by Sapper
“I swear it,” said Mainwaring gravely.
She gave a little sob. “Orl right, I believe yer on the level. You go with ’im, Bill. Perhaps ’e’ll do yer ’ead good.”
“’E’s queer sometimes at night,” said Lizzie, as the door closed behind Mainwaring. “Seems all dazed like.”
“Is he?” said Jimmy. “How did you find him, Lizzie?”
“’E was wandering round – didn’t know nuthing about ’imself,” she answered. “And I took ’im in – and looked after ’im, I did. Saved and pinched a bit, ’ere and there – and then we’ve the barrel organ. And we’ve been so ’appy, mister – so ’appy. Course ’e’s a bit queer, and ’e don’t remember nuthing – but ’e’s orl right if ’e don’t get ’is ’eadaches. And when ’e does, I gets rid of them. I jest puts ’is ’cad on me lap and strokes ’is forehead – and they goes after a while. Sometimes ’e goes to sleep when I’m doing it – and I stops there till ’e wakes again with the ’ead gone. Yer see, I understands ’im. ’E’s ’appy with me.”
She was staring at the photograph – a pathetic little figure in her tawdry finery – and for a moment Jimmy couldn’t speak. It had to be done; he had to do it – but it felt rather like killing a wounded bird with a sledge-hammer – except that it wouldn’t be so quick.
“He’s a great brain surgeon, Lizzie – the gentleman with Bill,” he said at length, and the girl turned round and watched him gravely. “And he thinks that an operation might cure him and give him back his memory.”
“So that ’e’d know ’e was an orficer?” whispered the girl.
“So that he’d know he was an officer,” said Jimmy. “So that he’d remember all his past life. You see, Lizzie, your Bill is really Sir Peter Staunton – whom we all thought had been killed in the war.”
“Sir Peter Staunton!” she repeated dazedly. “Gawd!”
“He was engaged, Lizzie,” he went on quietly, and he heard her breath come quick – “engaged to that lady.” He pointed to a picture of Sybil on the mantelpiece.
“No one wouldn’t look at me with ’er about,” said the girl thoughtfully.
“She loved him very dearly, Lizzie – even as he loved her. I don’t think I’ve ever known two people who loved one another quite so much. And–” for a moment Jimmy faltered, then he went on steadily: “I ought to know in this case, because I’m engaged to her now.”
And because the Cockney brain is quick, she saw – and understood.
“So if yer doctor friend succeeds,” she said, “she’ll give yer the chuck?”
“Yes, Lizzie,” answered Jimmy gravely, “she’ll give me the chuck.”
“And yer love ’er? Orl right, old sport. I can see it in yer face. Strikes me” – and she gave a little laugh that was sadder than any tears – “strikes me you ’anded out the dirty end of the stick to both of us when you come round that street today.”
“Strikes me I did, Lizzie,” he agreed. “But, you see, I’ve told you this because I want you to understand that we’re both of us in it – we’ve both of us got to play the game.”
“Play the game!” she muttered. “Wot d’yer want me to do?”
“The doctor doesn’t want him excited, Lizzie,” explained Lethbridge. “But he wants him to stop here tonight, so that he can operate tomorrow. Will you tell him that you want him to stop here? – and stay here with him if you like.”
“And tomorrer she’ll tike ’im.” The girl was staring at Sybil’s photograph. “’E won’t look at me – when ’e knows. Gawd! why did yer find ’im – why did yer find ’im? We was ’appy, I tells yer – ’appy?”
She was crying now – crying as a child cries, weakly and pitifully, and Lethbridge stood watching her in silence.
“Poor kid!” he said at length. “Poor little kid!”
“I don’t want yer pity,” she flared up. “I want my man.” And then, as she saw Jimmy looking at the photograph on the mantelpiece, in an instant she was beside him. “Sorry, old sport,” she whispered impulsively. “Reckon you’ve backed a ruddy loser yourself. I’ll do it. Shake ’ands. I guess I knew all along that Bill wasn’t really my style. And I’ve ’ad my year.”
“You’re lucky, Lizzie,” said Jimmy gravely, still holding her hand. “Very, very lucky.”
“I’ve ’ad my year,” she went on, and for a moment her thoughts seemed far away. “A ’ole year – and–” she pulled herself together and started patting her hair.
“And what, Lizzie?” said Jimmy quietly.
“Never you mind, mister,” she answered. “That’s my blooming business.”
And then the door opened and Mainwaring came in.
“Does Lizzie agree?” he asked eagerly.
“Yes, Bill – she agrees,” said Jimmy. “What do you think of him?”
“As far as I can see there is every hope that an operation will be completely successful. There is evidently pressure on the right side of the skull which can be removed. I’ll operate early tomorrow morning. Keep him quiet tonight – and make him sleep, Lizzie, if you can.”
“What d’yer think, mister?” she said scornfully. “Ain’t I done it fer a year?”
Without another word she left the room, and the two men stood staring at one another.
“Will she play the game, Jimmy!” Mainwaring was lighting a cigarette.
“Yes – she’ll play the game,” answered Lethbridge slowly. “She’ll play the game – poor little kid!”
“What terms are they on – those two?” The doctor looked at him curiously.
“I think,” said Lethbridge even more slowly, “that that is a question we had better not inquire into too closely.”
IV
It was successful – brilliantly successful – the operation. Lizzie made it so; at any rate she helped considerably. It was she who held his hand as he went under the anaesthetic; it was she who cheered him up in the morning, when he awoke dazed and frightened in a strange room. And then she slipped away and disappeared from the house. It was only later that Lethbridge found a scrawled pencil note, strangely smudged, on his desk: “Let me no wot appens – LIZZIE.”
He didn’t know her address, so he couldn’t write and tell her that her Bill had come to consciousness again, completely recovered except for one thing. There was another blank in his mind now – the last three years. One of his first questions had been to ask how the fight had gone, and whether we’d broken through properly.
And then for a day or two Lizzie was forgotten; he had to make his own renunciation.
Molly came, a little surprised at his unusual invitation, and he left the door open so that she could see Peter in bed from one part of his sitting room.
“Where have you buried yourself, Jimmy?” she cried. “I’ve been–”And then her face grew deathly white as she looked into the bedroom. Her lips moved, though no sound came from them; her hands were clenching and unclenching.
“But I’m mad,” he heard her whisper at length, “quite mad. I’m seeing things, Jimmy – seeing things. Why – dear God! it’s Peter!”
She took a step or two forward, and Peter saw her.
“Molly,” he cried weakly, “Molly, my darling–”
And Jimmy Lethbridge saw her walk forward slowly and uncertainly to the man who had come back. With a shaking little cry of pure joy she fell on her knees beside the bed, and Peter put a trembling hand on her hair. Then Jimmy shut the door, and stared blankly in front of him.
It was Lizzie who roused him – Lizzie coming shyly into the room from the hall.
“I seed her come in,” she whispered. “She looked orl right. ’Ow is ’e?”
“He’s got his memory back, Lizzie,” he said gently. “But he’s forgotten the last three years.”
“Forgotten me, as ’e?” Her lips quive
red.
“Yes, Lizzie. Forgotten everything – barrel organ and all. He thinks he’s on sick leave from the war.”
“And she’s wiv ’im now, is she?”
“Yes – she’s with him, Lizzie.”
She took a deep breath – then she walked to the glass and arranged her hat – a dreadful hat with feathers in it.
“Well, I reckons I’d better be going. I don’t want to see ’im. It would break me ’eart. And I said goodbye to ’im that last night before the operation. So long, mister. I’ve ’ad me year – she can’t tike that away from me.”
And then she was gone. He watched her from the window walking along the pavement, with the feathers nodding at every step. Once she stopped and looked back – and the feathers seemed to wilt and die. Then she went on again – and this time she didn’t stop. She’d “’ad ’er year,” had Lizzie; maybe the remembrance of it helped her gallant little soul when she returned the barrel organ – the useless barrel organ.
“So this was your present, Jimmy.” Molly was speaking just behind him, and her eyes were very bright.
“Yes, Molly,” he smiled. “Do you like it?”
“I don’t understand what’s happened,” she said slowly. “I don’t understand anything except the one big fact that Peter has come back.”
“Isn’t that enough?” he asked gently. “Isn’t that enough, my dear? Peter’s come back – funny old Peter. The rest will keep.”
And then he took her left hand and drew off the engagement ring he had given her.
“Not on that finger now – Molly; though I’d like you to keep it now if you will.”
For a while she stared at him wonderingly. “Jimmy, but you’re big!” she whispered at length. “I’m so sorry!” She turned away as Peter’s voice, weak and tremulous, came from the other room.
“Come in with me, old man,” she said. “Come in and talk to him.”
But Jimmy shook his head.
“He doesn’t want me, dear; I’m just – just going out for a bit–”
Abruptly he left the room – they didn’t want him: any more than they wanted Lizzie.
Only she had had her year.
Chapter 10
Lady Cynthia and the Hermit
I
“My dear Cynthia, you haven’t seen our Hermit yet. He’s quite the show exhibit of the place.”
Lady Cynthia Stockdale yawned and lit a cigarette. Hermits belonged undoubtedly to the class of things in which she was not interested; the word conjured up a mental picture of a dirty individual of great piety, clothed in a sack. And Lady Cynthia loathed dirt and detested piety.
“A hermit, Ada!” she remarked, lazily. “I thought the brand was extinct. Does he feed ravens and things?”
It is to be regretted that theological knowledge was not her strong point, but Ada Laverton, her hostess, did not smile. From beneath some marvellously long eyelashes she was watching the lovely girl lying back in the deckchair opposite, who was vainly trying to blow smoke rings. A sudden wild idea had come into her brain – so wild as to be almost laughable. But from time immemorial wild ideas about their girlfriends have entered the brains of young married women, especially the lucky ones who have hooked the right man. And Ada Laverton had undoubtedly done that. She alternately bullied, cajoled, and made love to her husband John, in a way that eminently suited that cheerful and easygoing gentleman. He adored her quite openly and ridiculously, and she returned the compliment just as ridiculously, even if not quite so openly.
Moreover, Cynthia Stockdale was her best friend. Before her marriage they had been inseparable, and perhaps there was no one living who understood Cynthia as she did. To the world at large Cynthia was merely a much photographed and capricious beauty. Worthy mothers of daughters, who saw her reproduced weekly in the society papers, sighed inwardly with envy, and commented on the decadence of the aristocracy: the daughters tore out the pictures in a vain endeavour to copy her frocks. But it wasn’t the frocks that made Cynthia Stockdale: it was she who made the frocks. Put her in things selected haphazard from a jumble sale – put her in remnants discarded by the people who got it up, and she would still have seemed the best-dressed woman in the room. It was a gift she had – not acquired, but natural.
Lady Cynthia was twenty-five, and looked four years younger. Since the war she had been engaged twice – once to a man in the Blues, and once to a young and ambitious Member of Parliament. Neither had lasted long, and on the second occasion people had said unkind things. They had called her heartless and capricious, and she had scorned to contradict them. It mattered nothing to her, what people said: if they didn’t like her they could go away and have nothing to do with her. And since in her case it wasn’t a pose, but the literal truth, people did not go away. Only to Ada Laverton did she give her real confidence: only to Ada Laverton did she show the real soul that lay below the surface.
“I’m trying,” she had said, lying in that same chair a year previously, “I’m trying to find the real thing. I needn’t marry if I don’t want to; I haven’t got to marry for a home and a roof. And it’s got to be the right man. Of course I may make a mistake – a mistake which I shan’t find out till it’s too late. But surely when one has found it out before it’s too late, it’s better to acknowledge it at once. It’s no good making a second worse one by going through with it. I thought Arthur was all right” – Arthur was the Member of Parliament – “I’m awfully fond of Arthur still. But I’m not the right wife for him. We jarred on one another in a hundred little ways. And he hasn’t got a sense of humour. I shall never forget the shock I got when I first realised that. He seemed to think that a sense of humour consisted of laughing at humorous things, of seeing a jest as well as anyone else. He didn’t seem to understand me when I told him that the real sense of humour is often closer to tears than laughter. Besides” – she had added inconsequently – “he had a dreadful trick of whistling down my neck when we danced. No woman can be expected to marry a permanent draught. And as for poor old Bill – well Bill’s an angel. I still adore Bill. He is, I think, the most supremely handsome being I’ve ever seen in my life – especially when he’s got his full dress on. But, my dear, I blame myself over Bill. I ought to have known it before I got engaged to him; as a matter of fact I did know it. Bill is, without exception, the biggest fool in London. I thought his face might atone for his lack of brains; I thought that perhaps if I took him in hand he might do something in the House of Lords – his old father can’t live much longer – but I gave it up. He is simply incapable of any coherent thought at all. He can’t spell; he can’t add, and once when I asked him if he liked Rachmaninoff, he thought it was the man who had built the Pyramids.”
This and much more came back to Ada Laverton as she turned over in her mind the sudden wild idea that had come to her. Above all things she wanted to see Cynthia married; she was so utterly happy herself that she longed for her friend to share it too. She knew, as no one else did, what a wonderful wife and pal Cynthia would make to the right man. But it must be the right man; it must be the real thing. And like a blinding flash had come the thought of the Hermit – the Hermit who had come into the neighbourhood six months previously, and taken the little farm standing in the hollow overlooking the sea. For, as she frequently told John, if it hadn’t been for the fact that she was tied to a silly old idiot of a husband, she’d have married the Hermit herself.
“No, he doesn’t feed ravens,” she remarked at length. “Only puppies. He breeds Cairns and Aberdeens. We’ll stroll up and see him after tea.”
“A hermit breeding dogs!” Cynthia sat up lazily. “My dear, you intrigue me.”
“Oh! he’s not a bad young man,” said Ada Laverton, indifferently. “Quite passable looking, DSO and MC and that sort of thing. Been all over the world, and is really quite interesting when you can get him to talk.”
“What sort of age?” asked her friend.
“Thirty to thirty-five. You shall see him. But you’re not to go and turn his head; he’s very peaceful and happy as he is.”
Lady Cynthia smiled.
“I don’t think hermits are much in my line. A man’s job is to be up and doing; not to bury himself alive and breed dogs.”
“You tell him so,” said her hostess. “It will do him good.”
II
An excited rush of puppies – fat, bouncing, lolloping puppies; a stern order: “Heel, you young blighters, heel!” in a pleasant, cheerful voice; a laughing greeting from Ada Laverton, and Lady Cynthia Stockdale found herself shaking hands with the Hermit. She shook hands as a man shakes hands, with a firm, steady grasp, and she looked the person she was greeting straight in the eyes. To her that first handshake meant, more often than not, the final estimate of a stranger’s character; it always meant the first. And her first estimate of Desmond Brooke was good. She saw a man of clear skin and clear eye. He wore no hat, and his brown hair, curling a little at the temples, was slightly flecked with grey. His face was bronzed and a faint smile hovered in the corners of the eyes that met hers fair and square. His shirt was open at the neck; the sleeves were rolled up, showing a pair of muscular brown arms. He was clean shaven, and his teeth were very white and regular. So much, in detail, she noticed during that first half-second; then she turned her attention to the puppies.
“What toppers!” she remarked. “What absolute toppers!”
She picked a fat, struggling mixture of legs and ecstatically slobbering tongue out of the mêlée at her feet, and the Hermit watched her gravely. It struck him that in the course of a fairly crowded life he had never seen a more lovely picture than the one made by this tall slender girl with the wriggling puppy in her arms. And another thing struck him also, though he said nothing. Possibly it was accidental, but the puppy she had picked up, and which was now making frantic endeavours to lick her face, was out and away the best of the litter. Almost angrily he told himself that it was an accident, and yet he could not quite banish the thought that it was an accident which would happen every time. Thoroughbred picks thoroughbred; instinctively the girl would pick the best. His mouth set a little, giving him a look of sternness, and at that moment their eyes met over the puppy’s head.