by Paul Cleave
“Why don’t you believe me?” she asks.
“Answer the question, Sally.”
“No. I don’t know the last time I saw him. Yesterday, maybe.”
“Maybe?”
“I see everybody here all the time. I don’t even know if I saw you yesterday but I’m sure I probably did.”
He nods, accepting her answer. “Do you like fire, Sally?”
“Fire?” As confused as she was a moment ago, this question makes even less sense. “I don’t understand.”
“Fire. There was a fire tonight. That’s why your hands were swabbed. We were looking for signs of any accelerants.”
“But you didn’t find any, did you,” she says, not as a question but as a statement.
“You could have worn gloves.”
“But I didn’t set fire to anything!” she says, her voice raising.
“It was a house.”
Suddenly everything she’s seen on TV, all the cop shows and all the movies she’s watched with her dad, it all comes in handy, because right then she knows exactly what to say next. “I want a lawyer.”
Schroder leans back and sighs. “Come on, Sally. Just be honest and you won’t need one,” he says, which is something else the cops say on TV too. “How long have we known each other?”
She thinks about it. She doesn’t see the harm in answering this one without a lawyer present. “Six months.”
“You trust me?”
“Until tonight I would have, but no, not now. Not at the moment.”
He grunts, then leans forward again. “The place that burned down, it was a crime scene. It’s where Daniela Walker was killed. It was also where Lisa Houston was murdered.”
She recognizes the names: both victims of the Christchurch Carver.
“I didn’t burn the place down.”
“And you’ve never been in Detective Calhoun’s car.”
“No.”
“And we have your word for that.”
“Yes.”
“Okay. Then you’ve got nothing to worry about. No need for a lawyer.”
She knows it doesn’t work that way. “Then why do I feel so worried?”
He smiles at her, but she can’t find any warmth in it.
“Let me show you two things,” he says. He opens up the folder, revealing a plastic ziplock evidence bag sitting on top of a photograph. It has a parking ticket in it. She can’t get a clear look at the picture beneath it.
“We found this today behind Detective Calhoun’s desk. It’s quite interesting really, what we learned from it. It has his fingerprints on it. We know that, because everybody who works here has their fingerprints on file. Everybody. Even people who aren’t police. The cleaners, for example. Even Joe. Even you.”
She doesn’t know what to say, so she says nothing. She tightens her grip on her crucifix. She’s been hanging on to it since the moment she arrived here.
“The second set of fingerprints on the ticket belongs to you.”
“What does that mean?”
“In itself? Not much. It means you and Detective Calhoun each held this ticket at one point. You know, we went to the parking building this belongs to. The date on it is five months old.”
“Five months?”
“That’s right.”
Five months? A small bell starts ringing in the back of her mind. Something familiar, but what?
“We went to the parking building and we drove up each level. We weren’t sure what we were looking for. It was probably just a false lead. Only on the top we found Detective Calhoun’s car. The ticket wasn’t for that, though, because his car could only have been there for a day at the most. When he parked it there, he hit the car next to him. Left a huge scrape all the way along the side of it. We’d found his car, that was good, but it meant we had to deal with the owner of the second car. Insurance companies were going to have to get involved. No doubt the owner would be pissed off. Any idea what happened then?”
She shakes her head, too scared to speak.
“We ran the plate. Turned out the car was reported stolen five months ago. Reported one day after the time code on the parking ticket. That means the car was stolen at night, parked there, and the following day the owner went to drive to work and found out he couldn’t. So we opened up the car. Want to guess what we found in there?”
She shakes her head.
“We found a body in there.”
She gasps and tightens her grip. The corners of her crucifix puncture her skin.
“It was wrapped in plastic, and surrounded by ninety pounds of cat litter.”
“Cat litter?”
“It absorbs the smell.”
“I had nothing to do with it.”
“It seemed odd that Detective Calhoun would dump his car next to a car with a body hidden in it. Odd that we would find the ticket for that car after we’d already searched his desk. It was as though it were placed there for us to find. Odd that your fingerprints are on it. Any idea why he would park there? Any idea how this ticket showed up?”
“No,” she says, but that’s not strictly true. She does have an idea, and she doesn’t like it. Not at all.
He lifts the plastic bag away. The photograph beneath it is of the car she saw parked up the driveway of the house yesterday. The same car Joe left in.
“This is his car. You’re telling me you’ve never seen it?”
“I. . I don’t know,” she says, remembering seeing somebody walk into that house, somebody she recognized from a distance but couldn’t place.
He lifts the photograph away, and beneath it is another evidence bag. Inside it is the small pad she wrote on yesterday. It’s the address of the house where Joe went.
“Why did you write down this address?”
“Is that. . is that the house that burned down?” she asks.
“Yes, it is,” he says. “You had the address written down on a pad in your car.”
“Oh Lord,” she says-not to Detective Schroder, but to herself. She knows why the house looked familiar to her. She saw a photograph of it in the folders at Joe’s house when she flicked through them. The same day she picked up the parking ticket from beneath his bed.
“Joe,” she whispers.
“What?”
She starts to sob. It’s all starting to make sense. The folders. The wound. Joe driving the detective’s car.
“I. . I had nothing.” She chokes on a sob, can’t catch her breath, and feels like she’s going to pass out. She shakes her head, grits her teeth, and inhales loudly. Then, surrounded by more tears, she finishes her sentence. “I had nothing to do with this. Please, you must. Must believe me.”
“Then tell me, Sally. Tell me how I’ve added all of this up wrong. Tell me where I should be looking.”
So she does. She starts by telling him about the smile Joe gave her that day in the elevator two weeks ago, she tells him what a sweet guy Joe is, then starts to tell him the rest.
CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
The homework has been completed. The work carried out. Now it comes down to the sales pitch.
Melissa walks slowly across the grass toward me. My gun in her hand. She trusts me enough to meet me in a dark park at night, but not enough to come unarmed. No surprise there. Nor is there any surprise for her when I produce Detective Calhoun’s gun and point it at her.
I stand my ground and wait patiently. She stops a few feet away. She’s not smiling. Perhaps she sees no humor in the situation. Nor does she show any fear.
“Seems you can’t get enough of me,” I say, looking her up and down. She looks good.
“Does seem that way, doesn’t it? You got the money?”
I shake the plastic bag I’m carrying. “I’ve got something better than money.”
She lifts the gun to my face. “Oh?”
I hand her the plastic bag. Both of us are keeping our guns trained on the other. She quickly glances into it.
“A video camera.”
“That’s
right.”
“What’s this for?”
“You may want to watch the tape.”
“You bastard.”
“Why?”
She flings the camera back at me. “You fucking bastard.”
I start to laugh. From her abuse it’s obvious she’s figured things out.
“I’ve got copies of that tape, Melissa, and if anything should happen to me along the lines of, oh, I don’t know, anything at all, then a copy of that tape will find its way into the hands of the police.”
“You played me,” she says.
“Wasn’t difficult.”
She grunts. “You’re on that tape too, Joe.”
“Actually, I’m not. Not that it matters. If you kill me, what are the police going to do? Dig me up and arrest me?”
She stares at me silently for a few more seconds, then sighs. “It’s a stalemate then. Just as if anything happens to me, Joe-to use your phrase, oh, I don’t know, anything at all-copies of everything I know about you will make their way to those same people.”
“Sounds like a pretty good deal,” I say, and this is the best result I can hope for. It’s the result I’ve aimed for. Sure, I still want to feed her through a branch chipper, but with self-preservation in mind, it’s not the sort of thing I can do. Maybe one day if I can get my hands on the evidence she has against me, or if I ever discover I have cancer and only weeks to live.
She nods and slips the gun back into her handbag. “Well, I can’t say it’s been fun, Joe.”
“Nor can I.” I too put my gun away.
“What did you do with the cop?”
I shrug. “The usual stuff.”
Neither of us turns away. The conversation is over. The rules have been stated and we both understand them. Yet here we are, a few feet apart, neither of us able to turn our back on what’s happened. We’ve gone through so much, and for us to walk away empty-handed would be heartbreaking. It’s anticlimactic. It would be like waking up on Christmas morning and finding out everybody you know has given you the same style of socks.
The moonlight strikes her face and makes her skin look pale. Again I’m struck by how beautiful she is. If it wasn’t for the fact I wanted to take a knife and. . We both step forward into an embrace and start kissing. She’s stuffing her tongue into my throat as if the Holy Grail is down there somewhere, and I’m trying to stuff mine into hers. Our bodies grind into each other. My hands are roaming behind her back. Hers are behind mine and she’s not trying to get my gun.
I can’t understand it, and for a moment I think of Calhoun’s original description of killing Daniela Walker. One second he’d been talking to her, the next she was dead. It’s happening to me right now and I’m hardly aware of it because my body’s on automatic. Ten seconds ago I was staring at her, and now I’ve got my hands digging into her back and squashing her perfect breasts against my chest. After a few seconds we pull back and look at each other, neither of us sure what to say, neither of us sure what the hell is going on. I think she’s in as much shock as I am.
I can see hatred in her eyes, and I’m sure there must be anger in mine. . and then we’re kissing again, harder this time.
We pull back. I can’t tell if the hatred and the anger are fading away or increasing. She opens her mouth to say something, I do the same, but all we end up doing is grabbing hold of each other. We lock in a passionate embrace, our lips mashing and our tongues darting. Nothing else matters anymore, and I have no doubt that all across the world people are finding love at this exact moment. I’ve no idea what I’m finding, but I like it.
Like the week I spent in bed with my ball sac in tatters, time seems to come and go, as though I am in a place where time doesn’t really matter at all, but only events. The moon is still out and we are walking beneath it, trying to hold each other while stumbling. . where?
She takes me back to her place. She drives us there. We keep looking at each other, and every intersection, every traffic light, I keep waiting for the spell to break, but it doesn’t. Then we’re in her bedroom, and if I could think I’d be thinking she’s going to kill me. Only we’re not killing each other, instead we’re both naked and she’s lying on top of me with my testicle pressing against her, and I have no idea how much time has passed since we first kissed. I expect to feel the damp grass on my back, even though I can see her ceiling.
Is this really happening? I look up at her, and she’s got this grin on her face. It’s a similar grin to when she ripped apart my left nut, but I can’t see any pliers nearby. The hatred has gone.
Yeah, this is happening.
Time becomes muddled again as we play beneath the sheets for what feels like forever, then we’re lying side by side and staring at the ceiling. Finally I fall asleep. Saturday rolls around and starts with us being all over each other. We take a lunch break. It’s pouring with rain outside, it lands heavily on the roof and I never understood until now how the sound of rain can be romantic. It’s just like all those books I read said it’d be like. We eat cheese on toast and we don’t really talk about much, if anything really, yet there is nothing awkward about the long patches of silence, just as there is nothing awkward about the fact I’m down to one testicle because of her. She doesn’t apologize for it and I don’t tell her how annoyed I am by it. We spent the afternoon in her bed and the room gets darker as the evening sets in. The rain keeps getting heavier. The house is comfortably warm. We soak in the bathtub for an hour and now we finally do talk beyond things like are you hungry and do you like how this feels. We talk movies and books and music.
Saturday becomes Sunday and the rain eases but doesn’t disappear. I wake up and stare at Melissa and I can honestly say I feel no desire to kill her. I watch her sleep, but I’m thinking about how it would feel to tear her apart, to dig my fingers and a knife into her flesh, and deconstruct her as painfully as I can. . And I could too. . and it would be fun-but I would never hurt her.
I know what this feeling is. Watching her, knowing I could kill her at any second, I know that eventually-if not today, if not tomorrow-I am going to need to sort out my life. She wakes and smiles and wishes me good morning.
“So, Melissa, apparently you kill people,” I say, after wishing a good morning back to her.
“Apparently.”
“You any good at it?”
“Exceptionally.”
“You want to meet my mother?”
She laughs, and we end up making love. Afterward, I think back to that moment when I stood in the crippled woman’s house, looking at her fish. At the time I didn’t take any because I knew they would not fill the emptiness I felt. Did I know then what I know now? That I was in love with Melissa?
All the killings, the fantasies, and now they’ve ended and what I’ve found is love. It seems as though my life has followed the pages of a typical romance novel. I feel like a regular Romeo, and Melissa the beautiful Juliet.
I get up, get dressed, make conversation, and suddenly I am on the street, walking to my apartment, cars and pedestrians moving around me, and life is still a blur. Every now and then I’ll realize I’ve crossed a street or gone around a corner without being aware of it. The city looks pretty good on a Sunday morning. I get wet as I walk, but it doesn’t bother me. I think of my future, which is something I never really think too much about. I know that I’ll never be caught. I’m far too clever for that. In contrast to what everybody learns, in contrast to what they believe, sometimes the bad guy will get away with it. That’s just life. Live and learn.
A happy ending to a happy life. That’s what it comes down to. I was happy as Joe the Christchurch Carver, but now I’m even happier as Joe the Romeo. This crazy mixed-up world has taken it upon itself to find me true love, to find me companionship. I’ll leave my job and find something far less menial. With a cat, and with a wife-to-be, the possibilities for my future are endless. I’ve lost two fish, but I have gained something even better.
I’m at the steps to my apartmen
t building when a car screeches to a halt right next to me. I start to go for my gun, but then I see that it’s Sally driving. That’s why the car screeched-people like her are crap drivers. I can’t even imagine how somebody with her condition can have got a license, but figure it must be in the same tradition that they are given jobs-that whole forcing her kind into trolley-pushing positions. She opens the door and races around the car toward me, leaving it running. She’s puffing, as if the twenty-feet jog has taken it out of her. I have a can of cat food in my hand that I can’t even remember buying. My briefcase is God knows where. The sun is out, the breeze is warm, and for once it isn’t too hot. It’s just perfect. One moment I am alone, the next Sally is here. And she is crying.
Sighing, I put a hand on her shoulder and ask her to tell me what’s wrong.
CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
I’m worried that my neighbors will walk by and stare at me. I’m worried they might think this woman is my girlfriend. I can do much better than Sally. In fact, I already have.
“Sally? What’s wrong? Why are you here?”
“Because you live here,” she says, trying to catch her breath. I wonder where she got my address from.
“Okay. What do you want?”
She looks up and down the street, but for what I don’t know. There are only two parked cars. One’s empty. The other has two people in the front seat facing each other and talking animatedly. I figure the passenger is a hooker, and the driver a man short on cash.
“To talk. To ask you something.”
I suck in a mouthful of air and swallow it down. She’s going to cry even more when she asks her question and I have to reject her. One woman in my life is enough. Given the speed at which she pulled up, I figure she’s been busting for a while to get her feelings for me off her chest.
“Okay. What is it you want to ask?”
“I don’t want you lying to me anymore, Joe,” she says, her voice suddenly getting louder.
“What?”
“No more lies,” she says, and she adds anger to her increasing volume.
I’ve no idea where any of this is coming from, and I’m not sure what to say. I can’t figure out what she means by my lies. I didn’t even know people like her were aware when they were being lied to.