by Rice, Anne
Little redheaded bitch … black bitch!
“When I reached the side lawn I walked slowly over the flagstone terrace and through the new arrangement of wicker, and I had the feeling that Rebecca was very near. Rebecca was waiting for me to fall asleep. Rebecca was waiting to talk to me. Yes, I had been on this very couch with her, and she had sat on that chair, and the coffee had been on this table. A dizziness came and went as it had that day in the swamp, but I knew I had to fight it. A life for my life. A death for my death …
“ ‘What did you say?’ I asked. ‘A life for a life?’ Who was I talking to? I battled the dizziness. ‘Murderous ghost, get away from me!’ I whispered.
“What was I doing out here on the side lawn? So they had refurbished the wicker as I told them to do.
“I had to be gone. I headed for the shed.
“And within minutes I was rolling out in Sweetheart’s old Mercedes 450 sedan, the car I had always much admired, though I think it was as old as I was.
“I was on the highway in no time and flying towards Mona Mayfair. But there was time to swing by the florist on St. Charles and Third and buy Mona a beautiful bouquet of long-stemmed roses.
“Then I drove to my final destination: First and Chestnut, riverside downtown corner. Of course the house wasn’t near the river. The river was a world away. The expression was just a way of orienting oneself in New Orleans.
“The house was quietly fabulous. It didn’t have the arrogant splendor of Blackwood Manor. Rather it was a Greek Revival town house with a side-hall door, four columns up and down, its stucco walls painted a twilight lavender, and beyond to the far right a partially concealed side garden. The whole mansion was set about six steps off the ground and the steps were white marble.
“I parked the car across the intersection and I made the diagonal now on legs that didn’t feel, they just guided, and with the huge bouquet in my arms, breathless to offer it to her.
“The iron fence wasn’t high and there was the doorbell. I debated. What would I say to the person who answered? Mona, I’m desperate to see Mona.
“But I didn’t have to face this complexity. One half second after I appeared at the gate, the big white front door opened, and out she came, quickly closing the door behind her and rushing down the steps to the gate. She had a key for it and turned it quickly, and then we stood facing each other outside the bounds of the fence and I thought I was dying.
“She was about one hundred times more lovely than I remembered her. Her green eyes were much larger and she had a naturally rouged mouth that I wanted to kiss immediately. Her hair was clear red, and to cap it off she wore an exquisite white cotton shirt, unbuttoned way low, and skintight white pants that showed off her small rounded thighs beautifully. I was even in love with her toes. She had on thick sandals and I could see all her red toenails. I adored her.
“ ‘My God, Mona,’ I said, and I took the plunge, covering her mouth with mine and grabbing for her tiny wrists, but she broke away gently and said,
“ ‘Where’s your car, Quinn? We have to get out of here quick.’
“We ran across the street like newlyweds running from a rice storm. We were driving out First Street towards the river in a twinkling.
“ ‘So where can we go? Oh, God, I don’t know where we can go,’ I said.
“ ‘I do,’ she answered. ‘You know how to get to the Quarter?’
“ ‘Absolutely.’
“She gave me an address. ‘The LaFrenière Cottages,’ she said. ‘I called them this morning.’
“ ‘But how did you know I’d come? I mean I’m thrilled that you called them, but how did you know?’
“ ‘I’m a witch,’ she said. ‘I knew when you left Blackwood Farm just like I know that Goblin’s in the car with us. He’s right behind you. You don’t even know it, do you? But I didn’t mean that. I meant only, I wanted you to come.’
“ ‘You put a spell on me,’ I said. ‘I haven’t slept since I saw you last, and half my night’s ravings have been about you and wanting to come to you.’ I could hardly keep my eyes on the road. ‘Only lawyers and wills have kept me from you, tales of infidelity and orphan children and roaming in ghostly furniture and forging alliances as strong as the one I mean to forge with you.’
“ ‘God, you’ve got some vocabulary,’ she answered. ‘Or maybe it’s just your delivery. It’s meant that you should come to me. I’m Ophelia always, floating in the flowery stream. I need your rushing poetry. Can you drive if I unzip your pants!’
“ ‘No, don’t do that. We’ll have a wreck. I think all this is a hallucination.’
“ ‘No, it’s not. Did you bring any condoms?’
“ ‘God, no,’ I said. We had reached Canal Street. I knew where the LaFrenière Cottages were. Lynelle and I had eaten three times in their tasty little French bistro. ‘Mona, Mona, Mona,’ I said. ‘We have to get condoms! Where?’
“ ‘No, we don’t,’ she said. ‘I have tons of them in my purse.’ ”
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“The LaFreniere cottages were nestled around a central brick courtyard crowded with the de rigueur palmetto and banana trees, and in the center of the courtyard was a wishing well that may once have served some purpose. Now it was merely decorative, and people had taken to pitching all manner of change into it.
“Mona handled our check-in as if it were nothing, even telling me to put away my money, the bill would go to her family.
“When I protested she whispered, ‘Show your strength when we get in bed.’
“And off we went, into the little flag-paved cottage, to do just that, in a modern pewter ironwork bed with an enchanting canopy of metal leaves and grapes, and a light breezy fabric wound loosely around its four corners.
“As soon as the door was latched we both stripped off our clothes with the utter abandon of beasts, and when I beheld her naked, when I saw the pinkness of her nipples and the little blaze of red hair between her legs, I went appropriately crazy.
“It was Mona who helped me on with the condom and Mona who had the presence of mind to pull down the covers, so that we didn’t stain them, and finally they wound up on the floor as we went at it like little jungle animals.
“Whatever was going on with my life, I figured, I had fulfilled one of my wildest dreams, no matter that it was newborn, it was wild and from the heart and I would never never forget it. I would never forget Mona’s face as she blushed with the spasm that sent me into the final explosion of pure nirvana.
“When it was over we lay together, embraced, warm, contented and kissing each other playfully and gently.
“ ‘Oh, thank God,’ she whispered into my ear. She helped me with the soiled condom. She went for the towel to clean me off. She kissed me again and she said, ‘I wanted to put my mouth on it. Come, let me wash you in the bathroom and then I’ll do it.’
“I protested gallantly. I required no such sacrificial adoration!
“ ‘Tarquin, I want to!’ she said. ‘I wanted to do it in the car. I just had an overwhelming desire to do it. And I never got to do it. Come on, out of bed!’ and I was led like a slave into the tiled bath where she performed the arousing ablutions and then we were back amid the swirled sheets, only she had her mouth on my cock, stroking it hard, fast, and licking at the tip, and then I died when I came. All strength, all energy, all dreams went out of me.
“ ‘Nobody’s ever done that before?’ she purred in my ear as we lay there.
“ ‘No,’ I said. It was all I could do to speak. ‘Could we sleep, just like this, snuggled up together?’
“In answer I felt the warm weight of the covers and then her cool arm against my back and her lips kissing my eyes. There was a moist heat coming from her breasts and from between her legs. And the breeze of the air conditioner, chilling down the room, made the nestling all the more wonderful.
“ ‘Tarquin, you are one beautiful boy,’ she whispered. ‘And your ghost is here, and he’s watching us.’
“
‘Go away, Goblin,’ I said. ‘Leave me now, or I mean it, I won’t speak to you for the longest time, I swear it.’ Then I turned over and looked around the room. ‘Can you see him?’ I asked her.
“ ‘No,’ she said. ‘He’s gone.’ She lay back on the pillows next to me. ‘I am Ophelia once again,’ she said. ‘I am floating in the water, with only “nettles, daisies and long purples” to hold me up, and I will never sink to “muddy death.” You can’t imagine how it is with me.’
“ ‘How so?’ I asked. ‘I see you borne along forever, vital, precious, oh, so sweet—.’ I tried to stay awake, to listen to her.
“ ‘Go on, sleep. Men want to sleep when it’s over. Women want to talk, at least sometimes. I am Ophelia drifting in “the weeping brook,” so light, so sure, “or like a creature native and endued unto that element.” They won’t find me till tonight, and maybe not even then. I tip these hotels pretty high, I think I may have them won over.’
“ ‘You mean you’ve done this before? You’ve come here with others?’ Now I was wide awake. I rose up and propped myself on my elbow.
“ ‘Tarquin, I have a huge family,’ she said, looking at me, her hair exquisitely mussed on the pillow. ‘And one time it was my goal to be intimate with every one of my cousins. I succeeded with more than I can count without the aid of a computer. Of course it wasn’t always in a hotel. It was more often in the cemetery at night—.’
“ ‘The cemetery!’ I said. ‘You’re serious?’
“ ‘You have to understand that my life isn’t normal. Most Mayfairs don’t seek for a normal life. But my life isn’t even normal for a Mayfair. And this goal, this goal of sleeping with all my cousins, it’s been over for some time.’ Her eyes looked suddenly sad, and she looked up at me imploringly. ‘But yeah, I’ve been here, I have to confess, I have christened this room before with my cousin Pierce, but it doesn’t matter, Tarquin, it’s all new with you, that’s what matters. And I was never Ophelia with Pierce. I’m going to marry Pierce but I’ll never be Ophelia.’
“ ‘You can’t marry Pierce, you have to marry me. My life’s not normal either, Mona,’ I said. ‘You have no idea how strange it is and you and I are no doubt meant for each other.’
“ ‘Oh, yes, I do. I know your ghost goes everywhere with you. I know you lived all your life among adults. You have no real knowledge of children. That’s what Fr. Kev told me. At least that’s what I could drag out of him. I almost got Fr. Kev into bed, but in the final go-round he proved to be immovable. He’s what anybody would call a good priest, but he’s loosening up when it comes to gossip, though not, you understand, about anything he hears in the confessional.’
“Her eyes were so green that I could scarcely concentrate on what she was saying.
“ ‘And did he warn you off of me?’ I asked. ‘Did he tell you I was crazy?’
“She laughed a sweet laugh and she bit down on her lower lip as if she was thinking. ‘You’ve got it backwards. They’re out to protect you from me. Course they do want to keep me under lock and key. That’s why I was at the front door of the house waiting for you. I am now considered to be a raving slut. I had to see you before they did. And I’m not the only witch in the family.’
“ ‘Mona, what do you mean when you say “witch”? What are you talking about?’
“ ‘You mean you’ve never heard of us?’
“ ‘Yes, but only good things—like Dr. Rowan’s dream of Mayfair Medical, and Fr. Kev and how he came South to revisit the Irish Channel where he was born, that sort of thing. We go to St. Mary’s Assumption Church. We see Fr. Kev all the time.’
“ ‘I’ll tell you why Fr. Kevin came South,’ she said. ‘He came South because we needed him. Oh, there’s so much I wish I could tell you, but I can’t. And when I saw you in the Grand Luminière, when I saw you talking to Goblin and embracing Goblin, I thought, God, you’ve answered my prayer, you’ve given me someone with secrets! Only now I realize it doesn’t change things with me. It can’t. Because I can’t tell you everything.’
“She began to cry.
“ ‘Mona, you can tell me! Listen, you can confide in me completely.’ I kissed her tears. ‘Don’t cry, Mona,’ I pleaded. ‘I can’t stand it, seeing you cry.’
“ ‘I don’t doubt you, Quinn,’ she said. She sat up in the bed, and I sat with her. ‘I’m not sure Ophelia actually cries in the play, does she? Maybe crying is what keeps people from going mad. It’s just that there are things that can’t be told,’ she went on, ‘and there are things that nobody can do anything about.’
“ ‘It’s always been my way to tell,’ I said. ‘That’s why you saw me embracing Goblin. It would have been very easy at a certain age for me to stop embracing Goblin. I could have maybe sent Goblin away to wherever he came from. But I never kept him a secret. There is a ghost who haunts me too, and then there is a stranger, the man who beat me up and put me in Mayfair Medical. I just let these things come out. I believe we have to do that.’
“I handed her the paper tissues from the bedside table. I took another and wiped at her tears.
“ ‘I know I’m going to marry you, Mona,’ I said suddenly. ‘I know it. I know it’s my destiny.’
“ ‘Quinn,’ she said, wiping her eyes, ‘that isn’t going to happen. We can have a little while, talk to each other, be with each other like this, but we can’t ever really be together.’
“ ‘But why?’ I demanded. I knew that if I lost her I would regret it always. I thought that Goblin knew it. That’s why Goblin had gone away with no argument. He knew this was too strong, and he hadn’t said a word to me.
“Yet I remembered what Goblin could do now. Goblin could break these windows if he wanted. Goblin had told me that he liked being angry. Could I tell Mona that? Should I tell anyone that? I felt a twinge of my panic, and I hated it as unmanly. With Mona, I wanted to be manly.
“ ‘Come back with me to Blackwood Manor,’ I said. ‘It’s where I live. We can stay in my room, or I’ll put you in my Pops’ bedroom if you want the proprieties. Pops just died. The room’s all cleaned and ready. He didn’t die in the room. They packaged up his personal things right away. Where’s the phone? I’ll tell them to get it ready. Give me your size of clothes. Jasmine will go to Wal-Mart and get whatever you need to tide you over.’
“ ‘God, you’re as mad as one of us,’ she said with honest amazement. ‘I thought we Mayfairs were the only ones who did things like that.’
“ ‘Just come. Nobody in my house is going to mess with us. My Aunt Queen may have some sage advice. She’s pushing seventy-nine, or so she says; sage advice is to be expected. And I have a new private teacher, Nash, but he’s a perfect gentleman.’
“ ‘So you don’t go to school, either,’ she said. ‘Cool!’
“ ‘No, never have, going to school never worked with Goblin.’
“I flew into action. She watched with continued amazement as I spoke on the phone to Jasmine. Petite everything, white shirts, pants, cotton underwear, a few toiletries, and away we went.
“As soon as I got behind the wheel I realized I had been awake for over thirty-six hours. I began to laugh at the way everything looked, and at the way everything was working.
“ ‘Here, let me drive,’ she said.
“I was glad to give in.
“She took over like a pro and off we sped, catapulting out of the narrow French Quarter streets and on to the interstate.
“I couldn’t take my eyes off her, it was positively sexy the way she drove, that somebody so delectable could drive, and when she shot those green-eyed glances at me I felt weak and overjoyed, and in that mood, that crazy, elated mood, I spoke to Goblin.
“ ‘I love her, old boy, you understand, don’t you?’
“I looked into the backseat and there he was, gazing at me with that cold contemptuous expression he had adopted in the hospital. It took the breath out of me. And then came his dark monotone voice:
“ ‘Yes, and I enjoyed her ver
y much too, Tarquin.’
“ ‘You’re lying, you bastard!’ I said. I wanted to choke him. ‘How dare you say that to me? I would have felt you if you’d been that close! You think you can sneak inside me!’
“ ‘Oh, he was there,’ Mona said as she pushed the car past eighty-five miles an hour. ‘I could feel him.’ ”
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“Aunt Queen and Jasmine didn’t let me down. Whatever Aunt Queen’s misgivings about Mona, she would not hurt Mona’s feelings. When we arrived, Aunt Queen, with open arms, welcomed Mona to the house, and when I announced that this was my future bride Aunt Queen received this information with sublime equanimity.
“Jasmine showed Mona up to Pops’ room, where all her new clothes were waiting for her, and then we went off to my room, where we would really be during this visit, and we had a scrumptious meal at this very table where you and I are sitting.
“I don’t remember what we actually ate. What I remember is that watching Mona eat was a trip, because I was so infatuated with her, and seeing her handle her knife and fork with such quick gestures and talk in an animated way the whole time made me more truly abandoned to her.
“I know what I am saying is crazy. But I was so in love with her. I had never known such feelings before, and for the time being they utterly erased the habitual panic I suffered, and they even took away my reasonable fear of the mysterious stranger, though I should add here that there were still plenty of armed security men around our house, even inside of it, and this did also give me some feeling of safety.
“Of course Aunt Queen wanted to see me alone, but I graciously declined. And when the lunch things were cleared away and Jasmine had polished up the table (and by the way, Jasmine was a stunner in a light navy blue suit and crisp white blouse), I was ready to lock the whole world outside if I could do it.
“ ‘Now you understand,’ Mona explained. ‘This cousin Pierce whom I’m probably going to marry is utterly boring, I mean this cousin is like a loaf of white bread, he has no paranormal powers whatsoever and he is a lawyer already in the firm of Mayfair and Mayfair, where his father, Ryan, is a partner, and Ryan, my beloved Ryan, he’s a loaf of white bread too, and their life is just a direct line to conformity and security.’