The Great Bear
Is it possible to change a life by recounting it? If so, then it must be emphasized that later in life when Jonas Wergeland closed his eyes and thought of the women he had been with, he did not remember them as lovers but as storytellers. Through his encounters with these exceptional representatives of Norwegian womanhood he finally came to understand what Rakel, his sister, had been trying to drum into him for years: that sex and storytelling went hand in hand. And Eros came first, then the stories – not the other way round. Such was the doctrine of the Arabian Nights, according to Rakel. So Jonas Wergeland’s women did not just make love to him, they activated, they transformed the stories within him. A story that had been lying there for ages, like boring black graphite, suddenly stood revealed as a scintillating diamond – as here:
While Daniel’s promising athletics career was brought to a halt only by a serious case of tenosynovitis, a strained calf muscle which caused even Kjell Kaspersen – the former Skeid goalkeeper who was now treating sports injuries in a room at Bislett Stadium – to raise his eyebrows, Jonas’s career was relatively short and painless. In any case, he did not have his brother’s self-destructive determination, still less his motivation, because, as with everything else, when you got right down to it, Daniel’s sporting endeavours were just a way of showing off in front of the girls, a kind of strenuous foreplay before the foreplay. If Jonas was mad about athletics, then it was for the sport’s sake, for its inherent beauty.
For the last time I shall tell the story of the Radio Theatre.
Jonas tended to take up sports in which the competition in his age group was not too stiff. He went in for high-jumping for a while but soon switched to a discipline for which he had some small aptitude and which did not appeal to very many other people: throwing, more specifically discus throwing. There were things that Jonas did for spells in his life, without quite knowing why he did them. Like this thing with the throwing. Maybe it was the discus itself that attracted him. He had stumbled upon it on the playing field down by the stream, a makeshift arena the big boys had made with their own hands. The discus had been lying on the ground next to the equipment shed, and when Jonas came by, on his way to catch minnows, this circular object seemed to catch his gaze – the metal core, the laminated wood body and the steel rim – no, not just his gaze, his whole being. Like an eye. A magical thing. Something which might have had its place in the lacquer casket along with the puck and the brooch – if it hadn’t been so big. In any case he simply had to pick it up, just as you pick up lovely round, polished stones on the beach. And not only that – he had to throw it, or at least try to throw it. It was asking for it. And although Jonas did not pivot, he had an intuitive understanding – possibly derived from the picture of a Greek statue in his history book – of how he should hold the thing and how he should swing from side to side a bit before throwing it; and although the discus did not go far there was something about the sight of this object’s glide through the air – because it really did glide, albeit with a bit of a wobble – which won over Jonas completely. Perhaps also because he realized straight away that it was not a matter of throwing but of whirling. And once he had thrown it once, he had to try again, to see whether he could whirl it a little further. From that day onwards, for a couple of years, he devoted a lot of time to the mysteries of discus throwing, indeed you might even say that Jonas Wergeland remained a discus thrower for the rest of his life, that this was his only real talent. For a second, when he spotted the disc lying there in the grass, he had actually perceived something that only later, during a heated discussion with Viktor, would he manage to put into words: ‘The discus is akin to the vertebrae of the spine,’ Jonas declared. ‘This disc is also in some way related to the central nervous system.’
Jonas was just old enough to be able to start competing, so he bought a juvenile discus weighing 1 kilo and a junior discus weighing 1.5 kilos, both made by Karhu, which means ‘bear’ in Finnish – this was before the marvellous French Obol brand came on the market – so he called them the Little Bear and the Great Bear. Jonas practised on his own at Grorud sports ground when there weren’t too many people around and took part in a few meets, including the Tyrving Games no less, although he didn’t do very well. But he watched the others closely, picked up a few training tips by keeping his ears open, learned a few pointers, to the stage where he could at least get the discus to spin in the right direction by delivering it from his index finger and not, as he had done to begin with, by releasing the steel rim with his pinkie. ‘Remember to let the discus be friends with time,’ he heard somebody say. ‘It has to spin clockwise.’
Is it possible to fight a dragon and win?
The pleasure he got out of the throwing simply grew and grew. If truth be told, this was his favourite pastime in those days: to nip over to Grorud sports ground at dusk and practise a few discus throws, chasing that magic moment, the seconds when everything fell into place – the moment when even the aerodynamic forces were on his side. He would spend hours there, working on the rhythm and balance that had to be developed; strove to be as keyed-up but at the same time as relaxed as possible, jumped for joy when he got it right, threw it in such a way that he felt the torque in every fibre of his body – because that is what it was like: a good throw always felt like such a tremendous release. To Jonas, these sessions at Grorud sports ground, the monomaniacal repetition of the same throw, were like a battle against gravity itself – if, that is, he was not endeavouring to defy another powerful, natural law: that of ordinariness. Whatever the case, he always came home purged.
It was on just such an evening that it happened. Jonas was alone on the field, poised on the concrete circle and throwing towards the fence in the top corner of the ground to save having to walk so far to retrieve the discus. In his head he was the young Alfred Oerter. Al Oerter who had already won three Olympic Golds in succession and would go on to take a fourth, an unbelievable sporting achievement. Jonas Wergeland was Al Oerter, up in the corner, hurling the discus with such force that it sang triumphantly off the wire fence. He also did a lot of ‘dry’ throws, practised his coordination, his torsion, his footwork and the drive forward; it was almost like ballet. With the legs, the challenge lay not just in getting the balance right but in achieving one smooth, continuous movement. ‘You mustn’t stop, not even when you’re driving forward,’ he had overheard one experienced thrower tell a younger pupil. ‘You have to keep your feet pivoting so that you don’t lose speed, remember, speed is essential!’ And so Jonas spent a lot of time just practising the pivot, it was a bit like a pirouette; even in the schoolyard he would catch himself doing it, to the great amusement of the other kids. ‘Look at Jonas, he thinks he’s Sonja Henie!’
At one meet he got talking to an old trainer who taught him a number of secrets: which is to say, the way he, the old trainer, saw the challenges of discus throwing at that time. Above all, what Jonas learned from him was a lesson in technique; he realized that he had to start his turn low down, begin his pivot with the right knee and not with his arms and upper body as a novice would automatically do. An accelerating tempo was also vital. ‘You have to start gently,’ the trainer told him. ‘Most folk uncoil too fast and that makes it harder to accelerate.’ The actual delivery had to be made at maximum speed. The thrust had to be like a spark, giving the disc a final, crucial boost.
So there he was, on this lovely, mild afternoon in late summer, trying out these new theories; enjoying every throw, feeling that it was going better and better, the spiralling turn and the outward trajectory; soon, any minute now, he was going to beat his own record of close on thirty metres. Because that was his goal: to outdo himself. That was reward enough; he didn’t need an audience.
That, however, was just what he was about to get. Oddvar Kvalheim – no relation, it should be said, to the Kvalheim Brothers, the idols of every boy runner – but the chairman, nonetheless, of the Grorud Sports Club’s athletics division, was approac
hing. Not on foot either, but driving in his spanking new Mercedes – ‘I’ve got myself a Spanish fancy woman,’ he would joke – a well-deserved reward for many years of hard slog, building up his own small business. Anyway, there was Kvalheim, no mean triple-jumper himself in his day, bowling along Trondheimsveien, and just about to turn in at Sigvartsen’s Bakery and Rygge’s hardware store, the stalwart local distributor of G-MAN saws, and drive through the gate closest to the ski-jump hill, right next to the corner where Jonas was throwing.
Jonas stood in the concrete circle, swaying loosely from side to side, with the pleasant weight of the discus, wood and metal, in his right hand: stood there swinging, trying to find his rhythm, thinking as he did so that he had melded the best of his mother and his father, ironmongery and music, then he set about preparing himself mentally for the throw, because he knew he had to become one with the discus, that a good throw was effortless – every Taoist knows that, Viktor would tell him later – it never worked if he gripped the discus too hard, he had to ‘ram it’ perfectly, this was the time when he was going to do it, he thought, there was something about the air, the light, the tingling inside him; he spat on the discus, passed it from hand to hand before switching to an easy swing of his discus arm, and as he was starting on the actual rotation, engrossed in the hypnotic process of twisting himself into another dimension, Chairman Kvalheim – in the dimension of the real world – was only a second outside his field of vision, but Jonas did not hear the purr of the Mercedes engine; all his concentration was focused on spinning his body round in a circle, one and half turns, at the same time driving forwards in the ring and sending the discus into a skyward trajectory; and maybe it was because he did, after all, hear an unfamiliar sound, the Mercedes’ wheels on gravel, that he threw ‘out’, as often happens, and to the right of the planned throwing sector – as is quite natural if one is right-handed – but it was still a magnificent throw, he got a tremendous momentum on the disc – all at once the wind was very much in his favour – Jonas saw the discus skimming away, farther than he had ever thrown it before, because that’s always the way with a good throw, they travel so very, very slowly, you can follow the course of the disc all the way, you fly through the air with the disc, as if it also carries with it a hope, the longing to break away completely.
And just at that moment Chairman Kvalheim turned the corner and drove his new Mercedes into the ditch, no real damage done, but nonetheless he was in the ditch, because Oddvar Kvalheim had not been watching Jonas Wergeland, he had been running an eye over the ski-jump hill, thinking to himself, a mite tetchily, that somebody jolly well ought to get that tidied up before the winter, when he spotted something which made him forget all about the winter and the ski-jump hill and, for a second, lose control of the car, because there, straight ahead of him, clear as could be, even with the sun in his eyes, was a flying saucer, hovering there, low on the horizon; he saw it quite plainly, for a long time, it seemed to him, although it was, in fact, only a couple of seconds, it swooped gracefully through the air, and then it was gone. ‘No flaming wonder I drove into the ditch,’ he said later in concluding a story he would tell again and again for years, not least because for a few minutes it made him the centre of attention.
Jonas, for his part, did not see what happened, to the car that is; all he saw was that the discus appeared to be on a collision course with the Mercedes, as if the badge on the car’s bonnet was a gun-sight and the discus a projectile shooting backwards – Aunt Laura had of course told him years before about how, in their ancient epic, the Indians regarded the disc as a weapon, a weapon capable of creating illusions, very much in the way of a diversion, stunning one’s foes. Jonas was therefore, not unwisely, well away from the throwing circle by the time Kvalheim climbed out of the foundered car; Jonas jogged lightly down the side of the pitch, pretended to be warming down after some hard tempo training, but when he cast an anxious glance over his shoulder Chairman Kvalheim was standing with his back to him, rooted to the spot, staring, as if he had just witnessed a revelation or something of the sort. Jonas jogged on at a brisk pace, out of the other gate, onto Grorudveien and home.
Late that evening he ran back to the playing fields; he searched for his discus in the grass bordering the ditch, on the road side of the fence, about thirty to forty yards beyond the throwing circle. He didn’t find it; it was gone. The fact was that he had never seen the discus land, and in his heart of hearts he began to think that it never had landed, that it had carried on out into space, that he had done the impossible, defeated gravity, that a Karhu was now winging its way to its proper home, in the constellation of the Great Bear.
A couple of days later there was the headline, emblazoned across the front page of Akers Avis (besides getting a small mention in the evening edition of Aftenposten): ‘UFO over Grorud’, with a picture showing Chairman Kvalheim pointing almost proudly to the point in the sky above Ammerud Woods where he had seen the flying saucer, an elliptical object, disappear. ‘It seemed to be made of some shimmering alloy, and the bit in the centre glittered like a block of ice filled with gems,’ said Oddvar Kvalheim. And Oddvar Kvalheim was a down-to-earth man, the sort you could trust. But one should not laugh because this was at a time when otters were constantly being taken for torpedoes and a swan seen in the right light could very quickly become a sea-monster. Even in Nidaros Cathedral – this really takes the biscuit – supposedly sensible people saw ghosts: monks wandering about at night. So why not a UFO over Grorud?
But not even then, on the day the UFO story broke, could Jonas have said what made him throw. It remained a mystery, seemingly meaningless. The only thing he sensed, very faintly, was that his discus training was a preparation for something else. That there would come a time when he would need to use this pivotal action. That one day – possibly when confronted with something inconceivable – he would have to make the discus throw of his life.
Jonas confined himself to cutting out the piece in Akers Avis as a sort of trophy, a reminder of how much can be set in motion by a perfect, whirling throw. And perhaps one should not entirely rule out the possibility that this incident had some part to play in his decision – in the eyes of many an incomprehensible one – some years later, after taking his high-school diploma and sitting the university Prelim, to study the movements of the heavenly bodies, to begin reading astrophysics.
Finally – dare I suggest it? – there is always a chance that Jonas Wergeland may also have been mistaken: that there actually was a UFO over Grorud that day. Because as you well know, Professor, we are living in an age when reality is as fantastic as fantasy is real.
Pyrrhus
Is it possible to change a life by recounting it? If so, then we must look at the question of what can have lain at the root of the enmity that existed between Jonas Wergeland and Veronika Røed, these two cousins. The relationship between them need not have been of an incestuous nature, as some have hinted, although I don’t think this rumour was plucked entirely out of thin air either. To some extent they were, as their grandfather said when they were small, ‘spliced’ together. Their hate of one another was of the type that is only a hairsbreadth away from love, a demented kind of love.
The truth is that Veronika had been more or less in love with Jonas since she was very small, but not until the age of seventeen did she make a serious attempt to conquer him, really lay him low, quite literally. Sir William’s family, or what was left of it, had just returned from Africa after years of camouflaged exploitation of the natives – or, depending on how you look at it, of the Norwegian taxpayers – and even before the summer holidays that first year Veronika had made several expeditions from the new mansion on Gråkammen – built, you might say, with development funding – to her relatives in Grorud: visited them with remarkable frequency, although this sudden beleaguering of his person made no great impression on Jonas. Which is to say: he liked Veronika, had always been captivated by her – and at this particular time she also happened
to be brimful of Blixenesque stories from Nairobi and the surrounding region. And yet there was something about Veronika that made him feel uneasy – no, not merely uneasy: afraid. She was too pretty, he always thought.
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