Afraid of His Horse, with some others, were bending over nearby and I motioned them to help me roll him on his side. For once, they seemed to catch on, and when we got the holes exposed, both entrance and exit, I went right ahead and rammed the rod through. When its end, soaked in red, appeared in the rear, I grabbed it and pulled, missing fire twice because it was so slippery. But it came, and made a little sucking sound when the end popped out.
There was a loud “Ah-h-h!” as a perfect gusher of clogged-up blood that I’d heard my father call “coagulated” came pouring out on the ground. I let it flow, then got two squaws to make hot packs and put them against the holes. We carried him into his tent, where he lay for better or worse.
I felt a little weak, so I said I was going to bed, not even bothering to ask. Nobody tried to stop me.
Next day I was up bright and early, and scooted over to the old man’s to see how he was getting along. Inside his wigwam were several women, and what do you know? He was propped up smiling and taking full notice. Lucky for me, the treatment had worked; he was much easier. But when I wanted to inspect the holes he wasn’t any friendlier than ever. What’s more, before long he called in the medicine men again. They got down on their hands and knees to sniff, then shook their heads as if they’d known it all the time. And for all the credit they gave me, I might have ranked down amongst the nurses and bedpan squad. So be it I was still alive, and that was what interested me most.
Well, the next day after this, I had the suspicion that something concerning me was up. I kept seeing John and Shep conferring with the chiefs, talking through Afraid of His Horse, and pretty often they stared in my direction and shook their heads. Along toward evening, John and Shep came over, Shep looking satisfied and happy, as if one of his neighbors had contracted the leprosy, and sat down where I was tied.
“We’ve got your hash all settled, you sawed-off piss-ant,” he began, but John interrupted. “Clamp hold of your tongue—leave me talk.”
Shep pulled some tobacco out of his shirt pocket. John went on: “You probably ort to know that your train ain’t to say on fire to regain you. They’re sick of you—that was proved last night.”
“What do you know about it?”
Shep raised one of his wagon-tongue arms and said, “Lean back a piece so I can box one of his ear flaps loose. I never had any use for this squealing whelp since we first rooted him up in the woods.”
“—leastways they so informed one of our Pawnee brothers [they were brothers now, were they?] when he entered your camp under a flag of truce.”
“Last night?” I cried. “What are you talking about?”
“Their object was to collect three or four horses, but your Mr. Coulter laughed in his face. I doubt if you’d bring a pound and a half of dried beans on the open market.”
“I don’t believe you—what else did they say?”
“Some of the others stated they’d like to see you stood up within sight before further palaver.”
“They’ll pay,” I said, relieved that the first part was mainly a lie.
“The Indians smell treachery, and they’re right. I’ve failed to note anybody on that train,” said John with his old pious look, “that I’d trust with a pair of wore-out suspenders. They’re a bad lot, born bad, raised bad, lacking the true religion, and the whole stamped plain on their mugs. It makes me ashamed to be white.”
“What else?”
“In a word,” said Shep, “since our friend can’t seem to get at the point for clacking like a magpie, we’ve bought you outright-two dollars silver, a quart and a little over of whiskey, and half a dozen plugs of niggerhead. If you ask me, we’ve been took.”
“ ‘The Silver is mine, and the Gold is mine, saith the Lord of Hosts,’ ” cried John; then he added what seemed to prove just the opposite: “I’m calculating to get a thousand dollars for you, cash. I figure it’d be worth that to your paw for the privilege of tanning your hide.”
“He hasn’t got only about three hundred dollars left,” I blurted out.
“I’m obliged for the information,” said John drily; and I could have bit my tongue off.
They had bought me, all right, and were fixing to take me away the next morning, early. Only it wasn’t apt to be pleasant. Shep filled in the rest: “We’ll contract to turn you over if they meet our offer, but there won’t be nothing in the articles to say we deliver the goods intact. Speaking for myself, I’ve got a grudge to settle. Maybe we’ll take an arm off at the shoulder; better yet, we’ll put an eye out. You and Mr. Chouteau try and work yourselves out of this fix, hey?”
They’d do it, too. I looked at John, hoping he might say no, but his face was as set as a rock. Bloodletting and violence meant no more to him than eating and drinking. He didn’t relish it, especially, but he didn’t mind it, either.
That night I went to bed feeling the lowest I’d felt on the trip. I couldn’t see any way out. Now that I wasn’t their property any more, Sick from Blackberries courteously held back from kicking me when he came in, but somehow I wasn’t consoled. I wanted both of my eyes; I would need them when we started to look for gold. But that time, talked about so often, seemed more and more remote. It was like the mirage they have on these plains—as you go on reaching out, it fades farther and farther back in the distance. And then one morning it isn’t there at all.
I must have drifted off to sleep; when I woke up, smelling something wrong, bright starlight winked down through the smokehole. Outside, the camp was deathly still; then I heard a horse whinny. For some reason, my heart began to thump and I made to sit up. But a rough hand fastened over my mouth.
“Quiet, quiet.” It wasn’t any more than a hiss.
I knew the voice, but I couldn’t find him in the dark. Then he shifted into the starlight, soft as a snake, and it was Coulter, right enough. Even here I could see the old sardonic look on his face. No matter what he did, he seemed to despise you for doing it.
“What—?” I started, but he clapped his hand on my mouth again. He didn’t do it easy, either; the palm hit me like a slat.
“Raise up slow and careful—don’t bump anything.”
Then I thought, by George we’re not alone in here, and at that second I saw Sick from Blackberries sitting up and watching us from across the tent. I could make out his eyes shining, a kind of smile on his face.
I gasped, pointing, “Look out!”
Coulter’s voice had its usual sting. “He won’t mind—there ain’t any way for him to move his head without it falling off.”
I could see now—the throat laid open more than halfway around, from one ear to the other. It looked sickly; mean as he was, I couldn’t help feeling a little twinge of misery.
Coulter whispered, “Come on,” and parted the slit he had made in the tent. Within a few minutes, treading tiptoe, dodging the campfires out to the bushy fringe, we were back on the trail and running toward Coulter’s horse.
I was free.
Chapter XXI
Everybody was glad to see me next morning when we caught up to leave, although there was grumbling by neighbors that I had caused trouble. My father burst into tears all over again and said it was his fault because he hadn’t been both father and mother to me, but things now would be different. He had a rusty old iron ladle he’d got as a present for me, as he said, and stated that it would be useful in digging sand on the riverbanks. It seemed like an odd sort of gift, but I took it anyhow, and said it was just what I needed.
Then he walked forward, after the train began rolling and the light came, to thank Coulter, because last night Coulter had eased me into our tent, very quiet, and told me if I woke anybody up, he’d take me back to the Pawnees. He was such an unpredictable coot he might have done it, too.
Well, I followed after my father, meaning to say something on my own, and presently we saw Coulter stalking along, treading soft and graceful, leading his horse in order to save it, two hundred yards ahead of the first wagon. Suddenly it came to
me that, no matter how he galled people, he was a very lonely man.
“Mr. Coulter,” my father called, coming up behind, “could I have a word?”
“Well, if it isn’t the doctor,” said Coulter, looking amused as always. “Making your rounds, doc?”
“Mr. Coulter, I wish you to know that, despite past differences, which I deplore, I am grateful to you for restoring our boy. We are deeply in your debt, sir.” He had taken off his hat, and his face shone with earnestness.
“They tell me the dude Englishman’s valley handed in his dinner pail.”
I guess this Coulter was probably the perversest tomcat ever manufactured, and the least gracious. I hadn’t heard about Vilmer, though; it was news to me about him dying, though he had been sick since they joined. But it was true; he’d died during the night and they planned to bury him while nooning.
“Your indifference to human emotions is a pose, Mr. Coulter. You’re a good man; I know it.”
“What with him and Kennedy,” replied Coulter, “you ain’t running a very high assay, doc. You’d better change your medicine. If I get a sore toe, I’ll make my will for sure.”
“With complete disregard of your own safety,” my father continued, as determined as ever I saw him, “you went into that Indian village and performed a miracle of skill and courage. However little you may value what I’m saying, and whatever happens in the future, I shall honor your name.”
Looking up, I was thunderstruck to notice that Coulter was sweating. Little drops of moisture stood out over his forehead and upper lip. For some reason, he wasn’t comfortable. He was like a backward child that is being teased; as big and rough as he was, he seemed embarrassed; he wanted us to leave. We had got off the subject of business and touched him in a personal place. And somehow I had the feeling that it wasn’t any small thing; I couldn’t understand it at all.
“We’ll go back, Mr. Coulter,” said my father with great good cheer, “but we hope you will join our mess for dinner this evening.”
“Yes, of course. I don’t generally come without a printed invitation, but this time I’ll let it go. Would a swallow-tail coat be satisfactory?”
“Our women are fine cooks.”
“I’ll make out on sowbelly and beans. I’ve got a train to run.”
“Perhaps you may change your mind. Drop in at any time, tonight or later. You’ll always be welcome.”
I was proud of him. People in Louisville were always talking him down for one excuse or another, because he wouldn’t fit into the mold, you see, but he was the kindliest person on earth. It was funny; he was firm in some ways—he was going to like Coulter now if it killed him—and weak in others. But mainly he just wouldn’t face things. Once, after a big row, I asked him why he drank, and he said, “I have an abnormal fear of being snake-bit, and try to keep prepared”—passing it off as a joke.
Well, he hadn’t been drinking, or gambling either, as far as I knew. Troubles or no troubles, we were moving toward the gold fields, so my mother must have been wrong. Things weren’t simple, though. I didn’t know it then, but my Indian adventures would bother my dreams and wake me up screaming for months to come. The sight of those roasting Crows, and the boys strung up by their tendons, will likely disturb my sleep as long as I live. Many nights I woke up, covered with sweat, to see my father sitting beside me, tired as he was, speaking in a low, soothing voice and bathing my face with a rag soaked in water.
But now we were rolling through new country, our problems eased for a time. It was fun.
I sat beside Mrs. Kissel, who was curious about the Indians and said, “I hear tell the women are untidy around the house. What’s more, one of the neighbors forward—her husband’s him that wears the gray beaver and has bleeding piles—said she heard the girls go about uncovered above the waist. She got it from a Mrs. Dawson, who had a cousin that went west and married a half-breed Shoeshine.”
“I believe it’s Shoshone,” I said. “The women I saw seldom ever wash their bodies, and the only shift they make in the wigwam is to pull a person out when he’s died. The stench gets so fierce it commonly tans the hide walls.”
“You don’t say. And with food to match, I reckon.”
I was sore at those Pawnees, so I laid it on a little, telling her about the boiling pots and the odds and ends inside. “You can imagine how a stranger feels fishing around in the soup and coming up with a foot or a pair of ears.”
“It’s scandalous, them not washing and all. I suppose they do have divine service. Indians or not, they’re the Lord’s sheep, same as us, and entitled to His guidance. What denomination are they, mostly?”
This Mrs. Kissel was so goodhearted she would give you the frock off her back, barring modesty, but up to now she hadn’t been ten miles away from their farm; she told me so. Her husband had started as a hired hand of her father’s, and lived right across the river. She got attracted to him because he wasn’t loose-tongued, and didn’t interrupt while she talked. She appreciated it because she generally talked all the time, and before Kissel there wasn’t anybody to speak of would listen. Neither had she read any books except the Bible, and it had kind of warped her viewpoint. That is, she knew exactly how old Jehosophat was when he took office, which was thirty-five, and most of the material connected with Uriah the Hittite, but she wasn’t up on any news much later than that. It placed a strain on the conversation. There were times when, much as I disliked stretching the truth, I had to invent along to keep things moving. But we had got on the subject of religion now, so I had to be careful.
“Pawnees?” I said. “They aren’t any denomination. They’re got their own, and it’s about the crudest worship you ever struck. You probably wouldn’t believe it.”
“Well, if they’re worse than the Campbellites, I’d like to know. Do they immerse or sprinkle?”
“Neither. When a child joins up, and not all of them by any manner of means do join up, they generally notch his ears.”
“Goodness gracious me! I take back what I said about the Campbellites. What about prayers? Do they favor an open meeting or lone efforts while on their knees in a closet? Deuteronomy! You leave go of Micah’s hair or I’ll call your paw!”
I glanced back at the quartet, which was swatting each other with everything except the water barrel, and said, “As far as prayers go, they don’t bother at all unless they’re in some kind of a jam, such as a rain drought, when they customarily burn a dog.”
“Burn a d—! Well, I never as long as I lived. Those poor creeturs need help, and the next time we camp within hollering distance, I’m going to visit among them and read Scripture.”
She meant it, too. She was just that unselfish. But I told her the Pawnees would welcome her into camp, hold a short prayer meeting, and unhook her scalp.
“They’re past saving,” I said. “There wouldn’t be any use to bother. You don’t know those skunks like I do. I’ve been there; I’ve seen them.”
“Why, they wouldn’t harm a messenger from the Almighty! Surely when they saw I was toting a Bible—”
“Bible! They’d use it to start fires with. Why, they were having a kind of revival while I was there, and some visiting preachers came in, and they ate them. Didn’t give them any show at all.”
“Ate them! They were likely starved, the poor wretches. I’ll take a side of bacon along, and some beans. It’s pitiful to think of a people so racked by hunger they’d eat a preacher. It’s almost sacrilegious.”
I got down off the wagon to walk awhile. Why argue? She was so good she couldn’t see bad in anybody. If we ever did run across an Indian camp, she’d take her Bible and go charging right in. There wasn’t any doubt about it. I made a note to tell her husband and a couple of others, if it became necessary, and they’d likely get a rope and hog-tie her. It was the only way.
Walking forward to catch my father, who was talking to Kissel and Brice, I had a chance to smell the country, which was interesting along here, though not so green and
growy. It was different. The prairies lay mostly behind us—we were pushing into the alkali plains, the soda wells, and salt fiats. We’d heard about them, nothing cheerful.
On my right the Platte rippled along in the sun, with little islands full of trees sticking up here and there. It was an odd river—one night it rose seventeen inches. The trail lay on a grassy bluff, but close to the left the grass thinned out and became poorly. We began to see the prickly plants they called cactus; an emigrant’s wife, a Mrs. Goodings, had sat on one a day or so before, somebody said, and some women had to take her behind a bush and put her in working order. At the time of the accident, her husband surveyed her and stated he wasn’t up to the job; he said she resembled a kind of “double-barreled pincushion”; those are the very words he used.
In a while we should reach the junction of the north and south forks of the Platte, where there’s a well of pure spring water, icy-cold. A notice of it was stuck in one of those post-office buffalo skulls. Everybody looked forward to this well. On the trail you drink whatever’s handy, but you don’t get used to it. People take good water for granted until they haven’t got it any more.
Well, my father, when I caught up, had Ware’s Guide out and was going at it strong. Now that the grassless patches were over for a while, and Ware had hit a right thing or two, he was back on him as admiring and complimentary as if he was quoting from the Old Testament.
“ ‘To the head of the island, twenty miles, the road is good,’ ” he read, showing the book to both Kissel and Brice, as if they wouldn’t believe him for some reason. “That’s been borne out, I think you’ll agree; he’s a hundred per cent accurate so far, and here’s what’s coming: ‘From the “head” to the forks of the Platte, ninety miles, the emigrant can supply himself with fuel from the island, or with buffalo chips. Buffalo are sometimes plenty here.’
“Exactly what yesterday’s note said. The day I purchased this book was my lucky day,” said my father. “It’s an aggravation to me to think how little faith some people have. Not two weeks past, half the men in this wagon train were damning and blasting the Guide as if it were the devil’s handbook. Yes, and Coul—”
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