“He is an ass anyway, so maybe you two deserve each other. You put out to other men while you're supposed to be in a relationship, and he steals other people’s girls, pathetic the pair of you.” he says as he pauses at the threshold of my apartment.
“What about you and that girl Jase, I know something happened, and you’re not telling me everything.” I accuse him, knowing he hasn’t told me, and in a way I want him to confirm it so I don’t feel so bad.
“You pissed me off.” he says like he has done nothing wrong.
“So you did sleep with her?”
“I didn’t mean too, I was drunk and pissed off.”
“And you stand there like lord of the fucking manor, and shout at me for a kiss, when you had sex with someone else. Were you going to tell me?”
“No, it was a mistake, but it doesn’t matter now does it. What’s done is done.”
“You’re an ass Jase, you have double standards. Do I work with her?” I ask needing the clarification.
“That doesn’t matter now. We are through, and I don’t need to explain myself to you anymore.” he says as he leaves, slamming the door behind him.
I slide my body down to the floor as I continue to weep. Big heavy tears roll down my face. I knew it would hurt him and me, but I didn’t expect to feel this bad. I just ripped his heart out, and stamped all over it, before handing it back to him, and expect him to accept it like I did nothing. But then again, he did something worse than what I did. Why do I feel so guilty after what he has just revealed to me? He slept with another girl, yet I feel bad for what I did.
I’m still sat on the kitchen floor crying when Grace comes in.
“Rhiannon, what the hell you doing down there?” she asks as she takes in my frame crumpled on the floor.
“Oh Grace. I feel horrible.” I say as I look up at her. She takes in my tear stained face and is instantly on the floor beside me.
“Rhiannon, what’s wrong?” she questions, concerned for me.
“I just broke up with Jase.” I sob.
“Why? I thought you were okay.”
“We were.” I continue sobbing.
She helps me to my feet, “Come on, I can’t sit down here.” she moans as she leads me to the sofa.
“I don’t understand what happened?”
“I'm falling for Kaleb, but I didn’t mean too.” I say as my sobs continue falling.
“Kaleb?”
I nod my head unable to form words.
“So what’s happening with Jase?”
“I told him it was over, and he found out I have kissed Kaleb.” I sadly respond.
“What? And you didn’t tell me?” grace says shocked.
“No Grace. I really hurt him.”
“I bet, but its better now than later. I’m sure he will be okay. If you didn’t feel for him like you should, you have done the right thing. Would you rather wait, for what marriage? Kids? Then tell him all along you never felt love for him?”
“No, but that doesn’t make this any better. Then he admitted to sleeping with someone else Grace.” I sob in her shoulder as she holds me.
“I know, it will hurt now, you obviously care about him, or you wouldn’t be like this, but its better now. How would you be able to trust him after he cheated Rhi? I know you hurt, but he has done wrong. I know you did too, but not as bad as him. You have nothing to be guilty about. He does, and if I see him, I will let him know.” she tries to make me see sense.
“So what are you doing about Kaleb?”
“I'm not thinking about that now. It feels wrong.”
“Kaleb is the reason you have just split with Jase, partly. We all know that, so we also know you and Kaleb will happen.”
“No, not yet. I want time on my own.”
“I know, come on enough moping. What do you want to do?”
“Just stay in. I don’t want to go out. It’s being a crazy few days I just want me time”
“Okay. Girly time?” she asks and I know what she’s implying.
“Girly time.” I respond with a genuine smile.
She jumps up of the sofa, and I know what she’s doing. I sit there and calm my breathing.
When she returns she has her hands full. She throws a set of short pjs at me, and orders me to get changed. I do as I’m told and run to the bathroom to change.
When I return she has everything all set up on the coffee table.
Face masks, nail polish, make – up, wine, chocolate, DVDs, everything we need for a girly night in.
“Right, you put the DVD on while I get changed.” she says as she takes her pjs and goes to change.
By the time she has returned we have our chick flick ready to play. We actually never really watch a movie; we just use it as background noise.
I press play, as she fills the wine glasses. We used to do this once a week, but we haven’t done it for a few months. We really must make more time to do this.
*****
An hour in to the night, we're both sat with face masks on, we've had our nails painted by each other, and we have consumed a bottle of wine.
It’s being good to laugh again.
My phone has been going of none stop, but I have ignored it. When Grace runs to the bathroom, I decide I should have a look.
I have three missed calls, and five text messages. All from Kaleb.
**Jase just came back to work in a foul mood. Is everything okay?**
**Rhiannon, Jase just not so nicely told me what's happened. Don’t ignore me, I need to talk to you!**
**Why won’t you pick up? I have called twice. I need to know you're okay. I know I’m the last person you want to talk to right now, but please**
**Rhiannon, its being over an hour with no word. If you don’t answer I will come round.**
**For fuck sake! You have a phone for a reason. Jase knows about the kiss doesn’t he? He said some not so nice things. I know he has probably said them to you too. Also he told me he did sleep with the other girl, and you know about it. I’m worried about you, so will you please ANSWER YOUR PHONE!**
For fuck sake, does that man think I have my hands glued to my phone.
I decide it might be in my best interests if I text him back. It will save him intruding a girly evening.
**Kaleb, I do NOT have my phone glued to my hands. Don’t you think 3 calls and 5 messages is going a bit far? Because I do! I am fine. Yes, Jase and I are no longer together, but that’s what you wanted right? So you only get your own way AGAIN! Yes, he knows about the kisses, yes I know he slept with that girl, and yes he was pretty harsh, but all things considering, I deserve it. I was a bitch Saturday night, and I did cheat on him when I kissed you, but nothing I can do now. I am not ignoring you on purpose. I’m busy. Some people do have things to do with their time. You don’t need to come round. I have responded.**
When Grace walks back in she sees me typing away on my phone.
“Sending someone an essay?” she asks.
“Yeah, Kaleb has sent me five messages and called three times. Jase went back to work kicking off. He was just checking if I was okay.” I say distracted.
“Aw, look he really cares about you.” she says sounding like a teenager.
“Grace, seriously?” I ask as I laugh.
“No, but it made you laugh again.” she says as she throws a pillow at me. I catch it as I laugh again, but then my phone vibrates in my hand.
**About time. I was getting worried about you. You know I care about you Rhiannon. Any need to be so bitchy about it? I wanted to make sure he didn’t lash out at you like he did me. If I could have done this without hurting you or Jase I would of done. I hate that you're blaming me. I only ever want to protect you and make you happy.**
His reply makes me feel guilty for lashing out at him.
**I'm sorry. I was out of order then. I’m spending the night with Grace though, so you don’t need to come round. We will talk, just not yet. I'm fine.**
**That’s all I needed to k
now. Have fun with Grace. I will ring you tomorrow**
“Hello?” Grace asks.
“Sorry,” I respond putting my phone away.
“Kaleb more interesting than me?” she asks pretending to be hurt.
“No, but I also didn’t want him coming round, so I had to respond to him. I’m putting my phone down now.” I say smiling, as I place my phone on the table and slowly move away like it will burn me, which has Grace laughing.
“You're such a geek.” she laughs at me.
“I know, but you love me for it.” I say still laughing at her.
We go back to enjoying our night, man free.
I wake the following morning to Grace snoring – again.
“Grace, wake up.” I mumble as I push her over.
“Fuck sake, you always wake me up.” she groans at me.
“Stop moaning. I have to go to work soon.” I inform her. After I get no reply I look over at her and noticed she has gone back to sleep.
“Grace, did you hear me?”
“No what.” she moans,
“I have to go to work okay. You going to be okay?” I ask her, hoping she’s still awake.
“Yeah, hurry up and go, so I can sleep.” she says burying her head in the pillow.
“Well thank you.” I laugh as I get ready for work.
“I'm joking; you know I love you.” she says as she rolls on to my side of the bed.
I shake my head at her as I walk out the door, she is so grumpy on a morning, it’s funny. She always moans I wake her up, but she always over takes my bed. She never goes home after a girly night, but then moans when I wake her up. It’s a good job I love her.
*****
When I turn up at work, I don’t know what to expect. Kaleb wants to talk, he has asked me to meet him for dinner today, and Jase hates me.
After giving my car to the valet, I walk in to the big house.
The entrance is empty, not a person in sight. I quickly take this opportunity to escape to my room unnoticed.
I have to read my script, I took it home, but was too busy with Grace to read through it. So a few hours reading today before I go pay Cassie a visit is on the agenda.
After an hour of reading, I get a knock on my door. I am hesitant to answer it. I don’t know if I’m ready to face Kaleb or Jase yet.
I remember being told when I started here, I have to answer in case its important.
I put my script down, and go to answer the door.
I answer the door and see Toby stood there.
"Toby?" I ask shocked to see him.
"What are you doing here?" I ask confused at his appearance.
"I haven't seen you in time, so I thought I would come see how you are." he explains.
Confused by his words, "I'm fine. Why?"
"Just some rumors going around." he says as he walks into my dressing room.
"What rumors?" I ask already having an inkling as to what it is.
"Well, someone has said you're sleeping with Kaleb."
"Let me guess - Jase?" I ask him.
"Well Jase said it first yes, but quite a few have said it."
"Just great." I sullenly reply.
"Is it true?" Toby asks.
"No." I reply defensively.
"I thought you was seeing Jase; so why would he say these things?" Toby asks innocently.
"We broke up." I say simply.
"But there is more to this isn't there?" he asks, with his ability of being able to read people.
I nod my head yes.
"Something did happen, but I haven't slept with Kaleb."
"Again, there is still more isn't they?"
How the hell does he do that?
"Yeah. Kaleb is partly to blame, but I can't put all the blame on him. He told me he wanted me, and something happened at the weekend, and I saw a different side to Kaleb. It did make me fall for him. Toby I don't know what to do." I say as I slump to the sofa.
"What are your options?" he asks like it's simple to choose.
"I don't know; the whole thing is fucked up."
"Do you want Jase back?" he asks shocking me.
"Toby, I like Jase, and I know I just hurt him, but I can't have him. I can't ignore my feelings for Kaleb and string Jase along, and Jase slept with someone else on Saturday."
"Then there is your answer." he smiles at me. "You see what happens with you and Kaleb."
"I can't. I can't just jump in with Kaleb."
"No one is saying jump in, take small strides."
"He's my boss Toby, what if everything goes wrong? I can't lose my job."
"Rhiannon, I have never seen Kaleb go after anyone. This must be strange for him too. Take that small stride into the unknown. It might be the best small stride of your life." he says smiling at me.
"I just need time."
"Take time for you first then. Also Cassie is ready for you." he says as he rises back to his feet.
*****
After my few hours with Cassie, I am worn out, and ready for some sleep.
Just as I'm locking my door, Kaleb comes walking down the corridor towards me, in his signature jacket and jeans.
"Rhiannon, you got time to pop to my office please?" he asks with authority.
"Yeah sure." I say confused. This isn't his 'I want you voice' that was his 'I'm your boss, you'll do as you're told voice'.
I timidly follow him to his office. Last time I was here; all hell broke loose. I’m not ready for that to be repeated any time soon.
Once we reach his office, he opens his door, then steps aside letting me past.
He directs me to the sofa and I follow directions and take a seat.
"Kaleb what do you want?" I ask as he silently makes his way to his desk.
"I think we need to talk Rhiannon, don't you?"
"And you have to do this at work?"
" You ignore all my attempts at contacting you."
"I did not! I replied to you last night." I say defensively.
"After I threatened to come round, and what about this morning? I asked you to come see me at dinner."
"I was busy last night Kaleb, just like I've been busy today. I've not had time to look at my phone. I've been with Cassie most of the day, look through your fucking security footage Kaleb. I can't keep doing this. I can't be available as and when you need me to." I almost shout at him.
I angrily get to my feet ready to leave his office.
"Rhiannon," he calls as I take a step away from him. I ignore him and continue my journey towards his door.
He jumps from his desk and runs to block the door.
"Kaleb, please." I beg him, "just move."
He just keeps his eyes on me, his green eyes glowing with mischief. "Kaleb?" I ask nicely for the last time.
"Just bloody move." I demand once he doesn’t move.
"No. Sit back down, we're not done here."
"I think we are." I snap.
"Oh no, not by a long shot. Sit the fuck down." he demands.
I look at him shocked.
"You can't order me about." I decide to push him.
"I'm your boss, while I own your ass I can do what I want. Sit." he says smugly.
I cross my arms over my chest, proving a point.
He might own my ass so to speak, but I will not ask how high when he says jump.
"Will you just sit down for fuck sake". he says getting annoyed with me.
"Will you just let me out?" I respond with a cute smart ass smile.
I go to grab the door handle with both hands as I attempt to push him out the way.
He is getting angry; I can tell by the shade of his eyes. They have turned darker, and he is pulling at his blonde locks.
He suddenly grabs both my hands in a vice grip in one of his hands.
I pull and no matter how much I try; my hands are not coming free.
He isn't even making any effort to keep hold of my hands. He pushes himself off the door, as he continues to hold my hands.
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He slowly walks forward, which takes me backwards. Still struggling to get out of his grip, he has me now pinned against a wall.
I am still struggling against him, but he just looks amused now.
His eyes are looking deep into my eyes, as I stare into his. My attempts to escape slow some, and his hand relaxes against mine, although he doesn't let me go. His other hand comes beside my head as he leans in closer to me.
I can feel the electricity between us, as much as I don't want to right now.
I take a deep breath trying to calm my running nerves.
Kaleb continues to look deep into my eyes.
"I'm sorry." he quickly says right before he smashes his lips to mine.
His warm moist lips coat mine, as he molds my mouth to his. I resist his kiss at first, but as I start to relax against him I respond.
I grant him access to my mouth, opening it and his tongue takes full advantage. As my tongue strokes against his, he releases my hands, and places both of his hands on my thighs lifting me of the floor.
My legs automatically cling to his waist to ensure I don't fall. My hands go to his hair as I grab chunks to pull him closer. He lets a deep moan out which vibrates off my lips.
When he pulls away slightly I'm heaving for a breath. He places his forehead against mine as we both calm our breathing.
"Rhiannon, I can't let you go." he whispers.
"Kaleb, I don't know." I stutter.
"I know you feel it too. Just give us a try." he pleads with me.
“Kaleb, it’s not as simple as that!” I say as my eyes dart to the floor.
“What is stopping us?” he asks, his voice a few pitches too high.
"Okay." I respond quietly. What do I have to lose?
"Yeah?" he asks with a stupid big grin.
"Yeah, I'll try." suddenly his lips smash to mine once again, but he pulls away before I can respond.
He gives me a dazzling big smile; his smile alone could light up the city after dark.
Just as he leans down to give me a kiss again, there is a knock on his door. It was unexpected and it makes me jump.
"It's okay, they won't come in." he responds an inch away from my lips before he captures them again.
Just as his tongue glides into my mouth, his door opens.
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