by Amber Nicole
“Okay, I know this may make me sound clingy, but something is wrong with you today. What’s up? Is this about the other night?” she asks worriedly. I lean back onto the couch and close my eyes, taking a deep breath. “No, trust me I can’t get the other day out of my head. I’m just dealing with some family drama, but I’ll worry about that later.”
She cuts me off, placing her head on my shoulder. “Don’t do that, Jase. I’m happy to sit here and talk about anything you want to.”
I take her hand and bring it to my lips, placing a kiss on her palm. “Can I say something, without you becoming upset?” I ask her taking a deep breath, then face her, making her sit up. She watches me for a moment then nods.
“Why are you here, Cara?”
She furrows her brows, opening her mouth to talk, but I keep going. “I can tell you’re not happy here. Not to mention people are being assholes to you. So why do you stay?” I ask and she sighs, before giving me a small smile. “Because I made a promise, and even though some days I want to give up and run back home, I won’t because I always keep my word. But even if I hadn’t made a promise, I’d been so excited to come here and get out of my small town. To experience life. I know things are hard. I’m hoping soon, they will get bored,” she says, looking off at a couple sharing a piece of cake. I wish the same thing, but some things we can’t control, no matter how much we want them to.
“Okay this is depressing, how about we go back to the house and watch a movie or something? The guys are out for the night,” I ask, and her eyes light up, she bites her bottom lip, and I swallow. Yeah tonight is the night.
I hold her hand the whole way, trying to force myself to tell her to run away, get out of here, while she still has a chance, but I don’t, and I won’t no matter how much I pray someone pops up along the way, or stops me. I open the door and listen, but it’s quiet. “Would you like something to drink?” I ask her, but she shakes her head no and kisses me softly, before gripping the back of my neck and pulling me closer to her. She runs her other hand along my chest, down to my belt buckle, gripping me until I’m rock hard. I pull back panting and kiss her forehead. “Are you sure?” I check and she kisses me once more. I back her up to the stairs, then grip her ass until she jumps, wrapping her legs around me. I carefully move us up the stairs to my room somehow. I kick the door open and she laughs. I set her down on her feet and shut the door, giving me a moment to calm down. I spin back to her and groan. She’s standing in a pale pink lacy bra and matching panties. I rip my clothes off and grab her by the hips, gently laying her on the bed. I reach around her back and remove her bra, freeing her perky breasts to me. I place one in my mouth and she moans, then trail my fingers down her body making sure she's wet for me, but I shouldn’t have worried, she’s dripping. I yank down her panties and toss them over my head, then I start to stretch her out, kissing her whimpers away. She grabs my dick and starts to stroke, driving me crazy. I lean over her and kiss her harder, swallowing her gasps, and small moans. I rub my dick along her slit, pressing gently when she freezes. “Relax, babe,” I tell her and she laughs, “So yeah. I’m not on anything. I probably should’ve mentioned that earlier, but I was caught up,” she whispers. I stop and wait for the lust haze to go away to understand what she’s saying. Oh condom. I jump up and run out the door. “I’ll be right back,” I yell over my shoulder, letting her joy and laughter consume me. I run down the stairs to the kitchen where I know we have a stack and freeze. East is sitting on a stool in the dark, drinking a beer, staring off at nothing. I move around him to the ‘rubber drawer’ and he snorts. “So you're really going to do it? Going to destroy her. You have bigger balls than I thought, brother,” he says, shaking his head. I freeze, ice running through my veins. I got so caught up in the moment I forgot. Fuck. I stumble over to the stool next to him not caring I’m bared ass, I sit, then drop my head on the island. “I’d forgotten.” I mumble. He groans, “This is so fucked up.” I roll my head over to face him, giving him a small nod. “I don’t think I can do this to her, East. I’m falling in love with her,” I whisper and he sighs. Standing from the stool, he chucks his beer into the sink, ignoring the shattered glass, moves over to the drawer and grabs the condom I had come down to get. He turns to face me and holds it out. I shake my head no and he shuts his eyes, his shoulders slumping.
He moves closer and starts to strip his clothes off, before taking his piercings out. He grabs the condom and walks to the stairs. “I love you, J, and I would do anything to protect you guys,” he says in a whisper, before disappearing up the stairs. I wipe my cheeks from the tears running down my face, then stand. I throw on East’s clothes and walk out the door, then glance back up towards my window. Where my girl is lying there waiting for me. “I’m sorry, Cara.” I whisper, then keep on walking.
Easton
I watch him leave, before spinning around and walking back up the steps. I don’t know what is more fucked up about this situation, the fact that I basically just cock blocked my brother, or that I’m about to bang his girl in his bed, pretending to be him. I push the door open a little and sigh with relief. The lights are off, so she shouldn’t realize it’s me. I took out my piercings too. I knew that would be a dead giveaway. I don’t want her to ever know that this was me, but I know it’s inevitable eventually. I make it to the bed, using the little moonlight that shines through the window. Her blonde hair glows and her body calls to me. She’s beautiful inside and out.
“What took so long?” she asks, reaching out for my hand. I crawl over the top of her and sigh once her lips meet mine. I don’t do slow, gentle, passionate love making. I fuck hard and fast. This is going to be a challenge for me. Ever since that day in the library, I’ve fantasized about taking Cara, but now that I have her under me and can feel her soft shaking of nerves. I want to go slow. Cherish her. Make this a night of good memories. Maybe if I do, she’ll forgive me someday. Fuck, I need to nut up and just get this done. I should have never allowed my head to lose sight of what this is all about. I need to do whatever I can to protect my family. Cara needs to leave Texas, so we can get that tape back. I run my hands down her curves and move to her pussy, checking she’s ready for this. I grab the condom that I haven’t let go of since taking it from my brother and rip it open with my teeth. Reaching down, I roll it over my cock, before sliding between her legs. She freezes, and I wait. I know this is a big thing for her, and I won’t pressure or rush her into anything. I kiss her gently again, waiting for her body to relax, when I feel her starting to melt into the mattress, I press more weight down on her pussy, slowly grinding my cock along her slit. “Are you sure?” I whisper into her mouth. She groans and nods her head.
“Just go slow. I want this, Jase. I want you,” she says in a breathy tone, reaching up and pressing her lips to mine gently. I groan and pull back. I don’t know if I can really do this. She thinks I’m Jase, and it should be him here, or Lay. I don’t deserve to take this from her. Fuck Penny and her getting into my head. I know she’s using sex to manipulate me, and I’m letting her. I start to pull away, but she wraps her legs around my lower back and arms around my neck, pulling me down on her. “Is something wrong?” she asks, with concern and hesitance in her tone, before continuing. “Don’t you want me?” she says shakily. I lean down and kiss her tenderly. I do want her. I’ve wanted her for a while now, but not like this. Not when she thinks I’m someone else. She deserves so much more than this. She reaches down and strokes me, before placing my cock between her thighs. She rubs me up and down her slit, letting me feel how wet she is.
I inch forward a little, barely sticking the tip in and she clenches. Fuck she’s tight. I knew she would be, but I figured one of the guys would have been at least fingering her, stretching her out. I’m not a small guy to be breaking her in for the first time. I stick two fingers in her mouth and she moans, “Get them wet,” I say quietly. She sucks and licks them, getting them extra wet. I pull out, reaching down and coating my dick and her puss
y, hoping it helps. I should’ve used some lube. I push in more trying to be gentle, but she still whimpers and winces. I pause and hold my breath. She feels incredible, tight, hot, the way she's contracting right now, I don’t think I will last long. “Holy shit, you're so big,” she pants out. I pull back a little, then push in more, breaking through the thin wall. She bites her bottom lip and cries out. A tear escapes her eye and I bend down to kiss it away. I don’t know what this girl is doing to me, but I do know this was a huge mistake and I hope I don’t lose her for good when the truth comes out.
Thirty-Three
Carson
“Wow.” I whimper, feeling how thick he is stretching me. I squirm a little bit and he hisses. Oh my god. Did I hurt him? “Do that again,” he moans in my ear. I wiggle a little more, getting used to feeling so full and he shudders. I gently run my nails over his back and shoulder and his hips thrust harder, making me gasp.
“Sorry. I am trying really hard to take this slow, baby, but I only have so much control.” He groans. His voice is lower than usual and he reminds me of his brother. Crap. I shouldn’t be thinking of someone else right now. “No. I liked that,” I say quietly. He pulls his head from my neck looking into my eyes checking to see if I’m lying. I reach up and set my palm to his cheek bringing his lips to mine once more. The lights are off, but the moonlight shines through the window giving me a hint of vision. I rub my hands over his chest, gently grazing his nipples, he shudders and gives a little thrust with his hips. I let him go and gaze into his eyes. “I trust you, Jase.” His eyes glaze over with is that guilt? He goes to pull away, but I don’t want him to. Why is he trying to? I wrap my legs around his lower back and move my hips against his, making us both moan. I do it a few more times until he gets the idea and starts to roll his hips, pressing me harder into the bed, grinding down on my clit with every rock. I take his lips once more, and he kisses me slowly, passionately, with every stroke of his tongue he rolls his hips. I moan louder and he starts to pick up his pace. I’m close, and by the way he’s shaking. I think he is too. He pulls away and buries his head in the crook of my neck, mumbling things I can’t make out. I reach down and grip his ass, grinding him harder against me. Lighting sparks on my clit and I explode, clenching him tight. He grinds one more time, making me whimper and he groans, pulsing inside of me.
“Wow,” I gasp like an idiot when I can breathe again. He chuckles into my neck, before pressing kisses there, along my jaw, then to my lips. He starts to pull out and I wince. “Did I hurt you? I tried to be gentle,” he whispers into my mouth. “I’m okay. Thank you, Jase,” I say, pressing my lips to his once more. He pulls back, avoiding my eyes and gets off the bed, grabbing some sweats on the way to the bathroom. The water runs for a moment, before he walks back over to me with a washcloth. I reach to take it, but he moves between my legs, pressing it there. I gasp at the sting and he gently wipes, before tossing it into a laundry hamper. Climbing back onto the bed, he reaches over, rolling me to his chest, before covering us with a blanket. I’m drifting off when he starts to hum a tune I’m familiar with. It’s beautiful and haunting. I think he whispers something, but I’m not sure what it is. I close my eyes and sigh, snuggling closer to him. I enjoyed the sex, but I think I like the after part more.
A noise pulls me out of the best sleep I have had in a long time. I roll over to cuddle into the warm body I fell asleep to, but no one is there and the sheets are cold. I sit up, looking around, but I’m alone. Wow. My eyes start to water and I can feel the sobs about to escape my lips. I never thought Jase would be the one to blow me off after sex.
I find my clothes on the floor and throw them on. My panties are ruined so I leave them and pull my jeans up. I put my bra on and my shirt as fast as I can. I just want to get out of here. Last night was perfect, he made me feel so loved, but now I feel destroyed. I grab my bag and the door handle, turning it. My hand shakes and I close my eyes, slamming my forehead against the wood. Something crinkles, jolting me back. I open my eyes. A sticky note is in front of me.
Cara
Last night was great, sorry I had to leave.
I’ll talk to you later.
X Jase
I yank it from the door and scrunch it in my hand, before chucking it on his bed. Yeah like a note, even one as vague as that will make me feel better. I throw the door open and rush down the stairs, pulling out my phone. I call Memphis, but it goes to voicemail after two rings. I don’t leave a message and I don’t send him a text. What is happening between us? Am I really losing my best friend?
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I skip classes for the next two days, lost in my thoughts and misery. Connor comes over and holds me on the couch, watching stupid shit, trying to cheer me up. I try to let him, but I can’t get out of this funk. He stops whatever we were watching and sighs, pulling my face up to his. “Are you ever going to tell me what happened, Cara? You haven’t been acting normal since Monday.”
I snuggle down closer to him and groan, burying my face into his chest. “I’m so stupid Connor. I decided to just let things go and act a little wild and now my head is all a mess. I slept with Jase and I thought things went well, but he wasn’t there the next morning and I haven’t heard from him since. Maybe I was so awful, he just doesn’t know how to tell me,” I rant. His chest shakes and his arms wrap around my lower back tighter. Is he seriously laughing at me right now? I smack his arm and he snorts. “I’m sorry. I know it’s not funny, but I can promise you Cara you weren’t bad. Jase hasn’t been at practice all week. Something happened. Lay and East are gone too.” I glance up at him and he gives me a smile, lowering his lips to mine. He deepens it and pulls me on top of him. I straddle his lap and he groans into my mouth. “So tell me, did Jase have you this way?” he asks, grinding me onto him. My breath hitches and I shake my head no. He gives me a wink, before lifting me off him. “Tell me to stop, Cara.”
I grab his wrist and pull him down to hover over me. “Don’t leave me the next morning,” I whisper, and his eyes flash in anger. “Never, Cara.” I grip the back of his neck pulling his mouth to mine. Reaching down he pulls my shorts off, before gripping his hoodie I stole and pulling it over my head. I’m not wearing a bra and he groans, attacking my breasts. I reach behind him and grab his T-shirt, tugging it until he pulls away and rips it off. He rolls over and pulls me back onto him, pulling down his shorts with his other hand. I grind down and moan. Wow. I don’t think I’ll ever get over the feeling of skin on skin. I need to get on birth control. I sit up and kiss his lips again. His dick finds my center and thrusts in hard. I wince, panting into his mouth. Holy shit, he’s big. He freezes and squeezes his eyes closed tight, taking deep breaths. I wiggle and he groans. I sit up, letting him pull out. “Shit I’m sorry.”
I give him a smile and he leans down to his pocket grabbing a condom. “Can I try?” I ask sheepishly and he hands it over. I hold the foil packet in my fingers, before ripping it open and pulling out the sticky, thin barrier that is supposed to stop us from making a big mistake. How could something so delicate, be so protective? I inch down the bed a bit and grip his cock, placing it over the tip and rolling it down slowly. Once it’s on I glance up at him and he smirks, grabbing my arms and pulling me back up his body. I position him at my center and he inches in slower this time. I wait until he is fully seated once more, before shifting my hips. He feels so deep and I’m so full. I think I like being on top. I start to slowly circle my hips, and his hands grip my thighs, showing me what to do. He moves me back and forth and I shudder. Oh my god. Doing it this way hits my clit every time. I bite my lip to keep quiet, but he doesn’t like that. Reaching up he puts his thumb on my bottom lip, pulling it from my teeth. “I want everyone to hear your moans, your screams, and, baby, you will scream,” he says, gripping my hips tight and bouncing me. I toss my head back and let him control my body as he wishes. My moans get louder and I’m close to the edge. I just need something to throw me over. A hand grips my throat and squeezes gently and I coll
apse on his chest, panting hard as I clench him tight and drip down his thighs. Why is sex so messy? He thrusts one more time hard then tightens his grip on my hips, making me wince. I wouldn’t be surprised if there are bruises.
e
A few weeks pass and I become even more confused.
“Girl, you’re straight fire,” Sassy says, taking in my Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz costume, with a few improvements of course. I laugh. She’s dressed like Ruby Rose and I’ll admit she looks hot. “You too babe,” I tell her with a wink. She blushes and looks off towards the door. We’ve been standing outside Hawthorne House for a few minutes now. I’m trying to get the courage to walk up those steps, and strut into the cesspool of bullies and bitches. I’m hoping to get a few minutes alone with Jase. He came back a few days ago a totally different person. He looks like he hasn’t slept in weeks. I’m worried about him. I know Lay is too, but he claims everything is okay.
“Okay, let’s do this,” I finally say, and Sassy grabs my hand in support. I shove past sweaty bodies and glance around for one of my guys. East is doing body shots off of one of my sisters, and as I roll my eyes, he catches mine and shoots me a wink. I move on until I find Xavier and Connor playing beer pong. Connor gives me a steamy kiss that gets me all heated and Xavier tries to cop a feel. I laugh and pull away, “You’re crazy, Xavier,” I tell him. He gives me a big smile, but it doesn’t reach his eyes, leaning down he whispers in my ear, “Can we talk soon? There’s something I wanted to discuss.” He pulls back and shoots another ball into a cup making the other side groan, then looks at me, raising his brows in question. I nod and he gives me a big smile, before pressing a kiss to my lips. I pull back, opening and closing my mouth in shock. He laughs and Sassy grabs my arm, pulling me away. What the hell was that?