“We were really looking forward to it!” said Mrs. Friendly.
“I have to fly back to the States,” said Chuck.
“A sudden summons!” said Mrs. Friendly. “Right out of the wide blue yonder!”
“So, Dr. Wilfred, why aren’t you in there drinking champagne with all the rest of them?”
“No invitation,” said Oliver. “They won’t let me in!”
Mr. and Mrs. Friendly both laughed. “I love it!” said Mr. Friendly. He fetched out his wallet. “Here’s his invitation,” he said to Giorgios and slipped something into Giorgios’s shirt pocket.
Giorgios shrugged and waved Oliver in.
“Let’s hope we meet again!” said Chuck Friendly to Oliver. “I have a number of ideas about the possibility of creating something out of nothing that are remarkably consonant with yours, and I greatly look forward to exploring them with you!”
He raised his arm to wave good-bye, and Oliver couldn’t help noticing the gleam of the handcuffs that connected him to one of his companions.
* * *
The young woman behind the screen inside the lodge finished the phone call she had been making and looked at the passport and the lecture that the security man was holding.
“Dr. Wilfred!” she said. “It’s you! You’re here! Hi! I’m so happy! We talk, talk, talk on the phone, but I never see you! Where you been? You get lost again? You get eaten from goats? Nikki’s going crazy! I call her.” She dialed as she talked. “You just got time to change! You know where to find your room? No, you don’t! You’re going to get lost again! You’re going to phone me—‘Where am I?’
“Wait—I get you a buggy … Nikki! He’s here!”
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“Dr. Wilfred!” cried Mrs. Comax. Oliver was trying to slip past the Temple of Athena unobserved, since he was no longer Dr. Wilfred, but merely Oliver Fox on his way to recover his passport and go. Everyone, though, was just at that moment beginning to emerge from the temple to move on to the agora for dinner, and now that Mrs. Comax had spotted him he was caught and surrounded.
“Oh, Dr. Wilfred!” The name pressed in upon him from all sides. “We’ve all been looking for you, Dr. Wilfred! We thought you’d despaired of us poor simpletons, Dr. Wilfred, and abandoned us!”
Oliver wondered whether to confess the truth to them, now that the game was over, but no one had believed him when he had tried before, and it scarcely seemed worth the effort of trying again, or the social disruption it would entail, since as soon as he had fetched his passport he would have vanished from their lives. And since, after all, at any moment the real Dr. Wilfred would almost certainly show up and do the job for him.
* * *
There was a young man just coming out of Parmenides as Dr. Wilfred approached it. He was wearing three-quarter-length orange skateboarding trousers and a plum-colored T-shirt that bulged obsequiously at Dr. Wilfred as he passed. All thought of him went out of Dr. Wilfred’s mind, though, when he opened the door of the guest suite. Another guest was obviously already in occupation. There were clothes scattered everywhere—shirts, trousers, underwear. On the luggage rack a suitcase lay open, with more clothes tumbling from it like fruit from a cornucopia, so profusely that it took Dr. Wilfred a moment to see that it had a red leather address tag.
He stood stock-still for a moment, then put his passport and the text of his lecture carefully down on the desk and opened the flap of the luggage tag. “Dr. Norman Wilfred,” it said. The name smiled up at him like a reflection in a mirror. It was his suitcase. He picked up a handful of the scattered shirts and underpants. The patterns on the shirts were old friends. They were his shirts. The underpants were pure silk. They were his underpants. He and his lost luggage had been reunited. It was not some other guest who was occupying the room. It was himself.
Presumably the airline had somehow found the address and sent the suitcase on. But why was it open? Why had the contents been taken out and thrown around? Someone must have come in and opened it. He looked at the padlock. Yes, it had been forced. That unsavory-looking young man who had been leaving as he approached … He had been ransacking the room when he had heard the buggy outside …
Never mind. The important thing was that he had clean clothes to change into. His evening lecturing trousers. Yes, crumpled, but still with creases in them. His clean soft silk underpants. He rubbed them between finger and thumb, and sniffed their cleanness. He pressed them affectionately against his cheek to feel their softness. The silk snagged against the unshaven whiskers on his cheek. Yes—first, a shave.
Where was his razor, though? And his toothbrush, for that matter, and all the rest of the stuff in his toilet bag? Where was the toilet bag?
He pushed open the bathroom door. And there it all was, scattered around the basin. There was a chef’s toque of lather on the shaving brush. Someone had been using his shaving things! The cap was off the toothpaste. They had even used his toothbrush!
That young man with the obsequious stomach. He hadn’t been stealing Dr. Wilfred’s things—he had been using them. He had been living in the room!
Dr. Wilfred felt the lather on the shaving brush. It was dry. The toothpaste spilling from the open tube was caked hard. The young man had been here all day. He looked at the bed. The man had slept here. He must have arrived the night before. In fact he must have been on the same plane as Dr. Wilfred, since he had stolen his bag from the carousel. And then been met by whoever was meeting Dr. Wilfred. And persuaded them he was Dr. Wilfred!
Everything was at last becoming clear.
And if the man had been shown to Dr. Wilfred’s room … if he had been allowed to remain in it all day … he must have continued to pass himself off as Dr. Wilfred … Was presumably still doing so.
He had taken over Dr. Wilfred’s identity. He had stolen his life.
And where was he now? He was out there somewhere having predinner drinks, being introduced to scholars and millionaires. As Dr. Norman Wilfred. Some young delinquent in skateboarding trousers!
It suddenly came into Dr. Wilfred’s head what the impostor was intending to do. He was going to give the Fred Toppler Lecture.
No—not possible! Dr. Wilfred had the lecture here, on the desk in front of him. He picked it up and glanced through it. “… the challenges facing us today … the hopes and fears of mankind…” He put his arms round it and pressed it against his chest. How right he had been never to let it out of his sight!
But perhaps the fake lecturer had a fake lecture? Perhaps he was planning to deliver a text of his own invention? Some thesis that blithely ignored the challenges, that mocked and derided the hopes and fears?
No, it was ridiculous. He was simply having one of those moments of panic that you laugh at afterward. In any case, the imposture was now over, since he himself, the real Dr. Wilfred, had arrived.
Perhaps he should quickly shave and change, then get out there and make absolutely sure that everyone understood that it was he who was he. No, not even shave and change. He could do that later. Even unshaven and unchanged he was who he was.
* * *
“Oliver Fox,” said Eric Felt for the tenth time, as if repetition might somehow tease a little more meaning out of the name. “And he told everyone! That’s the ridiculous thing! I was there! I heard him! ‘I’m Oliver Fox,’ he said. But he said it in a kind of funny way, so everyone thought it was a joke. I knew it wasn’t. That’s why I went and searched his room.”
He and Christian were sitting in the shuttered darkness of Empedocles, with the passport that Eric had found in Dr. Norman Wilfred’s room lying on the low table between them. Christian was bent over it, trying to catch what little light there was from the tiny sanctuary lamps, almost concealing it behind his drizzle of lank gray hair. Dr. Norman Wilfred gazed back at him from under his own blond mop. But the face was not the property of Dr. Norman Wilfred. It belonged to someone called Oliver Fox.
“So poor Nikki’s made a complete laughingstock of herself
,” said Eric. “This is the speaker she landed Mrs. Toppler with, and it turns out to be someone who’s just walked in off the street! She’s been leading Mrs. Toppler round on a piece of string! Nikki thought she was going to get her to push you out and make her director!
“And now this. They’ve put a knife in our hands, Christian! The time has come to use it.”
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Dr. Norman Wilfred couldn’t even get into the Temple of Athena, because the guests were already spilling out on their way to dinner. They all had their backs to him, concealing something or someone they were surrounding like swarming bees. It was difficult to think how to make people know that their lecturer had at last arrived.
“Hello!” he said. “Excuse me.”
No one turned. The bees seemed to have been deafened by the sound of their own excited buzzing.
There was one woman standing a little apart from the others, as absorbed in whatever it was as everyone else, but holding a clipboard, which suggested some kind of official standing.
“I beg your pardon,” he said. He waved his hand about in front of her. “Hello … Excuse me…”
Her eyes flicked briefly towards him, up to the fringe of unwashed and uncombed hair around his sunburnt pate, then down over the gray stubble on his chin to the daytime traveling trousers dried awkwardly around the contours of his legs.
“Dr. Norman Wilfred,” he said, holding out the hand he had been waving in her face.
She ignored his hand, and nodded at the backs of the people in front of her.
“There,” she said. “If you can see him through all his worshippers.” She turned on her heel and walked away.
Dr. Wilfred felt the sensation of sand being sucked away from beneath his feet by the receding tide. Perhaps his ridiculous moment of panic earlier was not so entirely ridiculous after all. What people were saying so excitedly, he realized, at various pitches and with various intonations, was his name. “Dr. Wilfred! Dr. Wilfred? Dr. Wilfred, may I ask you…? Dr. Wilfred, what is your view…?” They were saying it not to him, though, but to someone he couldn’t even see in the press of people around him. “Dr. Wilfred, this is the bishop of the Hesperides Archipelago … Mr. and Mrs. Oleg Skorbatov … His Excellency Sheikh Abdul hilal bin-Taimour bin-Hamud bin-Ali al-Said…”
For a moment Dr. Wilfred believed that he was having the kind of out-of-body experience he had read about in which someone looks down upon himself dying. Concealed by all these people, like the discarded body on the operating table concealed by the doctors and nurses so desperately bending over it, was himself. Not himself as he actually was, but as he might have been in some other life. Younger, potbellied, in skateboarding trousers. And not dying—living. Living the life that belonged to this Dr. Wilfred.
Yes, that was what was so wrong—precisely that the himself in there wasn’t himself. It was someone else. The author of all his misfortunes and the thief of all his labors.
Another of his black bolts of rage went through him. He ran after the crowd of duped sycophants as they began to move up the roadway, hardly able to wait for the moment when he publicly exposed and humiliated the trickster, when he reclaimed the kingdom that had been stolen from him.
“Hey!” he said. “Wait! Stop!”
No one waited, though. No one stopped. No one even noticed.
“Not him!” he screamed. “Me!”
A man at the back of the crowd turned round to look.
“Me, me, me!” said Dr. Wilfred, but found it difficult in his fury to find any form of words that articulated comprehensibly the monstrous injustice he had been subjected to. “Dr. Norman Wilfred! Me! I am!”
The man smiled and nodded and looked away. He was embarrassed to have been picked upon by some wandering schizophrenic.
At this even more immediate insult the focus of Dr. Wilfred’s rage shifted to the more accessible target who had offered it. He grabbed the man’s arm.
“I am! I am!” he shouted. The man snatched his arm away, terrified. Various people in the crowd turned round to see what the disturbance was. Dr. Wilfred waved the text of his lecture about in front of their faces.
“My lecture!” he cried. “Mine! I am Dr. Norman Wilfred! Not him! Me!”
The people looked not at the lecture but at one another, and then anywhere but at one another, embarrassed at even having been seen to be seeing this outburst.
Dr. Wilfred stopped still and watched them all getting farther and farther away from him. Public opinion in the matter of his identity was overwhelmingly against him. He was in a minority of one, and there was nothing he was going to be able to do about it.
He sat down on a bench beside the roadway, feeling for the third time that day suddenly weak and strange, as if he were recovering from yet another bout of delirium. He looked at the text of his lecture in the last of the fading daylight. He was Dr. Norman Wilfred, though! He was, he was! It said so on the binder!
He opened it, and found himself once again in the vibrant and bustling city of Kuala Lumpur … or rather, in the open spaces of Western Australia … no, on the green and tranquil island of Skios. He read the paragraphs he had written specially for the present occasion, about the parallels between, on the one hand, the patrons who had guided and nurtured the European civilization that the Fred Toppler Foundation existed to promote, and, on the other, the business enterprises and government departments that commissioned and financed scientific research. Now all this specially composed material was going to waste.
He turned over more pages. “… Challenges … hopes and fears…” Somehow, though, they didn’t seem quite as compelling, quite as real, as they had before. Here was a good bit, though—“A concerted and imaginative response is required from governments and leaders of industry alike…”
Or was it so good after all?
He turned over more pages, but his mind was wandering. Two dark spots had appeared in the air between him and the page like importunate flies. He brushed them aside. He turned back to the section about the overall framework of social responsibility. The two dark spots reappeared. They were two moles, he realized. They had become detached from the shoulder blade on which they lived, and taken up residence inside his brain.
He tried to focus his eyes on the overall framework and the concerted response, but the virtue had gone out of them. The whole lecture had turned to dust before his eyes. He felt relieved that the prospect of reading it aloud to an audience now seemed to have receded so far.
It was not only the two moles that were now coming between him and the text, he discovered. There was the whole shoulder blade on which they lived, gleaming with the oil he had rubbed into it. There was the little gleaming hillock beside it that marked the top of the spine, and the gleaming ladder of vertebrae that led down, down to the little hollows on either side of the coccyx …
He remembered how encouraging Georgie had been to him. How she had believed in him. How she had accepted unquestioningly what no one else on this island would: that his name was Wilfred. Or at any rate that one of his names was. But since, when she called him Wilfred, he heard it as his surname, it was like being back at school. It was like being young again.
And she had believed in his lecture. She had wished him well with it. Had kissed him good-bye …
He had been mad to leave! And by now her boyfriend would have turned up and claimed her.
No! He wouldn’t! It came to Dr. Wilfred, in the second rare eureka moment he had been granted in the course of a single day, who Georgie’s boyfriend was, and why he was not with Georgie. The whole story at last fell into place. The narrative at last made sense.
Yes. It was Georgie’s boyfriend who had taken his suitcase, his taxi, his room, his life. And who was now taking the place he should have had at dinner—who was sitting there in his skateboarding trousers, surrounded by admiring faces and attentive microphones, stuffing his bulging stomach with one specially prepared onion-free course after another.
While poor trusting
Georgie waited up there in her lonely mountain retreat, abandoned and forgotten.
And, if her boyfriend was here, then she still had nothing to eat. Dr. Wilfred could feel the nagging emptiness inside her, the uneasy lassitude, almost as painfully as Georgie would be feeling them herself. The sheer wrenching injustice of it overwhelmed him.
The more Dr. Wilfred thought about it, the more serious Georgie’s situation appeared to him. Not only was she hungry now—she had no prospect of ever eating again. Or any way of communicating her plight to the outside world. By the time she realized that no one was ever going to come she could conceivably be too weak to struggle to some other settlement for help. It wasn’t possible that a fit young woman could actually starve to death at the height of summer on a Mediterranean island. Or was it?
Anything was possible. In the last twenty-four hours that horrible bulging impostor in the skateboarding trousers had proved it over and over again.
He jumped to his feet and walked back to the now deserted Temple of Athena. Among the empty glasses and overturned bottles were platters still scattered with uneaten canapés. On one of the platters he assembled a reasonably representative selection: soft-poached ortolans’ eggs, anchovies in absinthe, and tiny baskets, woven out of sea-grass, filled with lobster tartare and fouetté of shark fin. He covered the platter with a tablecloth, clamped the lecture under his arm, and hurried back towards the outside world.
If he’s me, he thought, then I’ll be him. He lives my life—I live his.
* * *
In the sky above the agora lingered a frescoed ceiling of pink and golden cirrus. On the tables the flames of the candles swayed languidly as the diners moved about, finding their places, and then stood behind their chairs, waiting for the bishop to say grace. There was a bright murmur of people introducing themselves to the neighbors on either side. “Hi!” the wealthy and socially adept guests of the foundation were saying to one another, extending welcoming hands and smiling welcoming smiles. The wealthy and socially wary business associates of Mr. Papadopoulou unsmilingly inspected the outstretched hands, and nodded, and gave nothing away.
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