by Amy Brent
“Right,” I said, meaning it for the first time since I found out about Andrew and Allie.
“Exactly. Steven, you’ve loved the girl for years. Stop sidelining yourself. Don’t lose her again. You might not get another chance.” He lifted his glass and nodded down at mine, encouraging me to follow suit. I lifted mine, and we tapped them together. “To putting the last three months behind you and getting your head out of your ass,” Chance said.
“Nice toast,” I said, a smile tugging my lips.
“You’d better believe it. Now leave the rest of your beer for me and get the hell out of here. You have a girl to sweep off her feet.”
A short while later, I was standing in front of Allie’s buzzer again. I had a bouquet of white roses in one hand, which, now that I was at her place, I thought might be a bit overkill. But Allie deserved overkill.
I pressed the button and waited. My stomach rolled with nerves. I couldn’t help but worry that I would be too late. Maybe me ditching her the night before had sealed the deal. Maybe she was going to move on and leave me behind. After cutting her out of my life for three months, I wouldn’t be surprised if she decided to turn the tables and kick me to the curb.
I swallowed.
I waited for five minutes before I concluded that she probably wasn’t home. I glanced at my watch. It was nearly ten o’clock. Allie wasn’t a party girl. She was usually snuggled in her pink plaid pajamas by this time. The ones that looked so cute on her; the ones with the drawstring in the front that I had always fantasized about untying.
I retreated down the steps and got back into my car. I tossed the roses on the passenger seat and pulled away from the curb, my mind running over the possibilities of where she might be.
I hoped she was at her sister’s house. Sometimes they had old-fashioned girl’s nights where they would make sangria and watch chick flicks. They were few and far between nowadays, what with Melissa working sixty-hour work weeks, but I tried to convince myself that it was possible.
If she wasn’t with Melissa, I hated to think of where she was.
What if she was with another guy? Maybe she had met someone when we weren’t talking. What if after I left her last night, she had called him up looking for comfort?
My grip tightened on the steering wheel. I was such an idiot. Everything had felt right for the first time in ages when I was with Allie last night. The conversation, the laughter, the sex—everything. How could I have thrown it away so easily?
I parked my car in my driveway and walked around the other side to grab the roses. I slammed the door closed, frustrated, and walked up the driveway to my front door. I dug into my pocket for my keys, pulled them out, and accidentally dropped them on the pavement.
“Son of a bitch,” I grumbled, crouching down and picking them up.
When I stood, I looked up the three steps to my door and froze.
Allie was standing there, bundled up in a red knee length coat with gold buttons. She was wearing black leather boots that ended halfway up her thighs. Her cheeks and nose were bright pink from the cold, and she had her chin buried in a furry white scarf around her neck.
“Hi Steven,” she said, burying her hands deep in the pockets of her coat.
“Hi,” I said, climbing the steps and looking down at her. “I didn’t expect this.”
“Me neither. I needed to see you.”
There were so many things I wanted to say to her. All the words were rushing to the front of my brain, but they never made it to my mouth. I stood there like an idiot, staring down at her while I tried to detach my tongue from the roof of my mouth.
I failed. So I reached past her and slid my key into the door. I unlocked it and pushed it open before dropping my keys back in my pocket. Warm air wafted outside. Allie searched my eyes. She was waiting for me.
Come on Steven, fucking do something. Anything. She’s right here.
I reached out slowly and rested my hand against her cheek. She nuzzled her face against my palm and closed her eyes. She was so beautiful.
I leaned in, admiring her lashes as I closed the distance between us, and pressed my lips lightly to hers. She stiffened at first, surprised by my closeness. But then she melted into me, letting me kiss her. Her nose was cold against my cheek.
I pulled away and gestured at my open front door. “Do you want to come in?”
She nodded, her eyes glassy, and I guided her inside with a hand on her lower back. She started unbuttoning her jacket while I closed and locked the door. I helped her pull it off her shoulders and hung it on the coat rack. She was still standing with her back to me. I put my hands on her hips and pulled her against my body. She rested her head back on my shoulder. Her eyes were closed.
The moment felt so calm and so peaceful. Standing there with her, close but not fucking, was something I had never felt before. I was content. Her hips beneath my hands rotated slowly as she turned back to face me. Then she buried her face in my chest and wrapped her arms around my waist.
I hugged her back and rested my chin on top of her head. Her coconut shampoo flooded my senses. She tightened her hold around me. I returned the gentle squeeze and held onto her until she leaned back, tilting her face up to look at me.
I tucked her hair behind her ears and kissed her again. We had never kissed like that before. It was tender and slow. There was no intention behind it besides a burning need to try to show her I loved her. She was right there with me, how I had wanted for so long, and I didn’t want to ever let her go. Not again. Not when everything finally felt right.
Chapter 20
Allie
I had never been kissed the way Steven was kissing me. It wasn’t what I was used to or what I had expected. He was gentle and slow, and it seemed like he would have been content to continue kissing me like that all night long. I knew I would have.
At least, I would have until his hand wandered up the inside of my shirt. My stomach muscles tightened as he glided over the sensitive spot between my hip and belly button. He smiled into our kiss. I felt his teeth against my bottom lip. I had never felt so close to him before.
He ran both hands over my hips and down my back until he could give my ass a good squeeze. I giggled and wrapped my arms around his neck. Then he hoisted me up, his hands working as a chair for me to sit on as I wrapped my legs around his waist.
He started walking down the hallway. I pulled my shirt over my head and let it fall to the ground. We left it behind, and I unclipped my bra, letting it fall too. I put my hands behind Steven’s head and played with his thick hair. I pulled myself up against him, and he kissed my neck and chest all the way through the living room and into the bedroom.
He put me down. I stripped out of my pants. Steven hurried to catch up with me. I was naked and enjoying the way his eyes were savoring me; it was like he was trying to imprint the image in his mind.
I waited until his clothes were off, then I stalked around him and pushed him down on the bed. He didn’t resist. I climbed on top of him, and he ran his fingers over my back. I teased him with kisses down his chest and stomach until I reached his cock. I ran my tongue up and down his shaft while I fondled his balls.
“Turn around,” he said, his voice deep and husky.
I put my back to him and straddled his hips. He slapped my ass hard enough for me to yelp with surprise. I arched my back and lifted my ass up for him. He spread me open and then grabbed my thighs and pulled me closer to him so that my pussy was poised above his head and my face was hovering above his cock.
Then he wrapped both arms around my thighs and pulled my hips down on top of his face. His tongue flicked over my clit. I gasped and jerked away from him. He held me in place, demanding I stay where I was as he ran his tongue up and down my pussy.
I dropped down onto my elbows on either side of his legs. I ran my tongue over the head of his cock. He moaned into my pussy as he licked me.
I took him in my mouth, only a couple inches at first, and rolled my tongue
around the sensitive spot beneath the head. He moaned again. The sound encouraged me to continue. I slid my lips further down his shaft until my nose was almost touching his balls. Saliva filled my mouth as I held myself there, knowing he loved the feeling of the back of my throat pressed up hard against the tip of his dick.
When I needed air, I raised up, took a deep breath, and then eased my way back down on him. I continued to move up and down, dragging my tongue along the top of his dick. As I sucked him off, he continued to tease my bud with his tongue.
I gasped when he pressed his tongue into me. This was something new. Then he pulled it out and licked my clit again. As he worked toward a particularly wonderful rhythm, he slid a finger inside me. He matched the pace of me sucking his cock. I moved faster, up and down, and he met my speed by fucking me faster with his finger.
When he slid another finger in, I had to stop sucking his dick. I let it fall from my mouth. It rested firmly against his stomach as I tossed my head back and enjoyed the feeling of his fingers, slick and warm, easing in and out of me.
Suddenly, he stopped moving in and out and paused to flick his fingers deep inside my pussy. I moaned, and so did he. I knew he was so turned on. Even though I was about to go into orbit, I dropped down again, gathering his cock once more in my mouth. The tip of him was wet and salty with pre-cum. I licked it all up and then took him deep in my throat, right as I came. I held myself on his cock, unable to breathe, as my orgasm broke over me.
When I was done, Steven held my hips again. I still sucked his cock. I had missed it so much. Having it in my mouth made me so fucking horny.
Steven slapped my ass again. I straightened and looked down at him over my shoulder. I braced myself with one hand on each of his thighs and lifted my hips up so that I was hovering above his rock-hard cock, still slick with my saliva.
He gripped his shaft and held it upright for me. I lowered myself down, nice and steady until his cock stretched me open and filled me up. Once I had taken all of him, I ground back and forth, using only my hips, focusing on the intense pleasure of his cock pressing against my walls.
Steven grabbed my ass as I rode him. He squeezed hard. I loved it. It drove me crazy. I lifted myself up so that only the tip of him was in me, then I dropped down again. Steven groaned. I repeated this over and over, keeping my back arched and bouncing my ass on his cock. I could hear how wet I was.
I watched Steven as he pressed his head back against his sheets. His eyes were closed. The veins in his neck were straining. His shoulders were tight. He was going to come soon.
I stopped and settled for a slower circular motion on top of him. Steven opened his eyes to watch me. I bit my lip as I rocked back and forth on top of him. Then I turned around so I could face him.
I sat on top of him and cupped both my breasts in my hands. I played with my nipples and eventually ran my hands slowly down the length of my stomach until they settled between my legs. With one hand I traced slow patterns on Steven’s abs. He flinched and chuckled as I teased him with one hand and began rubbing my clit with the other.
Then I rode him hard and fast.
It took only seconds for my second orgasm to build. I threw my head back and rubbed myself faster. Steven grabbed my hips and thrust himself up into me when my legs began to tremble, and I couldn’t bounce on top of him anymore. I exploded and lost all sense of who I was. I was nothing but the ecstasy ripping through me.
I was falling. Steven’s arms were under my back. He was still inside me.
He lowered me onto my back on his bed. He held himself above me like he was preparing to do push-ups. I traced the lines of his veins in his forearms, up his biceps, and over his shoulders. I wrapped my hands behind his neck and pulled him down on top of me. We kissed, desperately, both out of breath and both dying for more of each other.
He thrust slowly into me. I was so wet and so swollen. I moaned and clung to him tighter.
He lifted himself up and rested on his knees. He put one hand under each of my thighs and pushed my legs up and apart. He rubbed my pussy up and down until I thought I might lose my mind. I clutched the sheets. My back arched. A cry escaped me as the tension became too much to bear.
Then he buried himself deep inside me again. I came. It was bliss. He pounded me until I couldn’t keep my eyes open. He leaned over me, bracing himself with a hand on either side of my head. I held my legs up for him, making my pussy even tighter. He entered me slowly but deeply; deeper than he ever had. At first, the end of each thrust was painful. He seemed to be aware of this, so he took his time, easing himself in and out, and pausing at the end of each pump.
I gripped his wrists beside my head. I turned to the side and kissed his forearm, then nibbled on the sensitive skin on the inside of his arms. He shuddered above me.
“Fuck me harder,” I whispered, my grip on his wrists tightening.
He straightened his legs out so that nothing was stopping his hips from hitting mine. Each thrust was somehow even deeper than before. He was slow on the first few, but then he went faster.
I gasped and moaned as he stretched me. I had never been fucked like this. I could feel my nails pressing into his skin. I couldn’t help it. I cried out as his cock hardened and grew as he mounted his moment. He hung his head. I clung to him, paralyzed beneath him as ripples of pleasure shot through me.
He pumped me full of warm cum. I moaned and trembled below him as he eased his way out of me. When I was empty, I lowered my hand to my clit. It was so taut and swollen.
Steven stood, his chest rising and falling with each labored breath, and rested a hand on my ankle.
We stayed like that for a few minutes. We were both recovering but unwilling to not be close. The sensation of his hand on me was a reassuring one. This time we didn’t have to leave each other. I could stay. That’s what he was showing me. He wanted me there as much as I wanted to be there.
His hand wandered up my shin, over my knee and thigh, and rested on my mound above my clit. His thumb wandered downward, banishing the fingers I had been using to feel my clit. He rubbed me in a slow circle, his thumb sliding off my clit every now and then and gliding over my slit, which was dripping wet with our cum.
I quivered beneath his touch. I was so sensitive right now. He smiled, his thumb now focusing on just my clit. His touch was light and feathery, and perfect to bring me back to the brink. His fingers danced as my body prepared for another orgasm. My nipples were hard. My skin was hot. The back of my neck was sweaty.
When he pinched my clit and rubbed it between two fingers, I came again. He seemed pleased with himself as he continued to stroke me even after the gentlest touch made me flinch.
Eventually, his hand fell away, and he went to the bathroom. I heard him run the tap and tried to muster up the energy to go in there and clean myself up as well. I was full of his cum, and I knew I should take care of it. But I loved having part of him still inside me.
Chapter 21
Steven
It was strange to wake up with a body pressed up against my side. I hadn’t slept in the same bed as someone since I told Allie I didn’t want to see her. That was three months ago. Now, she was curled up beside me, her body tucked neatly against mine. Her skin was warm and soft, and part of me knew this was what I had wanted. This is the kind of thing she and I were supposed to do in the morning. Cuddle. Sleep. Be close.
Her ass was pressed up against my crotch. My dick was hard and firm against her, but it wasn’t enough to wake her. I had one hand on her hip, and the other arm was under her pillow. Her breathing was deep and steady. She was peaceful, content, and at ease here with me.
I should feel the same way. But I didn’t. If anything, I felt anxious.
Part of this felt right, but another equal part of me was furious for getting sucked back in. Despite telling Allie I had forgiven her, I knew I hadn’t. There was still this nagging anger in the back of my mind about what she had done. I couldn’t shake the feeling of betrayal. I kn
ew it was growing. It was turning into resentment. It was festering. Anger was brewing.
The sex had calmed the storm, but now that morning was here I had clarity. I still wasn’t over this whole mess.
I lifted my hand from Allie’s hip and pressed it to my forehead. I had created quite the situation for myself.
My phone buzzed on my nightstand. I reached out and answered it before checking who it was. I didn’t want it to keep ringing and wake Allie up.
“Hello?” I whispered. Allie nuzzled her cheek deeper into her pillow but didn’t wake.
“Morning, Steven,” my mother’s voice said. “I’m calling to make sure you are still coming tonight.”
“Tonight?” I asked, wracking my brain for commitments I had made and apparently forgotten.
“Yes,” my mother said slowly, “remember? The cocktail party? I talked to you about this over three weeks ago, honey. Don’t tell me you’ve already forgotten.”
“Oh. Right. Yes. The cocktail party. What time is that again?”
“You can come any time after eight.”
“Okay. Yeah, I’ll be there. Sorry, Mom. It’s been a bit of a hectic week. It just slipped my mind,” I said, sighing and laying back on the pillows.
“That’s alright dear. I understand. Did you manage to find a date?”
“A date?”