The Blind Man's Garden

  It is another hour before a truck appears in the distance, the driver agreeing to tow him to the nearest mechanic’s shop, telling him during the journey that his cousin died fighting in Afghanistan last autumn and that his brother is in American custody in Cuba.

  But by half past six in the evening the mechanics have still not finished with the repairs. Mikal realises he won’t be able to leave for Heer tomorrow morning: he’ll probably have to spend the night at Fatima’s sister’s house in Allah-Vasi after delivering the chains.

  From the pickup he takes out the two empty bottles of Nestlé mineral water and fills them from the tap. ‘Can I make a call?’ he asks the owner of the mechanic’s shop, pointing to the grime-coated telephone sitting inside a cage meant for a bird. The little door has a padlock on it to prevent just anyone from using the instrument. ‘I’ll pay for it.’ Fatima’s husband has given him a few rupees for tea and a meal on the road.

  Naheed answers on the fifth ring.

  ‘Are you on your way back?’ she asks.

  ‘I was hoping to leave tomorrow morning and be in Heer late the day after tomorrow. But now it looks difficult.’

  Nothing from her. And he knows something is terribly wrong. ‘What is it?’ he says.

  ‘Sharif Sharif wants to marry me.’

  ‘I know that.’

  ‘He wants to marry me as soon as possible. This week. In a few days. Just a quick ceremony with a cleric and two witnesses.’

  ‘How did this happen?’

  ‘Father went to see him, to tell him that my agreement with him didn’t mean anything, and he became enraged. He is demanding what is his.’

  ‘He can’t marry you forcibly.’

  ‘He seems to think so. And Mother doesn’t wish to get the police involved.’

  ‘I am coming.’

  ‘Father says he will not accept a single rupee from me if I marry him. He says, “I don’t want my eyes and I don’t want to have a home if it’ll come at the expense of your happiness. I’d rather be a homeless blind beggar.”’

  ‘I am coming.’

  He hangs up and stands there in a daze for a few moments. The mechanic comes and tells him the pickup is ready. So happy is the man with his patching job that he asks Mikal’s permission to sign the engine with a screwdriver.

  Dusk will fall soon after seven. It’s six fifty when Mikal sets off towards Sara to deliver the chains. The sinking of the sun dissolves all hardness from the landscape, the mineral brilliance of the hills increasing for a short period. In the setting sun he watches a cloud as white as snow, a bright scarlet cloud, a green cloud edged with yellow like a dying leaf, a pale blue and a bronze cloud. But soon the sky above him is deep blue and the stars have appeared. He leaves the road that winds between the hills and begins to guide himself by the constellations through the open desert, hoping to travel in a straight line. In a hurry to drop off the chains.

  Within half an hour the desert has surrendered itself completely to darkness. When he sees the shape lying on the ground ahead, he applies the brakes with as much force as he can, the tyres screeching on the gypsum and sun-split shale. He waits for the dust raised in front of the windscreen to settle, the beams of the headlights boring into it, and then sits looking out, suspended at the very edge of his senses, his heart thumping. After a while he gets out. He stands motionless beside the vehicle’s open door and then moves closer to one of the headlights, to be clearly visible. He undoes the buttons at his neck and wrists and takes off his shirt very slowly, performing each action emphatically. Remembering Tara’s words about encountering djinns.

  He throws the shirt sideways. Peeling off his skin.

  He crouches and takes off his shoes and steps out of them and, again very clearly, kicks them aside.

  Then he steps out of his trousers and throws them away from himself too.

  Stars are falling across the expanse of the sky above him, innumerable and random, and, naked, wearing nothing but Naheed’s necklace, he moves forwards with great deliberation. The headlights are reaching the figure lying on the ground and he is halfway there when he sees that it is a white man, sees the face. His pale skin and yellow-gold hair brilliant in the headlights. He is lying on his side, unconscious or dead, eyes closed and the right arm bloody.

  Mikal stands still, breathing silently, and is about to take a step towards him when there is a movement in one of the hands.

  He backs away and rushes towards the pickup, almost at a run. Collecting his clothes he begins to dress as fast as he can, looking around. If there is one there could be more. He glances up at the sky for Chinook helicopters and for fighter jets, a coursing of adrenalin in his veins. Someone will soon appear out of the darkness, he knows. He climbs into the pickup, wishing only to be out of there as quickly as possible, but just as the headlights swing away from the American soldier the snow leopard cub raises its head from behind the man’s shoulder.

  Carefully he brings the headlights back onto the white man, the daunting impenetrability of the face, onto the snow leopard’s glowing eyes. The markings on the fur look as though the creature is in khaki camouflage.

  He climbs out and calls to it but it doesn’t come, the head turned sideways as it stares into the night with eyes full of a green and ancient calm. Watchfully Mikal draws near and with his arm at full stretch lifts it by the scruff of its neck, noticing the small increase in heaviness from the last time he picked it up. How many days ago? He runs his eyes onto the white man’s body, the khaki shalwar kameez he is wearing. He walks around him in a wide circle unable to comprehend fully what he is seeing. He is much bigger than Mikal and looks to be five or six years older, though Mikal doesn’t know how good he is at judging a white person’s age. Moving closer, he places his hand on the chest to feel for the heartbeat but he’s wearing a bullet-proof vest under the kameez. Mikal checks the pulse instead. The right arm is bleeding, the upper bone broken above the elbow, and the blood is warm on Mikal’s fingers.

  He looks for weapons. There is a folding-stock AK-47 slung over the shoulder and a 9 mm pistol strapped to the right thigh in a holster. There is another pistol in the small of his back. In the flank pocket of the kameez he finds two hundred dollars and a set of cards with English writing on them. There is a ‘blood chit’ to be used in case of capture – it’s in Pashto and English, and offers a cash reward to anyone who gives assistance to an American soldier in distress. Next he opens the man’s rucksack and finds a spare magazine for the AK-47, enough Meals, Ready-to-Eat for five days, a water bottle and water purification tablets. Small heavy cans with pictures of cats on them. He checks for a laptop computer. He extracts the large satellite phone from its holster and smashes it under his heels and then pulverises it completely with a rock.

  The man is bull-necked and his body is hard, containing muscles full of health in every place. Hands like a stonemason’s. He must be either a Special Forces soldier or a CIA paramilitary officer, thinks Mikal. He looks for a digital camera like the one on which they had shown him pictures of the women, after his capture at the mosque back in January, but there isn’t one.

  He looks at the dizzying height of the constellations and the stars, the thin millions of them stretching as far as the eye can see, southwards, northwards, eastwards, westwards, and he looks around the flat desert with its iron ore that is smelted by the Waziri tribes, the stone hills and the coralline beds and the waiting world. No sound except the pickup’s idling engine. He takes the rucksack and the guns and puts them in the footwell on the passenger’s side, placing the cub on the passenger seat itself. Getting behind the steering wheel, he swings the pickup around and puts it in reverse, backing it slowly towards the soldier, using his own footprints running from under the pickup to steer by. He stops when he is just a yard or so away from where the American lies. He alights to examine the distance and then gets back in and carefully reverses again until he is only half a yard from the soldier.

  He gets out and stands looking at the
face taking a dim red glow from the taillights. He looks at the bed of the pickup. The chains look like the heaped entrails of a slaughtered metal beast. Some of the links are covered in rust, prayers that have gone unanswered for decades. He drops the tailgate and begins the process of lifting the man up onto the bed. At first he braces himself and tries to lift the soldier the obvious way, with one arm under his knees, the other under his armpits, careful of balance and with fine elastic adjustments of his body – but he is too heavy. Out of breath, his sides caving in and out, he props the man in a sitting position against the tailgate, the legs sticking out like a doll’s, and climbs up onto the bed and leans down and hooks his hands under the armpits. He doesn’t know what he’ll do if the man regains consciousness. Gathering all his strength into his arms he begins to pull the man up in swift and single-purposed hauls, unerring and untiring. Most of all he doesn’t wish to jostle the injuries too much, in case the pain brings the body out of sleep. He is sweating by the time he has transferred the man onto the bed. He lies stretched out beside him like a sibling, noisily sucking in the night air, the dead weight of the white man’s arm thrown over his stomach. Finally he rises, pulling free the looseness of his shirt caught under the American. The flashlight held in his teeth, a beam of radiance shooting from his mouth, he begins to separate the loops of the chains, identifying the neck, ankle and wrist rings. One bracelet is lying at the top of the heap of chains but he can’t find the other and has to send his arm deep into the tangled loops. He fastens the neck hoop around the man’s throat, removing the key once the lock clicks shut. He puts one of the wrist bands on the good wrist. The pickup’s bed is ten feet long and six wide, and above the bed is a six-foot-tall rectangular framework of pipes, for a tarpaulin cover to be draped and fitted over it. He passes several chains through the base of the pipe frame on either side of the American, so that he is secured to the pickup’s body. He will be able to manoeuvre himself into a sitting position but will not be able to stand up.

  He climbs down.

  He is sure he is being watched but he can see no one in the featureless night. He walks around to the front and takes out a bottle of water and returns and climbs back onto the bed. As he uncaps the bottle he rehearses out loud the question he will put to the man, preparing his voice for the venture. ‘Vere iz gurl? Vere iz gurl? Vere iz gurl?’

  Moving closer to him he takes the man’s head in one arm, the dust-covered face turned up, and gently opens the mouth and eases the two rows of teeth apart, feeling his breath on his fingers, and begins to pour in a thin strand of water. The swallowing function is asleep and the mouth fills up to the brim and the water slides out from the corners. Then it catches the back of the throat, a column of bubbles rising through the water that fills the mouth, and the alarmed mind wakes the body. The man splutters and then opens his eyes, struggling powerfully as he tries to sit up. He blinks in the light of the torch in Mikal’s teeth. Mikal leaps away and the water drips from the bottle onto the bed of the pickup with a musical ringing. A loud half groan, half roar escapes the man as he feels the pain of his injury but even then he is so strong that his pulling at the chains can make the pickup rock slightly, twisting in confusion and then anger. It’s as though above his shouting mouth his eyes are shouting too, contributing to the sound. Mikal fears the soldering of the pipe frame will give, tearing it off the sides of the bed. And he hasn’t looked at Mikal beyond the initial eye contact. Mikal thought there was no need to secure the injured arm and the man tries more than once to lift it – failing and giving out an agonised bellow through gritted teeth each time.

  Mikal stands at the tailgate, his torch shining into the man’s golden hair and the face glistening wet where water has washed away the dust. The eyes are green with splinters of brown in them.

  ‘Vere iz gurl?’ he says after a while.

  The man has stopped struggling and sits gasping, the half ton of chains shifting around his muscles, but Mikal’s question remains unanswered.

  Mikal looks at the sky. It’s almost nine o’clock and he is drenched in sweat. He knows some of these soldiers understand Urdu and Pashto, so he puts the question to him in both those languages, but to no avail. He climbs down and goes to the passenger seat and returns with the leopard cub. Standing at the tailgate he holds the cub out towards the man and says, ‘Vere hiz gurl?’

  The American doesn’t look at him, examining the chains and the pipe frame intently. Mikal might as well not be here.

  The stars move in the hot desert air and have a look of completeness to them, in comparison to the materials scattered about him here on earth, unassembled. When he sends the beam of the flashlight into the darkness the hills look like petrified clouds, ledges of hardened vapour.

  The leopard calls out and he notices that its whistle has deepened from a songbird to an eagle. He sees the soldier lick water from his lips but when he moves forward with the bottle the man begins to struggle again, the eyes that needle and dare and challenge and threaten him.

  Mikal gets back into the pickup, and with the heavy softness of the cub in his lap he begins to drive. ‘What have they been feeding you?’ he says, stroking the fur on the leopard’s head with one hand after they have been driving for five minutes, his breathing and heartbeat settling at last, the air from the window drying his clothes and skin. ‘Didn’t take you very long to become friendly with him, I see …’ He is still astonished at the power the animal’s eyes have over him, the gaze captivating within an instant, a radiant dreamlike effect on his mind. And then he begins to talk to it in a constant stream. ‘Are you going to say something to me? It’s probably beneath you to consort with someone like me these days. You’ve probably forgotten your own language by now, haven’t you? …’ As he drives he switches on the flashlight for a few moments to look through the glass window located behind his head. The soldier sits facing the other way and doesn’t react to the light that falls onto his shoulder. The chains won’t allow him to reach the glass of the window. ‘Don’t worry,’ Mikal tells the cub. ‘I am not going to hurt your new friend. I noticed there was a school next to Fatima’s sister’s house. One of the teachers will probably know English. That’s where I am taking him.’

  Raising dust, the pickup moves through the night. A flock of ghostly storks crosses his vision at one point with light pulsing on their wings as on a river, their throats rippling with language that he hears over the engine, the voices whipping the black air. He is moving through wild terrain and during one long stretch between two endless hills it seems as if he is standing still. Every now and then he drives onto the road, the tar melted from the day’s heat, then drives back onto rough ground – travelling in a straight line as much as possible. Around ten thirty he sees a roadside mosque half a mile ahead, a single light bulb shining over its door. In all probability it will be deserted at this hour and he will drive past but still he wishes he had a tarpaulin to put over the framework. Just as he approaches the mosque he looks back and sees that the American is slumped over. He brakes and gets out and runs to the back. The eyes are closed. He climbs onto the bed and moves forwards, ready to feel the pulse, to push aside the chains and thrust his hand under the Kevlar armour and check for the heartbeat, but the man stirs and sits upright.

  Mikal backs away. The inscription on the mosque’s lintel reads, I have no refuge in the world other than Thy threshold, there is no protection for my head other than this door. Just then a bearded man appears at the mosque entrance, holding an ablution pot in his right hand. The door is green as is the dome on the roof, the same colour as the pickup. The cleric approaches but stops when he sees the man in chains, dumbstruck.

  ‘I thought he’d fainted,’ Mikal says.

  ‘That’s a white man.’

  ‘Yes.’

  ‘What are you up to?’

  ‘I found him in the desert.’

  ‘Is he a soldier? An American?’

  ‘I think so. His arm is broken. I am taking him to Allah-Vasi. I
didn’t think anyone would be up at this hour in the mosque.’

  ‘I am performing an overnight reading of the Koran. Just came out to get some water.’

  ‘You don’t know anyone who speaks English, do you?’

  ‘No.’ It’s probably the truth, though people have been beaten for knowing English, suspected of being American informers.

  ‘Why are you taking him to Allah-Vasi?’

  ‘I am hoping to find someone who speaks English there. He can ask the American if he knows anything about my friend and his family.’

  The cleric’s face conceals nothing, a soul with no secrets, and he says, ‘I have never seen a real white person. During the First World War they were here. They used biplanes to drop bombs on us. The planes were considered a cowardice. Killing while being out of reach.’ Then he says, ‘If anyone sees him do you know what will happen?’

  ‘I am hoping to drive through the darkness.’

  ‘He had something to do with the disappearance of your friend?’

  ‘I don’t know. I think so.’

  ‘If someone sees him they’ll cut off his head … and yours too probably, for not doing it yourself. Did you say his arm is broken?’

  ‘Do you know how to set bones?’ Jeo would have, he thinks with a pang.

  ‘Yes. But we shouldn’t stand here on the road. I don’t want to be seen tending to an American out in the open. They’ll shoot me too. I know people who don’t want to even look at a picture of them.’ The man turns to go back into the mosque. ‘Bring your vehicle to the back of the building. I’ll see if I can find some splints.’

  ‘And I would appreciate it if you could let me have an old sheet to cover him during the journey to Allah-Vasi. A burlap sack or something.’