waxed poetic about mages and their abilities, and how much better they were than everyone else. It was one of the reasons he hated the Magistratum so much, and the rules that other mages lived by. The idea of being marked or having to hold back from doing whatever magic he wished was offensive to him. Calen had heard plenty of rants on the subject at this point. He barely listened anymore.
“That’s enough casting for tonight,” Krelig said finally.
Calen nodded and started to rise. But before he was halfway out of his chair, Krelig spoke again. “I didn’t say you could go.”
Calen froze, then sat slowly and carefully back down. Krelig’s face was expressionless.
“Master?”
“You didn’t learn that quite as quickly as you should have.”
You said once more, Calen protested silently. You said once more, and then I did it! But out loud he only said, “I learned it as quickly as I could. I thought you were pleased.”
“But it wasn’t as quickly as you could. You could have done it faster. You’re still holding back.”
“No, I —”
“Don’t you say no to me,” Krelig snapped, anger suddenly pulsing in his voice. “I sense the power inside you, but you refuse to release it. You insist on reaching in bit by bit, accessing a little more, and then a little more — I don’t have time for this!”
Calen swallowed, afraid that anything he said would be wrong. But Krelig hated when you didn’t answer him. “I’m trying as hard as I can, Master.”
“It’s not enough. You must need some incentive.”
No. No, no, no. It wasn’t fair; he’d gotten it on the third try! “I —”
“When my visions during my exile showed me that you would be . . . important . . . to my success, I am quite certain they meant you at your full power. Not this partial strength you insist on clinging to.” Krelig was studying him, eyes narrowed. “You must not truly want to unlock your full ability. How can I encourage you to want that, Calen?”
“I do; I do want that. I’ll do better tomorrow, you’ll see. I promise. You don’t — you don’t have to . . .”
Krelig shook his head, and Calen’s stomach shriveled to a hard little knot inside him. “Apparently I do.”
And then the pain started.
Calen desperately tried to block the spell before it hit, but Krelig batted his attempt away without any apparent effort at all. The first wave of red fiery energy tumbled Calen backward onto the floor. He didn’t even have a chance to scream before the impact knocked the breath out of him. Krelig walked over and stood looking down at him.
“I know it’s in there. I can almost see it — such power, the power I need to defeat my enemies — and you keep it safely . . . locked . . . away. . . .”
With each of the last three words, Krelig sent another beam of fire into Calen’s chest, as though he were trying to burn a hole through him in order to let the magic out. It wasn’t literal fire; even through the pain Calen could tell that he wasn’t actually burning, but oh, gods, it felt like he was.
“Stop . . . please. . . . I’m sorry. . . .” He gasped out the words even though he knew they wouldn’t do any good.
It seemed like a long time before Krelig felt he had been punished enough.
Calen lay there for a while after Krelig left. Eventually, once he stopped shaking and his heart felt closer to its normal rhythm again, he got up and picked his way along the candle-lined path. He took one of the candles near his feet and relit it, continuing down the hall toward the stairway that would take him to his room.
Most of the halls and corridors were kept dark, but Calen knew the way to his room, and to the kitchens, and to wherever else he needed to go. And if he needed to go somewhere he didn’t already know the way to, he knew how to find out. That had been an early lesson, and he had learned it well. On their second night at the apparently long-abandoned castle that Krelig had claimed for his new home, the mage had deposited Calen in the dark in some random corner of the lower levels and told him he’d have to find his way to his room without light or help. And then left him there alone. And then set some sort of hungry, monstrous creature loose nearby, to give Calen a little extra motivation. Calen had never found out exactly what it was, that thing, but he could still recall its insistent, eager cries and the sound of its too-many legs scrabbling against the floor in the darkness just behind him. Calen had learned what he needed to very, very quickly.
He carried a little map in his head now, all the time. It was incredibly useful; he wished he’d known it was possible a long time ago. He could add to it whenever he wanted, and so could always find his way back from wherever he went. His room, the one he’d chosen from the entire wing that Krelig had given him for his own, was at the end of a long hallway on the uppermost floor of the castle. It wasn’t the largest room of the lot, but it opened up onto a huge balcony that provided a breathtaking view of the surrounding countryside. Calen still wasn’t sure what country or kingdom they were actually in, but whatever it was, it was beautiful. He spent as much time out there as he could, looking at the trees and the mountains and watching the birds during the day, and staring out at the stars or the moonlight glinting on the distant river at night. He tried repeatedly to figure out which direction Trelian might be, but there was no way to tell without knowing where they were now. He didn’t dare ask Krelig. Krelig would answer questions about magic without hesitation — he wanted Calen to want to learn, and as long as the questions weren’t stupid ones, he would answer willingly. He was less tolerant of other kinds of questions. Calen had learned that lesson early, too.
When he reached his room, he doused the candle and reset the wards in his doorway (he wasn’t entirely sure that the too-many-legged creature wasn’t still out there somewhere) and went outside to look out at the night.
He really wished he knew what Krelig was talking about.
How could he have some secret reservoir of power within himself and not be able to tell? Krelig thought that he just wasn’t trying hard enough, but if that extra power was really in there somewhere, Calen couldn’t find it. He had tried. From the very first time Krelig had mentioned it, he had tried. But how could he access something he didn’t really believe was there?
As always, he automatically searched the sky for a dragon flying toward him from the distance. It was foolish, but he couldn’t seem to help it. And as much as part of him wished to see Jakl — Jakl with Meg riding on his back, coming to save him, coming to yell at him and probably kick him but also to save him an
d take him home — he couldn’t really hope for that, because it was too dangerous. Maybe Jakl’s resistance to magic would be strong enough to protect him from Krelig, but maybe not. And the mage could still set one of his nasty flying slaarh at the dragon, or more than one. He didn’t think Jakl would be able to fight, say, five of the disgusting things at one time.
And he could hurt Meg either way. Calen had no doubt that Krelig could rip her apart just as he’d threatened that first terrible day when he’d come through the portal and everything had gone so very horribly wrong. The man had stopped time. Killing one girl would hardly cost him any effort at all.
No. Meg could never come here. He had to go to her. He just had to figure out how.
And when.
Because that was the other thing, of course. He couldn’t leave until he’d learned what he needed to defeat Mage Krelig once and for all.
Calen washed and changed his clothes and got into his bed and lay there for a long time before he fell asleep.
In the morning, as always, there were more lessons.
Calen ate his breakfast alone in the dining hall, as usual. Krelig must have acquired a cook from somewhere, because there was always food waiting on the table at mealtimes, but Calen had never seen anyone working in the kitchens or delivering supplies or even cleaning up. Krelig had never explained, and Calen suspected that questions in this area would be the kind Krelig considered a waste of his time. So Calen just ate what he found waiting for him without thinking too much about how it got there and left his dishes on the counter when he was finished. Then he went to wherever Krelig was waiting for him for that day’s learning.
Krelig never told him where that would be; Calen had to find him. Which wasn’t hard once he figured out how — it only took a bit of white energy sent along the castle corridors to locate the mage.
Today Krelig was waiting up on the battlements that ran along the entire perimeter of the castle. Calen emerged into the windy morning, clutching his cloak around him as he approached the older man. Krelig had cut his shaggy hair and beard since his return, and now looked somewhat less like a madman to the casual eye. But Calen’s eye was anything but casual, and he knew that Krelig was completely crazy. Not stupid, though. He was about as far from stupid as someone could be, in fact. It was hard not to respect that about him, even while hating the rest. He was evil and terrible and cruel and unpredictable, but he knew so much. And, like Calen himself, he always wanted to know more.
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