by Evelyn Glass
Panting with the effort—Daniel’s heavier than he looks—I drag him toward the storage cupboard. I prop it open with my bum and drag him inside, laying him flat against the wall. He breathes shallowly, but he’s alive. I find that I’m glad. I want to be free, but I don’t want to kill anybody. Would you, if it came to it? a voice whispers. I swallow, surprised to find I’m not sure.
I leave the storage cupboard and close it behind me. I’ll lock the cell and hope that the next guard doesn’t bother looking inside. Hope that he just assumes I’m in there, behind the locked door. Even if he doesn’t, he might waste time looking for Daniel. What if Daniel wakes up?
I shake my head, shaking away these thoughts. One step at a time, I tell myself. Think about all of it and you’ll go crazy. One step at a time!
I’m at my cell door when the elevator beeps from down the hallway.
Dammit!
If it’s one of Mr. Black’s guards, I’m screwed. I’ll be no match with a pistol against theirs. The only defense I have is that Mr. Black wants me alive, but if these men are as hardened as they seem, they’ll have no problem shooting me in the leg, the arm, somewhere non-lethal. The elevator beeps again and I realize the doors are sliding open.
I jump into my cell and close the door behind me, but not locking it. Then I go to the other side of the cell and stand with my back against the wall, staring at the door. I need to act. I can’t think. I need to fight. If I don’t get out of here, they’ll use me as bait, and Dad will die. I won’t let Dad die because of me. I will never let that happen.
Footsteps sound from down the hallway. Clip-clip-clip-clip-clip. I swallow, my mouth so dry my tongue sticks to my teeth. Fear courses through me and I wonder if this is it, the day I die. Or worse, the day one of Mr. Black’s psychopathic goons loses control and unleashes himself upon me. I imagine the man walking down the hallway, all the horrors he’s committed throughout his career, the women he’s killed, the women he’s . . . I won’t let that happen, I tell myself.
The steps are relentless.
Clip-clip-clip-clip . . .
And growing louder and faster.
Clipclipclipclipclipclipclipclip!
I steel myself, psyching myself up, though I don’t know what for, not yet. A fight? To kill a man? Maybe I will have to kill the guard. But won’t others hear the gunshot? Perhaps I could seduce him, just like I seduced Daniel? But I doubt that will work. Daniel is a boy; Mr. Black’s men are just that, men.
Screw it, I think, the footsteps outside of my cell now.
I take the gun from my waistband and aim it at the door, but I don’t dare touch the trigger. What if it goes off by mistake? A thousand traitorous thoughts pound into my head, spreading self-doubt throughout me like a poison. The gun shakes and no matter how hard I try to make it keep still, it won’t.
I have to kill him, I think.
Then the door swings open and my breath catches.
Roma, bruised and cut, but Roma nonetheless. Roma, unguarded. Roma, who betrayed me. Roma, the man I felt an explosion of emotion for and then a wrenching betrayal.
His mouth falls open when he sees me. I think I see pride in his eyes. Pride at my disarming the guard, I realize. He has the gall to be proud of me after what he’s done. It makes me sick. But despite that, when I look at him, I feel . . .
No, I tell myself. You don’t feel anything for him! You don’t!
“Felicity,” he says, voice oddly quiet. He takes a step into the cell.
“Don’t come any closer,” I breathe. “I’ll shoot. I swear to God, Roma, I’ll shoot you right in the fucking head.”
Rage, pain, heartache, and a desire to drop the gun and throw myself into his arms all war inside of me.
“You won’t shoot me,” he says, but he doesn’t sound certain.
He’s right, I think.
Without thinking, I swing the gun away from Roma and aim it at my own head.
“Maybe not,” I growl through gritted teeth. “But I won’t be used as bait. Come any closer and I’ll blow my own fucking brains out!”
Chapter Thirty
Roma
As I walk through the facility toward the elevator which leads to Felicity’s holding cell, I’m stuck in my own head. I keep thinking about Mr. Black, about whether or not he really needs me. It seems strange that a man like Mr. Black needs anybody. He’s the boss, the man in charge, and it’s always startling when the man in charge needs somebody else. But then, I reflect, the man in charge is only in charge as long there are people he can boss around. The man in charge is nothing without the men under him.
And then I think of Felicity. I’ll have to talk to her with a guard watching. I wonder if we’ll be able to speak our minds. The guards are mean bastards. If I told Felicity what I’m aching to tell her—I love her, despite the circumstances, despite everything I truly love her—he’ll probably snigger and I’ll lose my cool. Lay him out flat. And then what? It’s not like I have backup.
I’m thinking this when I get to the elevator door. The guard who stands beside the door is huge, even bigger than the rest. He has a big bushy black beard and fine black hair. He’s missing an eye and . . .
“Bear?” I hiss, when I reach him. The hair has been dyed jet-black and his face is covered with nasty scars, but it’s Bear, I’m sure of it.
He glances down the hallway. “Aye,” he says, allowing himself a small grin.
“What the . . .” I look up at him, wondering if the beating has dislodged something in my head. “How are you here?”
He watches over my shoulder as he speaks. “Mr. Black thought I died in the fire. His men were too lazy to check. But they didn’t know about my basement room. Ha, knew it would come in handy one day. Hid in that for a day and a half until the fire burnt itself out. I called some of my old contacts. Don’t make the mistake of thinking Mr. Black’s organization is as water-tight as it seems. I still have friends. Heard about the trouble you and the girl were in, and . . .”
I reach out and touch his shoulder, hardly believing any of it. “Is it really you?” I breathe. I squeeze his shoulder. It feels firm. I remember squeezing this same shoulder twenty years ago and wondering how a man could be so muscular, certain I would never grow up to be like that.
“Don’t act suspicious,” he says, his single eye roaming down the hallway. “Listen, there’s a boiler room on the northern side of the facility, just past Mr. Black’s office and up a flight of stairs. We’re on the outskirts of DC, in what looks from the outside like an abandoned warehouse. Go to the boiler room, blow the bastard up, and let me get your lady out of here.”
“But . . .”
“Roma,” he growls. He grabs me by the front of my shirt and pulls me close to his face. “I’ve successfully infiltrated Mr. Black’s base. Mr. Black, Roma. Now isn’t the time for uncertainty. Do as I say, and maybe there’s a chance for the girl to survive. Sick and tired of innocents being used like this. I can fix it. Just give me the distraction.”
“I need to see her first,” I mutter.
Bear shrugs. “Aye, if you want. Shift doesn’t change for another five or six hours anyway, and nobody’s going to bother me here.”
I press the elevator button, there’s a beep, and the elevator starts chugging toward us. I look again at Bear, awestruck that he’s here, that he’s alive.
“I was furious,” I murmur.
“Aye.” He nods, watching me. “I bet you were.”
The elevator doors open and Bear nods toward the opening. “Go and see her, but don’t take too long. Once you’ve set the explosion, I’ll get her out of here, I swear it. Let’s see any bastard dance with me on the topic.”
I hold my hand against the elevator door to stop it from closing, but I don’t get in, not yet. “Bear,” I say. “Why’d you come back? They thought you were dead. You could’ve sailed off into the goddamn sunset and lived happily ever after.”
“Why’d I come back?” Bear coughs out a laugh. He looks
strange standing there in the fatigues of one of Mr. Black’s goons, his hair dyed. The only thing which doesn’t look strange is the gun on his hip. “I came back for you, lad. You and the girl. Seems to me there’s something between you Mr. Black doesn’t deserve to steal away.”
“She knows the truth, Bear,” I sigh.
Bear flinches at that. “Well, if that’s the case, you still owe it to her to get her out of here. Even if she hates you, you owe her that much.”
He’s right, I think. But then, he was always right.
“I won’t be long,” I say. “And then I’ll go to the boiler room and . . .”
“Ka-boom,” Bear grins. “Let’s see him use the girl as bait when his security forces are chasing a pointless explosion, eh?”
I shake my head in wonderment and then step into the elevator. My heart doesn’t seem to know what to do. It beats unsteadily and I’m still half-convinced I’ve imagined it all. But when Bear turns to me and winks with his one good eye, the sensation drops away.
It’s Bear, he’s back.
Then the doors close and he’s gone from sight.
Chapter Thirty-One
Roma
“You won’t shoot me,” I say, as Felicity points the gun straight at my head.
Events are battering me, throwing me around, clawing thick nails over my skin. First Bear, my mentor, my adopted father, comes back from the dead. And then I find that Felicity has stolen a gun and knocked out the guard, probably shoved him in the cupboard at the end of the hallway. I’ve got to say, I’m proud of her for that. Damn proud. The fight in her never stops being surprising. And now Felicity, the woman I love, is pointing a pistol at my head.
I wait. Judging the distance between her and the fact that Felicity isn’t a hardened killer, I reckon I could get to her before the shot pops off, but I won’t. I won’t shock-and-awe her. I won’t cause her any more pain and stress than I already have.
Her lips tremble, her cheeks bright red. Then she swings the gun away from me and at her own head.
I let out a gasp and hold my hands out toward her.
“Maybe not,” she growls. “But I won’t be used as bait. Come any closer and I’ll blow my own fucking brains out!”
“Felicity,” I say, taking a step forward. “Don’t do this. What the hell are you doing?”
“I won’t let him use me, Roma,” she says. Her voice is suddenly firmer, more determined. That’s scarier than anything. It really sounds like she’ll pull the trigger if it comes to it.
I take baby steps forward, palms raised flat toward her in a sign of peace. “Listen to me, Felicity,” I say. “Please, just listen to me.” I’m unable to stop my voice from cracking. It’s difficult to know just how much you love somebody until you’re about to lose them, and seeing that gun pointed at her head, I realize I love her more than I ever counted on.
“Listen to you?” she spits. “Why would I do that?”
“Because I love you!” I roar, the emotion tearing through me. “Don’t you get it? I. Love. You.”
She blinks, studying me closely, as though I have just spoken a foreign language. Then the words register and she shakes her head softly. “Don’t say that,” she says. “Don’t you dare say that, Roma. Not after everything. You made me feel something for you, Roma. You made me feel something I’ve never felt before and then . . . and then . . .”
“I love you,” I repeat. “The kiss, the sex, the laughter, the closeness . . . all of it. That wasn’t a lie. The small moments we shared. Holding each other at night. I’ve never experienced any of that and when I did with you, I was glad I hadn’t before; I was glad you were the first person I ever felt truly close to. Hate me all you like, Felicity, but I love you.”
I see her conviction waver. She glances around the room, as though for an escape. But not from the facility, I realize. She needs an escape from my words. They’re hitting her closely, too close for her to handle. They’re hitting her right in the gut and she won’t be able to keep her determination iron-strong for much longer.
“You don’t love me,” she whispers.
“I do,” I shoot back without pause. “And what’s more, I think you’re falling for me.”
I step forward again, a big pace, so now I’m right up close to her, so close that I can smell the heat and sweat of her, smell the adrenaline. It’s the smell of a woman who wants to survive.
I reach forward and take the barrel of the gun in my hand, direct it to the floor where it can’t do her any harm. Then, softly, I pull it away from her. Her fingers go limp and she lets me take it. She looks up at me with trembling lips and red eyes.
“How can you say you love me after . . .”
I drop the gun on the floor, place my hands on her shoulders, and lean forward. I’m hungry for her. My body screams out for her. I never dreamed I’d need anybody before, never dreamed a hitman could need anybody. But I need her and there’s no denying it.
She looks into my face. It’s like there’s a battle being fought behind her glittering green eyes. Lust versus hate, and as I watch, lust wins.
I lean down and kiss her on the lips.
Chapter Thirty-Two
Felicity
This man was going to kill your father. This man used you as bait. This man used you!
I hear the words, loud in my mind, but even louder and more insistent is the lust whirling through my body like a tidal wave. It spreads down into my belly and out into my arms and legs, causing my toes and my fingers to tingle with lust. His body is pressed hard against mine, his pec muscles solid against my breasts. Without thinking, I reach up and grab his arms, squeeze them, feel the solidness of them. It’s an absurd way to feel, but he makes me feel safe, even now, even here.
I open my mouth, giving myself to the kiss, and Roma lets out a groan. I know he’s as lost as I am. Our tongues touch and battle, brushing against each other, sending a thousand sensations coursing around my mouth, tingling. I stand on my tiptoes and lean into him, pressing my lips harder against his. I feel our teeth click together. It’s like a switch being flipped. We’re on now and there’s no going back.
He moves his hand down my body, over my belly and between my legs. I am confused. He betrayed me. I don’t know how to feel. But my body has no such confusion. My body is awake at the touch of him. My body springs to life at the touch of him. He presses his finger against my pussy and the pleasure shoots through me in a lightning bolt, setting me ablaze. I hear myself moaning and for a moment I don’t believe that it’s me, that any of this is happening to me. I wasn’t kidnapped and I wasn’t sold and Roma didn’t buy me and we didn’t fall in love and we’re not throwing ourselves into passion in the midst of it all. But I can’t deny it. Hell, I can’t deny him.
He presses against my pussy and rubs fast, hungry. I part my legs and move up and down on his hand. The pleasure is hot as though his hand is burning. I moan louder and break off the kiss, looking up into his face. His handsome, strong face. The face of a man who knows exactly what he wants.
He betrayed you! He betrayed you!
But I don’t care, not right now, not in this moment. Right now all I care about is the feel of him, the irresistible pleasure his body offers mine.
“I love you,” he says, his blue eyes no longer veiled. I see into him and I see that he’s telling the truth. He really does love me.
I open my mouth. I know if I speak the words I won’t be able to go back. I won’t be able to stop this. I’ll give myself to him. I remind myself for the umpteenth time that he betrayed me, but it doesn’t do any good.
“I . . .”
I don’t finish the sentence. Instead, I press my lips into him again. I reach down and grab the front of his pants. He’s hard for me, so hard it’s like his cock wants to burst free from his pants. I rub it up and down and feel it twinge in my hand. His chest vibrates as though he is trying to break free from something.
I need him inside of me, I realize with a start. I don’t ju
st want it. I need it.
I yank his pants down and he does the same to me. We step back, stepping out of the crumpled-up pants, and stare at each other for a few moments. His eyes watch me closely, as though he is afraid I am going to run away from him. Doesn’t he know that I couldn’t run away from him even if I wanted to?
“Make love to me, Roma,” I whisper.