The sun was setting fast. The Earth will be dark tonight, Edward thought with some surprise. Dark for the first time in centuries. All the lights have gone. What will come to life during this night?
Edward stood alone on the rear ramp, feeling it vibrate as their passengers’ robotic share in the Earth’s bounty made its heavy way towards the large hold.
He wondered if the Eva Rye was now the last ship left on Earth. The Ophelia had already risen into the air, to join the sparse few ships that still hung about there. Some of them were lighting up in evening colors, pastel lamps that floated above the empty land.
Judy and Frances had together boarded the Buridan’s Ass and gone swimming away who-knows-where.
Edward had a funny feeling looking out over the darkening land. Everything had just melted away. He wondered if it would ever come back. Would anyone ever come and stand here in this spot and maybe throw a VNM out from the ship into the sea of mud below, set it searching for materials, set it replicating so as to maybe build a city here again?
He dismissed the thought as ridiculous. Why would anyone want to do that?
That time had passed, evaporating into the night along with all the people who had once walked here.
Edward turned to head up the ramp, and then paused for a moment. He turned back to the empty land, falling away in a rosy sunset.
“Good night,” he said to it.
eva rye
“What is life, Eva?” Ivan asked. “What does it mean to be alive, to be human? What is it that makes me able to sit here and speak to you? Do you ever wonder about this?”
“I used to,” replied Eva.
“You used to? You no longer wonder? Why not?”
“Because now I know what life is.”
She could just make out Ivan’s face in the predawn light. She wondered if he could see her smiling.
“I can see you smiling at me. You’re teasing me again.”
“No,” Eva said, “I know what life is, and I will tell you what it is very soon.”
“When?”
“When the sun rises. When the band begins playing.”
The residents of the Narkomfin were gathering in the darkness, smelling of alcohol and coffee and cold sweat. There was low muttered conversation and the sound of metal chinking against metal. The brass band that had performed in the hall the previous night was re-forming; players were blowing into their instruments, warming them up, the valves pistoning in the night. Hands were rubbed together and feet stamped.
“Why are we doing this?” Ivan asked. “Why do we have to come out here at dawn to sing songs and play music? Why do we not just stay indoors and continue drinking?”
“Because,” said Eva, “it’s tradition. Anyway, it’s an excuse to keep drinking for longer. That should appeal to you.”
“Hah,” Ivan said, “I am going to miss your teasing when I return home.”
“No you’re not.”
“Don’t mock me,” Ivan said. “Don’t tell me what I will do. I will miss you, Eva.”
“No, you won’t.” Eva took a deep breath. She had been thinking about this all night and had been too scared of saying it, for fear of making it real. But now was the time. “Ivan,” she whispered, “I’m coming with you.”
She could hear his intake of breath; she could see the look on his face, the way that he couldn’t help smiling, the way he tried to frown at the same time as he attempted to understand. She could see all of this in the dim light; see it as it gradually gained definition in the false dawn.
“But why, Eva?” he managed to splutter. “Why have you changed your mind? I thought you didn’t want to go back into that world. You were afraid of returning to the control of the Watcher.”
“I still am.” She took a deep breath and continued firmly. “But I don’t want, I will not have, the Watcher running my life, even by default.”
Ivan took her hand, beaming with delight. “Thank you, Eva. Thank you.”
“You’re crying,” Eva said.
“Hah, you English! I am not ashamed of my emotions.” He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand. “Why change your mind? Why now—why not before?”
“I don’t know,” Eva said. “There are lots of reasons. I want to see my daughter again. I want to visit her.” But that wasn’t the truth. A vision of the scene in the hall flashed through her head, the handicapped boy shuffling past the golden child. The divergence that existed in humanity, and yet everyone still recognizably human. That was part of it.
“I…I want to do what I can.” Eva frowned. “I don’t think I can really explain.”
“That’s okay,” Ivan said, pulling her close and stroking her hair. “There will be time later on.”
I don’t think I could explain, even later on, thought Eva. I wanted to be free, so I tried to kill myself. The Watcher said it, all that time ago: “You fought for the right to live your life your own way, even if it meant killing yourself.” That’s why he thinks he needs me. Why does he have this yearning to understand freedom and personal responsibility, when all he wants to do is to control us? Will we ever be free to control ourselves?
There was a yellow glow appearing over the distant hills. The sun was coming. Veni Creator Spiritus. Some of the assembled people were singing those words now, half whispered. Some residents of the Narkomfin claimed to worship the sun as the life-giver. But it was just a pose, an affectation.
All of the band now held their instruments, warming them up. Paper music was clipped into lyres. The conductor took his place. The sun was coming.
Ivan stood behind Eva, his big arms wrapped around her body, and she felt his warmth.
“They are going to play,” Ivan said. “Go on, tell me, what is life?”
Eva put her hands on his arms and cuddled him closer to her.
“Ivan, life is just a reflection of ourselves. We look at something, and see part of ourselves in it, and call it life.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean that we put life into the objects we see. We look at a kitten and we look at a rock, and if we see enough of ourselves reflected back, we say the object is alive.”
“Hah, yes!”
“We look at the sun and we see something warm and living. We put the spirit in it.”
Ivan tasted the idea. Sheets of paper were now being passed through the crowd. The lyrics to be sung. Ivan took one and held it absently.
Eva was warming to her theme.
“It means that if we hate something that much, then really we hate ourselves. You’ll hear it in a moment when these people begin singing.”
Veni Creator Spiritus? thought Eva. Come creator spirit? We are the creator spirit. The Watcher is just a reflection of ourselves—I realize that now.
The sun tipped over the edge of the hill. Golden light shone out everywhere.
The band began to play, and the drunken people of the Narkomfin, the halt and the lame as well as the able-bodied, all got ready to sing. Eva held up the sheet of music and waited, along with the rest, for the cue to enter, all the while gazing up at the sun, happy at her reflection and, for the moment at least, comfortable with herself.
It was another morning. The residents began to sing.
Hail Smiling Morn, smiling morn,
That tips the hills with gold,
That tips the hills with gold,
Whose rosy fingers ope the gates of day,
Ope the gates, the gates of day,
Hail! Hail! Hail! Hail!
Eva and Ivan, the whole of the Narkomfin, faced the rising sun.
About the Author
Tony Ballantyne grew up in County Durham in the northeast of England, studied mathematics at Manchester University, and then worked as a teacher, first of math, then IT, in London and later in the northwest of England. Nowadays he enjoys playing boogie piano, cycling, and walking. In the past he has taught sword fencing at an American children’s camp, been a ballroom dancer, and worked voluntarily on conservatio
n projects and with adults with low literacy and numeracy.
Visit Tony Ballantyne at www.tonyballantyne.com.
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