by Allie Mackay
“A MacDonald doesn’t allow what ifs.” He looked at her, willing her to believe him. “We’ve already walked a long path together. Now, this night, we join at the meeting of our destiny.”
Certain of it, he lowered his head to her breasts again, swirling his tongue over first one nipple, then the other. He needed the taste, feel, and scent of her, couldn’t live without drinking her in.
She was his destiny.
His life.
His heart fell wide with the knowledge. Everything about her was so familiar. He couldn’t remember having ever felt this way about a woman before. They shared an intimacy deeper than their dreams, almost as if he’d spent lifetimes holding her. And this was one he wasn’t going to let pass without her.
No matter what keeping her might cost him.
Need and longing filling him, he rained soft kisses across the swell of her breasts, her shoulders, and neck. He wanted to savor her so fully that he would forever carry her scent, wouldn’t be able to breathe without the essence of her flooding his senses.
A husky moan rumbled low in his chest. A strangled sound some might call capitulation. Maybe even surrender. It mattered not. Only that he never again blink or waken and find her gone, his bed cold and his arms empty.
“Dinnae e’er say what if again.” He breathed the words against her skin. “Our joining is writ across our souls. Ignoring such a truth would be like trying to stem the tide with one’s bare hands.”
“Oh, I believe.” She locked her arms around him, holding him close. “I think I always have.”
“Then let me love you, lass. Now.” He reached down between them, nudging her thighs wider as he covered her body with his. “Mine,” he vowed, his throat too thick for anything else. His vitals so tight he half feared he’d burst before he could thrust into her.
But then she arched her hips and did some reaching of her own, curling her fingers around him and angling him closer. So near that her slick, female heat pulsed hotly against him, the silky-slippery wetness too tempting to resist.
He plunged into her, his soul splitting when she cried his name. Again and again, he kissed her, matching the strokes of his tongue to their mating, riding her harder and deeper and faster until she screamed and tossed beneath him, her nails scoring his shoulders. A woman on fire, she clung to him, her every gasp of pleasure, a deeper satisfaction than his own spilling seed.
The room tilted and whirled, the little flames of the oil lamps and the glow from the hearth fire blending into a crazed blur of fast-wheeling stars until his heart slowed and his breath came easier.
Even then, his body still shuddered and her tight, female heat kept convulsing around him, the mingled scent of their pleasure a heady, intoxicating proof of the realness of their loving.
As was her soft, quiet breathing as she nestled close, her warmth and the damp, sated feel of her as reassuring as the solidness of his bedchamber’s walls. The sturdy thick-timbered frame of his great, curtained bed and the familiar night darkness filling the tall arched windows. All was as it should have been.
He hadn’t even realized he’d fallen asleep until he felt a persistent tapping on his shoulder.
He rolled off the bed and leapt to his feet, groping for his sword until he spied the still-bolted door. Relief flooding him, he wheeled around – and knew instantly why he’d been having such sweet dreams.
Kira sat peering at him from the middle of the bed, beautifully naked and tempting, her hair sleep-tousled and her every curve limned by moonlight and shadow. The shadows prevailed, but there was enough silvery light to catch tantalizing glimpses. Now fully awake, he swept his gaze over her lush breasts and pouty nipples, dipping briefly to her fine legs, curled sweetly beneath her, before settling on the red curls between her thighs.
He drew a sharp breath, instantly hard.
She shifted on the bed, that one move giving him a quick flash of all of her.
Aidan’s blood ran burning hot. He stepped closer, his mouth curving in a devilish smile. “I would ne’er have believed you’d be more eager than in our dreams.” He tossed a glance at the window where the stars hadn’t even begun to pale. “It’s nowhere near daylight and already you want-”
“I couldn’t sleep.” She glanced aside, something in her tone freezing his smile.
“What is it?” He sat on the edge of the bed, looking at her. “Dinnae tell me you’re sorry we mated?”
“Oh, no, it isn’t that,” she said, her eyes troubled all the same.
He reached over and touched her face, then smoothed back her hair. “I dinnae like seeing you fashed, sweetness. Tell me what’s worrying you.”
She hesitated only a moment before she seized his hand, gripping hard. “I remembered your men saying you’d gone warring. You didn’t mention it, so I worried.”
Aidan’s smile returned. “Ach, you fretted for naught.” He lifted her hand for a kiss, nipped the tips of her fingers. “I wasn’t warring, only chasing vermin.”
She blinked. “You mean rats?”
He laughed. “So you could say, aye. But he’s caught now and whiling in my dungeon, so you needn’t concern yourself o’er him.”
“Oh,” she said in a relieved voice, “you mean rats of the two-legged variety?”
“Indeed,” Aidan confirmed, still kissing her fingertips. “My own cousin, Conan Dearg. A blight to our clan and the worst scourge to e’er walk the heather.”
She gasped.
Aidan’s smile faded.
“Conan Dearg?” She stared at him, wide-eyed. “Did I hear you correctly? He’s the man in your dungeon?”
“Unless the weasel’s transformed himself into another, aye, that’ll be him. Conan Dearg, my cousin. Only remaining son of my father’s baseborn half-brother.” He looked at her, not liking the way her face was paling. “It’s rumored he had done with his sire, then his own brothers, one by one, hoping to lay claim to Ardcraig Castle. With that ambition long accomplished, he’s set his sights higher in recent times, casting his eye on Wrath as well.”
“Dear God.” Kira turned even whiter than before. “I can’t believe I forgot him. I should have warned you straight away. But everything happened so fast and I-”
“Whoa, lass.” Aidan pushed to his feet. “How can you know Conan Dearg?”
“I don’t know him,” she said, scrambling off the bed after him. “I know of him. From books.”
Aidan frowned, one of his best. “You’ve read of him in books? In this future time of yours?”
She nodded, looking miserable. “According to Scottish history, he’s the man who killed you.”
Aidan stared at her, feeling the floor give way and the room spin wildly.
This time not in bliss.
Chapter Ten
Several hours later, Kira sat in a heavy oaken chair in Aidan’s privy solar, once again properly dressed in fitting, period-suitable clothing, up to and including a fresh and floppy pair of over-sized cuarans and not a stitch of underwear. Most importantly, she was more convinced than ever that she now knew the reason she’d been sent back in time. She also had a pretty good idea of what she was supposed to do about it, even if a certain fierce and stubborn warrior chieftain felt otherwise.
She knew.
And all his pacing and bluster wouldn’t change a thing.
Pointedly ignoring the tempting platter of bannocks, butter, and honey winking at her from the table beside her chair, she folded her hands in her lap and waited for his next barrage of questions.
When they didn’t come, she took a deep breath. “It must be as clear to you as it is to me.” She lifted her voice just in case Aidan couldn’t hear her where he stood across the solar, glaring out a window. The day had turned cold and dark, with a sleety wind blowing off the sea. Not that she’d let howling gales and glowers stop her from saying what needed to be said. “There can be no question,” she contended. “I was sent here to save you and-”
He huffed. “I dinnae need a lass to save me.
”
Kira pressed her lips together and stared at his back, willing him to be reasonable. “I believe the gatehouse arch will work in reverse. My purpose is to return us to my world.”
He spun around. “Us? Why would I be wanting that?” he demanded, his hands curling around his sword belt. “I like my world fine and dinnae want to leave it. Nor, I thought, did you.” He narrowed his eyes at her, his look challenging. “Or did my ears fool me when you said you wished to stay?”
“That was before you reminded me about Conan Dearg.” Kira sighed. “Now things are different. Besides, I meant I wished to stay with you. It doesn’t matter to me in what time that is.”
“It matters to me.” He strode to the hearth and took an iron poker to jab at the glowing peats. “I cannae just disappear through some time portal, as you call it. I have duties here, important ones.” He straightened, his face grim. “A Highland chieftain’s life is no’ just filled with cattle raiding and leading men into battle. Teaching the young lads to swing a sword and stand unafraid no matter what comes at them. We must also speak true at all times, keep our promises, and honor the clan elders. We care for the weak and ill, and give shelter to our widows and orphans.”
Setting aside the poker, he clasped his hands behind his back and began pacing. “We hold councils and are allies, e’er ready to support our friends when they need us, just as we punish those men who behave badly.”
Kira frowned and reached down to stroke old Ferlie’s head. Newly washed and pleasant smelling, thanks to her insistence, her used bath water, and two somewhat reluctant kitchen lads, the great beast lay curled on the floor rushes beside her chair, snoring contentedly. Unfortunately, sweet-smelling or no, his shaggy, medieval-looking bulk, as well as the smoking, hissing flames of a nearby wall torch, only underscored the harshness of Aidan’s world. As did the solar’s thick, whitewashed walls and the eye-stinging peat-haze tingeing the air.
The discreet but there-all-the-same door to the one-holed chute garderobe tucked into a hidden corner of the room. A tiny, foul-reeking chamber that had never seen the likes of petal-soft toilet paper or spring-scented air freshener. Yet the soft, golden glow from the many beeswax candles, and the jeweled colors of the richly embroidered tapestries, lent an irresistible air of the distant and faraway.
It truly was a world so like the romantic whimsy of her dreams, yet so different, too.
A world that belonged to Aidan, not her.
Just as her world was a place Conan Dearg couldn’t reach him.
“Clan Donald’s name has e’er been a testament of greatness.” He glanced at her, his gaze heated. “I will no’ pass from history as the first to break such a noble line.”
“I know you have duties, and pride.” She looked up, not caring for the tight set of his jaw.
“They are more than duties and go deeper than pride.” He dropped to one knee before her, taking her hand with both of his. “I have responsibilities that my honor willnae allow me to turn my back on.”
She blew out a breath. “Your responsibilities won’t matter a whit if you are dead.”
To her annoyance, he squeezed her fingers and flashed one of his smug, alpha male smiles. “Then tell me again, Kee-rah, how the books say I died.”
“Exactly as I’ve already told you.” Kira shoved a lock of hair away from her face and tucked it behind her ear. “Every book I have says you died at the hands of your cousin, Conan Dearg. One, a self-published book by a man called Wee Hughie MacSporran, goes into greater detail, claiming Conan Dearg locked you in your own dungeon, leaving you to starve on a diet of salt beef and fouled water.”
“Och, lass, dinnae you see? You are fashing yourself for naught.” His alpha male smile turned triumphant, spreading across his face. He sprang to his feet, pulling her up with him. “Your books erred, though the self-published one, whate’er that means, is closer to the truth than the others. Conan Dearg did not lock me in my dungeon. It is the blackguard himself who whiles there, wasting away on salt beef and rancid water. Wee Hughie MacSporran, whoe’er he claims to be, mistook us, switching my fate with my cousin’s.”
Kira smoothed back her hair again, fighting the desperation beginning to spin inside her.
Looking bolder and more confident than ever, Aidan folded his arms. “I am no’ concerned about this Hughie man.”
He made a dismissive gesture. “It matters not. His book is wrong.”
“I’m not so sure.” Kira inhaled a tight breath, the image of Wee Hughie’s book flashing across her mind. She could still see his name and the words historian, storyteller, and keeper of tradition almost larger than the slim volume’s title. She suppressed a shudder, memories of the self-inflated tour guide-cum-author’s preening on her long-ago coach tour flooding back to her.
Never would she forget his grand camera poses in front of the Robert Bruce statue at Bannockburn and how he’d gone on and on about being directly descended from the well-loved hero king, as well as every other great name in Scottish history.
Including Clan Donald.
She winced, hearing the swellhead’s boasts as clearly as if she’d last seen him yesterday.
Too bad for her, she also remembered Mara McDougall-Douglas’s husband, Alex, claiming that Rivers of Stone: A Highlander’s Ancestral Journey was a “fine book” and that Wee Hughie MacSporran was exceptionally well-versed in Highland legends and lore.
A notion that made her stomach twist into a cold, tight knot.
Alex Douglas hadn’t struck her as man who’d give praise where it wasn’t due.
Wishing she felt otherwise, she turned to the table and poured herself a cup of the odd-tasting medieval wine, just another difference she hadn’t yet adjusted to. But wet was wet, and she needed to do something about her dry mouth before she could speak.
Draining the cup, she set it down with a clack, then turned back to face Aidan, not at all surprised to see him still wearing his smug look.
“I hate to say it,” she began, bracing herself, “but I think the book is right and you’re wrong.”
He lifted one brow. “Why would you be thinking that?”
“Because I’ve met the author.” She lifted her chin, ignoring how the cold knot inside her was drawing tighter, even starting to pulse. “He was a tour guide on my first trip to Scotland, the one I saw you on. He’s even related to you, if he wasn’t lying. Either way, I didn’t like him. He struck me as being quite full of himself, but he did seem to know a lot about Scottish history.”
Aidan humphed. “I’ll wager he was full of naught but too much Highland wind.”
“He was, as far as boasting about his illustrious ancestors,” she agreed. “A shame, because he was also filled with fascinating anecdotes about the places we visited. He’s the one who told us about Castle Wrath as our tour bus approached your cliff. If his tales hadn’t been so stirring, I might not have felt such an urge to trek out here and have a look. Had I not, we might never have met.”
She paused. “Even so, the real reason I believe his book is right is because someone I trust praised his knowledge. I stopped near Oban on my way here, at Ravenscraig Castle, and-”
“Ravenscraig?” He looked at her, his brows almost on the ceiling. “That place is a den of cross-grained MacDougall devils. They can’t be trusted farther than the length of a sword.”
“They were nice to me.” Kira bristled. No one bad-talked her friends, no matter how hunky or good in bed. Or even medieval. “Mara McDougall is American like me. She’s a friend of my family and just happened to marry a Highlander. His name is Alex, Sir Alex Douglas, and they own Ravenscraig in my time. He’s the one who gave me a copy of Wee Hughie’s book. It was in their gift shop.”
“Ah, well, that’s good to hear – a Douglas lairding it at Ravenscraig.” He folded his arms, not looking a bit remorseful. “Theirs is a fine name, one of the strongest in the land. After MacDonald, of course.”
“You’d like Alex. He reminded me of you. He has th
is air about him, almost as if he could stride right into your time and be instantly at home.” She glanced aside, surprised by a sudden rush of emotion. Images of Ravencraig’s One Cairn Village whirled across her mind, her throat thickening as she remembered the warm welcome she’d received there. “If you met Alex, you’d understand why I trust his word on Wee Hughie’s book.”
Aidan humphed again, his admiration for the great Clan Douglas clearly not going that far.
Kira sighed. “I wish I could have showed you the book, but I lost it when I time traveled. It slipped from my fingers and fell into a crack in the top of the gatehouse arch.”
“I would hear of Ameri-cains and tour buses,” he declared as if she hadn’t spoken. He helped himself to a cup of wine, then eyed her over its rim as he sipped, clearly no longer interested in discussing Wee Hughie and his book. “Are these tour buses only used by Ameri-cains and are they anything like the flying machines you told me of earlier?”
She frowned.
This conversation wasn’t running in the right direction.
Wishing she’d never let him maneuver her from modern-day books on Clan Donald to airplanes, she put back her shoulders and lifted her chin. “Tour buses are like the flying machines, but on wheels and without wings. They’re smaller and never leave the ground. And, yes, lots of American tourists use them. In the Scotland of my time, they’re called coaches.”
Aidan nodded, sagely.
“I thought as much,” he said, clearly attempting to appear knowledgeable.
“A-hem,” Tavish’s deep voice cut in, surprising them both. “Pardon the intrusion,” he said, stepping out of the shadows by the door, “but Cook is in a dither o’er the preparations for the feast to celebrate Conan Dearg’s capture. He wants your permission to dip into the better spices and-”
“If you didn’t mean to disturb, you could have knocked.” Aidan flashed a frown at the gaping door, then at his long-nosed friend. “Yon door was closed, if I recall. No’ that the like has e’er bother you.”
The lout feigned a look of innocence. “Had I known you weren’t alone, I would have called out before I entered.”