by Cindy Wilder
“Oh shit,” he said. “Sorry.”
He threw the shirt to the side and reached around to undo my bra. It slid from my shoulders and down my arms. I threw it with my shirt and put my hands back into his soft, dark hair. He sucked my bottom lip between his teeth and grazed it as he pulled back. A moan escaped me, as he released my lip. I felt slightly embarrassed, but it didn't seem to faze him. He pulled back and growled, as he took my breasts in his hands and fondled them. When he rolled my nipple between his thumb and finger, I thought I was going to lose my mind. He leaned forward and took my other nipple into his mouth. His tongue licked around it, and my head fell back. I leaned back on my hands to give him better access to my body.
“Fuck,” he groaned.
When he sucked my nipple hard, my back arched as I pushed against his mouth. I brought one hand up to the back of his head and grabbed onto his hair, as I pulled him against me and moaned loud. He put both hands behind my back and kissed between my breasts and then around each of them. One of his hands came up between them and softly caressed a straight line down my stomach. My body was shaking. I could barely take it. He knew exactly what he was doing. When he reached the waist of my jeans he brought the other hand around and undid my button. That hand slid back around and pulled my body so my nipple was back in his mouth. He unzipped my pants and slid his hand in and over my panties. I arched my back even more when he sucked hard on my nipple.
“Alex,” I cried. “Fuck.”
He moved his hand beneath my panties and over my clit. My hips shot forward as I gasped. His face moved between my breasts, and his tongue slowly licked down my stomach. I couldn't help but push against his mouth the entire way down. When he reached the spot just above his hand, he grabbed my pants and tugged them. I shifted so he could pull them down and off. My panties were the only thing covering my body. The strangest part was that I wasn't nervous with him. I thought that when the time finally came for me to be naked in front of a man, I would be worried and self-conscious, but I wasn't. I wanted more. I wanted everything he was willing to give me.
He scooted my body down the bed so I was on my back. When he slid my panties off, I loved the feeling of his fingers grazing my skin the whole way. They were added to the pile of clothes on the floor.
“So damn beautiful,” he whispered, as he looked over my body.
I looked into his eyes as he spread my legs. He leaned forward and licked up the inside of my thigh. I felt my body tighten the closer he got to my pussy.
“Relax,” he said as his eyes connected with mine.
Without moving his eyes away from mine, he licked along my pussy and took my clit into his mouth. My hips shot off the bed, and my hands grabbed the sheets. He played with my clit while he continued to lick and suck me. His tongue moved around me. I groaned as he thrust it inside of me. I continued to move my hips in time with the movement of his tongue. My moans and cries were mixing together in my head. I couldn't tell if they were coming out of my mouth as well. It felt like a dream. The amazing feeling of his tongue mixed with his thumb on my clit was driving me insane. One hand went to the back of his head. I pulled him against me hard. It felt unbelievable. I was about to shoot off like never before. He continued the sweet torture on my pussy.
“Oh, fuck, Alex, please,” I yelled not thinking anyone might hear me.
I was in that moment and nothing was going to stop what I was feeling. He picked up the pace of his tongue and thrust it in even deeper. I grabbed a handful of his hair and cried out as I came around his tongue.
“Yes, yes, oh yes,” I moaned.
I could feel my pussy tighten around his tongue over and over. As soon as I felt my body start to relax, he was hovering over me. He leaned down and claimed my mouth again. I could taste myself on his lips and tongue.
“You are amazing,” he whispered into my mouth.
I felt his finger enter my pussy as he continued to kiss me.
“You're so fucking wet and ready,” he groaned.
Alex pushed off the bed and stood up. When he stuck his fingers into the waist of his sweats, I felt my heart speed up. They dropped to the floor with his boxers and his cock flew out. He was so hard, and I wanted to touch him. I heard him laugh, as I stared at him.
“You like what you see?” he asked in a flirty tone.
All I could do was nod. He was big, and I wasn't sure how he was going to fit inside of me. There was no way I wanted to show my nervousness. I didn't want him to stop. The rip of the package echoed through my ears, as I watched him roll the condom on. It was really happening was all I could think.
I felt the bed dip as he crawled back over me. One very muscular arm was on each side of my head. I wanted to leaned over and lick his muscles. They were so sexy. He leaned down and kissed me with a smile on his face. I reached down and took his covered cock in my hand to see what it felt like. The skin was soft, but he was so incredibly hard beneath it. I wanted him inside of me before anything could ruin it. He was rubbing it against my entrance. I put both hands on the back of his head and kissed him.
He pushed in slightly and stopped.
“You're so tight,” he growled. “I can't believe how good you feel.”
He entered me inch by inch. I couldn't wait anymore and lifted my legs around his waist. He looked into my eyes, and I pulled my feet against his ass. He thrust into me hard, and stopped when I cringed. I saw his eyes widen, as he took a deep breath.
“Don't stop, please,” I said.
I looked into his eyes and smiled.
“Please,” I whispered.
He pulled out and thrust back in again. I wrapped my arms around his back and felt his muscles flex as he pumped in and out of me. My hips met his thrusts and my legs stayed wrapped around him. After the initial pain, it felt amazing. The deeper he fucked the hard I held onto his back. I knew my fingers were digging into his skin and hoped that I wasn't drawing blood. I pushed my hips into him harder. He pumped into me hard, and I felt us moving down the bed. He leaned down and took my nipple into his mouth. My head fell back and my eyes closed. I couldn't believe I was so close to coming again.
“Harder Alex,” I cried out. “Fuck me harder.”
He did as I requested and thrust into me so hard and deep. I lifted my hips as he reached the perfect stop.
“Yes, please, don't stop,” I begged. “Oh fuck.”
It was the best thing I had ever experienced in my life. I felt like I was going to come even harder than before. He kept his hands by my shoulder and pushed into me so hard and deep. I screamed his name loud and came so hard. Everything went black as my orgasm kept going. He continued fucking me hard until I felt him release inside of me over and over again.
His body came down on top of mine. The sweat from his chest rubbed all over me. I finally felt like I could breath and my heart started to slow down. My arms went around him, and I kissed against his chest. He stood up, pulled his sweats on, and took off out the door. When he came back a few minutes later, my eyes were barely opened. I hadn't moved an inch. He laughed as he looked down at me. I felt him move the blankets. He gently moved me up the bed and crawled in behind me.
When I opened my eyes, I saw light coming in through the window. Alex's legs were wrapped around mine. Oh shit! My mom was going to lose her shit. I had to get out of there. Where was Sally? Quickly and quietly I pulled my panties, bra, and jeans on. When I picked up my t-shirt, I saw the giant rip. Hoping he wouldn't notice, I grabbed his sweatshirt off the back of his chair and pulled it over my head. When I grabbed my purse and keys, I looked back at him. He looked so adorable with his eyes closed and his hair messy. The only thing I knew was his name was Alex and he was in that fraternity. He only knew my name was Sarah and I was there with a friend. I thought about leaving a note but changed my mind. Taking a mental picture of the man I gave my virginity to, I turned and quietly walked out the door.
When I got down the stairs, there were bodies everywhere. Thankfully, I saw Sally o
n the couch. She was completely dressed. I nudged her knee, and she looked up at me. I put my finger to my lips so she knew to be quiet. She carefully got off the couch and followed me outside.
“We have to get out of here,” I said. “My mom is going to flip her lid.”
Sally looked at me with wide eyes as her hands covered her mouth.
“You didn't?” she asked.
“I did,” I whispered. “Hurry up.”
I pulled her to the car and got in the driver side. She let out the biggest laugh. I looked over at her and rolled my eyes.
“It's not funny,” I said.
“I can't believe it,” she said.
I drove toward her house. It would take some time to get there.
“I'm going to your house. If my mom asks you, I stayed the night there. She is going to kill me,” I rambled on.
“Who was it?” she asked.
“What?”
“Who did you fuck?” Sally asked.
I rolled my eyes at her. It was not the time for discussing who I gave my virginity to. I needed to get my head together.
“His name was Alex,” I said.
“Alex who?” she asked.
“I don't know. We didn't exchange last names or anything. It just kind of happened.”
I pulled into Sally's driveway and got out of the car. We hurried into her house. I showered and grabbed one of her t-shirts.
It was time to slip in the house and face my witch of a mother. I quietly walked through the door. When I looked around the house, I didn't see her. She must have been asleep. That was strange. I don't think she noticed I was gone.
I went back to school Monday morning. If I got back to business as usual, I could get Alex out of my mind. The next week went by quickly. I had three tests and studied my ass off. Graduation was right there, and I couldn't wait.
Friday night arrived and my mom came into the kitchen with a smile on her face.
“How was school?” she asked.
“It was okay. I can't wait until these classes are over,” I said, as I turned to walk away.
“I wanted to talk to you about something,” my mom began.
“Okay,” I said.
“I want you to meet Jack,” she said.
I began to walk away.
“Sarah, I really like him. Can't you just give him a chance? He's a nice guy. Just go to dinner with us,” she said.
“Fine, when?” I asked.
“Tomorrow,” she said.
I nodded and walked away. It was time for bed. I needed to dream about something good. Between the shit with my mom and not being able to get Alex and his amazing body out of my mind, I was going crazy.
The next day, I went with my mom to meet her new man. He was actually pretty nice. I was surprised. He was a bit older than her. Conversation between us went smoothly. He mentioned that he had a son in college. My mom thought that would be a bonding moment between us. I kept the smile on my face and pretended to be super happy to be at dinner with them. In my mind, I knew that I only needed to get through the summer and would be off to college.
The next couple of weeks went fast. Finals were kicking my ass, but I was making it happen. I knew my mom would be at my graduation but was surprised when Jack arrived with her. My dad's parents showed up to surprise me. It was awesome to see them. I hadn't seen them since my dad's funeral. We all went out to dinner after the ceremony. It was nice, but I was sad when they left to go home. Who knew when I would see them again.
The summer weather was great. It was warm and sunny almost every day. I hung out with Sally a few times a week. We shopped, went to the movies, and went to the beach a few times.
Each night when I closed my eyes, Alex filled my dreams. I could not get him out of my mind. It felt so unbelievably real. I felt like I could touch his skin and feel his hands on me. I had never touched myself as much as I had since I had been with him. We never saw each other again after that one night, but it didn't stop him from being in my mind every single day since then. I knew it was because he was my first. That was the only reason I could come up with for why I was feeling that way about him.
When I went to college, I planned on getting laid as fast as possible. That guy had to get out of my head. I needed to forget him. Being with him that night was amazing, but he was messing with my mind in a bad way. Seriously, as soon as I got to college that was my plan. Get Alex out of my mind and concentrate on school.
My mom spent a ton of time with Jack during the summer. He came over here and there. I was always polite to him. He didn't deserve to be treated mean. It was her I was mad at.
I made sure to pack a few more things each week. When it was time to leave for my dorm, I wanted to ready. It was something I was so looking forward to. I knew my mom would still tell me what I needed to do, but we wouldn't be under the same roof anymore. I would be over an hour away. That was the only school she agreed on, and it was far enough away that she couldn't see my every move. I could deal with that.
It had been almost four months since I had given my virginity to Alex, and it wasn't getting any easier. The electricity I felt in his touch that night still went through my body when I thought about him. It was ridiculous. The next night, he had probably forgotten all about me as he was screwing the next girl. I wasn't stupid, so why was I so stuck on him?
The entire drive toward school my mom went on and on. After a few minutes, I was able to tune out the words. Her voice was in the background, but I had no idea what she was saying. As soon as we parked in front of the dorm, I jumped out of the car. Quickly, I carried boxes up the stairs to my room. The faster I got them out of the car, the faster she would leave. When I took the last box from her car, she followed me up the steps.
I watched as she looked at the other people in the halls. She walked into my room and looked around.
“Are you sure you don't just want to stay at the house? You could commute each day. It wasn't that long of a drive.”
“I'm sure,” I said with a smile.
“I'm going to miss you so much,” she said.
I could see the tears in her eyes and actually felt bad for her. She could be such a pain sometimes, but there was a part of me that was going to miss her. The freedom I was going to have would be amazing though. I was looking forward to it. Even if I made the choice to stay in my room and study, it would be because I decided it.
We walked back to her car and hugged each other. I promised to call her every couple of days and come home for Thanksgiving and Christmas. She seemed content as I watched her drive away. The knot that had been in my stomach instantly disappeared, and I walked back to my room.
I let my body fall down onto my bed. Would I see him, I wondered? No, I silently answered. As long as I stayed away from the frat house I would be fine. If I saw him in the hall or something, he most likely wouldn't recognize me. There were so many people at the school. If I passed him, I might not even recognize him, I thought.
I was lucky enough not to have a roommate. My grades were so good that I had a full scholarship. With the money I had from my dad's passing, I wouldn't have to work. My time could be spent on studying so that I could keep the scholarship for the next year as well. The feeling of having a room to myself was something I could never describe.
I spent two days unpacking all of my stuff. There wasn't that much, but I took my time. I noticed some very good looking guys in the same building as me. There was no way I wanted a boyfriend, but I did want to remove Alex from my brain. I wasn't super pretty or anything, but it didn't seem like it would be that difficult to have a one night stand with one of them.
My first day of classes went smoothly. They didn't seem like they were going to be hard. I still hadn't found a guy I was willing to have sex with. It couldn't just be anyone. When I was walking out of the building of my last class, I thought I saw Alex. When I turned back to look again, the guy looked nothing like him. If someone had told me I would get so caught up on the guy I gave it
away to, I'm not sure I would have done it. I ate in the cafeteria for dinner. It was okay. That was one good thing about my mom. She always made a great meal, and I was definitely going to miss it.
We had already been assigned homework in my classes. That was different than high school. There was no reason for getting to know each other. It was straight in on the work. We had covered an entire chapter in one of the classes. I was a little surprised with how fast things seemed like there were going to move. It was nice to have a detailed description of what we would be doing the entire semester. If I had time, maybe I would move ahead.
The rest of the week was more of the same. Go to class, eat, do homework, sleep, and repeat. Since I knew I wouldn't have to work, I took more than the required amount of classes. There would be extra time to study. Taking more classes, I would be able to get a degree sooner. That was something I was looking forward to.
My dad's parents said if I wanted I could live with them or visit them over the summers. It was hard on all of us. My mom didn't make it easy for me to see them. They weren't that fond of her either. I think it was easier for her, after my dad passed away, to keep to herself. They made it clear that they wanted me in their life. I did plan on making my way to see them some weekends. I would just tell my mom that I was at my dorm. I didn't have a car. We weren't allowed one the first year. I would have to take a cab or have my grandpa come and pick me up. Seeing them at my graduation made me realize how much I missed them. They had pictures of my dad and so many stories. I liked the thought of spending times with them. It made me feel closer to him. I was definitely a daddy's girl and missed him every single day.