by Rae B. Lake
When the pain ebbed enough that I could unclench my muscles without feeling nauseous from the pain I threw four pills in my mouth and waited for the relief.
I turned to go back to the bed but the wheel of the chair caught on my coat rack and everything came falling down. “Motherfuck!” I yelled, I was frustrated and in pain, I was pitiful.
A loud rush came from the door outside and Cherry came bursting into my door. “Ryder? What is it, what’s wrong?”
“Get the fuck out!” I yelled at her, just her face was enough to irk my nerves.
“No, let me help you.” She hurried to where I was covered in my clothes and began pulling them off of me.
“I said get the fuck out, I don’t want your goddamn help.”
“Ryder, don’t be an ass.”
“Cherry you don’t get it do you? You are of no fucking use to me. The only reason any of the boys even tolerate you around here is because no one sucks a dick like Cherry.” I pulled the rest of the clothes off my lap as she stood up in front of me. She looked confused, how could she? “What? Don’t tell me you actually thought you were part of the family? That we cared about you?” I chuckled at the thought. “Cherry, we make bets to see how many of us you can fuck on the same day. To see if you would let us ram shit up your snatch and pretend that you like that shit. We use you like the whore you want to be, that’s all you are, our whore.”
A tear rolled down her face, her fist squeezed into tight balls, her breath coming more and more ragged.
“Oh, is the little slut really going to cry? Please save that shit for someone who believes it, I’m through looking at your pathetic ass. Why don’t you go find someone desperate enough to fuck and get the hell out of my face.”
The smack shouldn’t have come as a surprise but fuck I didn’t see it coming.
Cherry jumped on me like a cat on its prey, my chair toppling over in the process and slapped me in the face. I tried to put my hands up to block her blows but she was irate and enraged.
“You motherfucking asshole. How dare you talk to me like that! I fucking hate you, Ryan. I was helping you, I was fucking there for you, you piece of shit.” She swung at me over and over, tears and sweat covering her face.
“Charity get the fuck off of me!” I tried to push her off but for the life of me, I couldn’t. I was getting overpowered by a little girl that weighed probably no more than one-third of what I did.
“Fuck you!” She screamed as she kept on swinging at me. “How dare you talk to me like that!” Now she switched to fists. She cracked me one good time in the jaw and I could taste blood before she raised her hand to swing again. I used all the muscles I had control over and finally was able to roll over and overpower her for a second but she was in rare form, she reached up and bit me hard right above the collar bone while pushing me back on the floor. She straddled my waist and continued her assault.
Cherry was going to kill me, or at least keep hitting until she passed out herself. She screamed and cursed me, spit flying out of her mouth and her little fists beating down on anything that she could reach.
‘Charity, stop!” I tried to catch her flailing arms one more time and finally was able to get one pinned to her side.
“No! No!” She screamed and beat on my chest weakly with her remaining arm. Finally, I was able to grab the second one and she collapsed in exhaustion on my chest.
At first, she screamed and cursed me with her face pressed into my body but then the anger turned into grief. Cherry cried hard, not just the lonely tears that I used to see, but a deep soul hurting wail against my chest.
“Yo, what the fuck is happening here?” Clean opened the door and poked his head inside.
I lifted up to tell him to go away. All the anger and hatred that I was spewing a few moments ago to Cherry was gone. This was our Cherry, every tear that she cried broke my heart a little more. I wanted to tell her that it was the pain that made me do it, that I didn’t mean it, I wanted to tell her anything to make her stop crying.
Clean’s face dropped when he got a good look at me. “Oh shit…” He let out a sigh and looked at the broken Cherry laying on my chest. “Oh, Cherry, no.”
“Go away and shut up!” I whisper yelled at him. Clean turned around and walked out of my room, closing the door behind him. Shaking his head on the way out.
I wasn’t hurt, not really, I would have some bruises but I’ve had way worse, but we both knew what this meant for Cherry. She laid a hand on a patched member. She would be blacklisted and never allowed back into the club or be able to dance at our locations. She just threw away everything she had known for the past eight years because I pushed her too far.
“Oh, god. Oh, god.” Cherry raised her head slowly and looked at my face. “Oh Ryan, I am so sorry, oh god.” She fell back down on my chest. “I’m sorry.” She wailed.
“Shhhh, babe, it’s ok. This is my fault. I did this. Please don’t cry. Please.” I tried to comfort her. I rubbed her shoulders and tried to lift her. “Cherry come on babe.”
“They are going to kick me out. I’ll be on the street again. Oh, what about Larry? Oh god.” She gripped my shirt and cried harder, hyperventilating and shaking in the process.
“Cherry, you and that baby boy aren’t going anywhere.”
She sat up, “How can you say that Ryder, I broke the rules. We all know what’s going to happen when Wire sees your face. I’ll be on my ass with my baby. You were right, I’m nothing but a whore, expendable.”
“No, on my word, I swear to you. I’d never let them do that you. On my word.” I reached up and held her face in my hands. She was defeated.
“Oh, Ryder. I’m sorry.”
“Me too babe. I’m so fucking sorry, please forgive me.”
Tears pooled in her eyes and she nodded her head yes before she bent down to give me a sweet kiss on the mouth. I kissed her back.
I couldn’t believe I had fucked up this much. This woman had never ever done anything but be good to me and as much as I hated to admit it, I truly cared for her. More than just a random fuck.
She tried to pull away but I grabbed the back of her neck and lengthened the kiss. I missed her. I missed the intimacy that we shared. Suddenly, all the despair and pain that I felt radiating from her turned into something else. Sex and lust.
Cherry was always in her zone when it came to fucking. The fact that she was turned on enough to still want to be with me was humbling, here I was almost twenty years her senior, crippled and had been nothing but verbally abusive for the past few weeks and she was still willing to be with me in that way.
She fixed her legs so that she was more comfortable on my hips, “It’s ok?” She asked in between kisses. She ran her hands through my hair and ground herself down on me.
“Fuck yes.” I hissed out
“Oh, Ryan.” We attacked each other’s mouths, the passion and need building between both of us.
I sucked hard on her lip and moved down to her neck, she purred. I loved the sounds that she made any time we were together.
“Ryan, mmm.” She hummed her approval in my ear as she moved further down so I could get better access to her.
I gripped her ass softly and could feel her supple skin under her thin cotton pajama pants. “Fucking hell Cherry you are so damn sexy. You always driving me crazy, always.”
She bent back down and kissed me again. Abruptly, I was laying on the floor by myself.
“What, what’s wrong, why did you leave?” I asked reaching up to Cherry who was now standing over me with a surprised look on her face.
“Can you feel that?” She asked.
“Feel what?”
She looked down at my pants.
I followed her line of sight, “Oh shit!” I said in complete surprise.
I had a fucking erection. Not half mast either, this was a full on hard on. I wasn’t supposed to be able to have another erection in my life, it’d been weeks since I even had any movement down there and all of a sudden
here I was standing strong.
“Ryder, you’re going to walk, they were right you are getting stronger.” Cherry smiled wide and bright, clapping her hands once in excitement, “I have to go get Medi or Mikki. I have to tell them.”
“Cherry!” I called her back.
“Yeah?” She asked the smile still on her face.
I tried to move a leg just to make sure, still nothing, “I’m not moving any time soon, I don’t need Medi right now. I need something else.”
“What?” She knelt down and tenderly ran a hand over my cheek.
“I need you, please, I need you to sit on my face and let me worship you like the queen you are.”
She gasped, clearly not expecting me to still be thinking about sex but it was all I could think about. I loved to eat pussy and I was damned good at it.
“You sure, I mean you don’t have to.” She got closer to me.
“I need to, I need it babe.”
She stripped out of her clothes in a rush and let me guide her body over mine with my hands. I only had to apply a little pressure and she would respond.
I paid attention to every inch of skin that I could reach with my mouth and hands and she loved every second of it.
I let her get situated, her pussy hovering and glistening over my face. I licked my lips and let my tongue swipe tenderly against her slit.
“Fucking hell” Cherry let her head fall back and she moaned.
I wrapped my hands around her small waist and pulled her down further onto my mouth, I lapped at her pussy and controlled her movement to make sure she didn’t move too far from where I could reach her. I sucked at her clit, making sure to swirl my tongue around that sensitive nub over and over again. Her core trembled and she was wet enough that her juices dripped down my chin.
“Oh god, Ryan, yes, yes, please don’t stop” She palmed her breast as I continued to eat her pussy. Tugging and pulling at her nipples. A bright red blush forming on her upper chest and neck. “Shit, Ryan that feels so fucking good,” her breath hitched and she let out a low moan and her body jerked a few times. “Oh, Ryan! Fuck, yes, yes, yes!” She gyrated her cunt on my mouth and rode out the end of her orgasm.
She tried to lift up but that was not part of my plan, I lifted my head and just enough that I could speak and she could hear me. “Where the fuck do you think you’re going? Does it look like I’m done with you? Don’t you want me to take care of you baby?”
“Yes, daddy. God yes,” she relaxed back on my face.
I loved that, no one made me feel like more of a man than Cherry. The way she moaned my name, how she called me daddy when she gave up complete control. I loved it, I loved all of it. I had spent the last few weeks feeling like I couldn’t do anything like I was an invalid, yet a few minutes with her and I felt like a caveman beating my chest.
My chest and arms started to feel tight. Like there was a pressure building inside of me.
Fucking hell, am I having another heart attack?
I didn’t care if I was, I’d die a happy man with her moaning my name to the gods. I lapped at her honey pot not wanting to miss a single fucking drop of her cum. “You taste so sweet, baby.”
I kept sucking and kissing at that tight nub until she exploded again. I let her fall forward as she tried to catch her breath from the two orgasms that I’d just wrung from her body.
“Ryan, Jesus, I don’t know how you always make me feel so fucking perfect.” She rolled over and fanned her hand over her face, trying to cool herself down.
“I am happy you enjoyed yourself babe.” I cooed in her direction, my back was starting to hurt from spending so much time on the floor.
I used my hands to lift myself into a sitting position, “What the fuck?”
“What’s wrong?” Cherry asked sitting up next to me.
“I think…” I shook my head trying to understand what I was seeing, “I think I just came in my fucking pants.”
“What?”
“Fucking hell.” I fell back down to the floor. I just went from feeling on top of the world to feeling like I was a teenager who just touched his first boob. “How weak is that shit,” I grumbled as I draped an arm over my face.
“Are you kidding me!” Cherry lifted my arm and stared down into my face. “This is great! Ryan! I have to go get Mikki!”
“Cherry, no!”
“Ryder, they have to know about this! I am so happy for you.” She jumped up again and ran out of the room.
I got myself up in the chair and did my best to clean up the mess that I’d made.
There was a soft knock on the door.
“Yeah.”
“Can I come in?” Mikki asked through the wood barrier.
“Yeah, come on.”
The small timid woman poked her head into the door and looked around for me. She looked me up and down, letting out a sigh of relief when she saw me sitting in my chair. Cherry pushed past her to get in the room and I could understand why Mikki was so relieved. Cherry had left the room completely naked. I could only assume what Mikki was thinking she was about to walk in on.
Cherry picked up a shirt that had fallen to the ground and covered her naked form. “Tell her Ryder.” She bounced a bit on the bed, clearly way more excited about what had happened then I was.
I looked over to Mikki who was yawning but waiting patiently for what I had to say.
“It’s no big deal,” I said just trying to make this fucking embarrassment go away.
“Yes, it is.” Cherry piped up next to me.
“Whatever it is, tell me, any changes are relevant to your condition.”
“I nutted in my pants alright?” I hung my head down in defeat. I hated that I had to talk about this shit.
There was silence in the room for longer than what I would’ve thought necessary, when I looked back up at Mikayla I could see the skeptical look on her face.
“Are you sure?” She asked.
“Yeah, what do you mean am I sure, I have been ejaculating long enough to know what the fuck sperm looks like,” my anger was rising.
She raised her hands to appease me, “I know you do, but Ryder, that’s impossible.”
“What? You think I’m making it up?”
“No, not at all. It’s just that your injuries were above and through the nerves that control that function.” She rubbed her chin before waving her hand in the air dismissively, “Just tell me what happened, start from the beginning.”
I told her that Cherry and I had been kissing on the floor and that the kissing got intense, that’s when we noticed I had an erection. Then as I ate Cherry out I must have had an orgasm without realizing it. I did tell her at one point I thought I was going to have another heart attack because my chest and arms got a really tight and heavy feeling. She didn’t stop me once.
“So, it’s nothing right, just my body reacting on its own.”
“No Ryder, this is definitely something. You know I’m not one to get people’s hopes up but the fact that you are able to achieve psychogenic erections and orgasm completely even if the sensation is not completely the same, these are all incredible signs. I want to get you into the hospital so they can do another scan. Ryder, you’re getting better, Medi was right, you’re getting stronger.” Mikki looked at me with a huge smile on her face.
I let the information settle in my mind, there was a possibility that I would be able to move again, that I would be able to have even a small taste of what I once had. I didn’t want to believe in a pipe dream but I couldn’t help but smile back.
Chapter 12
“You know I can’t stand your ass right!” I yelled at Medi, of course, there was no reply.
“Ugh,” I grunted through the pain as he picked my leg up again and stretched it out. I was doing physical therapy and every day seemed like it was worse than the last. I still didn’t have any feeling below the waist but I was getting better, it was documented.
The day after that night with Cherry, Mikki accompanied m
e to the hospital to have another scan done. My legs were healing well, the skin grafts were taking without any infection and most miraculously, the swelling around my spinal cord had gone down and there were no lesions or tears. The doctors told me there was a good chance I would never have all the feeling in my legs, that I would always need some type of assistance device if I did walk and I should get any thought of ever riding a motorcycle again out of my head. They didn’t say it was impossible and that was all I needed.
Storm walked in after another five minutes of torture. “Hey, Ryder, I… well, you know if you are busy…”
“Boy, just spit it the fuck out, what do you want?”
“Look, Maven says there is a big pickup today and everyone else is out. You want to come and watch my back?” He said looking away from me. Storm and I hadn’t spoken since the last time we went over to the Satin Wings to check up on things. I am sure that him asking me for help must have stung.
“Of course, anytime you need.” I pushed Medi off me, a little too excited to be through with these strenuous stretches. “Let me get my shit and I’ll meet you outside, cool?”
He relaxed a bit, “Yeah, I’ll go get the truck.”
I was outside within ten minutes, I was anxious to get to Satin Wings. Cherry had been spending most of her time now between taking care of Larry Jr and working at the strip club. After the night of the huge fight, she barely said a word to me and Mikki and Keeley had begun taking turns checking on me. I just wanted to make sure she was okay.
We made it to the club without anything going down between us and I didn’t see anyone following us. I let Storm and Maven do the count while I made my way to the main area. I looked around the floor for Cherry.
Lucky, the normal security guard was back at his post.
“Lucky!” I called out trying to be heard over the loud music blaring through the club.
He turned to see who was calling him, a bright smile crossing his face when he saw it was me. “Ryder! My man! How have you been?” He put his hand out, bent down and pulled me into a quick bro hug.
Lucky was a prospect, for the Spawns, he was always happy and very fucking touchy.