She shook her head. “They’d make us want to leave, but we can’t, not without the DOD’s permission. It’s a lot of pressure.”
No doubt. I had to worry about what college to pick. Not about getting knocked up as soon as possible. And Daemon really wanted to risk all of that to be with me? He had to be on crack. “What happened with you and Adam?”
Stopping in front of the TV, she ran her hands through her curly hair. “We had sex.”
“Come again?” Up until five seconds ago, I was positive Dee wasn’t even attracted to Adam.
Dee’s small hands fluttered to her sides. “Yeah, shocking, huh?”
I blinked. “Yeah, that’s shocking.”
“I didn’t know how I felt about him. Like, I totally respect him, and he’s good looking.” She started pacing again. “But we’ve only been friends, really. Or at least, I’ve only let him be a friend to me. I don’t know, but anyway, I decided I wanted to see if we, you know, could even do it. So, I told him that we should try to have sex. And we did.”
Wow, that sounded real romantic. “And how was it?”
Her cheeks flushed again. “It was…it was good.”
“Good?”
Dee appeared beside me, sitting on the couch, hands twisting together. “It was more than just good. A little awkward at first—okay, a whole lot of awkward at first, but things…worked out.”
I didn’t know if I should be happy for her or not. “So what does all of this mean?”
“I don’t know. That’s the problem. I like him, but I don’t know if I like him because I’m supposed to or if it’s real.” She flopped onto her back, one arm hanging off the couch. “I don’t even know what love is. Like, I thought I loved him when we were doing it. But now? I don’t know.”
“Damn, Dee, I don’t know what to say. I’m glad it was…good.”
“It was great.” She sighed. “Want to know how great it was? I want to do it again.”
I laughed.
One jade-colored eye opened. “But now I have all these…knots in my tummy. I can’t stop thinking about him, wondering what he thinks.”
“Have you tried talking to him?”
“No. Should I?”
“Uh, yeah, you just did it with him. You should probably call him.”
Dee sat up, her eyes wide. “What if he doesn’t feel the same?”
It was strange seeing Dee like this, having such a…human reaction. “I think he probably feels the same.”
“I don’t know. We were just friends and nothing more. We didn’t even want to go to homecoming together.” She was on her feet again. “But I’m not sure if he felt that way because of me and how I’d acted. Maybe he’s always felt more for me.”
“Call him.” That was the best advice I could give, since I had no experience in any of this. “Wait. Did you guys use protection?”
Dee rolled her eyes. “I’m so not ready for a baby Dee. We totally used protection.”
Relief flooded me. She hung around a little longer then left to go call Adam. I was still shocked that Dee had sex. It was such a big step, even for…aliens. At least it was great. But to have sex just to find out if you liked someone? Where was the romance in that? Of course, who was I to judge? I asked one guy to go out, I was pretty sure, just to see if another noticed. Yeah, I was totally not the go-to person for relationship advice. Poor Dee.
Mom woke up and we ordered pizza before she had to leave for work. While waiting, we chilled on the couch like we used to, before Dad died.
Mom handed me a cup of steaming cocoa. “Don’t forget I have you all day Saturday until I go into work, so don’t make any plans.”
I smiled, wrapping my hands around the warm cup. “I’m all yours.”
“Good.” She threw her slipper-covered feet onto the coffee table. “I wanted to run something by you.”
Taking a sip, I raised my brows.
She crossed her ankles and then re-crossed them the other way. “Will wants to do dinner with us on Saturday, for you birthday.”
“Oh.”
A faint smile curved her lips. “I told him I wanted to check with you first and make sure you were okay with it.” She paused, crinkling her nose. “You are the birthday girl and all.”
“I’ll only turn eighteen once, right?” I grinned. “It’s okay, Mom, we can do dinner with Will.”
Her eyes narrowed.
I took another drink of cocoa. “Should I dress up for this? Since he is a doctor and all. Oh! Are we going to a fancy dinner and will we talk politics and current events?”
“Shush it.” She smiled, though, settling back. “I think you’ll like him. He’s not stuffy or overbearing. He’s really like…”
My heart did a funny thing. “Like Dad?”
Mom smiled sadly. “Yeah, like Dad.”
Neither of us spoke for a few minutes. Mom had met Dad her first year of nursing residency at the hospital in Florida. He’d been a patient, having fallen off the deck and broken his foot, trying to impress some girl. But according to my dad, the moment he’d looked into Mom’s eyes, he couldn’t even remember the other girl’s name. They’d dated for six months, got engaged, and married within the year. I came shortly thereafter, and there hadn’t been two people more in love than them. Even when they’d argued, love fueled their words.
I’d give anything to have that kind of relationship.
I finished off the rest of my cocoa and wiggled closer to Mom. She lifted her slender arm and I snuggled in, inhaling the apple-scented body lotion she always wore during autumn. Mom had this habit of changing her perfumes and lotions with the seasons.
“I’m happy you met him,” I said finally. “Will sounds like a really nice guy.”
“He is.” She kissed the top of my head. “I like to think your father would approve.”
Dad would approve of anyone who made Mom happy. I’d been there the day hospice had told us it wouldn’t be much longer. Standing outside their bedroom, I’d heard him tell Mom to love again. That was all he wanted.
I closed my eyes. That kind of love should’ve been able to beat sickness. That kind of love should’ve conquered anything.
Chapter 8
I readjusted the thin black straps for the third time and finally gave up. No matter how many times I tugged on it, the neckline of the dress wasn’t coming up any higher. I couldn’t believe it fit me. Aw hell, it fit a little too well, emphasizing the vast difference between Dee’s body and mine. My boobs just might come out and say hello tonight. The dress clung to my bust and had a cinched empire waist before it billowed in soft waves to end before my knees.
I kind of looked hot.
But I needed to cover those babies up. I whipped open the closet door. I knew I had a red cardigan that wouldn’t look too bad with this dress, but I couldn’t find it in the mess. It took me a few minutes to realize that it was in the dryer.
“Holy crud.” I moaned and headed downstairs in a flurry of black and tapping heels.
Thank God Mom had already left for work. She’d either stroke out or applaud the dress. Either one would’ve been embarrassing. I headed down the hallway, nervous and nauseous. I could hear the car doors outside, the laughter as I pulled out the cardigan, shook it, and slipped it on. What if I did something stupid? Like lift a TV in front of an entire house full of classmates?
Just then there was a knock on the door. Taking a deep breath, I backtracked to the front door and swung it open. “Hey.”
Blake stepped in, holding a half dozen roses in his hands. His eyes drifted over me. “Whoa, you look really great.” He smiled as he held out the flowers.
Blushing, I took the roses and inhaled their clean scent. Giddiness swept through me. “Thank you, but you didn’t have to.”
“I wanted to.”
Ah, the key word again: want. “Well, they’re beautiful. And you look really nice, too.” And he did, dressed in a dark V-neck sweater with a collared shirt on underneath. I stepped back, holding t
he roses close. No one had ever given me flowers before. “Would you like something to drink before we head over?”
Blake nodded and followed me into the kitchen. Options were limited, so he settled on one of my mom’s wine coolers. He leaned against the counter, looking around as I found a vase for the roses. “You have books everywhere. It’s really cute.”
I smiled as I set the roses on the counter. “My mom hates it. She’s always trying to pick them up.”
“And you just put them right back, huh?”
I laughed. “Yeah, sounds right.”
He moved forward, wine cooler in one hand. His gaze dipped and he reached out, picking up the silver chain. His knuckles brushed the swell of my chest. “Interesting necklace. What kind of stone is this?”
“Obsidian,” I told him. “A friend gave it to me.”
“It’s really different.” He let it drop. “It’s cool.”
“Thanks.” I placed my fingers on it, trying to push away the images of Daemon it brought along with it. I searched for something to say. “Thanks for the flowers again. They’re really pretty.”
“I’m glad you like them. I was worried I’d look like a nerd for giving them to you.”
“No. They’re perfect.” I smiled. “Are you ready to go over?”
He finished up the wine cooler and rinsed it before tossing it in the trash. Mom would’ve loved him for that—well, not the underage-drinking-of-her-wine-cooler part. “Sure,” he said. “But I kind of have some bad news. I can only stay for half an hour tops. We have some family coming in last minute. I’m really sorry.”
“No,” I said, hoping the disappointment wasn’t audible. “It’s okay. We didn’t give you much notice.”
“Are you sure? I feel like such a tool.”
“Of course. You’re not a tool. You did bring me roses.”
Blake grinned. “Well, I want to make it up to you. Can you do dinner with me tomorrow night?”
I shook my head. “I can’t tomorrow. Spending the day with my mom.”
“How about Monday?” he asked. “Do your parents let you out on a school night?”
“It’s just my mom, but yes, she does.”
“Good. There’s this little Indian restaurant I saw in town.” He inched closer. There was a slight scent of aftershave that reminded me of the conversation I’d had with Lesa about how boys smelled. Blake smelled good. “You game?”
“Sure thing.” I glanced around, biting my lip. “You ready to head over now?”
“Yep, if you do one thing.”
“Which is?”
“Well, two things.” Another step closer and his shoes were touching mine. I had to tip my head back to meet his eyes. “Then we can go over.”
I felt a little dizzy, staring in his eyes. “What are the two things?”
“You’ve got to give me your hand. If this is a speed date, we’ve got to make it believable.” He dipped his head, still holding onto my gaze. “And a kiss.”
“A kiss?” I whispered.
His lips spread in a crooked smile. “I need you to remember me when I leave. In that dress, you’re going to have guys all over you.”
“I don’t know about that.”
“You will. So? Is it a deal?”
My breath slowed in my lungs. Curiosity filled me. Would kissing him be like kissing Daemon? Would the world burn or just simmer? I wanted to find out, needed to discover if I could forget the boy next door in a simple kiss.
“Deal,” I murmured.
His hand found my cheek, and I closed my eyes. Blake whispered my name. My mouth opened, but there were no words to be spoken. There was just anticipation and the need to lose myself. At first, his lips brushed across mine lightly, testing my response, and the gentle nature of the kiss was disarming. I placed my hands on his shoulders, and they tightened when he swept his lips over mine again.
His kiss deepened, and I felt like I was swimming in raw emotions. It was elating and yet confusing at the same time. I kissed him back, and his hands dropped to my waist, pulling me closer. I waited breathlessly in between kisses for something—anything—other than the restlessness stirring inside me. Then all at once, I felt frustration, anger, and sadness—which were nothing I was searching for.
Blake broke contact, breathing heavily. His lips were ripe, swollen. “Well, I will definitely remember you when I leave.”
I lowered my chin, blinking. Nothing had been wrong with that kiss, other than it was lacking something. It had to be me. Stress. With everything happening, I was thinking too much into things. And kissing him was just too fast. I felt like one of those girls in the books I read, delving into a guy headfirst without even thinking about it. Practical Katy still lived inside me, and she wasn’t happy with what I’d done. And it was more than that. A stirring of sour guilt poked at me, telling me that my heart hadn’t been in that kiss because of someone else.
“Just one more thing,” he said, and his hand found mine. “Ready?”
Was I? Confliction tore through me. Maybe if Daemon saw me happy with Blake, he wouldn’t feel compelled to pursue our unreal connection. I felt sick. “Yes. I’m ready.”
Outside, there were numerous cars lining the driveway and all the way down to the empty house at the beginning of our road. “Holy crap, I thought this was supposed to be a little party?”
Dee had really outdone herself. She’d dug up numerous paper lanterns and strung them along the porch. Through their windows, thick candles spread throughout flickered softly. A warm, pleasant cider-and-spice smell floated outside and tickled my nose, reminding me how much I loved the smell of autumn.
People were everywhere inside, packed on the couch, surrounding two guys in a Wii death match. Several familiar faces were crowding the staircase, laughing as they drank from red plastic cups. Blake and I couldn’t go two feet without bumping into someone.
Dee weaved in and out of the crowd, playing the hostess. She looked beautiful in her delicate white dress that highlighted the darkness of her hair and the emerald color of her eyes. When she saw our hands joined together, she barely hid her surprise…or disappointment.
Feeling like I was doing something wrong, I pulled free and gave her a tight hug. “Wow. The house looks great.”
“It does, doesn’t it? I’m a natural.” She looked over my shoulder. “Katy…?”
My cheeks burned. “He’s my—”
“Date,” Blake inserted, catching and squeezing my hand. “I have to bail soon, but I wanted to escort her to the party.”
“Escort her?” She glanced at him, then back to me. “Okay. Well, I’ll go…check on some stuff. Yeah.” Then she floated away, back stiff.
I tried to not let her disappointment get to me. She couldn’t seriously want me to be with her brother. One of them had already gone down that path with a human and look what happened.
A huge amount of suspicious noises were coming from the dark corners of the large house, distracting me from my thoughts. I then briefly saw Adam, who appeared to be stalking Dee through the crowd. I made a mental note to ask her how her call with him had gone.
“Want to get a drink?” Blake asked. When I nodded, he led me toward the dining room, where we could see several bottles. There was even a punch bowl. Spiked, no doubt.
“We had parties like this back home,” Blake said, handing me a red plastic cup. “In beach houses, though, and everyone smelled of sea and suntan lotion.”
“You sound like you miss it.”
“I do sometimes, but hey, change isn’t too bad. It makes life interesting.” He took a sip and coughed. “What did they put in this? Moonshine?”
I laughed. “God only knows around here.”
Wild giggles came from the kitchen. We turned just in time to see Carissa rush from the room, an annoyed look on her face as she bolted to where Dee was in the doorway. “Dee, your friends are crazy.”
“They’re your friends, too,” Lesa commented dryly, coming up behind Dee. She saw Bl
ake and me and came to a stop. Then she bumped me with her hip. “Yay.”
Carissa folded her arms over her chest. “My friends would not do that with whipped cream.”
I busted into laughter at the horrified look on Dee’s face and the curious one that crossed Lesa’s. Blake smiled at me, as if he liked the sound of my laugh.
“What?” Dee screeched and took off toward the kitchen.
“I have to see this,” muttered Lesa, following quickly behind the flurry of white.
I glanced over at Carissa, whose cheeks were as red as my sweater. “You’re kidding, right?”
She shook her head emphatically. “You have no idea what Donnie and Becca are doing in there.”
“Aren’t they the two who planned to get married after graduation?”
“Yep. And I can tell you they have not waited for marriage for most things.”
I giggled. “Awesome.”
Carissa shuddered. “I’m not trying to be a prude, but who acts like that in public or at a friend’s house? I mean, come on. It’s disgusting.” She took a deep breath, her dark eyes flicking up. “Hi, Blake, sorry about that.”
“It’s okay. Whipped cream should only be used on pies.”
I had to look away to stop from laughing. It was kind of gross, but I still found it entertaining. Not sure what that said about me. And who was I kidding? Last Friday I’d been getting all hot and heavy in a library.
At the reminder, my stomach knotted again and my gaze darted around the room.
We were briefly interrupted by a group who wanted to talk to Carissa about her older brother, who was away at college. I’d forgotten that she had older siblings. Mental note number two: pull head out of ass.
Blake must’ve made a lot of friends quickly, because most of the kids were talking him up. And a lot of girls kept stealing looks at him. This filled me with an obscene amount of glee. I leaned into Blake’s arm, mostly for show, and then I stayed there, liking the way the bulge of muscles in his upper arms felt against my chest.
He didn’t seem to mind. The hand on my back bunched into the silk of my dress, and he stopped mid-sentence to lean down and whisper, “I really wish I were staying,”
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