“Who is it?” Jay called from the kitchen.
My mother’s eyes locked on mine; hers were the same brown as the woman I saw in the mirror every morning. She didn’t turn her head when she shouted back.
“It’s your sister.”
I stepped into the living room. The Christmas tree was still up and bright with tinsel, even if all the strands of colored lights were dark. Jay stepped into the doorway from the kitchen at the same time a long-limbed, lanky boy with a ghost of a mustache came around the corner from the dining room. Jay’s alarm and astonishment looking at me couldn’t have been more than mine on looking at my baby brother, Curtis.
“Jayné?” he said, and the voice was deeper, but it was him.
“Hey,” I said, and put up my arms. We hugged like it meant something, and for the first time in a long time I felt my anxiety ratchet down a notch. I might be wasting my time looking for answers. My parents might think I was the Whore of Babylon. But I’d gotten to hug my little brother, so no matter what, the trip couldn’t be a total loss. And then I felt Jay’s arms around us both. We stood there for a few seconds, the three of us, like old veterans who’d shared the same foxhole.
“Jaybird?”
The brown-skinned woman in the kitchen doorway was maybe two years older than me, with a round, pretty face and a baby bump. Jay stepped to the woman’s side, his hand on her shoulder.
“Jayné, this is Carla. Carla, this is my sister, Jayné.”
The woman seemed hesitant about taking my hand, but my brother damn near crushed me.
“You came for the wedding,” she said.
“I . . . ah. Did,” I said. “I came for the wedding.”
I introduced Chogyi Jake and Ex all around. They were greeted with the friendly confusion that came from being at a family gathering without being family. Normally in situations like this I called them my employees, which was technically true and made people look at me differently, but I knew the next question would be what I employed them for. I didn’t know yet how I wanted to bring in the whole demon-hunting thing, but I was pretty sure that wasn’t it.
They’d been sitting in the kitchen, all except for Curtis, who had his laptop open on the dining room table with three flavors of social media connecting him, I figured, to other bored teenagers trapped at home for the holidays. The things that jumped out at me were the changes: the old white fridge that I’d stuck notes and kid art on had been replaced by a brushed-steel model. The chairs around the kitchen table had new pads on the seats. Looking down the three steps into the TV room, they’d invested in a massive flat-screen on the back wall. The couch was the same one I’d napped on. The table had the scratch where I’d failed to successfully carve a jack-o’-lantern.
“Can I get you and your friends something to drink?” Mom asked as we filed in.
“That would be great,” I said.
“Just water,” Ex said, with a smile.
“Ex,” Carla said. Her smile seemed forced, and her gaze kept cutting back to me. “That’s an interesting name.” The way she said it made it a question. Ex smiled.
“Short for Xavier,” he said. “Some friends made it into a nickname, and it stuck. Not the worst thing they’ve called me.”
“How interesting,” my mother said. “I hope you’ll be coming to the wedding too?”
“We wouldn’t want to intrude,” Chogyi Jake said.
“Of course not,” she said in a way that could have meant You wouldn’t be intruding or Of course you wouldn’t want that with equal facility. Chogyi Jake’s smile was warm and open as always. What I knew of his life pretty much precluded caring much about whether my mother approved of him, but he wasn’t going to be rude about any of it. He was good that way. Still, I felt the warring urges to sweep my friends away from her impeccably polite disapproval or to stand up for them. I hadn’t been in the house five minutes, and I had already reverted to eighteen.
“Where’ve you been?” Curtis asked, curiosity and enthusiasm blinding him to every uncomfortable nuance and subtext.
“Santa Fe,” I said. “And parts of northern New Mexico, but we spent Christmas in Santa Fe.”
“You have friends there?” Beside him, Carla was checking something on her cell phone.
“Sort of,” I said.
“Well, you know the wedding’s the third,” Curtis said, flopping onto a kitchen chair. “A bunch of Carla’s family’s coming in. They’re having it at the church.”
The way he said it made it seem impressive, like that wasn’t the normal place for a wedding. And then I imagined Pastor Michael with his carefully combed hair and constant chummy grin welcoming a pregnant girl up to the altar, and it got a little impressive for me too.
“It’s good to see you,” Jay said. “We’ve been worried.”
“No reason to be,” I said. “Sorry I’ve been scarce.”
Jay smiled.
“It’s just good to see you again. I’m glad you came for this.”
Mom finished serving water to Chogyi Jake and Ex, and turned to me.
“Well? Sit down, sit down. No point us all standing around like straws. How’s college treating you, dear? Have you picked a major?”
Ex’s eyebrows rose. His glance at me said You really have been out of touch, haven’t you?
“Is . . . is Dad . . . ?”
“He’s in the garage,” Mom said, nodding toward the door at the side of the TV room. As if I might have forgotten how to get there. “He’s working in there.”
“I’m just . . .” I said. “I’ll be right back.”
The garage was his space. The side wall was covered in Peg-Board, with the outlines of his tools to mark where each of them should hang. A few nuggets of cat litter crunched under my feet, escapees from the pile he kept under the car to soak up dripping engine oil. He sat at his workbench, his back to me. The directional lamp lit his hands, the white sleeves rolled halfway up his forearms. He was organizing a can of mixed screws, plucking them into piles by thickness, dividing them into Phillips and flathead. It was like watching a kid playing jacks. The kind of thing people always meant to do but never got around to. Unless there was something else that they particularly didn’t want to do.
“So,” I said. “I guess you knew I was coming.”
“Your mother said so,” he replied. His voice was low. In another man I would have called it sullen, but this was my father, so all I could really hear was disapproval. “You here to borrow money?”
“I don’t need money,” I said, chuckling. Nothing I had bought—houses, cars, tickets to Europe, stays in expensive hotels—could even make a dent in the fortune Eric had left me.
He turned to face me. I’d been prepared for a lot of things. Anger, dismissal, the empty coldness that came when he withheld his affections as punishment. There was more than that in him. There was hatred. And also sorrow.
“Well,” he said. “I guess that answers that, then, doesn’t it?” He turned his back to me, his fingers shifting the little bits of metal. The scraping sound was like claws against stone.
“I don’t know,” I said. “Look, I understand that you’re angry with me. And I understand why. But I need to ask you some questions.”
“Why would I be angry with you? What you do with your own’s got nothing to do with me. You just leave me and my family out of it.”
It felt like a slap. I actually had to fight to catch my breath.
“Your family?” I said. “They’re yours, are they?”
“They are,” he said.
“And I’m not.”
“Not anymore,” he said. “Not like you are. You made your choices. I made mine.”
It was like being hollowed. If he’d turned and struck me, I’d have rung like a bell. There was that much nothing in me. I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t know how to say it. When I did speak, I almost expected it to be her—my rider—taking control, but the voice was all me.
“Jesus fucking Christ,” I said, pullin
g the obscenity out in slow, deliberate syllables. His shoulders bunched, but he didn’t turn back. Didn’t rise to the bait. I was crying now, the tears actually stung. “I mean, goddamn it.”
“I won’t have that kind of language in my house,” he said. His voice sounded thick. Whether it was rage or tears of his own, I didn’t know and it didn’t matter.
“Yeah, because language is what’s important to you. Saying the right words. Actually being a good man? Actually treating me with respect or listening to me or even being in the house to say hello to me when I show up would be wildly un-Christlike. No, hiding in your garage so that I have to come back out here, and then treating me like shit, and telling me I’m not your family anymore—that’s way better than cursing.”
I had my hand halfway to his shoulder. I’d intended to shake him, or turn him around to face me, or something. I don’t know what. The invisible wave hit me like the shock of a bomb without the explosion.
Chi. Raw will. Magic. Whatever you wanted to call it, I’d felt it enough times to recognize it. Someone—or something—had just released a lot of power. Too much power to have come from a human.
Inside the house, glass shattered and my mother screamed.
Dad pulled a drawer open and took out a pistol. The barrel gleamed in the light, clean and freshly oiled. His glance at me was fear and vicious anger. Whatever was in there, whatever had happened, he was going to head in like he could handle it.
He was going to get himself killed.
“No. Stay back,” I said, jumping for the door. “I’ll take care of this.”
“Fuck you,” my father said.
chapter three
My father and I bolted out into the TV room practically together. The air stank of heated iron, and my mother wasn’t the only one screaming. The first thing I saw was Carla squatting on the kitchen floor, her hand to her belly and her eyes wide. Ex stood in front of her, his hands in fists. The television and the kitchen windows were shattered, and three people were standing by the kitchen table. Two were holding pump shotguns, one at Curtis, one at Chogyi Jake. The third was turning to look at me.
Every square inch of the intruders’ skin was marked with ink. The first time I’d seen anything like this, I’d been in an apartment in Denver, talking with a vampire. Back then I hadn’t known what any of the markings meant. After three years of studying, I recognized some. The swirling cross of the Mark of Enki. The angled, cruel letters of the Goetic alphabet. They were wizards. They were the same wizards who had killed my uncle, who had hidden the viciously evil haugsvarmr under Grace Memorial Hospital.
The Invisible College was standing in my parents’ kitchen.
The one without the gun lifted his hands and shouted, and the sound was more than sound. It carried the weight of will. The ragged, meat-tearing noise of it staggered my father back into me, and I put my hand between his shoulder blades to steady him. The wizard’s jaw unhinged, and his mouth gaped wider than a normal human’s could have. I acted without thought, and I didn’t act alone. I felt my body breathing in, taking the power of the wizard’s tainted shout into my lungs, pulling his power out of the air. It wasn’t something a human could do, but the Black Sun was with me, guiding me.
“No,” I said, softly and with enough power that the house shuddered with it. The unarmed man closed his too-wide mouth and smiled like he’d won something. He glanced down at Carla, but she didn’t see it. She was staring at me.
The report of my father’s gun was deafening, but it was only sound. Without the power of will behind it, it was empty as an echo. The unarmed man’s hand flickered, plucking the bullet from the air. Carla shrieked and put her hands up over her ears. My father fired twice more. The man batted the bullets away, his face twisted in concentration. His eyes fixed on me.
He was young. His shaved head left him looking thin and oddly fragile despite the tattoos and the intense power burning off him. I had the brief image of a boy trying to hold on to a fire hose. His will arced out, invisible and unmistakable as a pressure change, and with an almost physical click I was in the familiar space just behind my own eyes.
I was being ridden.
My body went still as a stone, and I could see the wizard’s eyes narrow. He’d sensed the change. My father was shouting, holding the gun in front of himself like a cross. I squatted a little, lowering my center of gravity, and kicked gently at the back of his knee, taking him out of the fight without actually hurting him. As he went down, the rider in me moved past him. The other two—the ones with the shotguns—were an older man with brown skin and a dusting of white hair and a thin, pale woman with eyes the color of gas flame. I remembered the first time the Invisible College had attacked me, Midian Clark walking among the conquered firing bullets into their heads. One of them had been a woman who could have been this woman’s twin.
My body didn’t hesitate. With one hand on the rail to steady me, I swung up the three steps from the TV room to the kitchen. The shattered glass glittered on the floor. The older man started to turn his shotgun away from Chogyi Jake and toward me. In the corner of my vision, my father hunched behind his overstuffed chair as if it would give him cover. My left hand slapped the shotgun barrel up, not grabbing it but striking hard enough to make the man stagger back. I kicked three times at his left knee. He fired the shotgun as he fell, shattering the overhead lights, but Chogyi Jake was on him, controlling both the shotgun and the fall.
“Surrender!” the young man shouted, his will pressing against me like a storm wind. Behind him the woman shifted, her shotgun tracking away from Ex and Carla. The Black Sun kicked past the young man, slamming my foot into the kitchen table. It slid across the room, breaking against the woman’s hip. I saw the tabletop scar from my jack-o’-lantern carving snap in half.
I stepped in, driving my elbow up toward the young man’s throat, but he was at least as fast as I was. I felt his counterstrike in my stomach without seeing where it came from. My breath left me, and it was my turn to stagger. My feet slipped on the glass and I dropped to my knees. I caught a glimpse of my mother and Curtis huddled under the dining room table. Good, I thought, stay there.
The young man stood above me, his hands out before him. His eyes had turned a uniform bloody red. The rider paused, resting on my fingertips and the balls of my feet. Distantly, I could feel her uncertainty. He turned his palms toward me with a word I didn’t recognize, and an invisible sledgehammer hit me in the chest.
I heard Ex calling my name, but it seemed to come from a long way away. Carla was screaming too. I wondered where Jay was. Getting help, I hoped. Calling the police. By the time they came, it would all be over, one way or the other, but at least he wasn’t in the room. It was one less person I needed to protect. Time seemed to be moving strangely. Slowly but discontinuously. I was falling to the floor, my heart a bloom of pain, and then I was on my knees again. I felt the rider’s will gathering in my right hand, and I tried to add my own to it. When I hit the wizard, the blow lifted him off his feet and threw him against the counter. His head hit the cabinet, splintering it. Half a dozen coffee mugs skittered down around him like snow, shattering on the floor. I leaped, but he was already elsewhere.
“You cannot defeat us!” he shouted, but it wasn’t true. His strength was fading. A feral grin pulled at my lips. He was already growing weaker. The Black Sun and I? We were just warming up.
I surged across the debris-strewn kitchen, hammering at him with my fists and my will. I felt him shifting from assault to defense, and I leaned into it. The blue-eyed woman staggered to her feet, and I spared enough attention to kick the shotgun out of her hands and send her back into the living room. I felt a little explosion behind me, and the older man Chogyi Jake had been fighting ran past me, unarmed and limping, for the front door. The rider glanced back. Chogyi Jake was on one knee in the dining room, blood running from his nose and mouth. He had the shotgun in his hand. Behind him, Mom was curled against the far wall, her face pale. I didn’t
know where Curtis had gone. I could only hope he wasn’t chasing after them.
The unarmed wizard’s eyes had lost their bloody look and gone for a soft brown.
“What do you want from me?” the Black Sun asked. The power in her words reached into the man, pulled at him. He choked a little, trying not to speak, then bit down on his tongue hard enough that blood pinked his teeth.
“Jayné!” Ex shouted. “Behind you.”
I turned.
In the TV room, my father had found his feet. He stood at the end of the couch, holding the pistol with both hands. The barrel shifted from the wizard to me, then back again, as if he wasn’t sure who was the real threat. Fear boiled off him like steam. He was a middle-aged man with a paunchy belly and jowls that were starting to sag. Redness like a rash crawled up his sternum toward his neck. This was the man I’d feared so much. This was the man who’d dominated my life so deeply that I’d fled my home and my friends—a whole life—just so I could say I’d done something of my own.
And now he was going to shoot me.
“Gary!” my mother shouted, her voice low and rough. “You put that down!”
I could count on one hand the number of times my mother had used Dad’s given name. He shifted the gun toward the boy again, then back toward me. I waited for the muzzle flash, horrified. He lowered the gun. As I turned back toward the wizard, he drove his forehead into the bridge of my nose. I heard the cartilage break more than felt it. He opened his mouth and shouted wordlessly.
The Oath of the Abyss was the common name of a terrible spell. The rough guess I’d been given was that each time someone used it, it dropped their life span by about a year. I’d seen it done twice, both times by Aubrey. From a normal human, it was enough to rock back a rider. Now, from the wizard and whatever spirit was riding his body, it was like getting a hurricane full in my face. The Black Sun staggered, and I felt it lose control of my muscles for a moment. We were both standing there, trying to keep my feet. The overheated iron scent broke, and the kitchen only smelled like the cold breeze through the broken windows. The young wizard sagged, his gaze unfocused and lost.
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