“Where is Olivia? Bring her here!”
No one moved. Wilkinson himself made only a token resistance, but was otherwise cooperative. Adam edged him backwards toward the door.
“You’re under orders to deliver me to France alive? Why? I can see why it mattered if you thought I was your agent, but now?”
Adam’s mind raced for possible reasons – then it struck him in one of those moments of clarity when it is as though a thin curtain has been pulled back and what was diffuse and indistinct becomes sharp and clear.
They can’t kill me. They’ve been given orders.
“Your Miss Collins is in safe hands…for now.”
He shoved Wilkinson hard in the back, propelling him forward toward the settle. The man regained his feet in time to avoid falling over the footstool. Adam brandished the knife at the men in the room.
“The young woman will remain safe as long as you are cooperative, Hardacre. Mr. Fitzgerald will be seeing to her welfare.”
It was like a blow to the gut. Wilkinson smiled as though he’d made a checkmate move.
“Where is she?”
Wilkinson’s grin widened. He shook his head. “Just give me the knife, Hardacre. You can’t get away.”
Adam squeezed the dirk’s handle and swiftly brought the blade to under his own neck.
“Yes, I can. So tell me where Miss Collins is or you’ll have to explain why the man you went to great lengths to secure just cut his own throat.”
If the situation wasn’t so dire, Adam might laugh at the absurdity of his situation. Here he was, threatening to self-murder, surrounded by men who would be only too happy to attend to the task if circumstances were different.
He backed against the door and felt the knob under his free hand. So far, no one had approached him. He opened the door.
No more than half a dozen steps away, a half-dozen horsemen, their noses and mouths covered, tricorn hats pulled low on their faces, bore down on him out of nowhere.
*
Olivia had managed to persuade Fitzgerald to free her hands and give her a few moments of privacy as she attended to her needs. While waiting for his return, she scoured the boatshed, looking for anything she might use to effect an escape. There was nothing, just discarded detritus – the head of an old iron boat hook, missing its timber pole, lengths of rotten rope, a worm-eaten oar.
Through the warped timbers of the double doors, she could see the glint of sunlight on water. It was morning. If she could get away, surely there would be a nearby farmhouse and someone to give her aid.
Where on earth was Sir Daniel? Surely when she didn’t arrive back at the inn, he’d have sent someone in search. But where? Where was she? The carriage last night had traveled for hours. She might be anywhere twenty miles up or down the Cornish coast from Falmouth.
Olivia looked at the door out to the water at the far end of the shed. The promise of freedom sparkling through the gaps between the old timbers drew her closer to the little slipway. Perhaps, she could force the open the rusty lock and chain that held the doors closed. What with?
The boat hook.
She picked it up, conscious that Fitzgerald would return at any moment. The weight of the iron was awkward in her hand but it was the best she could think of.
She stepped down onto the wear-polished timbers of the slip and reached out to the chain, trying to twist the hook into a link, imagining it somehow opening up. It didn’t, and she couldn’t get the leverage or purchase she needed at arm’s length. She looked down at the lapping water. How deep was it, how slippery were the boards beneath?
Then she noticed the gap between the bottom of the door and the slipway planks. No more than two inches, rising and falling with the lapping of the water. But how much more space was there under the door beneath the water?
There was no time to remove stockings or shoes. She stepped down the ramp until she was ankle deep, then turned sideways and, lowering herself, put one foot into the gap to gauge the water’s depth. It did not reach as far as her knee. Her foot squelched in mud, but she felt sure there would be enough of a gap slide to under, even if she was momentarily submerged.
The chain that locked the side door rattled.
Fitzgerald!
It was now or never. She dropped the useless boat hook in the water with a splash, sat on the slipway timbers and plunged both feet in. She gripped the lower edge of the boat doors and began to pull and slide her body beneath them. Her skirt, weighted with water, hampered her. She warred with the panic in her breast and lowered the rest of her body into the water.
“Olivia!”
She heard Fitzgerald yell, but she was committed. With one deep breath, she squeezed her eyes shut and shoved herself beneath the water and the boathouse door.
She felt her rear sliding on mud and her nose scrape the bottom edge of the door. She let go with her right hand – and felt her left wrist grabbed by Fitzgerald who plunged onto the ramp above her.
Olivia scrambled in the water, her feet slipping in the mud, unable to get purchase or pull her arm free. She fought against the urge to open her mouth to scream underwater. Then her head popped up above the surface again inside the door as Fitzgerald tugged her back inside. She gasped for breath.
“Stupid bitch!” Fitzgerald cursed. “What the hell are you trying to do? Kill yourself?”
Fitzgerald began straining to haul her up the ramp by the one arm, fulminating as he went.
“I’ll make you regret crossing me, you sow. For as long as you live, you’ll regret it. But you won’t live long, I promise you that, you worthless c—”
He stopped mid-curse as his heels slipped on the wet wood and he dropped with an “oof!” on his behind. They slid together back down the slipway and ended in a tangle in the water, jammed between the planks and the bottom of the door.
“Bitch!” shouted Fitzgerald.
He went to throw his arm over her, his fist clenched, aiming for her face. Olivia’s right hand felt something hard in the mud below and she grasped it instinctively and swung it in Fitzgerald’s direction. The man’s fist struck her cheek and, simultaneously, she heard a scream, but it wasn’t hers.
When her vision cleared, all she could see was red seeping between Fitzgerald’s fingers as he clutched his face and neck. Blood gushed down his arms and colored the muddy water slopping around them. Still screaming in pain, Fitzgerald began to slide further into the water.
Olivia scrambled back and screamed, too. Fitzgerald looked at her. His cheek and neck were torn open where the boat hook had struck him. His eyes implored her to help as his screaming turned to a gurgling groan. Olivia screamed again for the both of them as Fitzgerald’s mouth seemed to open grotesquely wider than it should and more blood spilled out.
He slumped into the water and was still.
Peter Fitzgerald was dead.
And yet he screamed…no, she screamed until her voice gave out and all that was left was tears. With difficulty, soaked in bloody water and caked in mud, she pushed herself backwards up the sloped boat ramp, desperate not to slip and slide back down to where Fitzgerald’s body shifted with the lapping of the water.
She didn’t react when the side door to the shed burst open and managed only the barest flinch when a pair of hands touched her shoulders gently.
“Olivia, sweetheart.” The voice sounded it like it was miles away, a sound caught by the wind. “Look at me, my love.”
She followed the voice and fell into the hazel eyes of Adam Hardacre. She was lifted and she knew he carried her, but she could not feel his arms. She felt nothing. Around about, between the boathouse and a nearby cottage, were a dozen men, all dressed in black, their faces obscured by scarves. They seemed ghostlike and unreal, like everything else.
Adam paid them no heed, so neither did she. Her eyes fell on a cart near the cottage. Bound together in the back were Wilkinson and two henchmen whose names she had never learned.
She looked back over Adam’s shoulder to
the boathouse where two of the black figures were about to enter. They would retrieve Fitzgerald’s corpse. She squeezed her eyes shut, hoping to make the vision of the man’s ruined face disappear.
Despite the heat of the summer’s day, Olivia was cold, her filthy, waterlogged clothes chilling her to the core. Or was it her heart that was frozen? Why could she not feel?
One of the ghostly men approached. He pulled down his scarf and adjusted his tricorn hat.
The features of Sir Daniel Ridgeway emerged from the specter.
“How is the lady?”
“I don’t know,” Adam replied.
The pain and weariness in his voice pulled her from the depths.
“I’m unharmed. C-c-cold….” Her answer resulted in Ridgeway removing his cloak and sweeping it around Adam’s shoulders and covering her with it also.
Up on the road, a carriage waited under the shade of some trees.
To Olivia’s surprise, Lady Abigail alighted with the energy of a much younger woman, though unlike previous occasions, she was dressed simply and practically in a navy blue gown, her bright white hair pulled back and hidden under a wide scarf of the same shade of blue.
“I thought I told you to stay in the village,” Ridgeway called.
“I must be getting hard of hearing,” she quipped. Ridgeway gave his wife a particular look, which she ignored.
“I was perfectly safe here with this.” From her pocket emerged a small flintlock pistol with a barrel no longer than three inches in length. “Come on. Let’s get this bedraggled pair somewhere to recuperate. Dr. Osbourne is waiting at the house.”
Adam carried Olivia up to the carriage, Ridgeway walking alongside. The older man’s expression softened as his wife approached him for a kiss.
Olivia wondered at the pair. Who were they really? What made them how they were? She waited until Adam had placed her safely into the carriage before she looked at him. A dark shadow of beard coated his chin, the skin under his eyes was dark, made more severe by the hard, concerned set of his mouth.
Lady Abigail climbed in and closed the door. “On!” she called and the carriage jerked into motion.
For now, all Olivia could do was close her eyes and allow Lady Abigail to remove her sodden, ruined clothes and cover her in blankets. She forced her heavy lids open to see Adam slumped in the corner of the bench opposite, his eyes closed, forehead against the window glass. He sported cuts and bruises, but that appeared to be the worst.
They had much to talk about – of poor Harold, Fitzgerald, and even of Constance and Christopher.
She shook her head at Abigail’s silent offer of brandy from a flask, instead leaning forward and reaching for Adam’s hand. Although his eyes remained closed, Adam took her hand and squeezed it tight.
That was answer enough for now.
Chapter Thirty-One
Adam slept for an entire day.
When he woke, he found himself in a large house in the middle of a large estate outside of Truro. Bishop’s Wood – the home of Sir Daniel and Lady Abigail. He was ravenous. The tea and pastries brought up to him were enough to slake his thirst and ease the worst of his hunger as he shaved. In the mirror, he watched the footmen behind him prepare a bath. When he was dressed, he would have breakfast proper downstairs.
The straight blade glinted in the sun shining through the window. Adam recalled the threat he’d made to Wilkinson to slit his own throat. It was a threat made in desperation. Would he have done it to save Olivia’s life?
Once he had waded through the fear of mortality that all sane men have but only cowards fear, the answer was still the same.
He would have done it.
Adam knew he loved Olivia more than his own life. He loved her thoughtfulness, her compassion, and her desire to right wrongs. He admired her quick wit and bravery.
The thought of how close he came to letting her go still hurt like a punch to the gut. But now, he was certain of his feelings, ready to commit to a wife, a home…a family. This time, he would be a father in more than name only. He would be there to see his children grow. They would know him and his love.
It was the only thing he could do to honor Christopher, wherever his lost boy was – to be there for the children who came after him, the father he wished he could have been for his son.
But after this ordeal, would Olivia feel the same? He hoped that in Lady Abigail she could find a confidante and a way through the shadow-world they inhabited.
He would propose marriage again. Properly. He’d been a fool to accept Olivia’s offer of intimacy without it. Never again would she be in doubt of where his heart lay.
In the dining room, he found Sir Daniel filling his plate from the array of dishes from the sideboard. He was alone.
“Help yourself, old man,” he replied, taking his plate to the table. “If you’re looking for Miss Collins, she’s asked for breakfast in her room this morning.”
Adam speared a slice of ham. “I haven’t seen her since…how is she?”
“Stronger than you think.”
As Adam recalled the day he held her in his arms, soaked to the skin and covered with blood, his newly awakened appetite withered.
“I know she said she was unhurt…but there was so much blood.”
“None of it was hers – she just has a few scratches and bruises, that’s all.”
He joined Ridgeway at the table and made an attempt at the potatoes and ham.
“You know, if anyone can understand the ordeal she’s been through, it’s Abigail,” said Sir Daniel.
Adam forked a slice of ham into his mouth, keeping his attention fixed on his plate to prevent his disbelief from showing. Ridgeway was talking about Abigail? The Lady Abigail? She was the type of woman to declare mismatched gloves a monumental disaster.
Apparently, his caution wasn’t enough. “You shouldn’t underestimate my wife, old man. One day I’ll tell you how she broke into a French lunatic asylum to rescue me.”
The tone in his voice suggested Ridgeway wasn’t joking and, when Adam raised his head to see, the man’s expression showed no amusement.
“Don’t miscalculate the strength of women, and never that of a woman in love. Your Miss Collins will be fine and, if I judge her right, she won’t appreciate being coddled. But since you’re on the mend, I have a few questions that need answers, so I’ll arrange a horse to be saddled to take us back to Kenstec House.”
*
Olivia tied the robe around her tightly and pressed a hand to the cloth that covered her still drying hair. She looked from the window and watched two familiar figures mount horses in the yard below. Adam was the leaner of the pair. His fair hair glinted in the sun.
She touched a finger to the window, silently hoping he might glance up and see her. He and Sir Daniel rode off without a second glance. For some strange reason, it felt like a slight.
Another presence emerged behind her. Olivia glanced back to see Lady Abigail with a soft expression on her face. It departed as the woman became aware of Olivia’s attention.
“Don’t worry about them. Daniel won’t keep him away too long; they’ll be home for supper. You can join us if you feel up to it.”
Olivia moved away from the window and unwound the cloth from her hair to let it dry by the fire. As she handled it, she watched the flames highlight threads of red and gold in what she always considered dull and ordinary brown – certainly, her hair was not the attention-catching white-blonde of Lady Abigail’s.
“You’ve yet to talk about your ordeal,” said the woman. She picked up a comb and gestured for Olivia to sit.
“Perhaps I don’t want to.”
“But that wouldn’t be the truth, would it?”
Olivia closed her eyes. She preferred the haughty Lady Abigail, the woman who embraced her own status and wealth, instead of this one who was kind and sympathetic. Too much of this kindness from her and she would fall to tears.
“I took a man’s life. I could hang for it.”
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“No, you won’t. You won’t even face an inquest. Besides, Peter Fitzgerald brought his death upon himself, did he not? He attacked and almost killed you. If you had not defended yourself, what do you think might have happened to you?”
Olivia snatched the comb from Abigail’s hand and wrenched it through her slowly drying hair in savage strokes in an attempt to do anything other than cry.
“Come now, put those tears away. There’s nothing worse than self-pity. Would you rather wallow as a pathetic victim of circumstance or be the mistress of your own future alongside a good man who loves you?”
“What would you know? Living here in safety and luxury, among people who cater to your every whim?”
“Ah, anger. Excellent. A much better emotion than pity. I can use anger; I can’t use pity. What is it you’d like me to tell you? That I had to resort to violence to save my own life – to save the life of my husband? That I know what it’s like to find everything completely upended, forced to live on the edge of terror? I can if you like, but I shan’t – a pissing contest is what the baser sort of men do.”
The heat of the fire was only slightly more scalding than Abigail’s censure. Olivia turned her head to comb her hair from the other side.
“Had you wounded him instead, Peter Fitzgerald would still face a traitor’s death.” Abigail rose from the dressing table stool. “But if you still feel you have to make penance, then do it for the living. Find something that gives your ordeal meaning. Justify the reason why Providence decided to spare your life instead of the solicitor.”
Olivia fought the words, hating Lady Abigail because she knew what she said to be the truth.
“Think about what I’ve said,” she continued as she moved to leave the room. “There’s a future to be lived if you want it. But only if you’re truly as brave as you’ve already shown yourself capable of being.”
*
The events of two evenings past seemed an age ago, but here he was, attention drawn to the dried blood on the bent iron spike that had been part of the guard rail on Kenstec’s tower top. Adam hadn’t realized Dunbar had stabbed himself as he fell. How odd that a certain measure of pity should arise, now that the man was dead.
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