Love's Denial

by Flynn Eire

  "You've never been with them?" I gasped as I turned around to face Dominic. Before he could even answer, I changed my mind about wanting to know. "Never mind, it's none of my business."

  "Yes, it is, that's what I was trying to say," he said quietly, before turning back to Rick. "Why didn't you say that you knew?"

  "We don't care who you sleep with or want," one of Alpha team answered. "You're the best ruler ever. No one gives a shit if you like men or women."

  "They don't?" Dominic asked, his eyes going wide. "But I thought…"

  "I don't want to speak ill of the dead," Rick said gently as he approached Dominic. "But I worked for you father and you are twice the man and ruler he ever was. He was a bigot and a racist. As sad as it was that he was killed and you were left alone so young, most of us are grateful he was unable to influence you. Just be happy, Your Highness, you deserve it."

  Dominic just stared at him before glancing around the room. I saw the tears building in his eyes as he whispered, "Thank you. And not just for protecting me tonight."

  Mark snickered. "That was mostly Yuri. You should have seen him, he was totally badass. He killed like eight of the Zakasacs without breaking a sweat."

  "You fought them alone!" Dominic yelled, totally changing demeanor and turning on me. "Are you out of your fucking mind? You could have been killed. I have dozens of men trained to protect me and you go off all on your own?"

  "Your Highness, I didn't mean it like that," Mark stammered, trying to help me. Dominic merely held up a hand and silenced him.

  "Dude, you did enough, let's leave," Lance hissed as he pulled Mark and Wally out with him. I noticed the rest of Alpha team carrying their last injured and heading to the door as well.

  "None of them have been trained to handle that type of threat. That's why we have warriors," I answered him finally as I made my way to the main door as well. "I'm glad you’re safe, Your Highness. Good night."

  "Yuri, please stop," Dominic called out as he rushed after me. "We need to talk. I'm trying to apologize to you!"

  "I can't do this, Dom," I said as I braced my hands on the closed door. Rick had been a shit and closed us in as they all left. I didn't turn to face him even though I felt him trying to pull me around. But I had a foot and over a hundred pounds on him, he'd have better luck moving a tree if I didn't want be turned.

  "I'm sorry, Yuri," he whispered as he slid between me and the door. "I feel for you as I never have for anyone else before, and it scares me. I didn't know what to do with it, and I was an asshole. When I realized you were going out to face some unknown danger and might not come back, all I wanted was to tell you how I felt about you. It seemed so stupid to care what other people thought about my sexual preferences right then."

  "I'm glad you realized that," I told him honestly, finally looking at him. "But I can't be the plaything you use to come to terms with it. It hurt me too much to be used as a toy and tossed aside like that, Dom. I can't risk it again."

  The tears finally spilled out of his eyes as I moved away from him and walked back towards my room.

  "Then be my mate," Dom said as I got about halfway to the door.

  "What?" I gasped as I spun around so fast, I almost landed on my ass. I'd forgotten for a second I was injured. Realizing I needed to sit down before I fell down with pain and shock, I moved towards a chair and just about fell into it.

  "Be my mate, Yuri," he answered as he approached me uncertainly. "You're not a toy or plaything to me. I know that's the way I've treated you, but it's not how I feel. If you're afraid of me pushing you aside again, then be my mate. I can't leave you then, and it can settle your fears."

  "That's not a reason to mate," I said as sorrow overwhelmed me. He didn't say he wanted to be my mate, just that he would so I'd be with him. I felt tears running down my cheeks, partially because the wound in my side had torn back open. Getting clawed by a Zakasac was like having acid poured on your skin. And without the adrenaline pumping through me from the fight, I was starting to feel the pain.

  "I want you to be my mate because I…" He froze as he tried to say something. Dominic opened and shut his mouth a few times before he continued. "I've fallen for you."

  "You have?" I asked quietly, realizing he'd been trying to say he loved me. "You've never told anyone that you love them before, have you?"

  "No," he whispered as he came closer. Crawling on my lap, Dominic wrapped his arms around my neck and straddled my lap. "But I do you."

  "Really?" I replied, completely shocked. "Then how could you push me away like that? You broke my heart, Dom."

  "I'm sorry," he said as he leaned his forehead against mine. "You scare the shit out of me, Yuri. I've been alone for so long, then you come into my life when everything is already turned upside down by someone trying to kill me. All of a sudden, I'm dealing with wanting you and having to admit I'm gay as well. I thought it would be better to lie to you about my feelings if the fact I'm gay could hurt my people."

  "You can have both," I replied, before hugging him close to me. Yeah, he'd been an ass, but he was going through hell. "You can't do that to me again, Dom. My heart shattered when I thought you tossed me aside."

  "Can you ever forgive me?" Dom asked as he started kissing along my neck. "I'm so scared, and not just about us. But you're the only thing in my life that makes me happy and feel safe. You have to forgive me, Yuri."

  "Okay," I moaned as he licked up my neck and sucked on my earlobe. "But we're not going to mate."

  "Why not?" he gasped, leaning back to stare into my eyes as his filled with hurt. "Don't you want me?"

  "I do, God, I want you so much it hurts," I answered as I grabbed his ass firmly. "But I think you're going through enough right now, and going from everyone thinking you're straight to mating a man is too much. Can we just take things a little slower and see where they lead?"

  He opened his mouth to reply, but then shut it quickly. After a few moments of searching my face, he smiled. "Hottest man I've ever met, strong, powerful, and smart. How did I ever get so lucky?"

  "It's your ass. I just want to get into your tight little ass." I snickered as he kissed me gently. "And your hair. From the moment I met you, I've been dying to run my fingers through it."

  "Can I be stupid for a minute?" he asked quietly as he buried his face in my neck.

  "I'm not sure what that means, but you can ask me anything, baby," I answered. He started to shake, and I wasn't sure what was wrong. I held him tighter, rubbing his back to try and soothe him.

  "I know I've been such a jerk to you and you don't have to answer." Dominic sniffled. I wasn't sure where this was going, but I had an idea. "How do you feel about me?"

  Yep, that was it! I took a deep breathe and decided to lay my cards out on the table. "That night I held you and we messed around in the morning might have been some of the best moments of my life. I'm falling so hard for you, Dominic. You have to know that, otherwise, I wouldn't have gotten so upset when you pushed me aside."

  "I'm sorry," he cried, and I felt his body shake with his sobbing. "I didn't know what to do about my feeling for you. And I thought I should put my people first."

  "It's okay, baby," I said, quieting him. I kept rubbing my hands over his back as I stood and walked us over to the bed. "You get a free pass this time because of what you're going through. But you have to promise me something, Dominic."

  "Anything, I'll do anything if you give me another chance," he gasped out, and then he looked up at me.

  "If you ever get scared again or are confused, you have to come talk to me," I said firmly. I was willing to forgive him, but I wouldn't put up with this shit again. "We're going to be in a relationship, and that means we're in this together. No pushing me away or running again, okay?"

  He leaned in and kissed me as his fingers moved up my head. I thrust my tongue into his mouth and felt his body melt into me. God, could he kiss! For someone who'd never been with anyone, he was blessed with the gift of being a f
antastic kisser. When we broke apart, he took my face in his hands. "I promise, Yuri. Please just be patient with me, I'm scared out of my mind."

  "You're worth being patient for." Then I kissed him again.

  "Wait, how is your injury?" he asked, pulling away from me.

  "It's almost healed." I chuckled as I leaned back and pulled my shirt off.

  "There's something else I'm really afraid of," he whispered as his hands roamed over my chest. "Promise you won't laugh at me if I tell you?"

  "I won't laugh at you, baby," I said gently. I put my hand under his chin and made him look at me. "You can tell me anything and we'll figure it out, okay?"

  He nodded and then seemed to think about what I said before continuing. "I've seen you naked, Yuri. And I've never had sex before, never even had anyone touch me until you."

  "Listen to me, Dominic," I said firmly as I held onto the sides of his head. "I would never hurt you, even during sex. If you want us to be together like that, we'd work up to it. There are ways to prepare you to take me inside you."

  "I know the first time hurts, but fuck, you're huge," he replied as his hands traveled down my stomach and cupped my groin. "I'm just scared you'll tear me in half with that third leg of yours."

  "Third leg, huh?" I snickered.

  "What else should I call it?" he asked as he squeezed my cock through my pants. "I saw how you were with Kevin."

  "Kevin had prepared himself, looking to get fucked," I explained gently. I slowly pulled his shirt off and marveled at his small, lithe body. "Besides, he'd had sex lots of times, and he liked it rough. That's very different than making love to a virgin I'm falling for."

  "I trust you, you know that, right?" he asked as he started to unzip my pants. "You said you wanted to know when I was afraid, and I want to be honest with you."

  "I know you trust me, baby." I hissed as he pulled my cock out of my boxer briefs. "And I'm glad you told me. We need to talk about these things. It's normal to be scared of your first time, especially when it's with someone much more experienced than you."

  His head shot up to look at me as he dropped my dick. Oh shit, that couldn't be good. What did my big mouth do now? "What if I can't please you?"

  "You are so amazing." I chuckled as I quickly rolled us so I was lying on my back and he straddled me. "I thought you were going to get pissed because I said I was very experienced."

  "You're centuries old, of course you've been around the block." He shrugged as he started stroking me again. "Doesn't mean I want to hear about it."

  "Fair enough," I groaned. He kept playing with me as I pulled down my pants and boxers. "You don't have to do anything you're not comfortable with, Dominic. We can go as slow as you like."

  "Are you kidding me?" he exclaimed, causing my eyes to dart to his face. "I'm thirty years old and still a virgin! I want to try everything and right now. The consorts are my friends, my only friends, but we've never even made out. I never want to have to jack off again."

  "That can be arranged," I growled, remembering the sight of him that night I walked in on him touching himself. "What do you want first, baby?"

  "Can I try to swallow this monster?" he asked as moved down lower, looking at me for permission.

  "No, you can't." I laughed sarcastically. "That would just be so horrible for me, please, I'm begging you. Never blow me."

  "Smart ass," he mumbled as he leaned forward and licked the head of my cock. Fuck! It was incredibly hard to be good and patient. I wanted nothing more to push his head down and fuck his sweet little mouth. Instead, I fisted the sheets as he slowly sucked on me like a lollypop. Dom moaned as he took more of me into his mouth, and I almost came from the vibrations of his throat on my dick.

  "Baby, you're killing me here," I moaned. He looked up at me confused as his head bobbed up and down my cock. "It feels fantastic, and I'm close to coming."

  He smiled widely around my dick and swallowed more of me. I tried to keep my hips still, but they seemed to move on their own. His hot little mouth was like heaven as he moaned and sucked my cock until I thought I might die of bliss.

  "Dominic, I'm going to come," I hissed out, trying to pull away. He wasn't having any of it, instead started massaging my balls. That was all it took. I climaxed so fucking hard I saw lights flash behind my eyes and I seriously thought I might pass out. Dominic swallowed all my seed as my dick shot stream after stream of cum down his throat.

  "How did I do?" he asked when my cock was spent and soft. I lay there panting as he crawled back up my body until he was sitting on my stomach. "Did I do it right?"

  "Are you sure that was your first time?" I said swallowing loudly as I tried to catch my breath. "I've never come that hard from a blowjob before."

  "Glad you liked it." He smiled widely at me. Dominic looked so adorable as he sat there looking like the cat who ate the canary. "Now what?"

  In a flash, I rolled us over and let my hands change into claws. I glanced up at him. "Now I get to do what I've wanted to do since I saw you pleasing yourself that night."

  "What's that?" he gasped as he watched me wideeyed. I didn't answer, simply slid my claws under the waist of his pajama pants and started to shred them. They fell away after they were nothing more than strips of fabric, it was like opening a gift. I moved off of him enough to flip him over under me. He let out a yelp of surprise as I licked his shoulders.

  "I want to eat this perfect little ass," I purred, licking my way down his back. "If that's okay with you, baby?"

  "Yes, please," he begged. I swirled my tongue around his lower back, just above his firm, tight cheeks.

  "What would you think of a tattoo here?" I asked. I growled at the image of my name above his butt, branding him as mine for life. I let my hands slide back and massaged the tops of his ass. "I want my name right here. That way anyone who sees you naked knows you're taken, always to be mine."

  "Anything you want, my Yuri," he moaned. I felt my cock harden again at him calling me that.

  "I like that," I purred before licking along the crack of his ass.

  "Like what?"

  "When you call me 'your Yuri'," I answered as I pulled his cheeks apart.

  "You are mine, right? I'm yours and you’re mine?" he asked quietly.

  I snarled loudly and rolled him back over. "I am yours," I growled as my fangs came out. He stared up at me, not looking afraid, but maybe shocked. "And I don't share. If we're together, there's no one else, Dominic. I won't even stand for you pretending with your consorts. You're all mine, no one else's, we clear?"

  "Yes, Yuri." He nodded, his voice cracking. "I don't want anyone else but you."

  "I'm sorry," I whispered, trying to calm down. I moved up so our faces were almost touching. "I didn't mean to scare you, but I can't share you, baby. I'm just not that type of guy. I don't share. I'm greedy and jealous, and I want you all to myself."

  "I'm glad."

  "You are?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

  "Very," Dominic purred as he stroked my cheek. "You wouldn't get jealous if you didn't truly care about me. I don't want you to share me. Ever. I want us to be exclusive and to keep you all to myself."

  "I'm only yours, baby," I whispered against his lips. "You need to know that I'm a very, very jealous man when it comes to you. I'm not sure why, but I've never felt so protective or so in need of staking my claim before."

  "I like it, it makes me feel special," he answered as he wrapped his arms around my neck. "Don't you dare apologize for wanting me that much. You can be as jealous as you want, tattoo that I'm yours on my forehead if you want."

  "I don't think we have to go that far." I snickered. "I know you've not been with anyone, and if we stay together, you'd be giving up that chance."

  "I've had the chance to be with plenty of people. I want you, only you, Yuri," he said firmly. I saw the look of determination in his eyes, and I smiled. "But I won't share you either. No more Kevins, or whomever else you've been with. I'll do or be whatever you
need to keep you satisfied in and out of bed, but there can be no one else."

  "Baby, you just be yourself because that's more than I've ever dreamed of," I answered, feeling tears threaten again. No one ever cared for me enough to be willing to change if I needed it. It warmed my heart in a way I couldn't ever put into words. "I fell for you just as you are, Dominic. I don't want anyone else or for you to change. Well, except maybe for coming out of the closet."

  "I think I'm way out now." He giggled. I looked down at him with wide eyes, I wasn't sure I'd ever heard a man giggle before. "What? Why are you looking at me like that?"

  "I realized I've never had a man giggle when he's in bed with me before," I answered. Dominic turned his head away and flushed bright red. I moved my hand and brought his head back to face me. "I like it, a lot. It's hot when you giggle."

  "Are you sure?" he asked, looking unconvinced.

  "I'm very sure," I replied as I brought his hand to my hard cock. "Does that feel like I was turned off by it?"

  "No, no it doesn't," he whimpered as he squeezed me. "I've been told that my giggle sounds like a girl's and it's not very royal of me."

  "Then you save it just for me," I said gently, realizing it was a sore subject for him. His eyes brightened when I said that, and it hit me how badly he'd been treated. I couldn't imagine everything he'd been told and learned without ever being showed love. "Now I'm going to please you beyond anything you've ever experienced. And you giggle as much or as little as you want, baby."

  "Okay," he whispered, lust filling his eyes. I waggled my eyebrows as him as I moved back down his body. I licked down his hard dick, and he groaned loudly before I flipped him back over. Pulling back the cheeks of his ass, I moaned when I caught sight of his tight, pink, puckered hole.

  "Do you have any butt plugs, baby?" I asked as I licked his hole.

  "No, why?" He hissed and squirmed under me.

  "Because I want to make love to this perfect ass as soon as possible."

  "Oh God, yes, Yuri, I want you inside me," Dom moaned loudly. "How do we do it?"