Filthy Commitments: A Submissives’ Secrets Novel

by Michelle Love

  The only downfall is how her parents act about her having a relationship. They seem fine with what’s going on with their friends’ son, though.

  Why is he so well accepted by them?

  He’s obviously from a wealthy home. Mr. and Mrs. Devlin never seemed to be the type of people who could be bought. Who knows, though?

  I can’t say I really know them well enough to make that judgement. They’ve kept me at arm’s length. Scotty might be able to help me get to Ally.

  He’s always been in my back pocket. The kid looks up to me. But he might be looking up to the rich guy now.

  And what the hell with how strong that jackass is?

  I mean, he stopped my punch like it was easy to do. Then he held me against my truck and I was powerless to move. I have no idea how he did that.

  A light comes to life outside. Something moved near the motion detector, making it light up. She may be back.

  I look out the window in time to see a giant black shadow fly by the window. I step back. I couldn’t have seen what I thought.

  A loud clap of thunder makes me jump, as it sounds like it was just outside. The sheer curtains on her windows allow me to see one huge black thing move in front of the second-story window, followed by another.

  A horrendous shriek fills the air, making the window panes rattle. I cover my ears as another shriek rings out. Then the bedroom light comes on and I’m thrown down on the bed, hands held behind my back.

  “What the hell are you doing in my daughter’s bedroom?” Mr. Devlin shouts at me.

  “Sir, it’s not what it looks like. I just need to talk to her, sir, please.”

  A knee is in my back, holding me down. “I’ll call the police,” Mrs. Devlin says.

  What? No!

  “Please, don’t do that. I’ll leave. I can see now this was a bad idea. I’m sorry.”

  Mr. Devlin ties my hands behind my back with something I assume is a shoe string. “No such luck, boy. The police will deal with you. I’ll prosecute you to the fullest. For all I know you’re here to rape and possibly kidnap my daughter.”

  This man cannot be serious!

  “Mr. Devlin, you know better than that. I would never hurt your daughter. Please, sir, let me up and I’ll leave.”

  He doesn’t answer me. My heart is about to explode. How can he think this is okay?

  “Ally will be furious, Mr. Devlin. Please let me up,” I say, trying to get him to think about his daughter’s anger.

  At least, I hope she gets mad at him. Crap, for all I know she might not be mad at him at all. She might be furious with me. She’d be right too. I should never have done this.

  The sound of sirens makes me flinch. They really called them. I can’t believe this is happening.

  “We’ll take him from here, Mr. Devlin.” I hear a male officer say.

  I’m jerked up as cold steel cuffs are slapped around my wrists. The shoestring is cut off and my body is pushed up against the wall. Another officer enters the room and begins reading me my rights as the officer who holds me to the wall searches me all over.

  My face burns with embarrassment. I have fucked up. My scholarships will be revoked and my future is no more, all because I snuck into my girlfriend’s house.

  I overhear the officer who read my rights talking to the Devlins. “What was he doing in here?”

  Mr. Devlin answers, “I think he may have had plans to kidnap her.”

  What?

  “No!” I yell.

  The officer pushes me up against the wall so hard my lip must have busted. It throbs like hell. “Keep your mouth shut!” he yells.

  I turn my head to look back at the officer. “I wasn’t going to do anything to her. I only wanted to talk, that’s all,” I say, though now I sound odd because of my busted lip.

  In return, I’m smacked back up against the wall again and now my cheek stings. “I said to keep your mouth shut!”

  I guess I should not say anything else. My face can’t take any more, and I remember hearing something about not talking to the police until you have a lawyer.

  I’m shoved away from the wall and into the hallway. Mrs. Devlin hangs her head, refusing to look at me. Mr. Devlin glares at me, making me feel terrible for breaking into his home.

  “I’m sorry,” I say, only to be pushed to move quickly down the stairs.

  Both officers have me, one on each side as Ally’s father opens the front door. A light blinds me as the jackass’ car pulls into the drive. The passenger door flies open and Ally runs towards us.

  She looks like a goddess in a white, flowing dress, her hair in curls which fly behind her as she runs the fastest I’ve ever seen.

  “No!” she screams.

  The officers pull me back and stand in front of me as my Ally thumps one of them on his chest. “Let him go! Let him go right now!” she shouts.

  I’ve never seen her so mad. Her relentless poking of the cop in the chest pauses as he grabs her wrist, and then the jackass intervenes. “Release her now. And tell us what’s going on,” his royal assholeness says as he moves in behind my Ally, placing a protective arm around her waist.

  The cop releases her hand and my Ally’s new protector takes it in his and looks at it.

  “I’m okay,” she tells him as they exchange glances.

  Mr. Devlin speaks up from behind us. “Take him away officers. I’ll deal with her.”

  Ally looks up at the jerk holding her. “Eden, please make them let him go. I won’t allow this to happen.”

  The guy looks at Mr. Devlin. “I want him released.”

  “Don’t you want to know what we caught him doing?” Mr. Devlin asks.

  The guy looks at Ally.

  “No,” she says. “I know he’d never do anything so bad it should come to this. I have faith in him and I want him released and any charges my father has made dropped.”

  The guy looks at her for a second. “As you wish, princess.” He turns his eyes to her father. “Drop the charges.”

  And I’m in the twilight zone, because this whole thing just can’t be happening. As one of the officers unlocks my handcuffs, I watch the guy holding my girlfriend lift her left hand and bring it to his lips.

  My heart stops beating as the porch light hits the large rock on her finger, making it glow like a torch, killing me.

  “Ally,” I say, but all the words I know are lost and my mind is beyond numb.

  Ally looks at the guy who has his mouth on her hand. “I need to talk to him, Eden.”

  He nods and lets her go. I stand still as a statue as she comes to me, taking my hand, and leading me back into the house.

  Her father sighs as we walk past him and says, “This is a bad idea, Ally. This should be dealt with tomorrow.”

  Ally spins around and her anger is obvious. “You have stopped me from talking to him since the accident. It’s driven him to do things he’d never have done. I will talk to him tonight.” She turns back to glare at the officers. “As for the two of you, count yourselves lucky that I didn’t go ape-shit on you for what you did to his face. I’m sure it was uncalled for and we will be speaking to your captain about it.”

  Wow! She is not the same girl I remember. What has happened to her?

  Leading me to the dining room, she closes the door behind us and I can’t help but to hug her tight to me. “Thank you, Ally.”

  Holding her feels so right. Her hair falls against my face and the silkiness sends chills down my spine. A gentle push from her tells me this is over. I let her go and it’s killing me.

  “Kyle, we have to talk.”

  I put my forehead on hers. “I saw it, Al. I saw the ring.”

  Tears fall off her cheeks, hitting the hard wood floor between us. Mine soon join hers as we stand, foreheads together, holding hands in silence.

  “This wasn’t planned. I don’t expect you to understand, because it’s something I don’t understand myself. I do love you, Kyle.” Sobs rack her body as she falls apart, ta
king me with her.

  My arms wrap around her and she wraps hers around me. We cry for all that’s lost, all which will never be.

  My heart hurts in a way I never imagined. A permanent pain that only time will heal, but I know it will always ache a little for what I’ve lost.

  “Do you really love him, Al?”

  She nods her head, I suppose she’s still unable to talk as she still shakes against me as she cries. Somehow that knowledge makes this easier.

  “It took you eight years before you could tell me you loved me. You’ve only known him for a few days and you already know. That must mean something. Did he tell you he loves you too?”

  She nods against my chest again and her body shudders as she sobs again. I have to relieve her of the guilt I can tell is tormenting her.

  I kiss the top of her head, and as hard as it is, I set her free. “It was never meant to be, Ally. I’ll have love in my heart for you forever, but you have to go on the path your life is supposed to take. My path is not the one for you. I’ll be okay. I’ll miss you, but I’ll make a life for myself. Don’t worry about me.”

  “Oh, Kyle.” Her embrace tightens as she lets loose another round of tears.

  Mine have dried up with the realization that my hanging on to her is hurting her. Somehow, being strong for her helps me to take this in a better way.

  I want to dry her tears, so I sit down on one of the dining room chairs and hold her on my lap. Luckily, the table is pre-set. I take a linen napkin and dab at her streaming eyes.

  Her eyeliner, which had looked so pretty, now runs down her reddened cheeks. At least I can see that she really did love me, because no one would cry these many tears over someone they merely liked a lot.

  “Oh my goodness, Al. You would not believe how much makeup has run off those pretty eyes. A river of black runs down your cheeks. Let me clean you up.”

  I dab and wipe as she looks sadly at me. “I’m really sorry,” she says as her voice catches in her throat. She’s trying very hard to stop crying.

  I smile at her. “Don’t be sorry, sweetie. It’s not your fault. It’s no one’s fault. How much makeup did you put on? This stuff is everywhere. I don’t remember you wearing so much, but you had enough of this goop on to cover three girl’s faces,” I tell her with a chuckle.

  She hits at my chest. “Don’t tease me, Kyle.”

  I tweak her little nose. “Who’s teasing? There’s a lot of run-off and it’s threatening your pretty little white dress,” I say as I wipe some more black trails from her neck and a little ways down her chest. “Wow, Al, this is the lowest cut thing I’ve ever seen you wear. And, baby, you are wearing the hell out of it. I almost passed out when I saw your gorgeous self jump out of that car.”

  Her tears have stopped and her eyes twinkle a little. She grabs another napkin and holds it over her cleavage, which is exceptional. “You rogue. I’ll wipe this area.”

  I laugh and she giggles, making me feel better. Although I’m a long way from being okay with this, I won’t hurt her by dragging it out. I’ll suffer in silence and wait for the pain to pass.

  God, I hope it passes.

  CHAPTER 21

  EDEN

  “I’m sorry she’s putting you through this, Eden,” Alyssa’s father tells me.

  My eyes follow my mate as she leads her soon to be ex-boyfriend out of the living room. “Don’t be. She’s going to break up with him. I can be patient while she does that.”

  Her mother, Toni, laughs. “You sure about that?”

  I turn to look at her and smile, then I look at David. “I asked her to marry me and she said yes.”

  Toni’s jaw drops and David comes to shake my hand. “You pulled it off. I wasn’t sure you could in time for the change. I couldn’t be happier. This will go so much easier for her now. I’m so sorry about making this harder than it had to be. I can’t apologize enough,” her father says as he pumps my hand up and down and pats my back.

  “Let him go, David. I want to give him a hug,” Toni says. He moves back and she grabs me up. “I’m so happy, Eden.”

  I allow her to hug me until she’s content, then I pull away from her and sit down. “Now we need to figure out when we should tell her who and what she really is. I have what I wanted—her to agree to marry me on her own. Now she has to be told and I could use your advice on that,”

  David walks over to me and places his hand on my shoulder. “The time is near. It needs to be soon. I admit she’s progressing a lot better than I anticipated, but that news will be shocking.”

  I rub the back of my neck in frustration. Again, through my fault, she will suffer when she hears the truth. Fear and anxiety as well as disbelief will assault her emotions.

  Who takes the news of turning into a giant bird well?

  Toni gets up from the chair she’d taken. “It’s been too long. I’ll go get Alyssa and send Kyle on his way,” she says.

  “No, leave her alone to do what she has to. I trust her and didn’t expect her to be able to do this quickly,” I tell her. “She needs time to give them both proper closure. I’ll not have loose ends, and it takes time to tie them up. She really does love him. It may be hard for you to understand, but I do. She and I are built a bit differently. Love and compassion for others are so strong it makes us put our lives on the line to help people. She let him in her heart and he will dwell there forever. He’ll forget her in the near future, but she’ll never forget him.”

  Toni crosses the room, sitting next to me. “I’m sorry we did this to her and you. We will surely pay the price when our time comes.”

  I frown at her and take her hand. “Toni, you will not have to pay for anything. It’s okay. We got past it, didn’t we? If anything, it proves she loves me even more, in turn making me love her even more. You see, having her choose me is so much better than her being made to marry me. It’s a small price to pay for her happiness.”

  Toni and David raise their brows. “I guess you’re right, Eden,” Toni says with a smile. “I’m glad she has you. A better partner there’s never been. I was a fool to think Our Creator wasn’t directly involved. Even the faithful have times of doubt.”

  “It’s late and you two should go to bed,” I tell them. “I’ll wait here for Alyssa to finish her business with the boy. I’d like privacy with her once she’s done. She’ll be hurting and I want to be the one to help her through this. If she knows she can trust me with something this delicate it will give her greater faith in me, making us stronger.”

  They agree and leave me alone. My mate is in the next room with another male. While I should be jealous and mad, I’m not.

  The sound of the door to the dining room opening turns my attention to the light which flows into the dark hallway. My mate follows the boy as he leads her into the living room.

  His eyes are swollen, his lip busted, and a scratch is on his cheek, but he doesn’t seem sad, which is good. He nods his head at me as he passes in front of me.

  Alyssa reaches out and touches my leg with the hand that isn’t holding his. “I’m walking Kyle out and I’ll be right back, Eden.”

  Kyle stops and turns back. I rise and meet his eyes as he says, “Ally’s told me about you and what you two are doing,” he says to me. “You must care more for her than I can imagine, asking her to marry you before you take her virginity. While I have to say it fills me with a sickness I’ve never known that you will be the one to feel her that way, there could not be a better man to lose her to. Promise me you’ll always treat her with the same respect and tenderness she tells me you do now.”

  I look him squarely in the eye, trying my best to convey my compassion for him. “I promise you I will. I love her with all I have in me. I will never dishonor her. Thank you for taking this the way you are. You’re a compassionate individual and I can see why Alyssa cares for you so much.” I offer him my hand and he takes it as we shake a solid shake, which leaves me feeling good.

  I smile at Alyssa. “I’ll be wai
ting here for you, princess.”

  “Thank you, Eden. I’ll be right back,” she says as she lets him lead her out the front door, closing the door behind them.

  I keep waiting for the jealousy to rear up in me, but it never comes. It’s a relief, as I’ve never had such negative emotions and I dislike how the ugly emotion made me act. With great patience, I wait for my mate to return.

  She sniffles as she comes back in. Her make-up gone, she looks young and fragile.

  “It’ll get better with time, he told me. I gave him his ring back. It was really hard, Eden,” she says as she falls into my arms.

  I wish I could help her!

  I hug her tightly and rock her back and forth. “Do you want to talk about it or go to sleep?” I ask.

  Her small face, her cheeks red from all the tears, looks up at me. “Could you sleep with me? I’m tired, but I’d like you to hold me. I feel like I’ve lost so much and having you next to me, holding me, would remind me why I let it all go. I’m not sorry I did, but I am feeling the loss.”

  My arm goes under her legs, lifting her. I carry her up the stairs as she lays her head against my chest. If I could take this all away, I would. I’d do it all differently if I’d known she’d be this hurt.

  I place her on the bed. “If you’re sure about this, I’ll go change and be right back.”

  Her hand lingers in mine. “I’m sure, Eden. I need you.”

  She needs me!

  I hate it’s because she’s in pain, but I love to hear it.

  “I’ll be right back, princess.”

  I change into some pajama bottoms and a T-shirt, then trod back down the hall to my mate’s bedroom door and do a quick tap before I enter.

  “Come in,” her sweet and very tired voice calls out to me.

  I open the door to find her cuddled up on the bed, lying next to the wall. She’s left room for me and pats the bed, reminding me of what she did a few hours ago and how that turned out. I’ll have to exercise great restraint with her.

  “How do you feel?” I ask as I slide in next to her.

  She takes my hand and holds it to her cheek. “Terrible and wonderful at the same time.”