by Cindy Wilder
He leaned in a little closer.
“I knew how you felt about us being together. I knew it mattered more to you than anything to have your mother's approval. I put my whole heart into our last time together. When I woke up the day after the wedding, you were gone. I knew it was over. That was the last time I saw you. It was devastating, but I knew that I had to let you go. I should have fought for you. I should have fought for us. I shouldn't have given a fuck what our parents thought. We were both adults when they got together. I knew you didn't want to be with me. I didn't want to risk your relationship with your mother if you never even cared about me.”
He let out a sigh before he continued.
“I've spent three years thinking about you every single day. I'll admit I wasn't perfect. I tried to fuck you out of my system. It didn't work. Not one woman compared to you. The spark I felt every time I touched you never happened again. I've not had a relationship with anyone since you. It hurt so bad to not have you by my side. I would have given up everything to wake up with you each day and fall asleep with you each night. To find out that your mother hasn't talked to you in three years pisses me off. The whole reason I stayed away from you was so she wouldn't be disappointed. You cared more about what she thought than what you felt in your heart. You went there today to try and get her approval and she was a total bitch. I've missed three years with you and our son. I won't miss another day. I should have told you that we belonged together. I should have stood up to our parents. There are so many things I should have done, baby. I won't let one more moment go by without you and our son in my life. You belong with me. We belong together. I won't let you push me away this time. I won't let you walk away from me in the morning. I don't give a shit what my father or your mother thinks. Do you hear me? I love you, and I'm going to spend every moment for the rest of my life showing you.”
I could feel the heat of his breath against my neck. The spark was very much still there.
“You belong with me, Sarah. We belong together as a family. I want to spend my life with the two of you. I will love you until I take my last breath. I'm going to marry you. My son will have my last name. Don't run from me. It won't do any good. I will chase you every time. It stops now. We've wasted three very valuable years apart because of someone who doesn't deserve your love or your time. That's over now. I'm going to show you right now how much I love you. I'm going to sleep with you in my arms. I'm going to hold you so tight all night and wake up with you in the morning. Tomorrow, I have something to show you.”
There was no way I could resist him. I was made for him, but I was also so afraid of being hurt by him. He rested his forehead against mine.
“I'm not sure I can do it, Alex. It scares me.”
“What does, baby?” he asked.
“The last three years have been hard for me, but I'm used to my life the way it is. I'm so afraid that you're going to come in, shake it up, and leave. I won't be able to handle that. It's been just me and Josh for over two years. What happens when you decide you don't want me anymore? What am I supposed to do then?”
“I've loved you for three years. When I touch you, it's the most amazing feeling in the world. I've never felt that with anyone else. We were meant to be together. I know you feel it too. I'll fight for you, Sarah. If you deny me, I won't go away. I'm going to be here to prove that you belong with me,” he said as he kissed my forehead.
“I love you more than you will ever know. You're it for me, Alex. I am begging you not to break my heart. You are the only man that has the ability to destroy me. This isn't a game to me. If you are going to be in my life romantically, it needs to be real. I'm not a booty call. I won't be that girl this time.”
He lifted my chin and looked into my eyes.
“I'm all in, baby. You were never that girl. You were the only girl. I promise you. I finally have you in my life. I will never let you go, and I will never break your heart. I love you, Sarah.”
His mouth came down on mine hard. I was against the door with him over me. It was better than any dream I could have had. He was in my apartment telling me he loved me. I couldn't believe it was real. Alex really wanted us in his life.
“Stop,” he said.
“What?” I asked.
He held the back of my head as he kissed me hard.
“Quit thinking,” he said. “Just feel.”
I wrapped my arms around his neck and claimed his mouth as well. He sucked my bottom lip and grazed it with his teeth. It had been three long years since I had felt his touch. The feel of his mouth on mine was so much better than I remembered. He grabbed the hem of my shirt and pulled it over my head leaving it on my arms. His hands slid up my arms until they were straight above me head.
“Leave your hands up there,” he said.
Slowly, he slid his hands back down my arms, down my neck, and down to my breasts. He gave them each a squeeze before rolling my nipples through his fingers. His mouth sucked one nipple in and his tongue traced circles around it. When he released it with a pop, he moved to the other side to do the same thing. He dropped to his knees and moved his fingers down my belly to my pants. When he undid them, I felt my breath catch. He looked up at me and kissed my stomach. I could feel him smile against me.
“Relax,” he said.
“It's been three years since I've been touched by a man,” I whispered.
“You have no idea how good it feels to know that I'm the only man that's ever touched you. I'm the only one that's filled you, and I'm the only man that's made you come,” he said, as he placed tiny kisses on me.
He pulled my pants down with my panties. The feel of his fingers moving down my legs was enough to make quiver. I stepped out of my pants. He pulled away and looked at me. I felt strange standing in front of him naked. My confidence wasn't as strong as the last time I had been with him. He ran his hands up my body and between my thighs.
“You're so beautiful. It makes my cock rock hard just looking at you. I can't wait to spend every single day devouring your pussy.”
He leaned forward and kissed my mound.
“Spread your legs for me, baby,” he said.
I could already feel the wetness between my legs just from his words and the way he was looking at me. Slowly, I inched my legs apart. His fingers went between them as he felt my pussy. I was not going to last long. Pleasuring myself was just not the same as his touch. The heat coming from his fingers and mouth was so comforting. His tongue flicked across my clit and I moaned. He stuck his finger in his mouth and sucked.
“Fucking perfect,” he said. “I've missed tasting you.”
His hands went behind my legs as he buried his face between my legs. He sucked and licked me hard. I felt him spread me and thrust his tongue inside. When I grabbed his head, he stopped and pulled back.
“Hands in the air, baby,” he said.
“Three years,” I reminded him, as I stuck my hands back up above my head.
He thrust his tongue into me again. My head went back against the door and my back arched. His hands felt up and down my stomach as he fucked me with his tongue. My hips moved in rhythm with him. I was barely standing. It felt like I was going to fall. One of his hands gripped me to keep me steady while the other moved to my clit. He flicked and played with it, as I moved against him. I felt my body climbing to the edge. It was right there. I needed the release. He thrust his tongue in deep and I cried out his name.
“I want to feel your pussy kiss my tongue when you come. You're dripping all over my face. Nothing has ever tasted so perfect before. Come, baby.”
His thumb rubbed against my clit hard as he thrust his tongue and hit that amazing spot. The one that sent me flying over the edge. I cried out, as I came around his tongue.
“Fuck, Alex,” I moaned. “Please, don't stop, baby.”
He continued fucking me with his tongue until my body began to relax. I watched him stand and look at me. His mouth crashed down on mine while he held me up. My arms fell a
round his neck. I tasted myself on his tongue has he claimed my mouth. His cock was pushing against my stomach, and I could feel how unbelievably hard he was. I pulled his shirt off, as he kicked off his pants and boxers. He grabbed my ass in his hands and pulled me up. I wrapped my legs around him and felt him against my entrance. A new wave of pleasure shot to my core. I wanted him inside of me. I needed to feel him as he filled me.
“Fuck me, baby,” I whispered into his mouth. “I need to feel you inside of me. I need all of you tonight. I'm so afraid when I wake up you'll be gone. Give me everything you have.”
I felt him lower me slowly over his cock. It felt like he was stretching me more than it was possible. He felt huge as he stretched me even more. Slowly, he continued to lower me until he filled me completely.
“I'm not going anywhere, love,” he said. “This is right where I belong, buried balls deep inside of you. I'm going to fuck you. Hold on tight. It's not going to be slow. I need you bad right now.”
I nodded as I looked down at him.
“Fuck me, baby,” I said. “Give me everything you have. I need it all.”
Alex lifted me off of him and dropped me back down. I cried out and threw my head back. It had been way to long since I felt him deep inside of me. I would never get enough of him. I used his shoulders to lift myself up and down on him. The door felt cool on my back as I moved up and down it. The harder he thrust into me, the harder I grabbed onto his shoulders. He moaned as my nails dug into his skin. The feel of his muscles under my fingers felt so good.
“Harder, Alex,” I cried.
My feet were digging into his waist. I needed to get closer to him. He was pumping into me hard and fast. I felt like I was going to lose control.
“Fuck, Sarah,” he moaned. “You feel so good wrapped around my dick. I want you so fucking bad. Being inside of you is better than I remember. I can never go without you again. You're mine. Do you hear me?”
I nodded.
“Use words, Sarah,” he snapped.
“Yes,” I said.
“Whose are you?” he asked.
“Yours,” I cried. “I'm yours.”
“Who does this pussy belong to? Who do you belong to?” he asked.
“You, baby,” I moaned. “I'm yours. All of me. It's always been you. I've always been yours.”
He continued to thrust up into me hard as his fingers began to rub my clit. The pressure on my clit deepened, and I couldn't hold back.
“Oh, Alex,” I yelled. “Don't stop, please.”
I felt my pussy tighten as my orgasm hit me so hard and my eyes squeezed shut. It was like everything was black. I came harder than I ever had before. He moaned my name.
“Sarah,” he cried out. “I love you so damn much.”
I felt him release into me over and over. The feel of his cum filling me was so wonderful. I fell against him as my body relaxed. He carried us to my bathroom and put me down. When he pulled out of me, I felt his juices seep from of me. My eyes widened as I realized what had just happened. He looked at me with a smile on his face.
“I'm not going anywhere. You have no idea how good it felt to have you wrapped around me bare. We need to figure that out right away. I plan on spending a lot of time inside of you. If I'm not there, I'll be devouring you.”
“What if?” I began.
He placed his fingers over my lips.
“I will always be here. You're stuck with me. I love you.”
He turned on the shower and stepped inside pulling me with him. We relaxed under the hot water. Alex cleaned every inch of my body. Of course he spent more time on some spots. It felt so good to be taken care of by him. I still felt like it was all a dream. He squirted the shampoo into his hand and massaged my scalp. My body felt so relaxed. The water rinsed away every bit of soap and felt so good on my skin. I washed his hair and began to clean his body. As the water ran down and glistened off of his muscles, I wanted him again.
I dropped to my knees in front of him, as I massaged his balls and stroked him. My tongue darted out and licked across the tip of his cock that had grown hard in my hand. It had been so long since he had been in my mouth. There was no way I was going to wake up before tasting him again. I licked him from base to tip. He moaned as his head went back. The feel of his smooth skin over his hard steel cock was something I would never take for granted. I loved him with every bit of my mind, heart, and body. My tongue swirled around his head and collected the beads of juice waiting for me. There was no way I was going to let him stop me before I was done. I wanted to suck and lick him until he exploded into my throat. Oh, I missed him.
Slowly, I took him into my mouth until he reached the back of my throat. I stopped to adjust to him. His was the only cock that had ever been in my mouth. I wanted to enjoy every moment with him. I pulled him from my mouth before sucking him in again. He growled into the air, as his hands wrapped in my hair. I looked up to see him looking down at me.
“You have no idea how much I've missed having your mouth around my dick, baby. Suck me hard, Sarah.”
I sucked harder with each thrust of his cock he made into my mouth. My hands went to the back of his legs, and I pulled him even deeper into my mouth. He moaned my name, as he watched me suck and feel him. I couldn't look away from his eyes. They were the most beautiful I had ever seen them. I could see them darken the harder he got.
“Up,” he said.
I shook my head and smiled around his dick.
“I want to taste all of you. It's been so long since I've had you in my mouth.”
He groaned again, as he picked up his pace. His hand held my head more firm, and he pushed my mouth so his cock went even deeper. I watched his eyes as he fucked my mouth. It was the hottest thing in the world. I held tight to his legs and sucked hard as he thrust into my mouth over and over. He called out my name. I knew he was close to coming, so I squeezed his legs and sucked him in as deep as I could. He called out my name with each release as he filled my mouth with his juices. I took every bit he had to offer and licked across his head to make sure I got the last drop.
When I stood up, his breathing was rough. I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tighter than I ever had before. We got out, dried off, and I pulled him to my room. I lifted the covers and got in bed and turned to my side. He slid in behind me and wrapped his arms around me. His legs intertwined with mine and he kissed the back of my neck. I held his hand that was over my stomach.
“I'm so afraid to fall asleep,” I said.
“What?”
“It feels like such a dream. The whole day has felt that way. I don't want to wake up from it. I don't want you to be gone again.”
“I'm sorry about how your mom acted today,” he said. “She's missing out on so much.”
“I'm not sure if I did it so she would give us a chance or if I did it so she could see that we were fine without her. I think I just wanted her to know that I wasn't a loser like she made me feel I was. It doesn't matter. Josh is better off without her, and so am I. We still have my grandparents.”
“They are going to hate me. Do they think I abandoned you? I would never have done that. Do they know that Josh is mine?”
“They are going to love you. I told them the truth. They know that you're his father, and they know that you don't know about him. He loves them so much. They are all he knows. How are your classes at the school?” I asked.
“I don't teach there anymore,” he said. “I teach in a high school now.”
I was drifting off in his arms.
“Please don't run from me again,” he said.
“Only if you promise not to break my heart.”
“Your mine. I won't ever hurt you. It's my job to protect you and Josh. You're my family. I want my dad to be a part of his life. Is that okay with you?”
“As long as he wants to be,” I answered. “I'm not sure what that will do to him and my mom. You need to think about that before you decide.”
He kissed my h
ead.
“I want to take you and Josh somewhere in the morning.”
I nodded. It didn't matter where he took us. I just wanted to be with him.
When I opened my eyes, I didn't feel his arms around me. It felt so real. How could it have felt so real, I wondered? Tears slid down my cheek. He was gone.
I thought I heard something and looked at the clock. It was eleven and the room was bright. I pulled back the covers and hurried to pull on some shorts and a shirt. How could Josh have slept so late, I wondered? Was he okay? His room was across from mine, so it didn't take but a second to get there. He wasn't in his bed. I ran down the hall to the living room, and my body froze in place.
The most beautiful site was right there in front of me. Alex was leaning back against a pillow with Josh curled into his side. They had a blanket over them, and they were both asleep. I wiped the tears from my face as I watched them. How had I let my fears of what people would think keep them from over two years together? My mother had run my life since the day I was born. Even though she wasn't a part of it anymore, she was still in the back of my mind telling me what to do. It was over. I wasn't doing it anymore. The two people I loved most in the world were curled up together on the couch. I was going to live my life for me and them. If she couldn't accept us, then she could have her life of worrying what everyone thought of her. I wasn't going to be a part of that.
Alex opened his eyes and looked at me with concern.
“I thought you left,” I whispered.
“Never,” he said.
Josh opened his eyes and smiled at me. He had his little arms wrapped around Alex.
“Daddy,” he said.
“Yes, baby,” I said, as I went to kneel in front of him. “That's your daddy.”
We got dressed and got in my car.
“You need a new car,” Alex said.
“I can't afford one. This one is just fine,” I said.
“We'll talk about that later. I don't like the thought of you two driving around in it,” he said.
“I've been driving this car for three years. I don't want to hear it.”
We went out for breakfast, and Josh had a blast.