Love Me Or Lose Me

by Rita Sawyer

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  Edward Capatellio, Eddie to his friends, stood outside Robert Leary’s office like he had a thousand times before. Tonight seemed different somehow. He looked around the room, trying to figure it out. The room was maybe half the size of Robert’s office. Compared to his heavy masculine furniture, the desk and cabinet out here was purely functional. It wasn’t the lack of personal items. The room felt colder without Sarah sitting behind her desk smiling up at him. He’d have to send her some flowers to brighten the place up.

  “I didn’t think she was dating anyone special.” Eddie hoped Sarah’s father didn’t know something he didn’t.

  Robert Leary shook his head, his mood taking a turn towards the serious. “She’s not dating. Period.”

  “What happened to the guy from the probate court that I’d heard asked her to dinner?” Harvey James, Robert’s number two, asked, not seeming to be bothered by the personal topic.

  Eddie hated talking about Sarah behind her back. Even though it was innocent speculation on her love life, he felt wrong. Someone needed to set her father straight. He wouldn’t mind being the one to do it, but now wasn’t the right time. Sarah may be shy, but Eddie liked to think she was like glowing embers ready to ignite into a wildfire. He wanted to be the match that struck the flame within.

  He’d been giving Sarah time to get used to him. Eddie knew he was one of her father’s most prolific clients. He always had something in the hopper, therefore Robert was usually drawing up some kind of legal form for his latest project. Still, it was getting harder to find excuses to come into his office. He didn’t need to see her father to get his opinion on the terms of his contracts. Until Sarah had come to work for her father last year, most things had been handled by phone and courier. Now he made the time to stop in, even if it was for some lame excuse like picking up copies.

  Each and every time he came into the office, he made a point of stopping by her desk for a quick visit. Eddie hoped his subtle flirting, and lately more blatant advances, had warmed her up, because he was on fire. Over the past few months, he’d had plenty of invitations that would have helped ease his desire. He happened to be a one woman man. Once he got a hold of the woman he wanted, she’d find that out first hand.

  “She turned him down flat.” Her father’s voice spoke volumes on his disappointment.

  It occurred to Eddie, even though he was the one who’d started this line of conversation, Robert should have instantly called a halt to discussing his daughter’s private affairs. Or lack thereof, with a client.

  Since Robert didn’t, Eddie decided he would. “How’s Robert Jr. doing at Harvard?”

  “Good. Why don’t we step inside for a quick drink?” He motioned to his office, Harvey nodded obviously thinking it was a good idea.

  Eddie knew there was nothing Robert liked more than to brag about his son. If it got Sarah off the hot seat, Eddie could listen for a few minutes. Besides if he stuck around for a while, she might come back. Then he could offer to walk her to her car or something. He’d prefer the something given the choice. He was about to agree when he noticed movement out of the corner of his eye. He turned his head in time to see the knob on the door behind her desk move.

  “I’ll have to take a rain check. My Aunt Harriet is supposed to be stopping over tonight.” He watched the way Robert’s shoulders lost some of their stiffness.

  “How is the old girl?” Robert held his aunt in high esteem, though Eddie wasn’t quite sure what their connection had been.

  Old girl. Robert’s use of the term had him chuckling, because his aunt was well into her sixties and Robert was right up there with her. She swore Robert would never steer him wrong. Since she was the smartest woman he knew, he had no reason to doubt her. Eddie knew she had a good business sense, which she’d used to amass a pretty good portfolio. She trusted Robert to guide her through many legal issues. So Eddie decided to give him a shot. Eddie hadn’t regretted it, but now he wondered how his business relationship with Robert would fair after he slept with his daughter.

  “Still spry as a spring chicken. She told me you two have a review coming up soon.” She’d been really animated when she’d informed him and his cousin Daniel about the meeting.

  Robert nodded with a smile, giving Eddie the impression he was really looking forward to seeing Aunt Harriet. “I’ll have to make Sarah remembers to pick up cherry Danishes and hazelnut coffee.”

  “She’s on a new vanilla chai kick. Supposed to be healthier or something. I think she’s drinking it because my mother hates the smell,” Eddie suggested. They both laughed while Harvey just stood there looking lost and waiting for Robert.

  “Well, you go on then. Tell her I said hello.” Robert patted his shoulder, and with Harvey dogging his heels, he headed back into his office.

  Eddie waited for her father to close his office door. Then he slipped quietly to the door behind her desk and wrapped his hand around the knob. With a quick twist of his wrist, he yanked the door open. Sarah stood in the darkness shrugging her way into a long leather coat. It would have taken a miracle for him not to notice that she wasn’t wearing a shirt. Not that he minded. Quite the contrary.

  All that pink skin drew his attention like a magnet. The black jacket, black skirt combo really enhanced the white lace cupping her glorious breasts. A fierce urge to touch her raged through him. Her gasp barely penetrated the erotic haze filling his brain. Not wanting anyone else to see her like this he stepped inside, closing the door behind him.

  “What are you doing?” Her breathless voice sounded so sexy he fisted his hands to keep from touching her.

  He was glad the darkness hid the obvious response of his body. “I should be asking you that.”

  She made a noise, he had no idea what it was supposed to mean. “Sarah, I need more than that.”

  “Can’t you just go away? Do me a favor and forget you ever saw me.” The plea tugged at him, but he wasn’t about give up on a chance to help her get over her shyness around him.

  I don’t think I’ll ever forget. I don’t want too. “Sorry, not a chance.”

  He heard her huff and something made a slapping noise. “Fine. Some bonehead associate decided to share his iced coffee with me. So instead of ruining my coat with the gooey mess, I took my shirt off.”

  “Makes sense. Though it doesn’t explain why you are hiding in a dark closet. Surely the ladies room would have-” He lost his train of thought when something touched his hand then thigh. “Sarah?”

  “Sorry. I’m embarrassed enough. Can we just say I was a little impulsive?”

  Impulsive. If Sarah’s stripping out of her clothes was a sign of action rather than thought, he’d have to keep her from thinking. May be he could slide past her defenses if he had her focused on something else. First, he needed to get her out of there before her father found them. Or he could pretend they were playing Seven Minutes in Heaven and kiss her. He doubted a girl from her high class upbringing had played those kinds of games as a kid. He’d love to teach her the rules.

  Taking advantage of the dark he adjusted himself, easing the tightness of his slacks. “You ready to get out of here?”

  “Yes, please.” They both moved at the same time, Sarah ended up pressed firmly against his chest.

  Her hair tickled his nose. Eddie reached out to smooth it down. His hand landed on the silky soft skin of her cheek instead.

  She gave a swift inhalation. So his touch affected her after all.

  He wanted her to feel desire, not fear. Damn it. He wished he could see her face to determine which it was. He wanted to look into her eyes and see the second she realized that he was about to kiss her.

  “We should go while your father’s tied up in his office with Harvey.” He dropped his hand. Backing away slightly, he wrapped his hand around the doorknob.

  “You’re right.” Her soft tone made him wonder if he’d hurt her feelings.

  They managed to make it out of the closet and to the elevator
in silence. He did his best to ignore the way she clutched her coat around her breasts. Knowing they were practically bare was driving him insane. She pressed the button for the parking garage.

  The doors barely slid closed before he spoke. “Sarah?”

  “Yeah.” Her eyes stayed on the floor, which for some reason pissed him off.

  He moved up behind her, gently laying his hands on her shoulders. Eddie did his best to ignore the way she stiffened under his touch. He turned her to face him. Her eyes rose only to his chest. He put his index finger under her chin tipping it up until they stared at each other. The uncertainty in those deep brown eyes of hers really got to him. Even more than her quick, witty sense of humor. He noticed her sassy smarts came through loud clear on the phone, while she was more reserved in person. Eddie wondered what it was going to take to bring that side of her out where everyone else could see it too.

  He gave her a quick smile before saying, “I just wanted to talk about before. I didn’t mean to be so…abrupt. I just didn’t think you’d like your father catching us like that.”

  “He would’ve gone off the deep end.” She returned his smile.

  He hoped her returning his smile was a good sign. “You know it might not be such a bad thing to shake him up every once in a while.” Eddie waited a few seconds before adding, “It did wonders for my parents when I told them I was going to become a house builder instead of going to college.”

  Her sudden burst of laughter made him feel like might actually be getting somewhere. “After dealing with him for the past six and a half years, you haven’t seen him in many social situations have you?”

  He shook his head.

  She laughed harder putting her hands on his chest. Her coat eased open giving him a teasing view of her ample cleavage. She caught him looking and reached for the lapels. Eddie grabbed her hands bringing them back to his chest. Time to keep her from thinking. He started to lower his head, but stopped short when he caught her nervous glance at the camera hanging in the corner. Eddie backed off with the knowledge he did the right thing.

  They stood there staring at each other, neither of them saying a word. The chime of the bell made Sarah jump, her cheeks turning a nice shade of pink. She spun around the second the doors slid open. Eddie followed her into the garage. It was well lit, and he knew it was monitored by closed circuit cameras like the elevators. Still the garage had enough dark corners to make him worry about her being there alone. She pressed a button on her key ring, which caused a set of taillights to blink a few feet up ahead.

  “Do you always park so far away?” It occurred to him she might think it was none of his business. He didn’t care he wanted to know.

  Sarah gave a light shake of her head.

  She needed to learn from the start that he wasn’t going to play guessing games. He raised a brow at her, inviting her to answer the question.

  “I was running late this morning. Normally I park much closer. This isn’t too bad though.”

  “Why?” The question was past his lips before he could stop himself.

  Between the tilt of her head and the way the corner of her mouth kicked up, it was obvious she thought it was a stupid question, yet she answered him anyway. “Because it’s safer.”

  Duh. That explained her expression. “I meant why were you running late?”

  Through her laughter, she managed to say, “Of course you did.”

  “Well?” Her stalling made him even more eager to have an answer.

  “I overslept.” Something about the way she said it made him think there was more to it than that.

  Dozens of scenarios floated through his mind. None of them were pleasant, because most of them involved her being in bed with someone else.

  “Did you have good reason to stay in bed?” If not, then when he got her there, he’d make damn sure he give her one so she never wanted to get out.

  “I wish.” He caught her faint whisper before she added in a louder voice, “My alarm clock didn’t go off.”

  He followed her to the car, keeping the rest of his thoughts bottled up tight. They rounded the huge concrete column she’d parked beside. He wasn’t about to let her drive away without making sure she knew he wanted her. He grabbed her hand tugging her into the shadows. Her gasp was smothered beneath the pressure of his lips.

  It only took a few seconds for her to stop thinking and to start kissing him back. He gave her complete control of the kiss. Her tongue touched his bottom lip timidly, and then darted away. He let her explore at her own pace. Sarah pulled back slowly ending the kiss. She stared up at him with an expression that was filled with confusion mingling with desire.

  “What’s wrong?” He slid his hand up and down her back, keeping her in the moment with him.

  She gave him a smile that didn’t even come close to reaching her eyes. “Nothing.”

  He pulled her closer, his mouth against her ear. “Sarah, I’m only going to tell you this once. Don’t ever lie to me. From here on out, we’re going to be completely honest with one another.”

  She nodded, all the stiffness in her body easing away, “Okay.”

  He eased back, doing his best to keep his building excitement out of his voice. “Now tell me what’s wrong.”

  She nibbled on her lip for a few seconds and just when he figured she wasn’t going to say anything, she said, “It wasn’t what I thought it would be.”

  Yes. Finally this could be the sign he’d been looking for. “So you’ve thought about kissing me.”

  “Yes. No!” Her cheeks turned bright red, but she kept her gaze on his. “I’ve thought about you kissing me.”

  “Is that what you really want?” He knew he was headed down a slippery slope, but she’d be worth every second of the ride.

  He backed her against the cold concrete, bracing his hands on either side of her head. Her teeth sank into that plump pink lip again, and his dick throbbed. The things he wanted her to do with that mouth were indecent. This wasn’t going any further without her say so. He refused to be pushy, so all we could do was wait for her to make up her mind.

  Sarah’s hands fisted in his shirt, jerking him towards her. “Yes, please.”

  He swooped in, taking her lips with his. Her lips parted instantly, which let him slide his tongue into her mouth. The kiss was rough and full of all the built up passion he’d held back before. He was beyond being gentle. Their tongues dueled, tasting and teasing in a primitive dance. He pressed his hips against hers, wanting her to feel what she did to him.

  His hands slid into her wavy brown hair. The silky tresses wrapped around his fingers so easily. She moaned, rocking her pelvis against his hard cock, which ached to be inside her.

  Things had gone far enough. Eddie knew he needed to end this before he tossed up her skirt and took her right there. Sarah deserved better. More importantly, he was determined to give her better. He eased away, taking her whimpering as a sign he’d given her what she wanted.

  “Better?” Eddie asked, taking her hands on the way to her car. He opened the door for her.

  “Yeah.” She let him help her into the car.

  “Good, give me a call when you’re ready to take the next step.” He closed the door and walked away, refusing to think about the major pitfalls in his plan.

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  Chapter One

  The office had been quiet for the past few hours, a little too quiet for Patsy in her current state of mind. She would rather have had the phone ringing even if it was just to distract her. At least her boss wasn’t there to drive her crazy, but she figured he’d be back from his meetings before she left for the day

  “I can’t believe it’s been over two years since I started working here.” Patsy whined to herself as she moved the tiny little dancing Christmas tree closer to the corner of her desk.

  She removed her boss’ scribbled notes from one of the files and replaced them with he
r neatly typed ones. When she was first hired on with the firm she was assigned to a woman, who the second she’d found out she was pregnant, promptly quit. Instead of letting Patsy go, the firm, which now consisted of two Certified Public Accountants, had reassigned her to Dexter Chapman. He was the new CPA joining the firm and the brother in-law of one of the partners. She was thrilled at first, but in hindsight, she should have known better than to agree to work for someone she had never met.

  He wasn’t the type of guy she’d been led to believe she would be working for. His brother-in-law had said he was a quiet man. Quiet, and brooding, and sexy as hell was what he’d turned out to be, which was just way too intriguing. Almost six feet tall and built like a brick wall, they’d forgotten to mention he had been a wrestler in college. She’d been expecting a suit and tie, not jeans and t-shirt. Okay, so most days he wore a suit jacket and a button down dress shirt over the t-shirt. His light brown hair always seemed to be windblown, and his deep brown eyes reminded her of hot cocoa. Still, his rough and ready style had her thinking all kinds of nasty thoughts. Not that she’d ever act on them. He was her boss, after all, but her desire hadn’t waned the way she’d hoped it would. Instead, it had gotten so bad that now she was ready to admit she needed to find another job.

  She needed to do it soon too, before she slipped and he found out her secret. If being Dexter’s assistant didn’t pay so well, she would have left a long time ago. So far she’d been able to keep her attraction to him hidden behind a wall of formality that at times seemed to border on disdain. It wasn’t really that hard since he always set her on edge. Not to mention the bevy of sexy, buxom blondes that had constantly paraded in and out of his office during the past few months.