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by Laurell K. Hamilton


  He gave me a long look out of those chocolate-brown eyes. “If the shoe fits…,” he said, with an unpleasant smile.

  I guess we were going to fight after all. “It isn’t me you keep comparing everybody to, Richard, it’s Raina.”

  He actually blushed under the permanent tan of his skin. It was maybe the second time I’d ever seen him blush. “Don’t, Anita.”

  Micah had gone very still beside me, as if he were wondering if he should take his arm out from between us.

  “You back off of me, and I’ll back off of you,” I said.

  “Richard,” it was Louie, “we had this talk, remember?”

  Richard stood up, and his power washed around the room like a wind from the mouth of hell. It actually hurt where it touched. “I remember the talk.” He stared down at me, and there was such hatred on his face. “I tried last night, Anita, I really tried.”

  My throat was tight, and my eyes burned. I was already regretting what I’d said, would have done anything to take it back. “I know you did, Richard.” My voice sounded small.

  “But it’s never enough, is it?”

  I took a deep breath and stood up. We faced each other. I wanted to run away, but I stood there and watched the hate and pain on his face, the way his big hands kept flexing into fists. His anger breathed through the room like some sort of invisible burning beast.

  “I don’t know what to say, Richard.”

  “What would be enough?” he asked.

  “What?” I asked.

  “What would be enough? Move in with you and Micah and Nathaniel? Move in here with you and Jean-Claude? What do I have to do to win with you, Anita?”

  “It isn’t about winning, Richard. God, don’t you understand that?”

  “No,” he said, “I don’t.” He pointed at Jean-Claude. “Him I get. I feel his pull, too. He’s my master, too.” He pointed at Micah. “But him, I don’t get him. He’s in my place in your life, don’t you understand that?”

  I nodded, and tried to breathe past the tight burning in my throat and eyes. I would not cry, damn it. “I understand that,” I said.

  He pointed at Nathaniel, who’d gone very still beside the couch. “How can you share her with that?”

  It was Micah who figured out that he was the one Richard was talking to. “Nathaniel is not a that, Richard.” Micah’s voice held a thread of anger.

  “Do you fuck him? Do you let him fuck you? Or do you just fuck Anita at the same time?”

  The unshed tears were going away on a hot wave of anger. I fed the anger, embraced it, called it sweet names, because I’d rather fight than cry.

  “The way you and Jean…,” I started to say.

  Jean-Claude called the fight. He called it with a push of power that staggered both of us. I nearly fell, and Richard looked ashen. We both turned and looked at the vampire. His eyes were glittering blue pools, like the night sky was on fire.

  “Enough of this.” His voice whispered through the room like an echo of bats, bouncing off the curtains.

  I knew he was our master, but I’d never felt him do anything like this to us. Never felt him simply throw his power into us and stop us in our tracks. I hadn’t known he had it in him.

  “We are in danger here, do you not understand that? Most of our guards are wererats. If Rafael pulls them out, we do not have enough guards to keep ourselves safe.” He uncurled from the couch and walked toward us, his long black curls moving in the wind of his own power.

  We watched him come toward us like small birds that wanted to fly from the snake, but couldn’t make ourselves move.

  “I am sorry, mon lupe, that you wish her to marry you and abandon the rest of us. I am sorry, ma petite, that you still love him, and that some part of you wishes you could do exactly what he wants. I am sorry that I have bound you together into such pain. But there is no time for this. We need Rafael and his people. He knows that, or he would not have come like this.” Jean-Claude stood in front of us, and his power pushed so that I swayed in the wind of it. I knew he’d gained in power, but I hadn’t understood, until that moment, just how much. “I will pick a blood donor among the rats. I will urge others of my vampires to do the same. You, ma petite, must choose one of his people for food. You must embrace Sampson, or do something for him that will allow his honor to step aside and let you take one of the wererats ahead of him as food for your ardeur.”

  He stopped in front of us, close enough that he could have touched us. For the first time in years, I prayed that he wouldn’t touch me. If he did, I’d do anything he asked.

  He touched Richard’s arm, and he shuddered under that light touch. He closed his eyes and swayed. I touched Richard’s other arm, and I thought, No. No, don’t do this.

  My necromancy opened inside me in a rush that left me wide-eyed, open-mouthed. Because it wasn’t just my necromancy. I felt it like an offering to Jean-Claude. If he could figure out how to use it, it was his to command while he touched us.

  Richard breathed, “Don’t, please, don’t.”

  I wasn’t sure which of us he was talking to. I stared at Jean-Claude, and felt my eyes go. I saw the room through that vampiric flame, but it wasn’t someone else’s powers taking over my eyes, it was me. If there’d been a mirror I knew my eyes would have been filled with a black-brown light of my own eyes, as if I were the vampire.

  Richard collapsed to his knees between us, with our hands still on his arms. He whispered, “Oh, God.” I looked down at him, and he gazed up at me with eyes turned to brown flame. Not my fire taking over him, but his own true brown eyes turned to vampire fire.

  21

  RICHARD WAS STARING at himself in the bathroom mirror. His big hands clung to the marble sink edge as if he were trying to leave an imprint of his hands on the stone. I’d tried to be comforting. I’d tried to be reassuring. Nothing I said had helped. Jean-Claude had been with us, but Richard truly didn’t want to talk to him. He seemed to blame Jean-Claude for this new sign that his humanity was slipping away.

  “The glow will fade, Richard,” I said, not for the first time. Since he wouldn’t let me touch him, I was left to lean against the far side of the sink and wall, arms crossed under my breasts. I’d already checked on my bra that was hanging by the towels. It was still too wet to wear.

  He shook his head. “This is what my eyes would look like if I were the vampire.”

  I wasn’t sure it was a question, but I answered it anyway. “Yes.”

  He looked at me, and it was unsettling to see his tanned and very alive face set with eyes that I’d only seen in the faces of the undead. It didn’t match, that life and those eyes. His fear came off him in waves, so that his power bit and flitted against my skin like hot ash from a windy fire.

  “You’re not afraid of this. Why, why aren’t you afraid of this?” he asked.

  I shrugged and tried to put into words something I was trying not to think about. “I’m treating this the way I treat an emergency in the middle of a police investigation, Richard. You don’t get too hung up on the horrible details or you stop being able to function. You keep moving forward, because you have to.”

  “This isn’t your job, Anita. This isn’t my job!” The air was suddenly close and hot. I was bathed in his power, and it was hard to breathe past it. The wolf that was always inside me now, stirred.

  “You’re going to raise my wolf, Richard.”

  He looked away from me, and nodded. “Mine, too.”

  The wolf began to pad up that metaphorical corridor inside me. I shivered and started to back away toward the door. I needed out of this hot bath of power. “You’re the Ulfric, Richard. Control yourself.”

  He turned and looked at me through a curtain of his own thick hair. His eyes were still glowing, but now they were wolf amber, like twin suns in his face. A low, threatening growl trickled from his lips.

  “Richard,” and it was a whisper.

  “I could make you change,” he said in a voice that was more growl t
han word.

  “What?” I whispered.

  “I can force my wolves to shift. I can smell your wolf, Anita. I can smell her.”

  I swallowed a lump that hurt and bumped into the door. It made me jump. I hadn’t realized I was that close to it. I reached back for the knob, and Richard was suddenly there, towering over me. I hadn’t seen him move. Had I closed my eyes for a second? Had he played with my mind? Or had he just been that quick?

  His power pressed against me like a hot mattress, like I was being suffocated by it. I managed to breathe out his name. “Richard, please.”

  He leaned over me, lowered that handsome face with those sun-drenched eyes to my face. “Please what? Please stop, or please don’t stop?”

  I shook my head; I couldn’t get enough air to speak. My wolf hit the surface of my body and the impact of it drove me off my feet. Richard caught me, hands on my arms, kept me on my feet. The wolf inside me started digging; it wanted out!

  I tried to scream, and it was as if with every breath I was breathing in more of Richard’s power. He jerked me off my feet, wrapped me against his body. I could feel something moving low in my stomach; I swear I could feel the wolf’s claws digging through my flesh, trying to meet Richard’s body. It was trying to get to him, trying to answer the call of its Ulfric.

  The pain was incredible; it was like being ripped apart from the navel outward, like some horrible parody of giving birth. I screamed, not with air, but with my mind. I sent every metaphysical ability I had, and screamed for help.

  I heard voices shouting on the other side of the door, but it was as if voices didn’t mean anything to me anymore. As if it were just noise. But I could smell Richard’s skin, smell the musk of the wolf inside him. He lowered his face to mine, and I smelled my skin through his mind. Soap, shampoo, the hair-care product, but underneath that was me, my skin, my scent. He drew a sharper breath, cupping his hand against my skin so the scent blew back into his face. He drew it in as if it were the sweetest of perfumes; wolf. I smelled of wolf, and forest, and pack.

  The door shuddered against my back. Something heavy thudded against it. Richard picked me up, arms around my thighs, putting my upper body by his face. He didn’t ask in words; he asked with his eyes, with his power, with that smell of wolf. He asked me to come to him. He called to that part of me that had stopped scratching, and was listening, smelling him. He called to the wolf inside me, in ways that my human brain couldn’t even begin to understand. I was still too human to answer him in the way he wanted. Still too human, still too…human.

  But the wolf wasn’t human, and it answered him. It threw itself against the wall of my body, as if I were a door and all it had to do was get through it. It threw itself against my flesh, so that it staggered Richard backward into the room as he tried to hold me, while the wolf tore at me. His power pressed down my throat like a hand that was trying to help the beast, and stole my air, my words.

  It was as if hot, burning liquid ran through my veins. I burned with it, but I knew what that heat was: beast, wolf. I knew now why the lycanthropes ran hot close to the moon; they were burning up with their beast. It was a new pain, a pain that my wolf and I shared, as if she was burning up, too.

  I didn’t know the door had burst inward. The first hint I had that the guards were in the room was them standing around us. I couldn’t hear anything but the pounding of blood and heartbeats in my head. They pulled at Richard, tried to tear me out of his arms, and he wouldn’t let me go. Finally a fist smashed into his face, blood ran in a crimson wash, and his beast poured over him, and me.

  The fire poured out from underneath my nails. I raised my hands in front of my face, wondering how fire was pouring out from underneath my nails, but it was blood. Blood pouring like burning rain from underneath my nails.

  Richard’s body like thick water against me, fur flowed, muscles shifted, and it was as if his beast was tied to mine, so that as he shifted, he was dragging my wolf with him. Dragging it in blood and fire, out of my body. I would have done anything, agreed to anything, if the pain would only stop. I wasn’t thinking that if I shifted, I would lose my leopards. I wasn’t thinking that if I shifted Richard would win. I wasn’t thinking anything but Make it stop, please, God, make it stop! If someone had said the only way to make it stop was to be a wolf, I wouldn’t have argued. I’d have grabbed it. Just make it stop!

  I felt Jean-Claude’s power, felt it like a cool soothing wind. I still hurt; the wolf was still there trying to fit all that tooth and claw into my smaller body, but it was better. I could hear again, and what I heard was chaos. Screams, shouts, Claudia’s voice above the rest, “Ulfric, don’t do this!”

  Jean-Claude’s voice floated through my head, and through Richard’s, because Richard had tied us that close. “My marks keep her human, Richard; all you can do is destroy her.”

  Richard bellowed, “She’s mine!” He was standing over me. I didn’t even remember being on the floor. Richard wasn’t human anymore. He was that movie wolfman, except that his fur was the color of cinnamon, and he was very male, not that smooth sexless Barbie-doll look from the movies. From my angle everything about him looked monstrously large. Partly the angle, and partly the pain.

  The wolf inside me stretched my body, trying to force claws out from under my nails. Trying to stretch more body out than I had to give it. I had air now, thanks to Jean-Claude, and I used it to scream. I finally screamed the pain, shrieked it, and somehow it helped. I was still human, I could still speak. I screamed, “Nooo!”

  Clay appeared above me, face scared. “Give me your wolf, Anita.”

  A clawed hand appeared and jerked him back, out of sight. Richard had pulled him back. “No,” he growled, “no, my pack does not stop this.”

  “Not your pack,” Jean-Claude’s voice now, in the room somewhere, “my pack, for all that is yours is mine; by vampire law, they are my wolves, not yours.”

  I turned my face and saw him in the doorway. He stood there, beautiful, cold, his eyes glittering with that cool fire. I reached out to him with my bloody hands. I screamed, “Help me!”

  Richard was suddenly airborne. Too quick for the bodyguards, too quick for anyone. He hit Jean-Claude, and they both rolled out of sight into the bedroom beyond.

  Clay was back at my side. He was bloody, and I couldn’t tell if he was wounded or had just gotten blood on him. “Give me your beast,” he said.

  He was disobeying a direct order from his Ulfric. But in that moment I didn’t care. I grabbed his arm, and he pressed himself to my mouth, let me kiss him. More than ever before I felt the wolf pour out of my mouth. I choked on fur and blood and things that couldn’t be real. I choked, and Clay stayed pinned to me while his body struggled to get away. He forced himself to stay against me, forced his body to take my beast, but it hurt too much not to struggle. I knew now just how much it hurt, and I was sorry, but I didn’t stop.

  His body exploded above mine; wet, thick things covered my eyes, and only my hands told me that fur and muscle were above me now. My body still ached, but the wolf was gone, gone like a hole in my heart, an empty space where something should have been.

  Someone else’s hand smoothed the gunk from my eyes so I could blink up into Rafael’s face. He was crying. I’d never seen him do that. It scared me. What would make Rafael cry? What was happening?

  Gunshots exploded in the other room, so loud, so horribly loud. I sat up and fell back down. “Help me,” I said to Rafael.

  He picked me up, as if I were a child, and carried me to the other room. I didn’t protest, I would have been too slow; but what I saw in the bedroom said that we’d all been too slow.

  The first thing I saw was Jean-Claude sitting on the floor, his white shirt in bloody tatters, blood trickling from his mouth. The guards were standing in a semicircle with guns out. Richard’s wolf form was crouched at the center of that circle. I could see his heart thudding frantically in the open air. It was a killing wound, but he still crouched ther
e, growling at them. I could see him about to spring, and I knew that the guards wouldn’t let that happen. It was one of those moments when everything slows down, when the world becomes crystal-edged, the colors brighter, the edges of everything sharper; you see everything in painful clarity. Seconds to see my world about to go up in flames.

  Jean-Claude’s voice whispered through my head, “I am sorry, ma petite, there is no time.” I thought he was apologizing for the fact that they were going to shoot Richard, until I felt his power. It didn’t wash over me, it didn’t press against me like Richard’s had; his power simply was there and did what it wanted. I felt it almost like a series of tumblers in a lock: click, and he took Richard’s blood lust, like a cup in his hand; click, and he turned that blood lust into another kind of lust; click, and he spilled it into me.

  There was a blink, where I saw Richard’s head go down, watched his body begin to change back to human. Knew they wouldn’t have to shoot him now. A blink, to be relieved, then the ardeur ripped through me as surely as the beast had done earlier. My body forgot that it hurt. My body forgot that it was bloody and aching. My body forgot everything except one thing. The ardeur did what it always did: it washed over the man I was touching and carried him away with me. I was already on the floor with him on top of me before I remembered who I’d be looking up at. Rafael, the rat king, who was going to get to be food after all.

  22

  RAFAEL CARRIED ME out to the hallway with my legs wrapped around his waist, my arms around his shoulders, my mouth feeding at his. He stumbled at the door and almost fell, having to catch his hands on the doorjamb. He put a hurried hand around me, but he was in no danger of dropping me. He’d have had to pry me off him for me to fall. I was drowning in the taste of his mouth, the scent of his skin. He smelled smoky, not like cigarettes, but wood smoke, and salt, like some food that had been smoked and salted, until the meat was flavored and tender and so ready to eat. I felt his need. I just knew that it had been a long time for him. So much need, so much power, so long denied. He was a feast waiting to be eaten. The last wasn’t my thought. We fell against the wall outside the door. The sensation of him falling against me, bruising me into the wall, made me cry out. He leaned heavier against me and even through our clothes I could feel him hard and ready. I cried out again and pressed myself against him, but there were too many clothes in the way. I moaned into his mouth, too eager for words.

 

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