by Ryan, Rachel
Jeremy
This is a god damn fucking mess. How the fuck it all went pear shaped so fucking quick I'll never know. I know I shouldn't have accused them of sneaking around behind my back, but I just have a feeling that she feels more strongly for Brody than she's admitting. I can't believe she left. The last couple of days I have wanted to call her, but I think I was just scared to face the rejection. I know I fucked up, but I just couldn't help myself. It's like I no longer had control over my body or my thoughts. I needed answers.
I'm sick to death of wondering if my girlfriend is in love with my best friend. I hate that it's coming between me and Brody. But he should have stayed out of my fucking relationship. She chose me; he should have respected that and left it the fuck alone.
As I sit at the bar downing beer after beer, I realize I need some more advice. Scrolling through the contacts on my phone I find Jo's name and connect the call.
Chapter 26
Ava
It has been five days since I left LA, I have really missed my Grandma and it has been so good to spend some time with her. I realize now though that I shouldn't have left the way I did. I should have stayed and faced the issue head on and sorted it out. I have received a few messages from Tori and Emma wanting to make sure I was ok and when I was coming home. Neither Brody nor Jeremy have messaged me though. I think they are giving me some space.
I was confused for a while about what to do and what I wanted. I really like Brody but I also really like Jeremy. They are both really great guys and they have both touched my heart in one way or another. It's taken me a while to work out what to do, I'm still not really sure if it's the right move or not. I just have to go with my instinct. I can't be afraid to take a chance my life. I need to give myself over completely to my relationships. I can't fall in love and expect to be loved in return if I'm not giving it one hundred percent.
Picking up my phone I scroll through my contacts. Finding the number I need I open up a blank text. As I stare at the screen for a few seconds I don't know what to write. What if he doesn't want me anymore? I messed this up big time by leaving and I don't know if he will forgive me.
I made a mistake. I'm sorry I shouldn't have left. I just needed space. I hate what I have done to the two of you, which was never my intention. I miss you.
Hitting the send button on my phone, my heart thumps. What if he doesn't reply? Just then my phone rings and I see his name flash across the screen. I know deep in my heart I am making the right decision for myself.
Answering the call, I softly reply.
"Hey."
"Hey. When do you come home?"
"Not for another two weeks."
"I'm on my way."
"What about your visa?"
"I'm applying for my ETA visa now. As soon as it's approved I'll be on the first flight. I miss you too."
My heart is dancing as I end the call and realize in a couple of days I will once again see the man who I think has completely stolen my heart…
…to be continued.
Look out for ‘Surrender (Relentless Soul Part 2)’ coming in July.