by Erin Osborne
Nodding my head, I let Fox help me stand back up and make my way inside the clubhouse. I don’t run into anyone as I head inside and make my way to the bathroom that’s in the hallway on the way to the common room. When I step inside the room, my heart breaks, and I wish I hadn’t needed to come in here.
Standing less than five feet away from me is Killer. He’s leaning against the wall, his long dark hair hanging down his back in his usual ponytail with his black bandana wrapped around his head. His eyes are closed, and one of his hands are wrapped around the hair of the woman kneeling in front of him. She’s giving him a blow job, and I can’t stop the sob that is bubbling up inside me.
Backing out of the bathroom, I slam into someone and look to see Playboy standing there. He steadies me and looks down into my face as I back away from him. I’m sure I’m nothing more than a laughingstock to everyone here. Including Fox and my sister because of this stupid crush I have on a man I have no chance with.
“I don’t feel good. Can you let my sister and Fox know I’m going home, please?” I ask, turning and running from the clubhouse.
I pull my keys from my pocket and jump in my car. That’s the only thing I’ve been given since coming here. Fox and the guys taught me how to drive, and then my sister bought me a car. Still, I’m not supposed to drive it anywhere unless Fox or Kim are with me. Well, they can kiss my ass tonight because there’s not a chance I’m going to stay at the clubhouse where everyone thinks I’m a child and nothing more than a stupid girl for liking Killer.
My phone starts ringing, and I ignore it. I won’t pick it up while I’m driving. Besides, it’s not like it’s a long drive to get from the clubhouse to Fox and Kim’s house. Maybe ten minutes at most. Once I get there, I see Kim and Fox have called me repeatedly since I left. Playboy, Sam, Slim, and Shy have also called me. Ignoring all the calls and messages they’ve left, I shut my phone off and make my way inside the house.
I take a shower and then get ready for bed. I’m not sure I even want to be at my sister and Fox’s house right now, but I don’t know if I have any other choice at the moment. Every spare penny I’ve gotten since being here, I’ve been saving up, but it’s still not enough to leave here.
Tears start flowing from my eyes again. This is apparently the day I’m never going to stop crying. I thought I was done with this part of my life, but it seems as if I’m not. So many thoughts are swirling through my head, and I have no clue what to do with any of them. The only thing I can think of is getting out of this house and away from everyone for a while.
Finally, sleep claims me, and it’s a restless sleep filled with dreams of everyone in the Phantom Bastards laughing at me. Killer is front and center of the group, and even my own sister is laughing at how stupid and immature I’m being.
Killer
I’ve been hanging out with my brothers at the clubhouse all day. We’re here to celebrate two new members of the family, and I couldn’t be happier. However, my eyes have been on Gwen all day long. No matter who I’m talking to or what I’m doing, my eyes never stray far from her.
Gwen is absolutely stunning and has gotten better since coming back with us. Instead of being overly skinny and malnourished, she’s gained some much-needed weight and developed into the woman she is now. A woman with curves in all the right places and one who has no clue how truly stunning she really is.
Today, Gwen’s wearing a long white dress. It has spaghetti straps and accentuates her chest. She’s been laying out in the sun, and her skin is now a golden-brown color while her brown hair has blonde highlights in it. There’s no make-up on her face as she sits at the table with her sister and Fox. The second I saw her walking through the clubhouse with Kim, my cock instantly took notice and stood to attention.
I’ve been hard most of the afternoon, and if I don’t find relief soon, I’m going to do something I regret. I’m going to end up taking Gwen to my room here and have my way with her. I’ll be no better than the rest of the men who have taken and taken from her throughout her entire life. I refuse to do that.
As Fox gets up from the table and leads Gwen from the party, I know my chance is here to escape the party to find some relief. The house bunnies aren’t allowed at the cookout, but they are in the clubhouse until the kids go home. I know how to be discreet as I go inside and find one of them. It’s a new one, and I don’t even know her name; I don’t care to know her name.
This bitch has nothing on Gwen. She’s skin and bones, and her hair is a bottle job in dire need of a touch-up. She’s got make-up caked on her face, and it looks to be days old. There’s nothing in her eyes while Gwen’s golden eyes are usually full of life and wonder as she discovers new things in the world around her. Hell, she looks like she’s been ridden hard and put away wet. Right now, she’s good enough to suck my cock.
I pull her into the bathroom on the first floor with me, and don’t worry about anything other than getting off.
“On your knees,” I growl out.
The woman tries to kiss me, and I turn my head from her. I don’t kiss any of these bitches. Never know when they’ve last had a cock in their mouth, and that’s not anything I’m interested in finding out.
“On your knees, and that’s it,” I say.
After pouting, she does as I ask. I unzip my jeans and pull my cock out. When her mouth covers me, I start to go soft. She’s not Gwen, and I know it. I shouldn’t be in here and trying to find relief with someone else. But I can’t go there with Gwen. Not yet. Eventually, I will, but she needs to get out in the world and live some sort of life. Something she has yet to begin doing, and I want to give that to her somehow.
There’s only one way to not only get my cock rock hard again but to cum fast as fuck, and that’s to think of Gwen. I picture her on her knees in front of me and giving me pleasure. Closing my eyes, I see Gwen in all her glory in front of me, and it’s not long before I feel my balls begin to tighten and pull up close to my body.
“Fuck!” I roar out as I cum down her throat.
As my breathing calms back down, I hear a commotion in the hallway. What the fuck is going on now.
Tucking my cock back in my jeans, I zip them up and step around the woman still on her knees in front of me.
“Where are you going?” she asks.
“I’m done here,” I respond, not bothering to look back at her.
Opening the bathroom door, I see Playboy, Slim, Kim, and Fox standing there. Playboy looks at me, and I can see the anger in his eyes. It intensifies as the house bunny steps up behind me and tries to place a claim on me by resting her hand on my chest. Fuck that!
“I knew you had somethin’ to do with this,” Playboy accuses me.
“What the fuck are you talkin’ about?” I ask him thoroughly confused.
“Gwen just fuckin’ took off. Backed out of there real quick and spouted some shit about not feelin’ well. Now, she won’t answer anyone’s calls,” Playboy tells me.
Before I can process what he’s told me, Playboy lands a punch right in my face. I reel back and almost knock the house bunny down as I catch myself on the door frame of the bathroom.
“She saw that?” I ask, my heart breaking in my chest at her catching me in a compromising position.
“Yeah, ass face, she saw you. She’s fuckin’ shattered and now who knows what’s goin’ through her head,” Playboy answers.
“Killer, when are you gonna get your shit together?” Kim asks me.
“Me? Seriously Kim?” I ask her. “We all agreed to let her live her life. I gave you my fuckin’ word I wouldn’t touch her until she did. What has she been able to do since bein’ rescued? Not a fuckin’ thing. This isn’t just on me. Gwen doesn’t give a fuck what I do and don’t do.”
“You’re a fuckin’ idiot,” Fox tells me. “You’re the only one who doesn’t see Gwen is half in love with you and I just talked to her about this today. She wants to live her life and is beginnin’ to resent not bein’ able to. Wants to be out on
her own and go to school. Now, I have no clue where she’s goin’ to go from here.”
“Let me take care of it,” I tell everyone around me.
“I think you’ve fuckin’ done enough,” Playboy yells out.
“She already thinks you want nothin’ to do with her,” Fox informs me. “That we must think she’s stupid because you’re never gonna want her, and you just proved her point.”
“I want her more than any of you will ever know!” I yell out, slamming my fist in the wall as rage fills me.
I leave the clubhouse and straddle my bike. Fox runs after me, but he can see the look on my face. I’m not going to stop for him or anyone else. My new mission is to ensure Gwen lives her life and slowly gets used to being around me. From now on, she’ll be under my fuckin’ roof, and I’ll make sure she gets to do what she wants. Kim, Fox, and everyone else can fuck off if they think I’m going to put her last anymore.
Leaving the clubhouse, I point my bike in the direction of Fox’s house. I need to have eyes on Gwen and see if she’s okay. So, when I pull up, I quietly go into the house through the back door and make my way into her room. With the moonlight streaming window, I can see fresh tear marks staining her cheeks, and my heart breaks a little more at the sight.
Gwen might be asleep, but she’s not resting. So, I slide my boots off and climb in the bed behind her. It’s a tight fit because she only has a full-size bed, but I’ll make it work. Wrapping my arms around her, I pull Gwen’s body to mine and whisper into her ear.
“I’m so fuckin’ sorry you saw that. I care about you more than you know, and I’ll never do it again,” I whisper to her.
After laying in the dark for a long time thinking about my fuck-up, I finally fall asleep with Gwen still in my arms. I’ll need to be gone before she wakes up, but for tonight, I’m giving us both what we want even if she doesn’t realize it.
The End . . . for now.
Sam’s Playboy Playlist
Never Say Never – The Fray
Locked Away – Hamilton
Lay Me Down – Sam Smith
Missed – Ella Henderson
Half A Man – Dean Lewis
Love Me – Aaron Lewis
Bad Boy – Brantley Gilbert
The Best of Me – Brantley Gilbert
Read Me My Rights – Brantley Gilbert
Best I Ever Had – State of Shock
Out of My Head – Theory of a Deadman
Cold – Crossfade
Can’t Forget You – My Darkest Days
Pass Slowly – Seether
Bad Day – Fuel
You’re Beautiful Ending – One Less Reason
Uneasy – One Less Reason
Drink My Stupid Away – Royal Bliss
Don’t You Dare – Alexz Johnson
I don’t Know If I Should Stay – Alexz Johnson
Outlaw In Me – Brantley Gilbert
Acknowledgements
First and foremost, I need to thank my kids. You always stand by me and give me time to write. You’re my biggest fans and support me no matter what. I love you more than you’ll ever know.
My PA, Melissa. Thank you for all the help and trying to keep my crazy ass on task. I appreciate the talks and everything you’ve done since agreeing to take me on.
Kim, thank you for being you. You’re a part of my family and someone I don’t know what I’d do without. I love ya lady!!
To my beta girls. Thank you for everything. You point out mistakes and get me feedback immediately. Especially if I tell you I’m on a crazy deadline. Without you, this process wouldn’t work and I’m glad to be able to send you more stories now as I heal.
Courtney. You’re one of my best friends, a kickass editor, and an amazing person to know. I’m glad to have you as a friend, a part of my team, and for everything you do for me.
Rebecca. I’m glad we met this year at a signing. Now look at our crazy asses. I won’t forget about a certain #Chronicle that needs to be written either!
Shelly. There are no words for your amazing talent. You have been working with me, helping me, and giving me advice since the beginning of my career. Thank you for everything you have done and continue to do for me and so many others.
To the fans. Without you, I wouldn’t be able to live my dream. I love putting stories out in the world for you and hearing from those of you who tell me how a story or character has reached you. I’m always available for anyone that needs an ear to listen. Thank you for your unwavering support. I love you all!
As always, I know I’m leaving someone out. To the rest of you, thank you. You have been by my side and stood by me as this year decided to kick my ass. Thank you just isn’t enough. I’ll find some way to repay you for everything.
About the Author
Growing up, I was constantly reading anything I could get my hands on. Even if that meant I was reading my grandma’s books that weren’t so age appropriate. I started out reading Judy Blume, then graduated to romance, mainly historical romance, and last year I found an amazing group of Indie authors that wrote MC books. Instantly I fell in love with these books.
For a long time, I’ve wanted to write. I just never had the courage to go through with actually doing it. During a book release party, I mentioned that I wanted to write and I received encouragement from an amazing author. So, I took a leap and wrote my first book. Even though this amazing journey is just starting for me, I wouldn’t have even started if it weren’t for a wonderful group of authors and others that I’ve met along the way.
I am a mother of three children. Only one girl in the bunch! My family and friends mean the world to me and I’d be lost without them. Including new friends that I’ve met along the way. I’ve lived in New York my whole life, either in Upstate or the Southern Tier. I love it during the summer, spring, and fall. But, not so much during the winter. I hate driving in snow with a passion!
When I’m not hanging out with my family/friends, reading, or writing, you can find me listening to music. I love almost all music! Or, I’m watching a NASCAR race.
I look forward to meeting new friends, even if I’m extremely shy!
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Other Books
Wild Kings MC: Clifton Falls
Skylar’s Saviors
Bailey’s Saving Grace
Tank’s Salvation
Melody’s Temptation
Blade’s Awakening
Irish’s Destiny
Rage’s Redemption
Pops
Wild Kings MC: Dander Falls
Darcy’s Downfall
Riley’s Rescue
Harley’s Surrender
Shadow’s Dilemma
Phantom Bastards MC
Jennifer’s Choice
Slim’s Second Chance
Shy’s Last Stand
Sam’s Playboy
Satan’s Anarchy MC
Satan’s Revenge
Hadleigh’s Desire
Cassidy’s Resurgence
Renegade’s Choice
Grave’s Claim
Old Ladies Club
Book 1: Wild Kings MC
Book 2: Soul Shifterz MC
Book 3: Rebel Guardians MC
Book 4: Rage Ryders MC
Legacies
Desire
Wicked Angels:
Knight’s Unforeseen Change
Anthologies:
Bad to the Bone
Heart of an Alpha
Twisted Steel
Guns Blazing
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