REACHING ROSE
by J.P. Grider
Reaching Rose
Published by
Fated Hearts Publishing
Copyright 2015
Edited by Sue Toth
Proofread by Indie Solutions by Murphy Rae
Cover Design by Niina Cord 2015
Cover Photography by Heather LaViola
at Heather Lyn Photos
Cover Models – Isabella Freda and Joey Roccasanta
This is a work of fiction. Any similarity to any person, place, thing, or event is purely coincidental and a result of the author’s imagination. Any references to historical events, real people, or real places are used fictitiously.
Copyright © 2015 by J.P. Grider
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ISBN: 978-0-9891614-8-0
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Epilogue
There are five words for which I hold the greatest contempt. On endless replay, a needle stuck in the same damaged groove, these words run through my mind. Each night before I fall asleep. Every morning as I wake. And every nightmarish moment in between.
Over.
And over.
And over.
Five words that scream at me in a silent room. Five words that have become my constant companion these past two months. Five words I'd never have fathomed would be my fate.
In my dreams, I am whole.
In my dreams, I am airborne. In the midst of my grand jeté.
In my dreams, no one has ripped my heart from my chest by telling me, "You will never dance again."
1
ROSE
THREE MONTHS EARLIER
"Pinch me," I tell Jordan. "Because I can't believe this is real."
"Oh. It's real. And it's happening." Both her hands land on my forearm. "And it's happening to us."
I toss my head back and laugh and scream at the same time. "Holy cow, Jordan. We're dancing on Broadway. Broadway," I exclaim in grateful disbelief.
"Broadway," she yells back at me, whirling around on her toes then gracefully transforming her joy into a perfect pirouette.
Opening day is still three weeks away, but that doesn't deter the adrenaline from rushing through my veins every time I'm up here on stage rehearsing. No. Way.
It is a literal dream come true for me to be performing in a Broadway musical. And to be working with the greatest choreographer this decade is the icing on the proverbial cake. Neil Trumondi is a genius.
"Rose," Gianna calls from behind me. "Wanna go get dinner with us?" By us, I know she means Camille, Ryan, and herself. "You too, Jordan."
I look at Jordan, who shrugs and then nods.
"Okay," I say for the both of us.
Jordan and I grab our bags from our lockers, and I swipe a makeup wipe over my face to get the sweat off. I redo my bun and wait for Jordan while she does the same.
I take out my phone to check my messages, and I see that Holly texted me four hours ago.
HOLLY: Hey, BFF. Where you been? Met this really cute guy at registration. He's in my psych class. I get the feeling Ben's wholesome and apple-pie-like, like you. Anyway, call me. Text me. Miss you.
When I start to type back how much I miss her too, Gianna comes in singing loudly, "Are we gonna go to dinner?" to the tune of "Do You Wanna Build a Snowman?" from Frozen. Not wanting to be one to make anyone wait, I slip my phone into my backpack and leave with my dancing friends to go have dinner.
***
"I'm telling you," Gianna says, inside the restaurant and sipping her diet soda slowly before she finishes her thought. "This has been the best. Week. Ever."
We all ardently agree with her. We've only been rehearsing for one solid week, but Gianna is right; this has been the most exciting week of any of our lives. Dancing in the background, along with one hundred or so other dancers, may dampen a more seasoned dancer's spirits, but to the five of us, who haven't even graduated college yet, it's a huge foot into the Broadway door. We are not off-Broadway background dancers. We are Broadway. And that is so very, very cool.
"Ready, ladies?" Sal, the waiter at Giovanni's, who is also one of our fellow dancers, asks.
"How do you do it, Sal?" Jordan asks. "How do you work fourteen-hour days and then come here and work four nights a week?"
"Got no choice. Nobody's paying my rent but me."
"You don't have a roommate, Sal?" I ask. Jordan and I share a very tiny one-room apartment. We can barely call it a studio, because it's literally one room with a small refrigerator, a microwave oven, a sink, and a toilet. We sleep on a pull-out couch, and we wash ourselves using the "kitchen" sink. Every chance we get, we shower at the dance studio. But it's all worth it to be living here in New York City for the summer and dancing on Broadway.
"I do, but it's still so goddamned expensive."
"It is," I agree. "I used up all my savings from working on my parents’ farm just to stay here for the summer."
"Thank goodness your boss treats us well," Camille says to Sal, referring to the specially-priced menu Giovanni's has for Broadway interns and background dancers.
"Cheers to that," Ryan says, lifting his glass of cheap red wine.
"'Kay," Sal says, "It's time to order."
"Ravioli for me," I say, sipping my lemon water while the rest of my new friends order. And this is when I remember that I started to text Holly and never got to finish. I make a mental note to call my best friend when I get home later. It's been almost two weeks since I said goodbye to her at school. The last week and a half have been such a whirlwind that every time I’ve thought of giving her a call or shooting her a text, something has come up and I’ve had to slip my phone into my bag. Holly is going to kill me. But she'll forgive me. She's cool like that.
"You know," Gianna says. "If the director asks me to stay on after the summer, I am so going to take it. Fuck college. I can always go back. And hey, maybe I won't have to if this Broadway thing works out."
"Shit, me too," says Ryan. "My only reason for going to college is to get more dance experience. What about you, Rose?"
"Oh...no, I have to finish college. I mean, I have to have some other type of background for when I'm too old to dance, no? I mean...we can't dance forever."
"Sure we can," Camille says.
"Rose is right," Jordan adds. "What if, God forbid, we got injured and could never dance again? We'd need something to..."
"Bite your tongue," Gianna snaps, knocking on the table to unjinx what Jordan just said.<
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"Rose, you're majoring in education, right?" Camille asks.
"Yeah. K through 8."
"That's cool. I guess teaching is as good a field as any if dancing doesn't work out," she says.
"Yeah. I was hoping to open a dance academy one day too."
"Oh my God, Rose, that's awesome. But...you mean after you make it big in New York, right?"
"Well, yeah, kind of. I mean, dancing's my life, but sometimes I think I'd like to do it on my terms as well. Like ten years from now, won't I be tired of fourteen-hour days? I also have dreams of getting married and having a family, and well, teaching school and owning a dance academy will allow me to do both. You know?"
I notice the smirks on Gianna, Camille, and Ryan's faces, but Jordan nods. She gets it. We've talked about this on the rare times we weren't dead tired and sleeping in our little room.
"I think that's a great idea," Jordan says, shooting me a wink from across the table.
"Why do you go to school in Jersey, Rose?" Camille asks.
"It's fairly close to home, and I need to be nearby in case my father's farm help calls out sick. Then he calls me to come up."
"And you just go?" Gianna asks, the disbelief and disapproval much too evident in her snide tone.
"Of course. It's a family business. I'm family," I say as a statement of fact and truth.
"What kind of farm?" Ryan asks.
"A farm farm. We raise cows and chickens and pigs. Sheep for my mother's knitting. We even have some horses."
"In Jersey?" Camille asks.
"Sure." I shrug.
Camille nods her approval. Gianna just rolls her eyes and smirks. I guess the more Gianna gets to know me, the more she realizes she doesn't like me. She must not think I'm hip enough, but I never claimed to be hip. Or fashionable. Or anything else I suppose she associates with a New York dancer. But I don't dance for the prestige. I do it because it's an extension of me. When I dance, my soul shines and my heart smiles. When I dance, the whole world disappears and I float in the darkness. Whether it's tap, jazz, ballet, or lyrical, I am immersed in nothing but the dance when I am on the dance floor. The only other thing that comes close is horseback riding. Bareback. But in the case of riding a horse, I let the horse become my soul, and he becomes the extension of me.
The jibber-jabbering at our table is lost on me for a bit while I sink into homesickness. I miss my family and my farm. I miss Holly and my friends at school. And though I love this experience I'm getting being here in New York City and on Broadway, I am looking forward to the fall when I'm back at school and back in the routine of my university classes, dance classes, and farm work. At this very moment in my life, I have everything I could ever ask for. I am happy. Content. Grateful. Life couldn't get any better than it is right now. Thank you, God, I say in my head, as I'm usually in a constant state of prayer anyway, because God is my number one friend. I talk to Him all day long. Sometimes silently. Sometimes, when I'm alone, not so silently.
My own thoughts are broken through when Sal brings our dinners. "Thank you, Sal," I say when he puts my plate of ravioli in front of me.
"You're very welcome, Miss Rose," he says with a wink. Sal is sweet. He's one of the nicer guys I dance with.
By the time all of us are finished with our dinner, it is almost ten o'clock. That means in less than eight hours, we have to be standing on that stage to begin rehearsing all over again. Normally, ten o'clock is not such a late night, but the dance schedule is so exhausting that our feet, our legs, practically our entire bodies, are on fire. So when Jordan turns the key to walk inside, both of us head right for our pull-out couch, already pulled out from this morning, and crash almost immediately.
The alarm on my phone blares in my ear at exactly 4:45am. I hit the snooze button once, like I've been doing every morning for the past week and a half, and get up at precisely 4:54am to wash myself with barely warm sink water, pull my hair into a tight bun, and brush my teeth. Breakfast for Jordan and me is a packaged coffee cake that we keep on our counter, and a latte from the corner coffee house. There's no way we skimp on our coffee in the morning.
"Here's your vanilla latte, Rose," Charlie, the barista, says as she hands me my morning lifeline.
"Thanks, Charlie. You have a good day. See ya tomorrow?"
"No. Not tomorrow. Got the day off. But I'm here on Friday."
"Great. See you then."
"Crap, Rose," Jordan says, patting her pockets. "I forgot my phone. I'm going to run back to the room real quick. Don't wait. No need for both of us to rush."
"I can wait. I'll just..."
"No. Really. Neil will get mad if we both run in late. Just go."
"You really need your phone? You can use mine."
"My mom'll have a conniption if she texts me during lunch and I don't answer. I'll be five minutes. You go on ahead."
"'Kay. If you're sure. See ya in five."
I take my latte and sip on it as I wait for the do-not-walk signal to change.
When it does, my whole life changes with it.
When it does, I'm gently, or not so gently, shoved to the side while a group of eager wage-earners hastily crosses Broadway. Because I'm not one of the pushier types, I take my time, falling in step behind the crowd. I'm running through dance steps in my mind when I hear a loud horn. Not an unusual sound, I'm learning, for the streets of Manhattan.
It's in the next second that time seems to stand still and rush by in the same instant.
A disturbing screeching sound is the last thing I hear before I feel a crushing pain along my left side.
And then I feel nothing at all before my world goes black.
2
BEN
THREE MONTHS LATER
Next stop. Rehab.
I've spent the last week in the hospital, recovering from meniscus repair surgery, not to be confused with meniscus removal surgery, because the latter, though a much easier surgery with a much quicker recovery, would have a long-term effect on my baseball career. And we do not want to mess with my baseball career. It's been my goal since the first time my uncle put a plastic bat in my hand. I was about two years old, and the minute I swung the bat and hit the huge plastic baseball, watching it fly up high through my backyard, I knew. I knew I wanted to relive that feeling over and over.
And so here I am, recovering from knee repair surgery in order to prolong my impending baseball career. The one that hasn't officially started until I've been recruited by a Major League Baseball team. But that's beside the point, because even if I'm not recruited, my goals lie in baseball anyway - as a sports psychologist.
"Benito?" my mother says in question form in her native Italian accent.
"Yeah?" I ask, staring out the window as the trees pass us by.
"Are you nervous? You quiet."
I shrug, but keep my gaze out the side window. "Not nervous, Ma. Just wish it was over with already. That's all." It's the truth. I want to get back on the field, where I belong. Not in some rehab center making strides just to walk normally again. But it is what it is. At least I should only be there for a few weeks. Coach doesn't want me to take any chances and advised me to stay in an overnight rehab for as long as possible, instead of an outpatient program, which would suit me much better.
"It will go by fast, Benito. You see," she says in her broken English.
"I know, Ma. I know."
"You got your books? I don't want you falling behind in the school." The school - her broken English at work.
"Don't worry, Ma. I'm not going to fall behind. And, yes, I have some books, but I have no classes to study for so they're just general stuff. Baseball and shit."
"Benito," she scolds. "You watcha your language. I don't like it."
"Sorry, Ma."
***
The rehabilitation center is huge. And it doesn't have that sterile hospital feeling. Rather, it has a mood not unlike that of Hunter Hill's rec center. The lobby is inviting, with its motivational framed poste
rs, modern couches, and smiling admissions clerks, one male, one female. Ma and I are greeted by the female first, who introduces herself as Angela and checks me in.
"Have a seat," Angela tells me, "and Lisa will be right in to bring you to your room."
I turn to sit, but behind me, I hear my mother ask, "Lisa? Who is Lisa? She qualified to taka-care of my Benito?"
Dropping my head in mortification, I slink over to the couch, prop up my crutches, and sit, pretending not to have anything to do with my mother, never mind that I was just at the desk with her.
"Yes, Mrs. Falco," Angela says pleasantly. "Lisa is the admissions nurse, and she is more than qualified to take care of your son." Angela looks over my mother's shoulder to wink at me.
I shake my head and laugh. Maybe Angela has experience with overbearing mothers.
"Oh. She's a nurse. That is good. Okay," my mother finishes and turns around.
"Ma? What the hell?"
"Benito. Language."
"Of course everyone here is going to be qualified. They don't hire morons, Ma." I shake my head at my well-meaning mother.
"Benito...do not you talk to me like I'm stupid."
I hang my head low again, this time out of shame. "You're right, Ma. I'm sorry." I don't mean to be impatient with my mother, but it's hard not to be embarrassed when she treats me like a ten-year-old.
Instead of taking a seat, my mother stands; too much energy in her tiny Italian body.
"Ma. Sit," I say, keeping my tone respectful and kind. "When the nurse comes to get us, we'll get up."
She shifts her head from side to side, scuffles a little with her feet, unsure whether she should stay standing or sit next to her youngest child, and then plops herself down next to me. Patting her mid-thigh, I repeat, "I am sorry, Ma. I didn't mean to talk fresh to you. Just a little nervous is all. I'm sorry."
She pats my thigh back. "It's okay, Benny. I'm nervous too. I don't like you being gone for so long."
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