by Louise Welsh
Father Wingate was trembling at the top of the staircase. ‘Jacob, I want you to know that I do not condone anything you have done tonight.’
‘I realise that, James.’ Jacob was more priest than soldier again. ‘But there are facts you’re not privy to. That man is dangerous. I should never have allowed him to stay, but I let compassion colour my judgement.’
‘You’re drunk,’ the old man said. ‘Drunk and jealous that he made love to living flesh, when all we have are memories to console us. It would have been better if we had died with the rest.’
‘Perhaps.’ Jacob’s voice was a rasp. ‘But drunk or not we’re alive and our obligation is to live on.’ He opened a door in the wallpaper and pushed Magnus towards a hidden set of stairs inside.
Magnus stumbled against a step. ‘It’s okay,’ he whispered. ‘I’ll go with you,’ but Jacob must have known that he was lying because he kept Magnus’s arms pinned behind his back until they reached a door at the top of the house. He pushed him on to a dusty landing and then along a dark corridor, hollow with echoes. Jacob unlocked a door and shoved Magnus into a room bathed in moonlight and darkness.
‘This used to be the nursery.’ The priest’s fury was evaporating into the gloom. He sounded tired. ‘Father Wingate probably slept here when he was an infant. The bars on the window were to protect children from the fate your friend elected for that poor little girl.’
Magnus rubbed his arms, trying to restore their circulation. He was still uncertain of Jeb’s innocence and did not bother to protest it. ‘You know your way around the house.’
‘I make it my business to know my way around any building I sleep in. This place is riddled with hiding places. People didn’t like to see their servants in the old days. They kept them below stairs or in between the walls.’
There was a bed equipped with a bare mattress in the room. Magnus sat on it and waited for Jacob to leave, but the priest walked to the barred window and looked out. ‘I don’t want Belle, I’m still married to Annie.’ The priest’s back was towards Magnus, his expression lost in the dark.
‘Why were you so angry?’
‘I don’t know. It hurt me to see her in bed with him. Perhaps Father Wingate is right. I’m jealous of anyone with a future.’
It felt like their roles had been reversed; Jacob had become the prisoner, Magnus the priest. He said, ‘As long as we’re alive we have a future.’
Jacob laughed in the darkness. ‘So much death has made me realise that ultimately all of our futures are the same.’
‘I thought you believed in heaven and hell?’
Jacob shrugged; a shadow in the moonlight. ‘I believe in hell.’
Magnus nodded. ‘Me too.’
They stood in silence for a moment and then Jacob said, ‘We need you here. I’m not going to put you in leg irons, but I can’t let you go until we have more able-bodied men. Without the harvest we’ll be completely reliant on what we can scavenge.’
Magnus said, ‘My family—’
‘Your family are dead. I wish it wasn’t so, but you don’t need to see their corpses to know that I’m right. The living need to stick together.’
‘Whether they want to or not?’
Jacob turned away from the window, his face a white presence in the moonlit room. ‘The dead are lost to us. Our duty is survival.’
‘My family are survivors and my duty is to them.’
‘It’s natural that you should think so, but you’re wrong.’
The priest touched Magnus’s shoulder as he left the room. He turned the key in the lock, leaving Magnus alone in the dark.
Thirty
Magnus was woken by a bang. It was not quite light yet and it took him a moment to realise where he was. Then he made out the shape of the unfamiliar room, the barred window. ‘Fuck.’ The noise was still reverberating in his ears, but the world was silent and he wondered if the sound had been the remnant of an unremembered dream.
Magnus pulled on his boots and got to his feet. He had slept in his clothes and his limbs were heavy. He tried the door. It was still locked. ‘Shit.’ He was thirsty but there was no sink in the room, no glass of water. Magnus went to the window and looked out from between its bars, into the grey dawn. He pressed his forehead against the cool metal. Soon the sun would creep over the horizon and Jacob would unlock his door. The priest had been drunk and angry. There was a chance that morning might restore his equilibrium. If not, Magnus would take the first opportunity to escape. He had managed to break out of Pentonville, he could break out of here too.
Somewhere in the not quite dawn a blackbird was singing. The nursery looked down on the kitchen garden. It was the same view that he had seen from Jeb’s room and Magnus wondered if he was imprisoned below. Jeb’s ruthlessness had enabled them to escape jail, but this time his injuries would make him a liability. Magnus recalled the way Jeb had stuck his knife into a prisoner’s gut during the final ruckus in Pentonville. It had been self-defence, but the action had been close to elegant in its swiftness. His own descent into violence had been messy. Magnus felt again the sensation of the man’s skull giving way as he had hit it with the fire extinguisher and shuddered. This time there would be no deaths.
Magnus desperately wanted to pee. He searched for something to relieve himself into. The room had been emptied at some point and only the bed and a few sticks of furniture remained. He tried the window. It was locked, but the fastenings were the old-fashioned type that unscrewed without the aid of a key. They were stiff, but he managed to undo them and push up the casement. The window was too high and so he dragged a chair over and stood on it.
Magnus was peeing into the dawn, the morning air on his face, the salt scent of his own urine a small victory of streaming steam, when he noticed the dark shape lying on the grass beneath the wall that edged the garden. At first he thought it was a shadow but something about its outline perplexed him. For a moment he thought the dark blot might be a black bin bag blown in from somewhere else, but then he realised that it was a body, lying motionless on the lawn. The thought of yet another death made Magnus feel weary, but it occurred to him that whoever it was might yet be alive. He tucked himself away quickly, stepped down from the chair and broke it against the bedstead. He lifted the sturdiest of its legs and battered it against the door.
‘Let me out! There’s someone out there!’
It took a while, but eventually Will shouted from the other side of the door, ‘I don’t have the keys.’
‘Get them from Jacob.’
‘He’s not in his room.’
A thought stirred in Magnus. He said, ‘Someone’s lying beneath the trees on the back lawn. I don’t know if they’re alive or dead.’
He heard Will’s boots thump downstairs and went to the window. He reached the garden quicker than Magnus had expected. He ran across the lawn, leaving a dark trail of footprints on the dewy grass. Will faltered, unsure of what direction he should head in. He looked up. Magnus pointed to where the body lay and Will sprinted towards it. He slowed. Magnus knew that whoever it was, they were dead. Will raised his face towards the nursery window and shook his head. Magnus could tell from the heaviness of Will’s limbs as he walked towards the house that it was someone they knew.
‘Please God, don’t make it Raisha,’ he muttered beneath his breath. He waited until Will was below and leaned against the bars of his window. ‘Who was it?’
‘Jacob.’ Will’s face was taut and white with anger. ‘That murdering bastard you came with shot him.’
Thirty-One
It was a terrible thing to see an old man cry. Magnus had never liked Father Wingate, but he put a hand on the elderly priest’s arm as they walked away from Jacob’s grave and whispered, ‘He told me last night that he was still married to Annie. Jacob’s with his family now. That’s what he wanted.’ Magnus did not believe in the afterlife, but Father Wingate did and he needed to comfort himself, by comforting the priest.
The old man patted
Magnus’s hand. ‘I’m crying for the end of the world. All things must end, us too, it is the order of things, but I cannot help but mourn their passing.’
They were still alive and the world was not yet completely dead, but there was no point in contradicting him.
Magnus and Will had buried Jacob in a nearby churchyard, close to a recent grave marked by a simple wooden cross inscribed Melody. Father Wingate had delivered the eulogy and then watched as they put the soldier into the ground. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. Neither Belle nor Raisha had been there, it had been an all-male funeral, like they used to have on the islands when Magnus’s grandfather was a boy.
Magnus was aching and caked in mud. It had been hard, filthy work digging the grave, but he had been glad of it. The priest had saved his life and they had parted on uneasy terms.
He took Father Wingate by the elbow and helped him into the passenger seat of the truck they had used to drive Jacob’s body to the churchyard. Will was still standing by the fresh grave, his head bowed in prayer or resolution. Magnus watched him in the rear-view mirror and wondered if he was going to be a problem.
Magnus said, ‘I’m leaving this afternoon.’ The remnants of the hymn they had sung when they had buried his father were in his mind, the words only half-remembered.
Abide with me; fast falls the eventide;
The darkness deepens …
Father Wingate said, ‘I made some bread yesterday. You must take some to help sustain you.’
‘Thank you.’
The old man was a poor cook, but the gesture touched Magnus. The truck’s cab smelled of rubber and burning dust. Magnus rolled down the driver’s side window. Will had latched the churchyard gate and was walking towards the car park. Father Wingate shifted slowly to the middle of the seat and Will slid in beside them.
‘Your friend’s a murderer.’ It had been his mantra since he had found Jacob’s body dead on the lawn, his head a gunshot mess.
‘You’re wrong.’ Magnus wished he had paid more attention to Jacob’s theories about Melody’s and Henry’s deaths. He had tried to explain them, but Will’s mind was fixed. Jeb was a convicted killer who had quarrelled with Jacob the night before he was shot dead. They had found a gun in his room, a room that had a clear sightline to where the priest had been shot.
‘You can leave.’ Will turned to look at Magnus. ‘But he stays.’
‘What good will that do?’
Will sighed. His eyes shut and then opened; sea-washed pebbles, brown and slip-shiny. ‘It will prevent him from murdering anyone else.’
Twice in the last few days Magnus had thought Will was about to try to kill Jacob. First by the barn where they had found Henry’s body, then in the kitchen, just before they had crashed in on Belle and Jeb. Both times had been crude and spontaneous, born of drink or frustration, but shooting a man in the head was hardly subtle.
Magnus said, ‘It could just as easily have been you. You hated Jacob and now it looks like you’re trying to take his place.’ It would not hurt that Jeb would be out of Belle’s way too, he thought, but did not say.
‘I didn’t hate him …’ Will faltered, his almost perfect English momentarily deserting him. ‘I would never have hurt Jacob …’
Father Wingate drew his cassock around his thin shoulders, as if he could feel the chill of the recently filled grave in his bones. ‘It wasn’t Will. He’s a good Christian.’
Magnus started the truck and reversed out of the graveyard.
‘Father,’ he said and the word sounded strange in his mouth. ‘We have a saying on my island. Old age does not always bring wisdom.’
The old man nodded. ‘That saying existed well beyond your island and there is truth in it, but it does not follow that all old men are foolish.’
Magnus rolled up his window and steered the truck down the church road, into the village. This was the bit of the route he liked least. There were no bodies in the main street, but there were reminders of how things used to be: a post office with pictures of a smiling postman delivering a package to an equally jolly white-haired grandma; a pub decorated with decaying hanging baskets and the proud boast that it had been established in 1622; a row of terraced cottages, each one with windows behind which anything might lurk. Will stared straight ahead, but Magnus could not help glancing at the overgrown gardens, the drawn curtains and uninviting front paths. Step inside, the cottages seemed to whisper. Why don’t you stop and take tea? There’s always someone home.
Father Wingate was still talking. ‘Jacob told me about how you were thrown into jail for trying to help a young woman. You were out of your element. Jeb helped you escape and you travelled a long way together. No doubt you shared trials and hardships. You may even feel that you owe him your life, but you mustn’t let these sentiments blind you.’
Magnus said, ‘And you mustn’t let prejudice blind you. Any one of us could have killed Jacob: me, you, Will, one of the girls.’
A cat, sharp-toothed and feral, darted across their path. Magnus instinctively touched the truck’s brake pedal. What did it feed on? he wondered. Rats or corpses? And was it just a difference of scale?
‘I know an old lady who swallowed a fly …’ he sang softly beneath his breath. ‘I don’t know why, she swallowed a fly …’
Will said, ‘We took a vote this morning. The community decided to stay together. We also decided that Jeb is guilty.’
It was on Magnus’s lips to say that four people were not a community, but he sensed it would do no good. He asked, ‘Without a trial?’
‘The evidence speaks for itself.’
‘He didn’t do it,’ Magnus repeated. ‘I’m sorry Jacob died, but I’m leaving this afternoon and I’m taking Jeb with me.’
‘You can go, but he stays.’
The quiet confidence in Will’s voice unnerved Magnus. ‘You’re not Jacob. You don’t have his authority or his back-up. We’re leaving.’
Magnus glanced at Father Wingate, but the old man nodded. ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. We have to return to the old ways.’
Magnus slowed the van. He would have halted it, but they were not quite out of the village and the hairs on the back of his neck were still bristling. ‘You want to execute him?’
‘We haven’t agreed yet.’ Will sounded regretful. ‘Raisha and Belle want to keep him locked up indefinitely, but even when our community grows it will be some time before we have the manpower to support prisoners.’
Magnus laughed. It was macabre. So many dead and here they were, preparing to kill one more. ‘How do you plan on doing it? A firing squad? The electric chair? Crucifixion?’
Father Wingate sucked in his breath, but it was Will who spoke. ‘I told you, we haven’t decided. Raisha used to be a chemist, maybe she can make something painless.’
They slipped past the Thank You for Driving Carefully sign and the national speed limit sign, into a country road bordered on either side by wavering hedgerows, so high they almost formed a tunnel.
Magnus said, ‘And if you kill him and then find out you’re wrong?’
Father Wingate seemed to have forgotten that the earth was still settling on Jacob’s corpse. He touched Magnus’s arm and smiled. ‘Then God will forgive him and us. Every death is a sacrifice to His name.’
A bird flew low across his windscreen, chirping out a warning call. Magnus tapped the brakes, though he was in no danger of hitting it.
‘Even innocent deaths? Aren’t you forgetting your Ten Commandments?’
The old man’s voice was sure. ‘We enter this world corrupted. Only death can purify us. That is what God revealed when He visited the sweats on the world. The plague is an act of love.’
Magnus stole a quick look at Father Wingate. He saw his arthritic fingers and trembling hands and knew that he would not have had the strength to force Henry’s wrists into handcuffs or Melody’s neck into a noose.
Leave Jeb behind, a mutinous voice in his head whispered. Get on your way and never thi
nk of him again. But he knew that would invoke another haunting, company for his suicide-cousin, Hugh.
Magnus said, ‘I’ll take Jeb north with me. You never have to see him again.’
Will said, ‘But he would still be alive and Jacob would still be dead.’
‘It wasn’t him.’ Magnus wondered why he was so sure of Jeb’s innocence. He had been with Will when he had burst into Jeb’s room, full of accusations and fury. He had seen the look of bewilderment on Jeb’s face turn to anger as he realised what he was being accused of. But the man had been an undercover policeman who had fooled the people closest to him for years. Perhaps rage had got the better of Jeb and he had fired into the dawn, fired at Jacob. Magnus could see it in his mind’s eye: Jacob walking the length of the kitchen garden, Jeb standing at his open window, the gun raised and aimed, Jacob falling to the ground, a swift descent driven by gunpowder and gravity. It was a scene he had witnessed countless times on the big screen and too like a movie to mean anything.
They had reached the gates of Tanqueray House. Magnus steered the truck into the drive, braking again as the tyres bit into the unpredictable gravel surface. He gave Will a grim smile. ‘Killing is a poor foundation for a community. You don’t want any trouble and neither do we. Jeb’s a tough enemy, even with a broken leg. Take him on and you take on me as well.’
Father Wingate whispered, ‘Your loyalty is misplaced.’
Will said, ‘You never asked what I did before the sweats.’
It was true. Magnus had not been interested enough in the man to enquire about his life. He regretted it now. Perhaps if he knew what made Will tick he could persuade him to let Jeb go.
‘What did you do?’
‘I was a maths teacher. Maths is not the most popular lesson among rough boys. A teacher must learn how to instil discipline, or let their classroom turn into a madhouse. One of the first things I learned was to separate troublemakers. That’s why I held a gun to Jeb’s head and put him in the dungeon before we left for Jacob’s funeral.’