by Dahlia Adler
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
RIGHT OF FIRST REFUSAL
Copyright © 2016 by Dahlia Adler
Cover design: Maggie Hall
Interior formatting: Cait Greer
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any capacity without written permission by the author, except brief quotations embodied in critical articles or reviews.
ISBN-10: 0-9909168-2-0 (e-book)
ISBN-13: 978-0-9909168-2-6
Table of Contents
Title Page
Other Books by Dahlia Adler
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Acknowledgments
About the Author
Out On Good Behavior
Other books by Dahlia Adler:
The Radleigh University Series
Last Will and Testament
Right of First Refusal
Out on Good Behavior (coming soon)
The Daylight Falls Series
Behind the Scenes
Under the Lights
Just Visiting
To Lindsay, who refuses to let me give up,
and to Yoni, for a second chance when it mattered most
The stream of profanity that rings through my dorm room is made a thousand times funnier by the fact that it’s in French. Inexplicably so, since my Filipina-American former roommate is the one yelping it. It’s hard to run and help her when all I wanna do is laugh, but, it is my stuff I’m pretty sure she just dropped on her foot, so.
“You all right there, Queen B?” I slide off my bed, where I got distracted trying to decide where to store my shin guards now that I have to go back to taking up only half my room. Not sure how I used to do this back when Lizzie and I were cohabitating, but right now, it seems impossible to store my stuff in the allotted space.
“How do you have so much crap, Cait?” Lizzie calls back from where she’s buried in what used to be her closet. As of today, that closet now belongs to one Andrea Nelson, a girl I’ve never met but who’s apparently a sophomore—same as me and Lizzie—who was thrilled to get in off the Radleigh University housing waitlist. My suite was a no-brainer, given it had not one but two open spots, since Lizzie not only ditched me for an off-campus apartment, but took our best friend and suitemate, Frankie Bellisario, with her.
“I know, right?” As if on cue, Frankie pops up in the doorway, cracking a piece of gum so huge I can smell the artificial watermelon flavor from here. “You’d think I’d be the mess around here, but my room’s alllll clean and ready for Samantha What’s-her-face.”
“I’m pretty sure it’s Samara,” says Lizzie, climbing over the heap of clothing she dropped and hopping onto her old bed to nurse her foot. Such a drama queen. “But sounds like you’ll be making a great first impression.”
“Hey, I have no impression to make,” Frankie reminds us, perching on Lizzie’s old desk, which is unfortunately still piled high with my old notebooks and test papers from last semester. “These newbies are Cait’s problem.”
She grins, flipping her blue-streaked mane, and I glare at her. “Sure. Make light of the fact that you two ditched me. Bitches.”
“You were invited to join us,” says Lizzie, picking up a pair of gym shorts between her fingers and wrinkling her nose. “Though I don’t know how the hell we thought we were ever gonna have room for your stuff.”
“Ha ha.” There’s no point in rehashing the conversation. Lizzie only got the new apartment in the first place because she’d gotten custody of her little brothers when her parents were killed in an accident a few weeks into the school year. She’d relinquished custody to her godmother after a few months, but that didn’t relieve her of the apartment. Her brothers leaving meant the room they shared was now free, but my lacrosse scholarship requires me to stay in campus housing. Frankie, on the other hand, had no such ties, and is a total whore for a little outdoor space.
That leaves me, my generally absentee suitemate—a pre-med named Stamatina—and two new strangers who are likely arriving today, given classes start tomorrow and neither’s shown up yet.
God, I hope they don’t suck.
“You need to either throw some of this shit out,” says Lizzie, holding up a handful of…I’m actually not sure what, “or ship it back to your Mom’s, because that new girl is gonna drown in here.”
I sigh and join Lizzie in the closet, and we spend the next half hour splitting my stuff up by playing “Fuck/Marry/Kill.”
“Definitely marry that sequin top,” Frankie says authoritatively, blowing a bubble. “I love that thing.”
“That’s because it’s yours.” Lizzie plucks it off the pile and tosses it at her. “Guess you were only actually fucking it.”
I snort with laughter at that, at least until both Lizzie and Frankie declare that I need to Kill my favorite Celtics T-shirt.
“Are you kidding me?” I hug it to my chest and inhale, somehow expecting it to carry the scent of the games I used to go to with my dad and older brother, a billion years pre-divorce. But it doesn’t smell like hot dogs or beer, just the dust it’s been gathering for months. “No. This stays.”
“There is no way that thing fits you, you Amazon,” says Lizzie. “It’s at least two sizes too small. How many years pre-growth spurt is that thing, anyway?”
“The shirt stays!”
“I think she wants to fuck the shirt,” Frankie stage-whispers to Lizzie.
“Are you kidding? Did you hear that determination in her voice? That’s marriage, Frank. Cait is going to marry that shirt. And we are going to wear some hot-as-fuck co-maid of honor dresses. It’ll be glorious.”
“Does this mean she’s gonna finally get some ass?” Frankie gasps. “Hell, I’ll wear a gown made out of that nasty-ass shirt if it does.”
“Fuck you both,” I sing-song, snapping the shirt at Frankie’s ass. She cracks up and whips me back with the sequined thing, and in no more than ten seconds, we’ve spread out in an all-out war, with my clothing as the weapons. I nearly twist my ankle on my desk chair dodging the wrath of the button-down Lizzie’s wielding—a shirt I’m pretty sure I’ve worn exactly zero times in the year and a half I’ve been at Radleigh—but quickly recover and nail her on the leg with my Celtic Pride.
We’re having so much fun being back together like this, just the three of us, that we’re all startled as hell when an unfamiliar fourth voice cuts in.
“Um, am I in the right place?”
Immediately, I toss the shirt onto my bed and dust my hands off on my sweats. “Andrea?”
“Andi,” she says quickly. “Are you Caitlin?”
“Cait.” She looks so terrified of the three of us, I almost laugh again, but I’m pretty sure la
ughing in your roommate’s face on her first day in a new room isn’t considered polite. “This is Lizzie and Frankie. They used to live here. They don’t anymore.”
“Oh.” She glances at her new bed and desk, both of which are still piled high with my crap. “Um, am I…I mean, are these…?”
“Right, sorry!” I start snatching the piles and tossing them onto my own bed and desk, feeling a little like an asshole now. “They were just helping me clear space for you.”
She glances from closet to closet, both of which are obviously busting at the seams with my stuff. “Uh huh.”
Frankie snort-laughs, and then Lizzie’s phone pings with a text. “Ooh, it’s Connor. We’re grabbing dinner at the Mexican place that opened up over break. You guys wanna join?”
I’m kinda desperate to say yes—I’m sick of the inside of these walls, and I’m starving—but I need to clean this place up, and leaving Andi alone on her first day seems like kind of a dick move. I open my mouth to tell them to go on ahead, when another new voice—this one much deeper and decidedly male—floats into the room. “Andi, which one is it?”
“On the right!” she calls over her shoulder.
A moment later, the source of the voice steps into the doorway, and any words that might’ve formed in my brain disintegrate completely. Just…vaporize into nothing.
My roommate may be new to me, but her boyfriend isn’t.
In fact, I know Lawrence Mason quite well. Or at least I did when we were teenagers at athletic camp.
But I left him behind—along with my virginity. And trust me when I say I expected to see the former again about as realistically as the latter.
Holy. Shit.
“Mexican sounds perfect,” I squeak back to Lizzie. “Let’s go.” Before anyone can say another word, I’m out of the suite like a bat out of hell.
I can always pick up shoes from Lizzie’s on the way.
• • •
“What the hell was that?” Lizzie demands as soon as we’re all seated. “I wish you would’ve seen that poor girl’s face when you bolted out of there.”
“Not to mention the guy’s!” Frankie laughs. “Christ, I thought he was gonna pass out from, like, proximity to your insanity.”
“I said I’d explain later,” I mutter, mentally begging a waitress to come over so I can hide my burning face in a menu. As the member of our trio—well, quartet, I guess, now that Lizzie’s boyfriend Connor’s a permanent fixture—who doesn’t thrive on drama, I’m not enjoying this nearly as much as they are. At least Connor has the grace not to ask what the hell we’re all talking about.
“Yeah, and it’s later,” says Lizzie. “So spill.”
“You’d think you’d wanna spend more time around that guy,” Frankie adds. “He was pretty hot, no? I mean, taken, obviously, but…” She whistles. Badly.
A waiter does indeed come over then to distribute menus and drop off a basket of tortilla chips, but it doesn’t distract anyone for a second. Not even when Connor pointedly says, “Hey, will you look at how many kinds of burritos there are on the menu that have nothing to do with harassing Cait about her private life!”
Connor may be twenty-freaking-five and waaaay too old to be dating my best friend— especially considering he used to be her TA—but right now, he’s my favorite person at this table.
“Connor,” says Lizzie, squeezing his hand on the table. “You don’t understand. Cait never has drama. Cait’s favorite thing in life is giving us shit for our drama. I basically need whatever information she’s withholding in order to live. And I need to live in order for you to get laid tonight, so, take that into consideration.”
Connor pauses, nabs a chip from the basket, and takes a thoughtful bite. “So, Cait, are you gonna spill, or…?”
Men. Such traitors the second sex becomes part of the equation.
I sigh. A year and a half of living with these girls is long enough to know they won’t be shaking this anytime soon. “Fine.” I take a long sip from my water glass. “Let’s just say that wasn’t the first time I’ve met Andrea’s—Andi’s—boyfriend.”
Three pairs of eyebrows shoot up. Well, two pairs; Connor’s not quite as skilled in eyebrow acrobatics as the girls are. “Do tell.” Frankie props her chin up on her hands, dark eyes shining.
“We went to camp together, like, a billion years ago. Sports camp. He’s a basketball guy, I think.” I don’t know why I add the “I think” part. Of course Lawrence Mason is a basketball guy. At Stone Lake, he was the basketball guy. And I was the lacrosse girl. We made one hell of a power couple, as far as those things went.
“So that’s it?” Connor asks. “You know the guy from summer camp?”
“Hmm.” Now Lizzie pops a chip into her mouth with one hand, using the other to twirl a long black strand of hair around her finger. “I think she more than ‘knows’ him. I think maybe she knows him…biblically. Am I getting warmer, Caitlin?”
If I ate tortilla chips, I’d be stuffing a handful into my face right now. As it is, I really wish they’d brought some healthier foods out to snack on. Some of us are in training year round.
“Wait, what was his name again?” asks Frankie.
“Lawrence…something, I think,” Lizzie answers before I can get in a word. “I don’t remember hearing about a Lawrence, though. Do you, Frank?”
“I do not.” Frankie taps her fingers on the table in a pattern I’m guessing is a Rihanna song—they always are. “Let’s see. Cait’s prom date was definitely not a Lawrence; it was…Mike?”
“Matt,” says Lizzie, making clear I’ve told these girls way too much about my life. “And the guy from the boat was Hector—definitely not Lawrence.”
“We have heard about a guy from sports camp, though—”
“Oh my God,” I blurt. “Just stop. It’s Mase, okay? The name you’re thinking of is Mase. His last name’s Mason, and kids in camp used to call him Mase.”
Both of their mouths drop open, and suddenly, I want to crawl under the table and die. “Mase!” they say excitedly in unison. “Mase!”
“So, we know the name Mase?” Connor asks.
Lizzie smirks. “We definitely know the name Mase. Mase took Cait’s ladyflower under the stars during a very romantic evening.”
“Good job, Cait-Cait!” Frankie throws an arm around my shoulders. “I had no idea Star Boy was so hot!”
“Star Boy?” With every word out of Connor’s mouth, he sounds more and more confused, and I want to disappear that much more.
“He charmed her with his knowledge of the constellations,” Frankie says dreamily. “Man—athletic skills, brainy, and that ass! No wonder you gave it up.”
Fuck it. I grab a handful of greasy, fatty chips and stuff them in my face; I’ll run it off in laps tomorrow anyway. “I hate you guys. So much.”
“You love us and you know it.” Lizzie reaches across the table and squeezes my hand. “So that’s Mase! He is hot. And I don’t remember things ending really badly, so why’d you run out?”
“Are you kidding me? What part of ‘My new roommate is dating the guy I lost my virginity to’ sounds like I should’ve stuck around?”
“She has a point,” says Connor.
“It’s in the past!” Frankie argues. “Have a good laugh, reminisce for five minutes, done.”
“I…think that’s more your style than Cait’s, Frank,” says Lizzie. “Some people get a little more…attached.”
“Attached” is one word for it. One might also say that I didn’t get over him quite as quickly as I’d thought I would when we mutually parted with the understanding it was our last summer at camp and it’d be too hard to try to make it work.
One might say it was kinda startling to see that I found him even more attractive now, in the two seconds I saw him, than I had back then. And I’d found him quite attractive then.
One might say I suspected it would be a very, very slippery slope back into wanting him—liking him—if I spent more than
two seconds alone with him.
One might say that for all the details I’d shared with Lizzie and Frankie about my love life, the one I hadn’t was this: I’d been in love with Lawrence Mason.
And I’m pretty sure he’d been in love with me, too.
But before I can utter any of this to them—before I can even decide if I want to—the waiter reappears.
“Have you made any decisions yet?”
So far, only bad ones. Really, really bad ones.
The best thing about Mexican restaurants is that they have tequila when you desperately need it.
It’s not even ten o’clock when I get back to the dorm, but I creep in quietly anyway, hoping maybe Andi’s exhausted enough to have passed out. Or maybe I’ve really scared her off, and she’ll just spend the night at Mase’s…wherever that is. He can’t possibly go here; there’s no way I wouldn’t have seen him at some point over the past year and a half. He’s not exactly easy to miss.
I can’t even imagine what he’s doing here now, unless he’s somehow come to torture me. Tall, dark, and handsome torture. With my roommate. As if I weren’t pissed enough about losing Lizzie, now she gets replaced by—
Ugh, I can’t even think about it.
Before I can even shut the door behind me, it becomes obvious there was no point in trying to be silent; not only is Andi awake and present, but she’s sitting at the table with another girl—my new suitemate, I’m guessing.
“Hey,” I say, inwardly cringing at how awkward I sound. I have no idea how I’m gonna explain to Andi why I ran out, and now I get to make a bad impression on yet another newbie. “You must be…” I realize I’m about to say “Samantha What’s-Her-Face,” and I can’t recall any other name, so I just let the words fall off my tongue.
“Samara,” she says, her voice like honey. Her skin’s smooth and golden too—darker than my Nordic pale, exaggerated in the dead of winter, and closer to Andi’s beautiful bronze. Bronze that probably looks warm and gorgeous with Mase’s rich, deep brown. I can’t help tallying what feels like another strike against me with him, further proof that a contrast I’ve always thought was beautiful is actually just clashing.