by Robert Stone
“I was a crewman on a crab boat. I was just out of the Marine Corps. Our boat was MV Water Brothers, out of Homer. We were over the limit on size and maturity. There were shoulder-seasonal changes I guess we weren’t aware of.”
“How come jail time?”
“We had a little petty grab-ass with the Coasties and I was up front. So I did three months in a converted prefab Air Force barracks outside Richardson. It was all fishery workers in there. They’d applied federal laws for years and then the state changed a lot of them.”
“Too bad. You’re a young kid practically. You were a veteran just out.”
“Yeah. Sentences were way excessive. Everyone says that.”
“Tough. But you did OK in later life. Here you are . . .”
“Yeah.” Brookman had the sense that Salmone was speaking to him more as an apprehended perpetrator than a college professor.
“Very sad about this young lady. Do you have some more to tell us?”
“How would I?”
“I don’t know, Mr. Brookman. Maud Stack comes to your house. It’s a blizzard outside. She’s troubled and intoxicated. But you don’t let her in. Why?”
Brookman looked at him a while before he answered.
“She was there to intimidate me. And my family.”
“Really?”
“That’s right.”
“You didn’t think you could help her?”
“Only by suggesting she leave.”
“You figured you could help her by suggesting she leave?”
“Yes.”
“Did you shove her out?”
“Shove her? Of course not.”
“Guide her back in the street?”
“I didn’t touch her.”
“I’m sorry, Mr. Brookman. We have cell phone videos. You’re touching her. You’re actively touching her.”
“When we were in the street and the traffic was coming I tried to pull her back on the sidewalk. That’s what you have a record of.”
“Myself, I’m surprised you forced her out on the street in the weather.”
“I didn’t force her out on the street. I told her to go home. If she’d done what I told her, she’d have been all right.”
“But you lost your temper?”
“I didn’t lose my temper, Lieutenant Salmone. I did not lose my temper. I asked Miss Stack to go back to her dorm because I have a child in the house who I thought might be frightened.”
“You could have called us.”
“There was no need.”
“Maybe there was. Maybe she oughta have called us.”
“Nobody needed the police then. It was personal. It was not violent. We didn’t require cops.”
“Maybe it was a lovers’ quarrel, huh? Because everybody in this place knows you were in bed with this girl. Sounds like she was in your way big-time. Maybe she should have called us.”
“Are you accusing me of pushing her in front of a car?”
“What if I tell you I have people saw you do that?”
“You can’t, goddamn it! What people saw was me trying to get her out from in front of the traffic! Both our lives were in danger.” He rose from his chair. Salmone backed his own chair away. “What bullshit are you people trying to sell? Is this the college you’re working for or what?”
“It’s against the law to sleep with your student.”
“It is not against the fucking law, Salmone! Adult-on-adult sexuality is not illegal. As yet.”
“It’s against the college rules.”
“That’s not your problem, sir!”
They glared at each other across the desk.
“Hard-ass,” Salmone said. “Aren’t you, Professor?”
“Too hard for you, Mr. Cop. If you try to make some kind of killer fiend out of me, I swear I’ll sue you, your city and anybody who I catch collaborating with you in such a scheme.”
Brookman settled in his seat and put his elbows on the desk. There were a few other city cops working in the station and they stopped to listen. A few of them moved closer to Salmone’s office.
“Maybe I should have driven her home,” Brookman said. “Obviously I should have driven her home.”
Salmone said nothing.
“Are we finished?” Brookman asked.
Salmone stood up.
“Who do you think that driver was?”
Brookman stared at him in surprise.
“I hope you find him.”
“We always do,” Salmone said. “You have anything more to tell us, Professor, you have my card. Don’t hesitate. You gonna be around?”
Brookman thought about it for a moment. His not being around was an idea that had not occurred to him.
“Well,” Salmone said. “We’ll be here.”
Brookman decided to engage a lawyer the next morning.
30
ONE COLD DAY STACK TOOK the Long Island Rail Road to the McCallum and Jenkins funeral home, the people who had contained his wife’s ashes.
“I’d like my daughter’s remains beside my late wife’s,” he told the slightly overweight, fair-haired undertaker, a McCallum. McCallum expressed his sympathy, especially for a person so young. Stack saw that his sympathy was as genuine as it could be in such circumstances. The younger McCallums went to seminars and did meditation to the tinkling of bells.
“Have you arranged this with the church, sir? I presume interment will follow a Mass of resurrection.”
“I don’t think she would want a Mass.”
“Mr. Stack, isn’t your late wife at the cathedral?”
“Holy Redeemer, right.”
“It would follow the same procedure, Mr. Stack. May I ask why you believe Ms. Stack wouldn’t want a Mass?”
“She wasn’t religious. She loved her mother very much. She missed her mother a whole lot. She would want to be beside her.”
“Sir,” the young man said gently, “it all goes together. Can you be sure she wouldn’t want to follow mom’s way?”
“I have no beef with you,” Stack explained. “I’m hoping to take care of this.”
“We’ll follow your instructions, Mr. Stack. I think we’ve served the Stack family for generations.”
“Since your place was on First Avenue.”
It was true, although Stack had never much thought about it. McCallum and Jenkins funeral parlors had managed to remain local, moving in the same pattern of families like the Stacks, from certain Manhattan neighborhoods. They had buried a lot of soldiers since after the Civil War. Different kinds of people favored different firms, and M&J was well regarded by the unlucky. The McCallums had extended credit to prisoners’ widows without benefits or influence, and for reasons of their own they had served AIDS victims from the beginning. There were those who disliked that.
“One thing we can’t do,” McCallum said, “is guarantee a place with Ms. Stack’s mother in Holy Redeemer. They have their rules and costs, et cetera. So you’ll have to deal with them, Mr. Stack.”
“The urns are standard, right?”
“Sir?”
“The urns, the whaddaya calls? What you put ashes in. They all look alike, right? Do you make them? Do you sell them?”
“Usually . . . ,” McCallum said.
“Pick up my Maud. Put her in the thing. I’ll talk to the church then. I need to do this, see.”
He gave McCallum a copy of the death certificate.
“It’s a very simple ceremony,” McCallum said. “These physical things, the earthbound things, they’re partly for friends and family. In the tradition.”
“Still,” Stack said. It was what Maud would have said.
“I don’t know what to say, Mr. Stack. I’m sorry.”
“I’m determined to try to get Maud what she wanted. She never had a life.”
McCallum looked him in the eye.
“I can understand your feeling that, Mr. Stack. The thing is, we’ve always worked with the church. Within its traditions.”
“I’ll talk to them. I want my daughter with her mother.”
“We can do a lot of things to serve you, Mr. Stack. I can’t simply get your daughter’s remains into Holy Redeemer Church.”
The next day he took the train to the cathedral to look at the niches along the wall. Ashes were held in little marble-like repositories that had lids on the tops like cigarette boxes, and in glass cases like imitation medieval reliquaries Stack remembered growing up with. In his own parish church in Richmond Hill there was a bone in a similar case. The faithful would kneel devoutly in front of the bone and smooch the glass on the front of it so that there was always a surface of spittle-laced, fogged-up glass on the case containing the alleged bone of Saint Wallbanger or something reposed in it. Next to it was a gray rag of dingy sheeting to wipe the glass with, in order not to catch polio or mouth fungus or something like it from the glass. Sane people who felt compelled to take part in this kissy game staged a lip-smacking air kiss and pumped the rag on the front of it, wondering what diseases you could catch off the cloth. It was a disgusting little sacramental moment a guy could joke about with the right people.
31
BROOKMAN CALLED ON Dean Spofford at the dean’s home, not at his office in College Hall. John Spofford’s house could surprise, with its grace, people who had spent a lot of time entering tastefully appointed residences on eastern liberal arts college campuses. The grandest of the contents in the Spofford house belonged to the college, but a great deal of what was luminous and beautiful belonged to Spofford and his wife. The best effects were Mrs. Spofford’s.
The Brookmans and the Spoffords had been acquainted for some years. Steve Brookman and John Spofford were, at times anyway, close to friends. They had both served in the Marine Corps during the same period. When he entered the house, Brookman caught a glimpse of Mary Pick, so known though she was Dean Spofford’s wife. Brookman told her good morning. It cheered him that she gave him a friendly look and spoke a good morning.
“Good morning, Steven. It’s so terrible.” Mary Pick did not ironize or shave inflections in times of trouble. “John will be in in just a moment. You don’t need anything?”
He listened to her withdrawing heels on the polished hallway floor and was actually comforted.
The dean received guests in the sort of elegant room that went with his job. As he sat in it, waiting, Brookman meditated on the footsteps of the woman who had addressed him, a woman he liked and admired, a woman much observed and speculated upon at the college.
She was a very attractive blue-eyed brunette, English in congenial and unthreatening ways. As had become virtually required, she had an occupation in addition to being the dean’s wife; with a certificate in art history from the Courtauld, she held a position at an auction house that took her twice a week to New York. This allowed some college folk to refer to her as a gallery strumpet. Because she was so fine and reticent she had become the object of fantasies. People, particularly people who disliked John Spofford, hoped she had a lover, likely in New York. Egotists, mostly male, dreamed. Mrs. Spofford was used to lingering glances—even to the rare boozy attack of footsie—at dinner parties. She coped without effort. In their dorms, her student admirers waggled and blazed. What secrets had she?
One of her secrets was that every Sunday she walked a mile and a half, in every weather, in an ankle-length raincoat and with a scarf tied under her chin, to St. Blaise’s, a ruinous church where a Mass was said at eight in the morning in Latin by a tiny, eighty-something Irish priest. Occasionally she helped an elderly Ecuadorian cleaning woman tidy the retired priest’s back-garden apartment. Both the priest and the old lady would stand at some sort of attention when Mrs. Spofford arrived, and she had given up trying to put them at ease. Once the priest had started to rise from his chair at her presence, and she had discouraged his doing it so commandingly that he had almost died sitting there. Mrs. Spofford was sometimes useful at Mass because he often forgot the responses and she had them handy.
Dean Spofford looked up from the pile of college-printed documents he had been signing. Handouts. Condolences. The kinds of palliative statements he was so good at. He stared at Brookman.
“I know what you’re going through,” the dean said, touching Brookman’s knee. “I know that sounds stupid,” he added.
Brookman, humiliated at the sound of the words, closed his eyes and shook his head.
The dean straightened himself in his chair. “Sorry, Steve. Really.”
“It’s all right, man. What is there to say? It’s hard to imagine.”
For a moment Brookman thought he might really go to pieces, cry on the bastard’s shoulder. A practiced shoulder, no doubt, often cried on by innocence, misfortune, bereavement, remorse. It made him, on second consideration, regret that Mary Spofford had espied him there. He liked and admired her so much and dreaded what she must have been thinking. For a moment he silently observed the dean’s discomfort. Would he let me cry on his wife’s shoulder? He would have loved to cry there.
“So I’ve spent the last forty-eight hours wondering what our reaction should be,” Spofford said.
There were limits. Brookman brought himself under control.
“Whose reaction? Reaction to what? To my killing Maud Stack?”
“Nobody thinks you killed Maud Stack, Steve, but I can tell you what they do think. They think you encouraged and seduced her, taking advantage of your age, experience and position at the college. Abused your responsibility to her and your duty as her professor.”
“Give me a break. You never slept with a student? You didn’t know about me and Maud Stack? You don’t know, as we speak, about other liaisons in this place?”
“Caused in her as a result of that exploitation an emotional state that led to her involvement in a fatal accident. And that your encouragement and seduction was widely known in spite of your being a parent in this community and long married to our friend and colleague Ellie. And people think that those in a position to intervene, to say a word, lay a hand on your cuff and advise you—nay, tell you—to cut it out, did nothing. Knew and did nothing. That’s what people think.”
Brookman said nothing.
“Your request for a leave is denied. Nor will your contract be renewed. As for your questions: I have never slept with one of my students. I emphasize that this speaks only for my discretion. I did know about you and the late Maud Stack. I know about the liaisons of which you speak. I know and the trustees know and even His Dimness the President knows, and I’m going to pay for it. He’s going to pay for it too.”
“Sorry,” Brookman said.
“It’s all right, Steve. I should have seen it coming. It’s an age of transition, isn’t it? The old arrangements fall before the new arrangements. That which was unspeakable may thrive and is blessed. That which was tolerated is an abomination. We’ve been living it. The fine old shit don’t float. Now me—I’ll never get a billet like this—that I enjoy so much—again.”
The front door opened and closed, and the dean looked through the curtained window to see his wife greeting two young women on the street outside.
“Will they really sack you, John? Over this?”
“Yeah. Not just this, I suppose. But yes, they really will.”
“I really am sorry,” Brookman said.
“Sure. But enough about me—let’s talk about you. You have a month to quietly vacate. If you want to haggle over details, get a lawyer.”
Brookman started to stand up.
“Hear me out. Will Ellie leave if you do? Because naturally she can stay, no problem.”
“I’m pretty sure she’ll go with me. I hope she does.”
“Too bad, because it’s unlikely she’ll find a setup like this anytime soon either. I’ll do what I can to see that the college gives her all the recommendations she needs. People may not be as helpful to you because they see you as an outdoors writer. Rather than an educator.”
“Yes,” Brookman said. It was awful about Spofford an
d even more awful about Mary Pick because of the horrors that had occurred in her life and the comfort she had found at the college. He appreciated Spofford’s not mentioning it. It was all he could do not to apologize again.
On his way to the department office to give notice that he would not be conducting his class next semester, he passed her, chatting with her two companions. He felt as if there on the street he might actually lose his composure.
32
AFTER THE WEEKEND Stack decided it was time to lay Maud beside her mother. Another spell of warm winter weather had settled on the region. Monday was the warmest December day in seventy years. He took the train out to Nassau County, to the Church of the Holy Redeemer, where his wife’s ashes reposed. He had left a voicemail message with McCallum and Jenkins the day before, letting them know about his intention. He called McCallum again before setting out and this time reached the man himself.
“We may have run into a snag,” McCallum said.
“What snag? You have everything ready, don’t you?”
“We have everything ready on our side. I expected to hear from the bishop’s office, but judging from their call today I don’t know if they’ve made a decision.”
“I want to do this today. If I don’t get it done . . .” He left the statement unfinished. “I want to get it done.”
“I’d wait until we heard from them.”
“Are you in today?”
“Yeah, I’m in,” McCallum said. “But I’d wait.”
“I’ll be over,” Stack told him.
He took a taxi from the station to the funeral parlor. At the front entrance he found he had to ring for admittance. There was no one inside except James McCallum, funereally dapper, at his desk in the front office. The lingering scent of lilies, he supposed, must be constant. He sat down in one of the chairs intended for mourning clients and took out his checkbook. The undertaker had an itemized bill ready for him, and Stack wrote the check for the full amount.
“So,” Stack said, “do we take it over?”