Avoiding Responsibility

by craziebabe45

  His personality just never fit him being this kind of guy. She always found it strange when he played the tough guy. Even that night nearly a year ago when he had walked into Jack's apartment and threatened his life if he ever hurt Lexi or his sister, she had never thought of him as scary…as if he might actually follow through with it.

  When he was with her, he always tried to be the most comforting person possible. He was cute, funny, and charming. He could string words together like a poet one minute and ramble like a nervous fool the next. She knew he wasn't this guy that he was putting on the act to be. Thus, it was too strange to see the fear reflected in Seth's eyes. Ramsey would never hurt him, right?

  "Don't play games with me," Ramsey said releasing his shirt and pushing him backwards.

  Seth ran his hands along the black button-up he was wearing to smooth out the wrinkles from Ramsey's aggressive behavior. "Chill out, geez."

  "I'll chill out when I get a straight answer from you. You called me in a panic, made me leave everything I was doing." His eyes shot to Lexi's for a brief moment. "I want to know what is going on now, Seth."

  "Wait what was that look?" he asked pointing between Lexi and Ramsey. A slow smile crept up onto his face and instantly turned into Seth's characteristic smirk. "Was something going on between you two? Is something going on between you two?"

  Lexi's face instantly turned beet red. She couldn't help herself. She hadn't intended on going that far with Ramsey, not that it should matter to Seth one way or the other, but she still felt kind of silly. After all, they had been about to have sex when they were interrupted with Seth's stupid phone call. She could feel the warmth of her skin heating her face and her heart raced ahead before her at the thought of having sex with Ramsey. She knew her mind shouldn't wander there while she was standing before Seth, but she couldn't help it. And she was very thankful that the room was dark, and Seth couldn't tell how bad she was blushing. She would have certainly given herself away.

  "Stop changing the subject," Ramsey said pointedly changing the subject.

  "I'm not changing the subject," Seth interjected smoothly. "I just know that look. I know it so well that I could have picked it out anyway."

  "What does it matter Seth?" Lexi squeaked out.

  "It's just I can tell that's what has been going on. You guys were together all night when you were supposed to be here with the guys right?"

  "Seth it doesn't matter, God," Lexi muttered shoving a piece of hair behind her ear. She didn't know what Seth was getting at and it was really annoying to have him badger them about their relationship. She didn't want to have this conversation at all let alone with a drunken Seth. He was one of the most vulgar people she knew, and if he got talking about sex, if he thought for one moment that they had been about to have sex, the conversation would be endless.

  "Oh, but it does matter," he said contrarily.

  "It really doesn't matter," Ramsey agreed with Lexi. "Just tell me what happened here," he said exasperated and ready to get the hell out of the strip club.

  "But don't you know?" Seth asked his eyes shifting to Lexi's. He winked at her causing her blush to deepen.

  She really had no idea what he was getting at now. What didn't Ramsey know that Seth thought he could tell him? He had to know that they had been together. He was, after all, Jack's best friend. He was the person he had been friends with the longest. And if she had to guess, he was probably the best man at his wedding. Jack had been his best man. They had a bond unlike any other. And if Jack knew that she had been with Ramsey, then Seth did too. Which brought her back to having no clue where Seth was going with all this.

  "Know what? I don't have time for these games," Ramsey growled.

  "She's Jack girl."

  Lexi's mouth dropped open in shock at his words. Her ears were ringing and all else was blocked out. It was as if the strip club had instantly gone silent. The pain of those words shot through her like a knife through her heart. The nonchalance of the statement hit her to the core. She didn't even have words. She couldn't even correct him. She was just utterly shocked by the easy way he threw around those words.

  She had worked a year to get him out of her life as much as she possibly could. He always had a place in her heart since she had loved him so obsessively for such a long time, but she had been able to extract herself from him to an extent. But Seth's easy placement of her belonging to Jack catapulted her to a different place in her life. And she had to forcefully remind herself to be angry that he had placed her with Jack. After all it was pretty fucked up that he would say that at all about someone who was about to be married. Let alone say those kind of things to the man she had been dating who happened to also be Jack's future brother-in-law.

  As the proper emotion filtered into her system, anger bubbled up from the pit of her stomach. She wanted to smack him across the face for ever uttering something that had always been such a complete and total lie. She wasn't Jack's girl. She had never been Jack's girl. Jack only cared about himself. He was happy to leave her behind while he married someone else.

  "Jack is marrying my sister," Ramsey stated each word carefully. Lexi saw the same raw anger that she was certain reflected in her eyes in Ramsey's own demeanor. "Perhaps you should think about that before you speak again."

  Seth's easy smile was something Lexi was extremely accustomed too. He was in his element. For some reason, even drunk, he was having fun with this. "He might be marrying her, but it's not like he's going to get rid of Lexi. I mean have you seen her?" he asked gesturing towards Lexi who was still in her sexy red dress from their night out. His eyes crawled her body hungrily, the alcohol getting rid of the last bit of inhibition that he had. Not that he had had much to begin with. "She's fire hot! And anyway, they've been together forever."

  "You are talking about people I care about Seth. You should watch what you are saying," Ramsey tried to remind him. He hated the way Seth referred to Lexi as if she were just meat. He talked about her and Jack as if they were inevitable, as if she had no choice in the matter. He couldn't let that be the case. And listening to him talk about her that way was only getting him more fired up. "You are telling me that Jack is going to cheat on my sister with the woman standing before you just because they have a history?" Ramsey asked in disbelief.

  "If he hasn't already," Seth said scoffing. He was so certain of his deduction of the situation; he couldn't even see the effect he was having on the both of them. Or if he did, he didn't realize the significance of what he was ensuing.

  Lexi, however, saw what was coming before it happened. Ramsey couldn't let his comment stand. The same thought had crossed his mind too many times, and she knew that he couldn't stand hearing it from one more person.

  Ramsey cleared the distance between them in a split second hoisting Seth up by his shirt one more time. "Do not ever imply again that Lexi is a whore or that Jack would be stupid enough to hurt either one of them. He knows what I would do to him if that day came," he snarled.

  "Ramsey, put him down," Lexi cried guilt washing over her at the fact that Seth was right. Jack had already cheated on Bekah with her. They had kissed several times, and then that dreadful decision to sleep with him on his birthday. She had let those things happen. Not that she could tell anyone that fact. If he chose Bekah, then by all means let him have her. She was bound and determined not to get in the way again. "People are coming over here," she said nodding her head towards the approaching bouncer.

  "Alright man sorry. It's the alcohol talking," Seth muttered running his hand through his hair when Ramsey finally put him down.

  "Is there a problem here?" a bouncer asked getting in Ramsey's face.

  "No," Ramsey said flashing his pearly white teeth. "In fact, we're perfect. We'll be leaving shortly."

  "Make it sooner rather than later," the man said menacingly before turning, walking a safe distance away, and staring at the group.

  "Charming individual," Ramsey mumbled before turning his attention
back to Seth. "Now stop changing the subject and tell me why you called me. Where is Jack?"

  "So yeah about that," Seth said scratching the back of his head. "He's probably just in one of the back rooms where we sent him off about thirty minutes ago."

  Ramsey took two big deep breaths trying to calm down his beating heart. He wanted to erupt. He wanted to unload every single angry feeling into pummeling this guy's face. He wasn't sure if he'd be able to contain himself under present circumstances. "You are saying…that Jack…is here? That Jack…is fine?" he asked through gritted teeth.

  "Yeah," Seth mumbled looking away from Ramsey's angry gaze. "We just wanted you out with us. We know you said you had business to take care of, but we thought you'd be back out here with us having a good time already."

  "Seth, I could kill you," Lexi said smacking him on the shoulder. This was completely typical of something he would do. He was only thinking of himself. He didn't care what Ramsey reaction would be or the consequences could be.

  "Oh do it again," he moaned commenting on her less than playful smack. His arms came up to circle her waist again, but the look on Ramsey's face made him discontinue his efforts.

  "Let's get out of here," Ramsey said latching onto Lexi's elbow and ushering her towards the exit. She stumbled under the weight of his grasp, but he held her up as she scurried helplessly attempting to keep up.

  "Come on man, don't be like that," Seth said rushing behind them. Hunter and Luke were close on his tail after realizing that they were going to leave after all the effort it had taken to get Ramsey here in the first place.

  "Yeah Ramsey, you can't leave now. You just got here," Hunter called after him.

  "Don't you want to be involved in Jack's bachelor party?" Luke asked.

  "This is just ridiculous," Ramsey said stopping to face them. He didn't want to be scrutinized for his decisions. All he wanted was to be back in Lexi's bed picking back up where he left off. Now they had all ruined that opportunity for him for no reason.

  "It's not that ridiculous. We skipped out on Vegas for you. We only came to New York based on your request. Then you don't even come out with us," Seth complained. "That's pretty fucked up."

  Lexi's eyes shot to Ramsey. Coming to New York had been his request? This had nothing to do with Jack. If Jack had it his way, he would be in Las Vegas right now partying it up like the guys Hangover. He probably hadn't even considered Lexi in this decision.

  A part of her was relieved that this had nothing to do with Jack. She couldn't handle him right now. She had been having a hard enough time getting over him, and now she was dealing with everything with Ramsey. However, that wasn't completely her feelings on the subject. Her heart had been through the shredder too many times to count, and she still had a small bit of hope left in her. She didn't like to admit. She certainly didn't like to think about it. But Jack had been her everything. Even after all the terrible things that had happened between them, she still couldn't look past the tiny piece of hope she'd kept locked away.

  Of course, she kept it pushed back so that it wouldn't hurt her. She had tried to get over him the past year, and with Ramsey's help, had been mostly successful. That didn't change her desire to see him or that hope that maybe one day things could work out.

  But it was impossible.

  She knew that after what had happened in Atlanta between them they weren't meant to have a fairy tale ending. Giving another girl her engagement ring, whether it was a duplicate or not, kind of solidified their involvement with each other.

  "You wanted to come to New York?" she breathed. Ramsey's hand was still attached to her arm, and at her words, he broke contact with her. His gaze swept to her, but he couldn't place the look on her face. He didn't know if she was happy or angry about the fact that he had switched her kinda-ex-boyfriend's bachelor party to New York City so that he could see her. It wasn't something he was exactly proud of, but he had needed to see her. It had been a month and he was missing her terribly. The quick change had been an abrupt decision, but the guys had gone along with it. He hadn't anticipated Lexi ever finding that out. He was kind of afraid to know what she was thinking.

  "Yeah Lex," Seth began. Lexi cringed at the pet name. She still couldn't hear it from anyone without feeling slightly sick. "Can you believe we did all this for him, and he didn't even come out with us?" Seth asked trying to lighten the mood.

  "Yes, actually I can," she murmured just loud enough to be heard over the music playing through the hidden speakers. She certainly believed that Ramsey would reroute their rendezvous to come to New York City. She highly doubted he had even given two thoughts to the shift since money wasn't an issue. He just did exactly what he wanted, and apparently, this time around, it had been to come see her.

  "So we just wanted to get you out here," Seth told him gesturing around to the naked women and hundreds of bottles of alcohol that lined the bar. His meaning was clear – why wouldn't you want to be here?

  "I feel as if I've been to one of these before. It's not the highlight of my evening." Seth's eyes widened in response. "I had better things to do until you called and told me that things had gone south. So, please, don't tell me that you interrupted my evening for absolutely no reason."

  "I mean we had a reason," Seth said stretching the truth only slightly. "We wanted you out with us. You're a fun guy," he told Ramsey clapping him on the back. Lexi was surprised Seth could be that affectionate or even that forgiving after Ramsey had hoisted him up off of his feet by the collar of his shirt. She was pretty sure if it had been anyone else, a fight would have broke out. Now he was acting as if they were old friends. He was trying to play it off as if he had done Ramsey a favor by lying to him rather than completely ruining his night.

  "And everything is alright with Jack? Someone didn't steal all of your money?" Ramsey asked fire in his voice.

  Seth smiled impishly. "Nah, Jack is perfectly content, if you know what I mean," Seth said with a wink for emphasis.

  Lexi's stomach rolled at the comment. Of course Jack would be in a back room with a stripped for his bachelor party. It only made sense that that would happen. And really she didn't care that it was happening. It was more the fact that this right of passage really solidified in her mind that he was really going to go through with this. He was really going to marry Bekah. A woman so detestable, she would do literally anything to stay on top.

  "Yes, I know," Ramsey said seeing Lexi's skin pale at the comment.

  Lexi's skin suddenly pricked up and all the hair on the back of her neck stood on end. She knew someone was watching her. She could feel the eyes from across the room. As her gaze found who was blatantly staring at her, her heart melted. "Jack," she murmured barely audible to the outside world.

  Even from across the room, she knew that he wanted her. It was such an intense emotion, one that she was very accustomed to, that she could tell instantly where his mind was. She didn't think it helped that he was both drunk and likely incredibly horny from the strippers antics.

  The rest of the group caught on as Jack made his way across the room. "Hey man how was it?" Luke asked as Jack passed him.

  "Do you need more cash?" Hunter questioned him digging around in his pockets for some to give him if necessary.

  Jack stopped in front of Lexi without acknowledging the rest of the group. Lexi could feel Ramsey tensing next to her, but she couldn't look away. It was like they were on the beach again when she had expected to see him. He was a vision that day drenched in sunlight and full of energy. He was looking at her the same way as if she weren't real, as if he had conjured her up out of thin air.

  "Lex," he huskily muttered.

  "Jack," she acknowledged not tearing her eyes from his crystal clear blue gaze filled with desire. She wanted to hold onto the disdain she felt for him that afternoon when she found out he was engaged. She wanted to feel the chains being broken and her release from his enslavement. She tried to hold onto that, but his eyes were just calling out to her.
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  She took a deep breath and moved to take a step backwards, a step out of his reach. Just as she moved, he stepped right into her personal zone and circled his arm around her. She gasped at the sudden movement and the feel of his arms around her.

  Jack picked Lexi up off her feet as he straightened. Grappling for support, she reached up and wrapped her arms around his neck. As this happened, her head dropped down to the crook between his shoulder and his neck and she breathed in sharply. His familiar scent filled her nostrils and she reflexively sighed out pleasurably. He smelled exactly the same. It was the exact scent of sex. She hadn't realized but when she thought about sex this was the smell that came to mind.

  For just a brief moment, that scent carried her back in time. She was where she was supposed to be. Jack was pressed against her, his lips pressed to her neck as he nuzzled close to her. His fingers grasped her thin waist digging into the silky red material. She could close her eyes and remember a simpler time when this had been her world, her source of happiness.

  Even though it had been a year, she couldn't keep her instincts in check not with his body pressed so tightly against her. Her body knew what Jack was capable of doing to her and just out of basic desire, it wanted that. With him so close to her, she couldn't imagine another time before this moment. Her world was right side up again and all the difficulties she had struggled with for a year were stripped away.

  Her heart was racing, and if she pulled away just fractionally, she knew his lips would be on hers. The alcohol coming out of his pores was too strong and his inhibitions were mostly thrown out the window around her. She knew that she hadn't been capable of resisting him before. Her brain thick with the memories of past desires didn't want to think of a reason to pull away.