by Alicia Rades
Fading Frost
Alicia Rades
Contents
Title Page
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Distant Dreams
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Copyright © 2017 Alicia Rades All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any matter whatsoever without written permission from the author except in brief quotations used in articles and reviews.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events or locales is entirely coincidental.
Published by PaperPlane Publishing.
Produced in the United States of America.
Cover design by Clarissa Yeo.
ISBN: 978-0-9974862-5-4
To the members of my Facebook fan club. Thank you for supporting me throughout this whole series.
Chapter 1
It’s easier to accept death when you know there’s an afterlife. I was certain of this fact because I’d seen ghosts and watched them cross over into the light before. Even so, I wasn’t prepared to go.
As the car jerked to the right and I slammed on the brakes, all I could think was that I wasn’t ready. Robin and I still had so much to experience together, and I knew Emma would be devastated if I was gone. What would happen when Mom’s baby came? I would never get to know my little brother or sister. If I died right now, I wouldn’t have even made a dent in my junior year of high school. No finishing up my first Varsity volleyball season. No junior prom. I’d die a virgin!
All of this went through my head in a split second. The car jolted when it passed over the edge of the road and into the ditch. I couldn’t do anything to slow its momentum. Before I could process what was truly happening, the world tumbled around me, and my head smashed into something hard.
It took me several seconds to realize the car had come to a halt. A pain pounded through my head, and my vision blurred. I struggled to keep hold of my consciousness, like if I let my guard down for one moment, I’d fade. At least I was conscious enough to rejoice in the fact that I wasn’t dead—even if the moment of joy lasted but a millisecond. I didn’t know how long it took me to finally raise my head, but when I managed to blink the world back into focus, one thing was clear: for the first time in a long time, I had no idea what was going to happen next.
Shock overcame me, and I couldn’t bring myself to cry even though I wanted to. I gulped down the terror rising to my throat, but that didn’t slow my racing heart. When I finally managed to glance around the vehicle, I realized I had somehow lost control of the car, and when I hit the ditch, it had flipped. The side of my skull had connected with the driver’s side window. I was lucky enough that the car had landed upright, and I didn’t appear to have a broken bone or anything.
Slowly, I reached across the middle console toward my purse sprawled at the foot of the passenger seat. Something caught my body before my fingers touched the strap. I straightened up and tried again. This time, the seat belt stretched far enough so I could reach the purse and pull it onto my lap. I fumbled in search of my phone, ignoring the other contents that had flown from my purse just moments ago. The other line began ringing, and I put the phone to my ear.
“Hello?” my mom answered.
I pressed my free hand to my forehead, partially to ease the ache pulsing through my skull and partially to get myself to think about what to say to her. I must have remained silent for too long because my mother began speaking with a worried tone.
“Crystal, sweetie, are you okay?”
What could I say to that? Sure, my head was throbbing, but overall, I was physically fine. What about emotionally? I hardly had my license for two months, and already I was in an accident. As if that wasn’t humiliating enough, my sixth sense immediately felt hazy. Although I’d only known about my psychic abilities for a year, I suddenly didn’t feel like myself anymore.
“I’m okay,” I half-lied, forcing down the bile in my throat. The truth was, I was riled enough to puke the entire contents of my dinner onto Teddy’s steering wheel. I decided to focus on my physical state so I wouldn’t worry my mother. Who knew what stress would do to my little brother or sister?
“But something’s wrong,” she concluded based on my minimal words and croaky voice.
I pressed my hand harder against my face like that would ease my headache and help me figure out what to say to her. I remembered the time Robin had called Teddy and told him about the car when a stranger slashed our tires. I decided to ease into it slowly by taking his approach.
I forced a painfully fake laugh. “Um . . . What if I told you something bad happened to the car?”
“Oh, my gosh, Crystal. What happened? Are you hurt?” At least she was less concerned about the damage I’d done to the car and more concerned about me.
“I’m not. It’s just a headache.” I lightly grazed my fingers across the goose egg-sized lump I already felt forming along my hairline. It immediately stung. I pulled my fingers away from the injury and saw they were covered in a layer of blood. The blow against the window must have split my skin open. “And a minor scratch,” I added, though I wasn’t sure how honest those words were. Truth be told, it hurt like hell. I quickly glanced into the rearview mirror and noticed it looked as bad as it felt. I was pretty sure I’d be alright, but that didn’t stop a wave of hysteria from overcoming me.
“Tell me what happened,” my mother insisted. “Were you speeding?”
I couldn’t stop the words from tumbling out of my mouth. “What? No. Mom, I’m a good driver. I swear. It’s just—I don’t know. I lost control somehow. One second I was on the road, and then the next—”
“Crystal,” my mother stopped me before I could hyperventilate. “It’s going to be okay. We’ll call an ambulance.” I heard a shuffling in the background and my mother’s muffled voice as she spoke to Teddy.
“No, Mom,” I tried to tell her, but she didn’t hear me. The phone shook in my hand.
A second later, she was talking into the phone again. “I’m going to keep you on the line while we call an ambulance with Teddy’s phone, okay? Where are you? How long ago did you leave Robin’s?”
“Mom,” I stated sternly so she’d listen to me. “I’m only five minutes from Peyton Springs. It will be faster if you or Teddy come and get me.” Our town was so small that our ambulance service came from the next town over.
“That doesn’t change the fact that I’m still calling an ambulance. We’ll be there soon. Stay put.”
Where else would I go? the snarky 16-year-old in me wondered, but I kept quiet.
Mom kept me talking as she and Teddy rushed out to meet me on the secluded highway. I pressed some tissues to my gash as I waited, but it stung and didn’t seem to help the bleeding. During a brief silence when my mom turned her attention to Teddy, I couldn’t hold it in any longer. The pain in my head and the fright I’d felt when it happened all caught up to me. Tears sprang to my eyes and rolled down my cheeks.
My mom’s vehicle was the first I saw af
ter the car had flipped. When I spotted it, I finally hung up the phone. I hadn’t moved and was still buckled in my seat.
“Crystal!” my mother exclaimed when she exited the car. She rushed across the road to the vehicle I sat in and pulled on the door, only it didn’t budge. “It’s locked, sweetie.” She gestured to the lock on the door.
Still slightly dazed, I unlocked the door. She opened it, but my step-dad was the one who knelt next to me, cupping my face in his hands.
“Are you okay?” he asked calmly. I didn’t know how he remained so calm; it probably had to do with his police training.
Tears welled in my eyes again, and all I could do was nod.
Teddy reached up to take the tissues from my hand. “Here, let me help with that.” He pulled the wad away from my face to inspect the wound before dabbing it against my forehead again.
I winced.
“That’s a nasty gash,” he said, stating the obvious.
I sniffled. “Can we go home?”
Teddy shook his head as a look of apology settled over his face. “We need to get you to the hospital first. You could have a concussion.”
“No, I want to go home,” I argued, but my voice came out sounding like a whisper.
“You’re going to the hospital. Andrea?” he addressed my mother.
“He’s right, sweetie,” she agreed.
My gaze flickered between each of their eyes. “Okay,” I agreed, but only because I loved them so much, not because I thought I actually needed to go.
We’d settled that argument, but nobody moved for several minutes as we waited for emergency responders to arrive. The chilly night air rushed in through the open driver’s side door and filled the car.
Teddy finally stood and let my mom kneel beside me. He rested his hands on his hips and eyed the car. It was crumpled on all sides, though I was grateful there weren’t any trees nearby that could have signed my death warrant. I was lucky enough to miss the telephone poles lining the road, too. He rounded the car to assess the damage before he spoke. “Looks like you blew a tire. I can’t think of why, though. These tires aren’t that old.”
I pondered his statement for a moment, and that’s when I realized it was all my fault. “Uh, I blew that tire up at a gas station before leaving the city. Robin said it looked low.”
Teddy gazed at me. “Did you check the pressure?”
I shook my head guiltily. I didn’t know anything about cars. I didn’t even know if Teddy had a pressure gage in the car or, if he did, where to find it.
“It’s okay,” he finally said. “I’m just glad you’re alright.” Just then, his eyes locked on something in the distance, and that’s when I noticed the emergency responders approaching in the rearview mirror. “I’ll stay here while you two go to the hospital,” he offered.
We all agreed that was a good idea. The rest of the night was a blur, but I remembered they let Mom ride with me in the ambulance.
“Don’t fall asleep,” she demanded when I lolled my head to the side. “You could have a concussion.”
“I’m not sleeping,” I told her truthfully.
“You need to keep talking so we know you’re okay.” She exchanged a glance with the EMT as if to ask whether she was right or not.
“I’m okay, Mom,” I insisted. “I just need to collect my thoughts.”
She seemed to accept this and gave me several minutes to digest what had happened. When she noticed I was crying, she attempted to comfort me.
“It’s okay, sweetie. I know Teddy loved his car, but we’re just glad you’re okay.”
Little did she know, I wasn’t crying about the damage I’d done to the car. The real reason I was crying was for a pain that was practically eating me whole. Something I couldn’t quite pinpoint felt off about my abilities, and that terrified me to the depths of my soul.
Chapter 2
The doctors gave me stitches and bandaged my wound. They said there was a good chance I had a mild concussion, but there wasn’t really anything they could do but send me home with instructions to get plenty of rest.
“You don’t have to go to school tomorrow if you don’t want to,” my mom offered on the way home after Teddy had picked us up with her car.
“I’m fine,” I told her half-honestly. “I don’t want to miss volleyball practice.”
“Are you sure that’s a good idea?” She eyed me from the passenger seat.
“It will be fine. If I miss it, I’ll have to make it up. But if I feel dizzy or anything, Coach Kathy should let me sit out, or I can help Derek and be co-manager for the day.”
She looked to Teddy in the driver’s seat as if he might be able to reason with me. When he didn’t say anything, she turned back toward me. “Do you still want to take that campus tour on Wednesday?”
“Mom,” I practically snapped, “you’re worrying too much. I’ll be fine. Besides, I promised Kelli and Justine I’d be there. We were going to meet up and have lunch.”
The campus tour Mom mentioned was a field trip to Southern Minnesota University for all interested seniors. The only problem was that they didn’t have enough people interested, and they needed two more to get approval to take the bus. Our guidance counselor, Mrs. Blake, suggested Emma and I come along even though we were only juniors. Mrs. Blake knew my mom attended SMU and thought I might be interested, and she was right. Although I didn’t know what I wanted to do for a career, I wanted to go to college, and it made sense to go there. It was only an hour away, so I could visit my family often. It was actually a closer drive to Robin’s college than my current drive was, too. Plus, a lot of the kids from our school went there, so I would know some people, especially if Emma decided to enroll at SMU. We could even be roommates.
“Mom,” I wondered aloud, “why did you choose SMU?”
She glanced back at me. “What do you mean?”
“I’m just thinking about how Mrs. Blake asked me to go on the tour. She thought I might want to attend SMU because you did. I haven’t really thought about my options and was just curious if SMU is the right choice for me. And I’m interested in why you didn’t choose a college closer to your home so you could visit your family.”
My mom let out a puff of air that sounded like a laugh. “Crystal, I know you and I get along, but your Grandma Ellen wasn’t the easiest person to get along with at the time. Besides, I was young and interested in getting out on my own. I chose SMU because they had a good psychology program.”
“Why’d you choose psychology? You don’t even use your degree.”
She pressed her lips together. “I wanted to do more with my degree at the time. I thought majoring in psychology would help me understand my abilities better and that maybe I could use them to help people—as a counselor or something. But then I met Sophie and Diane, and my ideas about my future changed. Diane was majoring in business, and so we came up with the idea of Divination together. We moved to Peyton Springs because it’s where Sophie grew up, and there’s a long line of psychics in the area. They help keep our business running even though everyone else just thinks we sell magic sets, Halloween costumes, and chocolate. Starting a business with my best friends was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.”
“So, do you think SMU is right for me?”
She shrugged. “I can’t say I would be against you going there. I’d like you to be able to visit every now and then, but I don’t want you to feel pressured if there’s somewhere else you’d like to go.”
I didn’t even know what I would major in, but it was encouraging to know my mom had a good college experience there. “I guess we’ll see how I feel about it on Wednesday,” I finally said as we pulled into the driveway.
I fell onto my bed and shoved my face into my pillow. I immediately recoiled when a pain shot through my head. Not the smartest idea, although it didn’t hurt as badly now as when the accident happened. I rolled over to my back and pulled the covers over my body. Before I had a moment to even think about crying, m
y mom knocked on my door and opened it a crack.
“Crystal, do you need anything before bed?”
I was about to tell her she was fussing too much, but I appreciated the sentiment. “No, Mom. I’ll be fine. Thanks for asking.” I could have told her about what was really going on—that my sixth sense felt off—but I didn’t want to worry her, not with a baby on the way.
“Hey, Mom,” I called before she shut the door completely.
“Yeah?” She opened it again, casting a strip of light from the hallway onto my bed.
“How’s the baby?”
We’d only discovered in August that Mom was pregnant, though she and Teddy had been trying since their wedding last spring. Honestly, they were surprised to have gotten pregnant so quickly since they were both in their late 30s. They wouldn’t be able to learn the sex of the baby for another few weeks, but Mom and Teddy decided they didn’t want to know anything unless something was wrong. They wanted to be surprised when it came.
My mother’s silhouette shifted in the doorway. “Why do you ask?”
I went silent for a few seconds before answering. “I just—I know tonight was really stressful, and I don’t want the stress to affect the baby or anything.”
She pushed into the room and sat on the edge of my bed. She rested a hand on her belly, which was still pretty flat. I shifted and placed my hand next to hers, even though there wasn’t actually anything to feel.
“There’s no reason to worry,” my mother assured me.
I tore my gaze from her belly and looked up at her. “It’s just . . .” I paused and then swallowed. “I already love her.” I had bet on it being a girl, but my mom thought it’d be a boy. “Or him,” I added, pressing my ear to her belly.
She jumped slightly in surprise before relaxing.
“I really love her—him,” I said against her belly before pulling away. “You just worry about my little brother or sister. I’ll be fine.”