by Frank Zafiro
Some confusion overcame him. The beeps were getting fuzzier. Colors seemed to blur. He turned his heavy eyes to the cop’s nametag.
M. Ridgeway, it read.
He looked back at M. Ridgeway’s face. He blinked a long blink.
“Wuh-eye?” he slurred.
“Because,” Ridgeway told him, “You’re going to prison for a long time. And I want you to be able to feel what rape is like while you’re there.”
He blinked at Ridgeway, still confused for a moment. Then it dawned on him through the fog of the medication.
Of course.
He was a cop. So he hated him.
He understood.
But it wasn’t his fault.
No. None of it was.
It was hers.
Katie’s.
Bitches ruin everything, he thought. Then a soft, blessed darkness took him.
1502 hours
Katie’s head rested on the hospital pillow. She wanted to reach back and fold it over for a little more support, but couldn’t work up the motivation to do so. Everything hurt. Her left forearm throbbed dully. Her left hand seemed to have more of a stinging pain. Her shoulder shared the general, aching soreness which had settled over her entire body.
She imagined the real pain lay lurking below the light pain medication they’d given her. She’d refused anything stronger. She had vague recollections about bouncing red balls and the secrets of the universe from her previous trip, and no desire to experience those bizarre images again.
The doctor entered, trailed by a pair of interns. He glanced wordlessly at her chart for a moment, the spoke without looking up.
“How are we feeling?” he asked in a preoccupied, distant tone.
“Like hell,” Katie answered truthfully.
“Mmmmmhhhhhhmmmm,” the doctor replied, his eyes skipping over the chart. “Well, all in all, things look well.” He handed the chart off to one of the interns, looking at Katie for the first time. He didn’t smile. “There’s really no reason to keep you any longer than overnight. Your cuts were deep, but clean. Luckily, no nerves were severed. The cuts stitched well, and scarring should be minimal. A couple of weeks of rest at home and you should be mostly recovered.”
“Why am I staying overnight if I’m all stitched up?” Katie asked.
“Holcomb?” the doctor asked.
One of the interns, a rail thin kid with small spectacles stepped forward. As he spoke, his Adam’s apple bounced up and down his throat. “Uh, your medical history shows a recent concussion. You were struck in the head during this assault, so there is an increased potential for another concussion.”
“Excellent, Holcomb,” the doctor said. He gestured to the second intern, a beefier man with soft eyes. “Bullock?”
Bullock glanced at the doctor, then at Katie. After a moment, he said, “He’s right about the concussion. And your body’s been through a lot today.” He gave Katie a warm smile and touched her foot gently. “Anyway, keeping you overnight is just a precaution.”
Katie nodded her understanding.
“Is there anything else you need?” the doctor asked her.
“No-uh, wait. Yeah. Can someone fold my pillow in half so that it’s a little thicker?”
“I’ll send in the nurse,” the doctor said. Without further hesitation, he turned and strode out of the room, Holcomb in tow.
Bullock paused, then stepped up to the side of her bed. “Lean forward,” he instructed.
With an effort, Katie did so. He folded over her pillow and replaced it. She sank backward onto it.
“Better?” he asked.
“A little.”
“They’re not much of a cushion, are they?” Bullock smiled.
“No.”
“I’ll ask the nurse to bring in another one,” he told her.
“Thanks.”
“Hope you feel better,” he said with another smile, then turned and left.
Katie watched him go. As he exited the room, another head leaned in around the closing door. She recognized Tower immediately. He raised his eyebrows at her questioningly.
“Okay to come in?” he asked.
“Sure.”
Tower swung the door open a little more and walked in. A redheaded woman in jeans and a green blouse trailed behind him. Tower saw Katie notice her and made an introduction.
“This is Julie Avery,” he explained. “She works with the Prosecutor’s Office as a victim advocate.”
Katie gave her a guarded nod. Julie replied with a warm smile.
Tower stopped at the side of her bed. He seemed to be taking in all of the bandages and Katie’s bruised and battered face.
“I look a mess, don’t I?” Katie asked.
“No,” Tower lied. “Just a little banged up, is all.”
“The marks from that time on Mona Street are barely gone,” Katie said, not sure if she was trying to joke or if she were feeling sorry for herself. “I’ve got bruises on my bruises.”
Tower nodded, seemingly at a loss for words. Finally, he said, “Once word gets out that you can have visitors, you know there’s going to be a parade of cops coming up here.”
Katie shook her head. “Can you tell Radio that they want me to sleep or something? I don’t want to see a bunch of people right now.”
And I don’t want to be seen looking like this. Like a victim.
“Sure,” Tower said. “I’ll take care of it.”
“Thanks.”
“Finch and Elias are going to want to talk to you, though.”
“I know.”
“But, uh, that can probably wait a few days.”
“Good.”
The two officers fell silent. Avery stood quietly next to Tower, saying nothing. Katie glanced at the woman, taking in her open expression and warm features. Empathy seemed to radiate from her. Katie imagined that made her very good at her job.
Avery caught her looking and smiled.
Katie cleared her throat and turned her gaze to Tower. “Can you tell me something?”
“Sure.” He leaned forward expectantly.
“Did he die? Did I kill him?”
Tower looked at her for a moment, then shook his head slightly. “No,” he said in a low voice. “He’s at a different hospital. Sacred Heart, I think.”
Katie nodded. She felt tears sting her eyes. Ashamed, she looked away.
“Are you all right?” Tower asked.
Katie let out a shuddering breath and wiped her tears away with her unbandaged hand. Confusing thoughts swirled through her head.
I don’t know if I’m crying because I shot him or because I didn’t kill him or because I wish I had.
“I’m fine,” she said.
“Sorry,” Tower muttered. “That was a stupid question.”
Katie didn’t answer. Another long silence ensued, this one more awkward. Eventually, Tower said, “Well, I just wanted to check in on you. If you need anything, give me a call.”
“Okay.”
Tower removed a business card from his jacket pocket and scrawled something on the back. He placed the card on the nightstand next to her bed. “That’s my home phone on the back,” he said. “Call anytime.”
“Thanks,” Katie whispered, her voice husky with tears. She desperately wanted to stop crying, but the goddamn tears just kept welling up in her eyes. Instead of wiping them from her cheeks, she avoided his gaze.
“I’ll let Radio know about no visitors,” Tower said. He turned to go.
Avery slid a card from her jeans pocket and placed it next to Tower’s. “If you ever need to talk,” she said quietly.
Katie didn’t respond.
“I hope you feel better soon,” Avery added. Then she turned to leave with Tower.
Katie lay still, listening to their departing footsteps. When the pair reached the door, Katie turned her head.
“Wait.”
Tower looked over his shoulder at her, but it was Avery’s gaze that she met. Katie took a shallow,
wavering breath.
“Can…can you stay a while?” she asked Avery.
Avery nodded. “Of course.” She returned to Katie’s bedside.
Tower watched for a moment, then said, “I’ll wait out here.”
“Thanks,” Avery said, without turning toward him.
Tower gave Katie a nod and left, closing the door behind him.
Avery stood next to Katie’s bed. To Katie, she seemed patient, as if she were willing to wait a year for Katie to speak.
Katie licked her lips, wondering where to begin. The two women remained silent for a long minute while the monitor next to her bed beeped.
“There’s something I want to tell you about,” she finally said.
“Okay,” Avery said.
“Not this,” she said, motioning toward her bandages. “Something else. From a long time ago.”
Avery reached out and touched Katie lightly on her hand. “We can talk about whatever you want,” she said with a light squeeze.
Katie swallowed. She looked up into Julie Avery’s warm eyes and nodded. “All right,” she said. “All right.”
2145 hours
Graveyard Shift
Connor O’Sullivan drove in silence while Battaglia looked out the window. The pair had been uncharacteristically quiet during the early part of the shift. Sully wondered if Battaglia was having issues at home or if, like himself, he was concerned about MacLeod.
“The El-Tee said she was going to be fine,” he finally ventured.
“Huh?”
“MacLeod. Saylor said she’d be all right.”
Battaglia nodded without turning from the window. “Good.”
“Yeah,” Sully echoed. “Good.”
They drove a few more blocks in silence. Then Sully said, “I guess she nailed the guy four or five times. Probably crippled him.”
“Good.”
“She’s a good shot.”
“Yeah.”
“Blasted the guy all around the groin area.”
“That fits.” Battaglia was silent for a moment, then added, “Sounds like she ten-ringed him like that rat under bridge.”
Sully smiled. “Exactly.”
Battaglia turned away from the window, a dark grin already fading from his face. “She’s the bomb,” he said. “MacLeod, I mean.”
Sully nodded in agreement.
“Guy attacks her in her own house. In her bathrobe, for Christ’s sake. But she still wins.” Battaglia shook his head. “I guess you just never know when it’s going to happen.”
“When what’s going to happen?” Sully asked, though he knew what his partner meant.
Battaglia stared out through the windshield, uncharacter-istically deep in thought. “You never know what moment on this job will turn into the moment.”
Sully raised his eyebrows, marveling at Battaglia’s serious side. It didn’t come out very often. Most of the time, he wondered if the man even had one.
“Adam-122?” the radio chirped.
Battaglia picked up the mike. “Go ahead.”
“Disorderly person at 2114 E. Wellesley,” the dispatcher recited. “Refusing to leave the Tacos Plus restaurant.”
“See?” Battaglia said. “This could be the big one right here. You never know.”
“Also,” the dispatcher continued, “the suspect is apparently wearing a clown suit.”
Sully and Battaglia looked at each other. A slow smile spread over each man’s face.
“Or maybe not,” Sully said.
Battaglia pushed the button on the mike. “Copy on the clown,” he said.
“This call is a joke,” Sully deadpanned.
Battaglia chuckled. He motioned toward the light controls. “We should run lights and siren.”
“Oh, Lieutenant Hart would love that.”
“Hell,” Battaglia said, “it probably is Lieutenant Hart. This is probably his off duty hobby. Getting drunk, dressing in a clown suit and raising hell.”
Sully let out a loud laugh.
“Oh, man,” Battaglia said, shaking his head, “We were born to take this call.”
Saturday, May 10th, 1996
0913 hours
Lieutenant Alan Hart sat at his desk. It being a Saturday, he was dressed casually in a pair of jeans and a neatly pressed collared shirt. The silence of his office was the same as it was every other day of the week, no change in his lonely existence.
He’d told his wife, Marianne, that he’d needed to run a couple of errands. That was true, he supposed, but he still ended up seated at his desk, whether by design or happenstance. He stared at the far wall, which was adorned with photographs of all River City police officers. Everyone was there, from the Chief of Police to the newest recruit in the Academy.
And I’m here to watch over them.
It’s not like anyone else would. He saw the summary judgment that the Patrol Captain filed on Officer MacLeod’s so-called accidental discharge. A cop lets a bullet fly in a public park, and all she gets is a written reprimand? All Hart saw there was a continuation of the century-old code of silence that has permeated and corrupted law enforcement for far too long. It was that same warped sense of loyalty that no doubt motivated the Chief to issue oral reprimands for O’Sullivan and Battaglia. Worse yet, he didn’t even give that light punishment to Chisolm for his violations.
Clearly, the cops in River City believed they were above the law.
“They aren’t,” Hart muttered, turning a heavy, gold pen over in his hands.
And it was his job to watch over them, to make sure that they paid for their mistakes. The public deserved it. Justice demanded it.
He knew the cost. Ridicule. Hatred. Ostracism. It was a small price to pay to do the right thing.
The River City Herald lay open on his desk. The front page headline blared RAINY DAY RAPIST CAUGHT! He’d read the article. Normally critical of the police department, the editors allowed this story to positively praise the stalwart bravery of Officer Katie MacLeod. The only negative element of the story was a subtle jab at Detective John Tower for failing to identify the suspect before the attack. The close resemblance between the police sketch and the suspect’s photograph made that failure seem like a particularly inept one.
Hart wasn’t concerned so much with that. There had been other mistakes. He was sure of it. Those mistakes needed to be answered for. Not just with an oral or written reprimand, either. With suspensions. Maybe badges.
How high did the mistakes go? He knew the only way to find out was to investigate thoroughly.
Lieutenant Alan Hart fired up his computer. He opened his word processor program and began drafting a memorandum to send to the Chief.
He planned on getting to the bottom of things.
1113 hours
Chisolm set aside the newspaper after reading the article about Katie for a third time. The reporter rightfully made Katie out to be a hero, but he didn’t like the dig against Tower. He knew the detective did the best job he could. Hell, if anyone was at fault, it was Chisolm.
Once again, he’d failed to be where he was needed.
Just like Mai. The image of the young prostitute was burned into his mind. Despite stopping two assaults on her, he couldn’t save her in the end.
Hell, Bobby Ramirez, too. When a sniper took his best friend’s life, had he done anything to prevent it?
No. He’d failed.
And, of course, there was Officer Karl Winter. He was a good man who died alone on the dark asphalt of a River City street. No help from Chisolm.
Other faces danced in front of his eyes. That kid he and Ramirez had teased mercilessly from the day he arrived in the unit until the day he hit a trip wire in the jungle. A young mother and her baby, on the run from an insane husband. That husband eventually hurt that little baby, didn’t he?
Sylvia’s knowing eyes came next. The image hovered before him, growing even more vivid when he closed his eyes against it.
All my ghosts are here today.
> Thomas Chisolm clutched at his coffee cup, squeezing the porcelain in an effort to avoid going to the fridge for a drink.
1222 hours
Crawford turned onto Reott’s street. He drove to the front of the captain’s house, easing the car to a stop.
“Thanks for lunch,” Reott said.
“My turn to buy,” Crawford replied easily.
“So it was. But thanks, anyway.”
“You’re welcome.”
Reott reached for the door.
“They’re releasing MacLeod today,” Crawford told him.
Reott paused. “Good. She’s all right?”
Crawford shrugged. “A few good cuts. Some hard knocks. But I think she’ll be fine.”
“Good.”
“Our rapist won’t be out for another month. Maybe two,” Crawford continued. “Tower already has his affidavit to the prosecutor. Hinote said he is going to charge him with all four rapes, plus the attacks on MacLeod. He doesn’t believe he can win them all, but he figures he’ll win enough of them to send the guy up for life, or close to it. And if he decides to plea instead, then he has plenty of charges to bargain away.”
“Good,” Reott repeated.
Crawford’s eyes narrowed with concern. “You okay, Mike?”
Reott nodded. “I’m fine. Where are you headed from here?”
Crawford scowled. “Oh, the wife has us going out searching for antiques or some such shit.” He eyed Reott more closely. “You sure you’re okay?”
“Yeah,” Reott answered. He slapped Crawford on the knee. “Thanks for lunch. And good work on this case.”
Crawford snorted. “Good work? Hell, we got luckier than a falling drunk on this one.”
Reott clenched his jaw, his penetrating gaze burning into Crawford’s eyes. “You think that’s luck? Him attacking one of our officers like that?”
Crawford returned his stare without faltering. “I don’t think what happened to MacLeod was lucky at all,” he said quietly. “All I’m saying is that we didn’t do anything to catch him. We got lucky.”
Reott took a deep breath and sighed. “Maybe so,” he said. Then he opened the door and got out of the car. “See you Monday,” he told Crawford as he closed the passenger door.
Crawford gave him a wave as he pulled away from the curb.
Reott made his way up his sidewalk, unlocked the door and went into the house. The slam of the door echoed throughout the emptiness of the home. Tossing his keys on the table, he walked directly into the kitchen and swung open a cupboard. Inside, two fancy bottles of seventeen year old Glengoyne single malt Scotch whisky stood waiting for him. He wrapped his fingers around the neck of one bottle and pulled it from the cupboard.