by Sapper
“‘My husband is ill, Mr Trayne. You’ll excuse his being in bed.’
“Then we went in. Good Lord! you fellows,” the Actor leant forward in his chair. “I’ve been pretty hard up in the old days, but as I stood inside that door I realised for the first time what poverty – real poverty – meant. Mark you, the girl was a lady; the weak, cadaverous-looking fellow propped up in bed with a tattered shawl round his shoulders was a gentleman. And beyond the bed, and one chair, and a rackety old chest of drawers there wasn’t a stick of furniture in the room. There was a curtain in the corner with what looked like a washstand behind it, and a shelf by the bed with two cups and some plates on it. And nothing else except an appalling oleograph of Queen Victoria on the wall.
“‘This is Mr Trayne, dear.’ She was bending over her husband, and after a moment he looked up at me.
“‘It was good of you to come, sir,’ he said. ‘Very good.’ And then he turned to his wife and I heard him say: ‘Have you told him yet, Kitty?’
“She shook her head. ‘Not yet, darling, I will now.’ She left his side and came over to me.
“‘Mr Trayne, I know you thought me very peculiar at the theatre. But I was afraid that if I told you what I really wanted you’d have refused to come. You get hundreds and hundreds of people coming to see you who think they can act. Asking you to help them get a job and that sort of thing. Well, I was afraid that if I told you that that was what I wanted, you’d have told me to go away. Perhaps you’d have given me a straw of comfort – taken my address – said you’d let me know if anything turned up. But nothing would have turned up… And, you see, I was rather desperate.’
“The big brown eyes were fixed on me pleadingly, and somehow I didn’t feel quite as annoyed as I should have done at what was nothing more nor less than a blatant trick to appeal to my sympathy.
“‘Perhaps nothing would have turned up,’ I said gently, ‘but you must remember that today the stage is a hopelessly overstocked profession. There are hundreds of trained actors and actresses unable to obtain a job.’
“‘I know that,’ she cried eagerly, ‘and that’s why I – why I thought out this plan. I thought that if I could really convince you that I could act above the average…’
“‘And she can, Mr Trayne,’ broke in her husband. ‘She’s good, I know it.’
“‘We must leave Mr Trayne to be the judge of that, Harry,’ she smiled. ‘You see,’ she went on to me, ‘what I felt was that there is an opening for real talent. There is, isn’t there?’
“‘Yes,’ I agreed slowly. ‘There is an opening for real talent. But even that is a small one… Have you ever acted before?’
“‘A little. In amateur theatricals!’
“I turned away. Amateur theatricals! More heart-burning and disappointment has been caused by those abominable entertain-ments than their misguided originators will ever realise.
“‘But don’t think I’m relying on that.’ The girl was speaking again, and I almost laughed. ‘I want you to judge me tonight.’
“I swung round and looked at her. So this was the mysterious plan: I was to witness an impromptu performance, which was to convince me that the second Sarah Bernhardt had been discovered.
“‘I couldn’t have shown you, you see, in your dressing room. I shouldn’t have had time. That’s why I asked you to come here.’
“‘You have the courage of your convictions anyway,’ I said quietly. ‘I am perfectly ready to be convinced.’
“‘Then will you sit there.’ She took off her hat and coat as I sat down on the only available chair, and from underneath his pillow the man produced a paper-covered book.
“‘You’ll forgive me if I read my lines, Mr Trayne,’ he said. ‘I find I can’t learn them – I can’t concentrate.’ He passed a thin, emaciated hand over his forehead. ‘And it’s her you want to see.’
“He turned over the pages weakly; then he began to read. And I – I sat up as if I’d been stung. At last everything was clear: the continual visits to the theatre – everything. The part of all others which they had selected to prove her ability, was the love scene between Molly Travers and myself in the third act of John Pendlesham’s Wife…”
For a while there was silence, while the Actor thoughtfully lit another cigarette.
“This unknown child,” he went on after a moment, “who had acted a little in amateur theatricals, had deliberately challenged London’s greatest emotional actress in her most marvellous success before, Heaven help us, me – of all people. I suppose if I was writing a story I should say that she triumphed; that as I sat in that bare and hideous room I realised that before me was genius – a second and greater Molly; that from that moment her foot was set on the ladder of fame, and there was no looking back.”
The Actor laughed a little sadly. “Unfortunately, I’m not writing a story, I’m telling the truth. I don’t know how I sat through the next twenty minutes. It was the most ghastly caricature of Molly that I have ever thought of; the more ghastly because it was so intensely unintentional. Every little gesture was faithfully copied; every little trick and mannerism had been carefully learnt by heart. And this, as I say, to me who acted with that divine genius every night. God! it was awful. That marvellous line of Molly’s, when, standing in the centre of the stage facing me across the table, she said: ‘Then you don’t want me back?’ that line which was made marvellous merely through the consummate restraint with which she said it, sounded from this poor child like a parlourmaid giving notice.
“And then, at last it was over, and I realised I had to say something. They were both staring at me, hope shining clear in the girl’s eyes and pride in the man’s.
“‘She’s great, isn’t she, Mr Trayne?’ he said. ‘I’ve not had the privilege of seeing you and Miss Travers in the part – but I feel that now – why,’ he gave a little shaky laugh, ‘that it’s hardly necessary.’
“You see,” said the Actor slowly, “that was the devil of it all. They were both so utterly certain, especially the man. The difficulty had been to get me there; after that it had been easy. I glanced at the poor fellow in the bed, and his thoughts were plain to read. No more grinding poverty, no more unfurnished bed-sitting rooms, and – fame for the woman he loved! And then he spoke again.
“‘I’m such a hopeless crock, Mr Trayne, and she’ – he took one of her hands in both his own – ‘she’s had to do all the work. Beastly, grinding work in an office, when she was capable of this.’
“The girl bent over him, and I looked away. It seemed to me that the ground on which I stood was holy.”
The Actor gave a short laugh which deceived no one. “I suppose I was an ass,” he went on, “but I’d do it again today. ‘It was wonderful,’ I said, ‘quite wonderful.’ And because I’m an actor they believed me. Not that he, at any rate, required much convincing – he only wanted his knowledge confirmed. Of course, when I spoke I didn’t realise what I was letting myself in for. I should have done, I suppose, but – I wasn’t left long in doubt. If she was wonderful – and had not I, Herbert Trayne, said so – what about a job? At once… With my backing it was easy… Which was all quite true except for the one vital fact of my having lied. But, hang it, you fellows!” he exploded, “could you have told ’em it was the most appalling exhibition of utter futility you’d ever witnessed?”
“No, I couldn’t,” said the Soldier. “What happened?”
“I can see them now,” continued the Actor. “He was holding her hand, and looking up into her face – as a dog looks at the being it adores. And she was smiling a little, and crying a little – tears of pure joy. The strain was over, the lunches had not been missed in vain. And I stood there like a dumb idiot racking my brains for something to say. They thought I was wondering what job to offer her; they were right, I was.” The Actor laughed shortly.
“But I’
d gone into the morass, and there was nothing for it but to blunder in deeper. The one vital essential was that in no circumstances must the poor child ever be allowed to act. The other was money – and at once. So I offered her then and there a job as Molly Travers’ understudy at five pounds a week.”
“Great Scott!” The Doctor sat up with a jerk. “Understudy Molly?”
“I explained, of course,” went on the Actor, “that there was an understudy already, and that to save unpleasantness it would be better if she didn’t come to the theatre, unless I sent for her. That, of course, it was more than likely that Miss Travers wouldn’t be ill during the run of the play, and that in those circumstances I didn’t want to offend the present understudy. And when another play came along, we must see what we could do. That, thank Heaven, I knew was some way off yet! It gave me breathing space.
“I gave her a week’s salary in advance, and I got away – somehow. I think they were both a little dazed with the wonder of it, and they wanted to be alone. I heard his voice – weak and quavering – as I shut the door.
“‘Oh! my very dear girl,’ he was whispering – and she was on her knees beside the bed. And I blundered my way downstairs, cursing myself for a sentimental fool. There’s whisky on the table, you fellows, Help yourselves.”
But no one moved, and the Actor lit another cigarette.
“I saw her occasionally during the next two or three months,” he continued, “though I never went to their rooms again. They had moved – I knew that – because I used to post the cheque every week. But the few times I did see her, I gathered that her husband was not getting any better. And one day I insisted on Lawrence, the specialist, going to see him. I couldn’t have one of my company being worried, I told her, over things of that sort. I can see her face now as I said ‘one of my company’. I don’t know what Lawrence said to her, but he rang me up at the theatre that night, and he did not mince his words to me.
“‘I give him a month,’ he said. ‘It’s galloping consumption.’
“It was just about a month later that the thing happened which I had been dreading. Molly went down with flu. Her understudy – the real one – was Violet Dorman, who was unknown then. And, of course it was her chance.”
“One moment,” interrupted the Barrister. “Did anyone at the theatre know about this girl?”
“Good God! no,” cried the Actor. “Not a soul. In this censorious world actions such as mine in that case are apt to be misconstrued, which alone was sufficient to make me keep it dark. No one knew.
“The first night – all was well. Molly went down in the afternoon, and it didn’t come out in any of the evening papers. Violet acted magnificently. She wasn’t Molly, of course – she isn’t now. But it was her chance, and she took it – and took it well. Next morning the papers, naturally, had it in. ‘Temporary indisposition of Miss Molly Travers. Part filled at a moment’s notice with great credit by Miss Violet Dorman.’ She had a press agent and he boomed her for all he was worth. And I read the papers and cursed. Not that I grudged her her success in the slightest, but I was thinking of the afternoon. It was matinée day and the girl must read it in the papers.
“There was only one thing for it – to go round and see her. Whatever happened I had to prevent her coming to the theatre. How I was going to do it without giving the show away I hadn’t an idea, but somehow or other it had got to be done. My blundering foolishness – even though it had been for the best – had caused the trouble; it was up to me to try and right it. So I went round and found her with a doctor in the sitting room. He was just going as I came in, and his face was grave.
“‘Harry’s dying,’ she said to me quite simply, and I glanced at the doctor, who nodded.
“Poor child! I crossed over to her side, and though it seems an awful thing to say, my only feeling was one of relief. After what Lawrence had said I knew it was hopeless, and since the poor devil had to go he couldn’t have chosen a more opportune moment from my point of view. It solved the difficulty. If he was dying she couldn’t come to the theatre, and by the time the funeral was over Molly would be back. I didn’t realise that one doesn’t get out of things quite as easily as that.
“‘I’ve only just realised how bad he was,’ she went on in a flat, dead voice.
“‘Does he know,’ I asked.
“‘No. He thinks he’s going to get better. Why didn’t you send for me last night, Mr Trayne?’
“It was so unexpected, that I hesitated and stammered.
“‘I couldn’t get at you in time,’ I said finally. ‘Miss Travers only became ill late in the afternoon.’
“With a strange look on her face she opened a paper – some cursed rag I hadn’t seen.
“‘It says here,’ she went on slowly, ‘that she was confined to her bed all yesterday. Oh! it doesn’t matter much, does it?’ She put the paper down wearily, and gave the most heart rending little sobbing laugh I’ve ever heard.
“‘What do you mean?’ I stammered out.
“‘I suppose you did it for the best, Mr Trayne. I suppose I ought to be grateful. But you lied that night – didn’t you?’
“I was fingering a book on the table and for the life of me I couldn’t think of anything to say. ‘He doesn’t know,’ she went on. ‘He still thinks I’m a God-sent genius. And he mustn’t know.’
“‘Why should he?’ I said. And then I put my hand on her arm. ‘Tell me, how did you find out?’
“‘You admit it then?’
“‘Yes,’ I said quietly, ‘I admit that I lied. I was so desperately sorry for you.’
“‘I mentioned it to someone – a man who knew the stage – about a week ago. He looked at me in blank amazement, and then he laughed. I suppose he couldn’t help it: it was so ridiculous. I was furious – furious. But afterwards I began to think, and I asked other people one or two questions – and then that came,’ she pointed to the paper, ‘and I knew. And now – oh! thank God – he’s dying. He mustn’t know, Mr Trayne, he mustn’t.’
“And at that moment he came into the room – tottered in is a better word.
“‘Boy,’ she cried in an agony, ‘what are you doing?’
“‘I thought I heard Mr Trayne’s voice,’ he whispered, collapsing in the chair. ‘I’m much better today, much. Bit weak still–’
“ And then he saw the paper, and he leant forward eagerly.
“‘Ill,’ he cried. ‘Molly Travers ill. Why, my dear – but it’s your chance.’ He read on a bit, and she looked at me desperately. ‘But why weren’t you there last night? Who is this woman, Violet Dorman?’
“‘You see, Tracy,’ I said, picking up the paper and putting it out of his reach, ‘it was so sudden, Miss Travers’ illness, that I couldn’t get at your wife in time.’
“‘Quite,’ he whispered. ‘Of course. But there’s a matinée this afternoon, isn’t there? Oh! I wonder if I’m well enough to go. I’m so much better today.’ And then he looked at his wife. ‘My dear! my dear – at last!’
“I don’t think I’ve ever seen such pathetic pride and love shining in a man’s face before or since.
“‘I’m afraid you won’t be quite well enough to go,’ I muttered.
“‘Perhaps it would be wiser not to,’ he whispered. ‘But to think I shall miss her first appearance. Have you come to fetch her now, Mr Trayne?’
“‘Yes, darling,’ the girl replied, and her voice sounded as steady as a rock. ‘Mr Trayne has come to fetch me. But it’s early yet and I want you to go back to bed now…’
“Without a glance at me she helped him from the room and left me standing there. I heard their voices – hers clear and strong, his barely audible. And not for the first time in my life I marvelled at the wonder of a woman who loves. I was to marvel more in a moment or two.
“She came back and shut the doo
r. Then she stood facing me.
“‘There’s only one way, Mr Trayne, though I think it’s going to break my heart. I must go to the theatre.
“‘But – your husband…’ I stammered.
“‘Oh! I’m not really going. I shall be here – at hand – the whole time. Because if the end did come – why then – I must be with him. But he’s got to think I’ve gone; I’ve got to hide from him until after the matinée is over. And then I must tell him’ – she faltered a little – ‘of my success. I’ll keep the papers from him – if it’s necessary…’ She turned away and I heard her falter: ‘Three hours away from him – when he’s dying. Oh, my God!’
The Actor paused, and the Soldier stirred restlessly in his chair. “I left shortly after,” he went on at length, “I saw she wanted me to.
“All through the play that afternoon it haunted me – the pathos of it – aye, the horror of it. I pictured that girl hiding somewhere, while in the room above the sands were running out. Longing with all the power of her being to go to him – to snatch every fleeting minute with him – and yet condemned by my stupidity to forfeit her right. And then at last the show was over, and I went to her room again.
“She was by his side, kneeling on the floor, as I came in. As he saw me he struggled up on his elbow, and one could see it was the end.
“‘Dear fellow,’ I said, ‘she was wonderful – just wonderful!’
“And the girl looked up at me through her blinding tears.
“‘Just wonderful,’ I said again. Five minutes later he died…”
The Actor fell silent.
“Did you ever see her again?” asked the Soldier thoughtfully.
“Never: she disappeared. Just a patch on the quilt as I said. But there was one thread missing. Three years later I received a registered envelope. There was no letter inside, no word of any sort. Just these.” He fumbled in his pocket. “There are twenty of them.”
He held out his hand, and the Soldier leaning forward saw that it contained a little bundle of five-pound notes.