Tormented

by Jani Kay

  “No.” She raised her head and met my gaze. Unwavering, she said, “No fucking. Only talking.”

  “You’re killing me here, baby. I’d be so much better at talking after I’d tasted your pussy and unloaded inside you.”

  “God, Harrison, you’re incurable.”

  “Can I help that you make my brain go to mush and my cock hard for you? You’re so fucking sexy, baby.” I wasn’t going to pretend otherwise.

  She pushed her index finger against my chest. Her eyes were blazing. “Don’t you dare patronize me.”

  “What the hell do you mean?” I let out a weary sigh. This wasn’t going my way.

  Her voice had an edge of anger to it. “You disappear and don’t answer my calls. Then you think all you need to do is talk dirty to me and I’ll come crawling back to you. Not going to happen. That’s what I mean.”

  I grabbed her wrist. “Just so we are clear, I only say what I mean. It’s how you make me feel and since you want to talk, I’m sharing that with you. It comes from a place of honesty. I’m not trying to demean you or belittle our connection or what we had.”

  “Well then it shouldn’t be that hard to explain why you disappeared from my life without as much as a goodbye. Or is that too much honesty for you?”

  I let go of her wrist and paced the room. Would she believe me if I told her the truth?

  “Hmmm, that’s what I thought. It’s okay; I get it. The sex was awesome, I can’t deny that. But there is no way in hell I’m just going to give in to your sexual demands and be treated like nothing more than a toy.”

  I cocked an eyebrow at her. “That’s what you think?”

  She threw her hands up in the air. “What else am I supposed to think? There I was trying to get you and my father to get better acquainted, and next thing you run. If that doesn’t show me your intentions, nothing else will.”

  Grinding my teeth, I thought about my response before I answered. “I acted in your best interests, Eva. At least, that’s what I believed at the time. Now I know different.”

  “Yeah? What changed? Run out of pussies to fuck?”

  “Ouch. You’re mad at me.” I raked a hand through my hair. “Yeah, I guess you can say that, since we’re being honest here.”

  She blew out a long breath. “That’s low, Harrison, even for you.”

  “Wait a minute. Don’t jump to conclusions. What I mean is that I don’t want other women. I only want yours . . . you, Eva. Staying away from you was the fucking hardest thing I’ve done in a very long time.”

  “So then help me understand. Why did you?”

  The room closed in on me. I walked over to the window and stared out for a long moment, recalling the despair I’d felt after talking with Bill. A dull ache settled in my chest. “I’m no good for you. Your father told me as much. He made me realize that you deserve better. I thought I was doing the best thing for you.”

  “What does my father have to do with this?”

  I filled her in about my less than pleasant meeting with Bill. She deserved to know what went down and why I pulled back. I needed her to understand that my intentions, for once, were honorable.

  She listened, her eyes wide and her mouth hanging slightly open as she absorbed what I had to say.

  “But fuck if I’m letting Parker take you against your will.” I scowled. “If you really wanted him, I’d be fucking gutted . . . but I quickly pieced together what he’d done to you and trust me, the bastard is going to regret it. He’s ruined for life. He’ll never recover once I expose him for the fucking low-life fraud he is.”

  “I’m sorry; I had absolutely no idea. My father never mentioned anything to me. I guess he’s just being protective, but what he did is not okay with me. It’s such a pity, because we were slowly mending our relationship and I was beginning to forgive him for what he did to my mother.”

  “I’m sorry, Eva. I’m not trying to stir the pot. And I realize I’m nowhere near good enough for you—I’m fucked up and broken. But when I’m with you, I feel whole again. You make me want things I’ve not wanted in a long time. Is that so wrong of me?”

  She moved closer and put her palm against my heart. I covered her hand with mine and leaned forward so we stood with our foreheads touching.

  Her voice was soft and sweet when she spoke. “You deserve happiness like any other human being. And you are worthy, whether you believe it or not. You’re willing to sacrifice your life to keep us safe. That says a lot about a man—even a man who has done terrible things in the past.” She reached up on tiptoes and kissed my cheek. “Everyone deserves another chance because none of us are perfect or faultless. That includes you.”

  This woman. She blew me away with her unconditionally caring nature.

  “Thank you, sweetheart, but . . .” My voice faltered.

  “No buts. Anyone says different, they get to deal with me.”

  My hand snaked around her neck and pulled her closer. I lifted her chin so she had to look me in the eyes. “I’m going to kiss you, baby.”

  She closed her eyes and waited. I leaned down and made good on my promise. This was what I lived and breathed for.

  Kissing Eva.

  Breathing the same air she did.

  I was never letting her out of my sight again.

  Chapter 43 — Eva

  “So since I technically owe you my life, does that mean you own me? Am I yours to do with as you please?” I pulled away slightly so I could see Harrison’s handsome face.

  “I could say yes and force you to be my slave.”

  “I know. But . . .?”

  “Why do you assume there is a but?”

  I shrugged. “Because there always is.” My breathing quickened as I waited for his answer.

  “Okay, you win,” he conceded with a laugh. “I wanted to say . . . but only if you want to.”

  “Meaning?”

  “Meaning that I don’t want to own you.”

  I swallowed hard. “You don’t?”

  “No.” His finger traced slowly down the side of my face and along my jawline. “What I’d much rather have is you submitting to me because you want to. Willingly giving yourself to me. There’s a difference between me being your master because I force you to and being your master because you trust me enough to give me the control I crave.”

  The corners of my mouth twitched. “Ah, so you are admitting that you crave control?”

  “It’s in my DNA, baby. But when it comes to you, I not only crave it, I hanker after it with my entire heart and soul.”

  “Wow, that’s intense.”

  He laughed. “Have you ever known me to be anything else?”

  I thought about it for a moment before I shook my head. “No, you are a very passionate man in whatever you do. Nobody can accuse you of indifference. You have such strong convictions and emotions. It just exhausts me sometimes, trying to understand you.”

  “There is nothing I’m more passionate about than you, Eva. Not for one second does anything come even close to how I feel about you.”

  “Tell me more. I love when you’re an open book and I don’t have to try guessing what’s going on in your head.”

  “I’m changing that. You’re going to get sick of me showing you how much you mean to me.”

  “Just showing?” I needed more. I wanted the words too.

  “You mean my cock showing you how much he loves you isn’t enough?”

  “Well, that only accounts for one of your brains. I’m wondering what goes on in here.” I kissed his forehead and then the tattoo above his heart through his shirt. “And here.”

  “It should be pretty obvious, but since you can’t see how besotted I am by you, guess I’m going to have to fix that.”

  “Yeah?”

  “Oh yeah.”

  “I can’t wait to see how.”

  “There is only one way in my mind, but you already said no fucking. So I guess I’m going to have to rely on words, baby.”

  My heart ne
arly stopped. This was what I’d been waiting for.

  His hand cupped the back of my head and he stared into my eyes. For a few moments, we were completely lost in one another. Nothing else existed nor mattered. It was only us, the world fading into the background.

  The intensity of his eyes burned into my soul. “I love you, Eva, so much it hurts. I’ve tried to stay away, but I am only a man, and I need your love to heal me. You make me whole, and you make my life worth living. When I’m with you, I can relax and just be myself. You are the light that brings love into the furthest corners of my dark and damaged soul. You make me want to breathe, baby, because I love you.”

  Those were the most beautiful words I’d ever heard. I knew what it took for Harrison to say them with such genuine conviction.

  It was true. Harrison loves me.

  Reaching up and placing a palm on each cheek to frame his face, I blinked a few times to clear the watery film over my eyes. “I love you, Harrison. So, so, so much. I need you as much as you need me. Together we are two parts of a whole. If you are darkness and I am light, it means we are perfect for one another and together we are invincible.”

  His forehead was back against mine. Taking a few deep breaths, he said in a shaky voice, “I don’t deserve you, but by God I’m going to change that and become worthy. Thank you for loving me. I can’t begin to tell you what it means to hear you say those words.”

  “Well, I thought all you wanted from me was my submission and my body.”

  “I want so much more, baby. So much more.”

  His lips covered mine and he kissed me with so much passion that I wondered how we’d ever get enough of one another. He finally released my lips and pressed me against his erection with a growl. What we did to one another on a physical scale was obvious.

  I simply had to ask. “More? What do you want, Harrison?”

  “I want everything from you, Eva. Everything you have to give. Your body, your heart, your soul. Will you give it to me, baby?”

  I swallowed hard. I wanted to. So very fucking badly.

  “Yes.”

  Harrison smiled down at me, creases appearing at the corners of his eyes. “Will you marry me, Eva? Would you be willing to tame the beast and make me a better man?”

  Chapter 44 — Eva

  I didn’t hesitate, because the answer had been there for a long time already, just waiting for the question. “Yes, I’ll marry you.”

  His lips smothered mine. He kissed me deeply until I was breathless, then drew away with a smile. “But?” he drawled.

  “Who says there’s a but?”

  He grinned down at me. “According to the sexiest woman on the planet, there is always a but.”

  It was my turn to laugh. “Not this time.”

  “You’ve made me a very happy man, Eva. When we return to LA, I’m going to get a ring and propose like a gentleman. But for now, I’m happy you agreed.”

  “Harrison?” My voice was thin and slightly high-pitched.

  “Yeah, baby?”

  “Can I ask you something?”

  “Anything.”

  My breath hitched. “Is it okay if I don’t wear a big white dress? I just can’t—”

  His laugh helped the tension in my shoulders to relax. “Works for me. Neither of us need a reminder of Parker’s bad taste in couture.”

  “Are you saying I looked ugly in that dress?”

  “Baby, you could wear a sack and you’d still look gorgeous. I just want you to be yourself and feel pretty. Like my bride. That’s all.”

  I loved when Harrison was sweet. It was a side of him I could get used to. “I have another question. Do you know what happened to Miu-miu? I can’t stop worrying about her.”

  “Ryder called your father. He’s taken your dog to his place. You can stop worrying.”

  A sharp knock on the door startled me. Just as I moved to get the door, Harrison held me back. “Let me get it.”

  He checked through the keyhole before opening the door. Sofia stood in the doorway with an apologetic smile and a paper shopping bag. She handed it to Harrison and then passed him a note before turning to leave. Lunging forward, I pushed past him to stop the girl. I had to say goodbye.

  As soon as I touched her arm, Sofia swung around. Her eyes brimmed with tears. I pulled her into a hug and rubbed her back in large round circles. We stood like that for a few moments before I remembered that I was standing in a hallway wearing a thin virtually see-through robe. I held Sofia at arm’s length and mouthed the words thank you.

  Sofia smiled, and I squeezed her hand before letting her go and returning to the room. I closed the door and padded to where Harrison had already removed the clothing from the bag and laid it on the bed. He held up the note, and I saw it was from Ryder.

  “You better dress. Our time is nearly up, and I’m thinking your brother will be here sooner than we think.” He pulled me toward him and started undoing the tie around my waist. Pushing his hand away, I took a step backward.

  Icy fingers gripped my heart and squeezed until the gripping pain was all I was aware of. With my fist I rubbed small circles on my chest in an attempt to ease the discomfort.

  He doesn’t know what Nolan did to me. The drugs . . . forcing himself on me. I couldn’t bear to think about it, never mind talk about it.

  If I told him, it could change everything. This wasn’t the time or the place.

  “What’s wrong, baby?”

  I sucked in a breath, but quickly covered it by pretending to yawn. “I’m so tired after everything I’ve been through. Do you mind waiting outside while I change?”

  Harrison narrowed his eyes as he scrutinized my face. With a stern voice, he said, “Eva, is there something you’re not telling me?”

  I stiffened my back. “Why would you ask that?”

  “You’ve never been shy to be naked in front of me. You’ve agreed to marry me, but you won’t let me watch you change.” He took a step closer and grabbed hold of my arm. “Baby, did Parker hurt you? Did he lay his paws on you?”

  Like a deer caught in headlights, I didn’t know how to react. I wasn’t going to lie to Harrison, but the truth was too ugly to admit.

  “Talk to me, Eva, because right now I’m not liking what I’m reading on your face.”

  I sank onto the bed and covered my face with my hands, my shoulders slumping forward. I was just too damn tired to pretend or try to hide shit from Harrison’s trained eyes.

  “Was it one of Parker’s minions? Tell me, Eva, so I can know what happened to you.”

  With my throat tightening and my heartbeat picking up, I shook my head, unable to get any words out. How could I tell the man I’d promised to marry that Nolan had forced himself on me?

  Unprotected.

  I shuddered at the mere thought. Obviously I hadn’t taken my contraceptives since leaving my apartment so abruptly. As I laid crying afterwards, I’d done the math and realized that I was at my most fertile when Nolan had shoved his dick into me.

  That was the part I dreaded most. What would I do if Nolan’s seed had impregnated me? And how would Harrison react to it all? Maybe agreeing to marry him had been a really stupid idea.

  Harrison knelt on the floor in front of me and took both my hands in his. Fat tears splashed onto the thin cotton fabric leaving large wet blotches that stuck to my skin on my breasts and legs. He rubbed gently over the faint red marks that were still visible on my wrists.

  He knows.

  “Baby, you’re scaring me. Tell me why you’re crying.” The fright on his face was something I’d never expected to see from this tough man.

  Casting my eyes to the floor, I held my breath for a moment as I was torn between the choice of telling him everything and telling him nothing. Neither was a great option, and it was eating me alive.

  If I was going to spend the rest of my life with this man, we should start on the right footing. Truth and honesty. That part I could do. It was losing his respect that was going to ki
ll me.

  Would he still want me?

  I have so much to lose.

  “I’m just overwhelmed by everything. I can’t talk now.” At least that was the truth.

  He lifted my face to his and kissed my lips tenderly. “Whatever it is, you can tell me. I love you so much that nothing else matters.”

  I nodded, staring into his warm and caring eyes. This Harrison loved unconditionally. Maybe we stood a chance, but I wasn’t risking it. Maybe if I didn’t think about what had happened, nothing would come of it. I was clutching at straws for the sake of our happiness.

  A bang on the door, and Ryder’s deep voice reminded us our time was up. We were ready to leave this dreadful island, and I couldn’t wait to put as much distance between myself and this place as possible.

  But it was far from over. Nolan and his men, including Jones, were on the plane. How much had Savage found out about what had happened when he’d interrogated them? Was my secret safe or would Nolan use it to destroy me?

  Chapter 45 — Harrison

  Eva’s reticence to tell me what upset her so badly cut me to the quick. The flash of fear that had passed over her face when I’d mentioned Parker’s name told me all I suspected was most likely true. Even if she wouldn’t admit it, I already had the answer.

  The motherfucker had hurt my girl. I’d seen many abductions throughout the years, and it was rare that a woman wasn’t abused while being held captive. Men were filthy dogs. Given the opportunity, they abused the power they had just because they could.

  My blood boiled and rage filled me. I wanted to yank Parker’s dick off and feed it to the dogs. He was going to pay dearly, and I wouldn’t rest until justice was done.

  Ryder rapped his knuckles on the door again. “Dude, the plane is waiting. Let’s go.”

  My shoulders stiffened. I hated interruptions. “We’re on our way. I’ll bring Eva,” I yelled back.

  “Open the fucking door,” Ryder demanded.

  I let go of Eva’s wrists and went to let Ryder in. He was as protective of Eva as I was of Jade, so although it annoyed the fuck out of me, I understood exactly where he was coming from.