I let her suck me off until I couldn’t take anymore. Until my cock was hard and leaking on her tongue.
“Do you want me?” She nodded her head and went back down on my cock.
“Then tell me how you want me to take you. Show me. I won’t know if you don’t tell me baby, tell your man what you want.”
She let my cock drop from between her lips and buried her face in my neck. So shy. “I’m waiting baby, show me.” She pulled on my shoulders until she was under me.
“Why?” I looked down at her precious face, so open, and still so much fear.
“Because it makes me feel safe, like you’re standing between me and the world.”
“That’s my girl.” I took her lips in a heated kiss. Her words had gone straight to my heart and pierced me. I make her feel safe, it was enough for now.
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She kept me going all night with her greedy pussy. It was as if she was trying to make up for the days we’d missed.
After the third time I took her, neither of us were sleepy which was surprising, so we laid in bed looking out at the mountains with my arms wrapped tightly around her.
I closed my eyes for a second and must have dozed off. I felt her turn in my arms to look at me, felt her fingers trace my face softly.
I don’t know why I didn’t open my eyes, why I didn’t alert her to the fact that I was awake, but something kept me still.
“Oh Evan, if only you knew. I wish I was brave enough to say these things to you while you’re awake. Wish I wasn’t so weak all the time, so afraid of everything.”
I had to remember to breathe so she didn’t catch on that I was awake, but her words hurt me. I didn’t like the sound of loneliness in her voice. And what is it that she’s afraid of?
“I’ve always been afraid. Ever since I was a little girl. When my parents died I was all alone. I was barely older than Amber then, so little, so lost.”
“I was passed around from family to family in the foster care system because I had no real family left. I never really knew what family meant. Not until I met Richard.”
“He was like this blast of energy who swept into my life and just bowled me over. He was the first person since my parents’ deaths that made me feel like I was worth something.”
“He was kind and giving. In fact I think he first noticed me out of pity. I was a pitiful little thing back then when we met.”
“It was my first year of college and once again I was all alone. I’d won a scholarship and moved halfway across the country.”
“My natural fear kept me timid, so it was easy for others to exploit that. I never stood up for myself back then.”
“One day these girls were making fun of my clothes and he came along and stopped them. I remember standing there scared out of my mind that they were going to do something. That I might get into trouble and get thrown out.”
“After that day it seemed like I kept running into him. I think he’d asked around about me and learned that I was poor, that I didn’t have a lot.”
“I’d found a job at a local restaurant, but I couldn’t keep up with the other sorority types and the trust fund babies. Not that I wanted to, but it was hard always sticking out like a sore thumb.”
“Anyway, Richard was just always there and I guess we just fell in love with each other. When I fell pregnant he decided that we should get married.”
“We’d been together for two years then, but had only started sleeping together a few months earlier. That was one of the things I liked about him, he never rushed me into anything.”
“He knew I wasn’t ready that first year, so we spent that time getting to know each other. Anyway, I got pregnant and again I was afraid, more afraid now that there was a baby who needed me.”
“His parents didn’t agree to us getting married, but Richard insisted they’d come around. They never did, but he didn’t leave my side.”
“Those months with him were the happiest of my life. We had such hopes and dreams. He was so excited about the baby that it helped ease my fear. And then it all came crashing down.”
“Once again tragedy struck and I was left alone. Can you imagine how it felt to be pregnant and all alone in the world with nothing?”
“I knew then that I was never meant to be happy in this life. that whatever happiness I find will be fleeting. Everyone I love dies. This is why, I’m so afraid of what you make me feel.”
“What I felt for Richard was a childish love. It was soft and easy, comfortable. We never fought, never really had any disagreements.”
“He was nothing like you. You’re this huge force that takes me over and makes me want, makes me dream. And I’m so afraid Evan.”
“I’m afraid that if I let myself believe in this, that I’d lose once again. I couldn’t bear it if you died Evan. I wouldn’t want to live if that happened.”
“I’m afraid, and so I have to keep my love for you hidden. I also feel such guilt. I loved Richard with the innocence of youth, but what I feel for you is so much more.”
“Something I can’t put into words because it’s so much bigger than I am. If I love you this much, how do I know that love won’t hurt you too?”
“So I’ll keep you safe by keeping this love for you secret in my heart. Maybe one day I’ll be brave enough to share this with you.”
“Maybe one day the fear would loosen its grip and I would be free to love, because I want to so badly.”
“I see the way you are with my daughter and my heart just overflows with love. If she can’t have her father, there’s no one else I would choose to take his place but you.”
“But my fear is too strong, please forgive me for being weak.” I felt the first tear fall and my eyes flew open.
I looked down at the top of her head where it rested on my chest, still not letting her know that I was awake. My guts hurt and my heart wasn’t faring much better.
I had tears in my own eyes and I had to stiffen my resolve so as not to give myself away. I wanted to hold her but wasn’t sure I should let her know I’d heard every word.
I pretended to be coming awake with a huge yawn and stretch. “Baby you still awake?” hopefully she didn’t hear the sadness in my voice.
I rolled her onto her back and leaned over her. She’d tried to wipe the tears from her eyes but the tracks were still there and they broke my fucking heart.
I’ll forever remember every word, and use them as a guide. Somehow I’m going to help her get over her fear. Somehow I’ll free her.
I understand her now, and though I’ll always hate that there was ever someone else in her life, knowing that her love for me is stronger is all I’d ever wanted.
Knowing that she loves me as much as I love her has helped tame the green eyed monster somewhat and I felt much lighter as I looked down at her.
I trailed the backs of my fingers down her cheek and looked down at her tenderly. “You’re tired baby, too tired to take me again.”
Even as I said the words my hand went down between her thighs. Her answer was to open them wider as I took her lips.
After everything I’d just heard I wanted to take her nice and slow, but she had other ideas. “Ow!” I rubbed my lip where she bit me and grinned down at her.
“What’s that for?”
“For being such a beast earlier.” She grinned up at me. “Now show me what you got I’m hungry.”
“Huh?” I moved my fingers in and out of her. “What’s gotten into you?” Now my heart was full for another reason.
It seems that saying what she had to say out loud had released her and now I had a playful minx in my bed.
“Nothing yet.” I couldn’t hold back the laugh at her words, couldn’t resist pulling her into my chest to hold her closer. I was entirely pleased and seduced by her.
I pulled her in tight pouring all the love I felt into that one embrace. I took my fingers from her heat and licked them clean while holding her eyes with mine.
She grabbed m
y cock and stroked up and down my length. “Kiss me Evan.” She held her lips up to mine.
“Gladly.”
This kiss was more potent than all the rest. She might not be able to say the words to me, but I felt them in the way she gave into me now. I covered her body with mine and slid into her.
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We moved together in a slow sensuous dance. I could feel all of her beneath me as her pussy hugged my cock like a glove.
There were no moans of pain when I fucked my whole length into her. Her pussy was so wet I could feel her juices overflowing and running out of her.
My cock slipped and slid in and out of her much easier than it ever had, her tiny body fit perfectly against mine.
Our mouths never parted even as our hips stayed locked, held together by my cock pinning her pussy and forcing her back onto the bed.
She raised her legs and planted her feet in the mattress fucking up at me as I pounded into her and I knew I wasn’t going to last. The bed pounded into the wall as I slammed into her uncontrollably while her nails dug into my ass and her sweet cries ran out in the room.
I left her lips and sucked her nipple into my mouth, biting down hard until I felt her pussy tighten around me. Her hips sped up their pace and her movements became wilder as she neared climax.
“Tell me to cum inside you, beg me for my seed.” I wrapped my hand around her throat and pushed her head back so that her eyes were on mine.
“Yes please cum inside me.” Her words sent fire down my spine and I thrust into her harder.
“Tell me you want my son.”
I gritted the words out between my teeth as I felt my balls tighten and fill with cum. I twisted my hips at an angle and fucked into her harder and she lost it.
She flung her head from side to side as she lifted her legs up around me, pulling me in harder with her hands on my ass as I choked her.
I hit something inside her and her hips moved in a fury as her pussy walls clamped down around my cock and sucked.
Her body lifted off the bed and her legs shook as she screamed. “Tell me, say Evan give me your son.” I fucked my cock into her hard, pinning her to the bed.
“Evan give me your son.” With those words I grabbed her legs and held them up and back, spreading her open as my cock shot off inside her over and over again.
Her eyes rolled back in her head and her body trembled in the most erotic way. I slammed into her over and over, cumming deep inside her until my balls were finally drained.
I laid on top of her out of breath, feeling the tremors from both our bodies, knowing she’d just taken something from me. That I’d just shared part of my very soul with her.
“I think I just bred you.” I guess she liked the idea because her pussy flexed around my cock and squeezed. “Just in case, let’s try again.” I rolled with her until I was on my back. “Ride me.”
The rest of our time there was a blur. We spent our days working but at night I got to show her the city and all the places I found fascinating.
There was no longer an issue with men sniffing around her once word got out that the ring on her finger was put there by me.
That’s not to say that men didn’t still admire her from afar, but my stern continence and get fucked glare usually kept them at a respectable distance.
In the end the trip surpassed by earlier expectations. She was a hit both professionally and for me, personally.
The client was more than pleased with the ideas we’d come up with and plans were already underway to get started.
We’d be back and forth in the next few months overseeing things, but for now our work here was done.
Our flight back was different from the one we took there. Instead of sitting across the aisle from each other like we did then, I took her to the back where the lone bedroom was.
We spent the hours wrapped around each other. She still had yet to give me the words, but her actions spoke loud and clear.
There was no longer any doubt in my mind about her feelings for me. “So you’ll move in with me? You promised.”
I’d got her to agree to moving into our new home before the wedding but now that we were on our way home I was afraid she’d find an excuse to change her mind.
“I said I would didn’t I?” She was still flush and soft from our last round of lovemaking, my favorite. I like seeing her like this, soft and compliant.
The only way I can get her that way is after I’d taken her. Because these days she was even more stubborn than usual.
It’s as if my love for her was helping to loosen her up and I never miss an opportunity to tell her how much I love her.
My only sadness is the look that comes into her eyes whenever I say the words, the longing in her to give them back to me, and the fear that’s holding her hostage.
“Did I tell you today that I love you? No, I think we were too busy getting ready to leave and I forgot. Forgive me.” I tapped her chin and stole a kiss from her lips.
Just say it Gia, but I knew she wouldn’t, I knew that she believed in her heart that if she gave me those words she’d endanger me.
I didn’t believe it for a second, but it’s her reality and I have to respect that. I’m still holding out hope that one day I’d find the key to unlock that part of her.
“Okay then, so we’ll swing by and pick Amber up and the three of us will stay at my apartment tonight. We’ll use the weekend to move.”
“Whatever you say. I can’t wait to see her. Do you think you bought her enough stuff on this trip?” She’s been teasing me for days about that.
She had no idea that I’d accepted Amber as my daughter in my heart, there isn’t much I wouldn’t do for my kid.
So yes, whenever we were out and about these past few days, I’ve bought her anything that I thought she’d like.
I’d also spoilt her though she didn’t know it yet. She’d fallen so in love with the place that I’d secretly bought her a villa.
I won’t be telling her until our honeymoon though as I’m sure she’d kick up a fuss. But I find I like spoiling the two of them.
I like the feeling I get whenever I do something to put that special light in her eyes. I covered her tummy with my hand hoping that at least one of the times I’d taken her had resulted in pregnancy.
Though I no longer feared losing her, maybe having my child, having me next to her in marriage, would help alleviate some of her fear.
I have no plans on dying anytime soon and had already made up my mind to give up some of my riskier endeavors to as not to alarm her in the future.
I’m not sure how long it’s going to take for her to overcome the fear, or what needs to be done to help her, but whatever it is I’ll find it.
EPILOGUE
As it turns out, I didn’t have to tie her down to my bed to breed her. A few days after our return, I noticed that she was running a slight fever.
Me being the overprotective bear that I am where she’s concerned insisted on taking her to the doctor. It was there we learned that she was already pregnant with my child.
The next few months were filled with terror, joy and excitement. I was accused of being even more of an ass during this time, but it made no difference to me what anyone said or thought.
Our daughter was now in kindergarten, completely healed and healthy and each smile on her face brought my wife more and more out of her shell.
I still haven’t told her that I’d heard her that night and I don’t know if I ever will. It was enough that I knew what she felt, what was in her heart.
So all I do now is make sure I give her nothing to worry about. I spoil the two of them rotten and had a head start on spoiling this new one whether boy or girl.
I was hoping for a girl, a little angel like her sister and mother, who had the best of both of us. Of course to be contrary she was looking forward to a son.
She claimed that once she had one of each that would be it. She was delusional. I won’t be satisfied until she gave me
at least four more.
But now the closer we get to her due date, the more afraid I am. Her stomach was way too big for her small frame and the doctor had already told us that the baby was large.
I was so afraid that in her last month I refused to touch her, though she seemed hungrier for my cock than usual; figures.
Lucky for me, as soon as we learned she was pregnant I started training her ass to take my cock. Something we hadn’t tried yet, but I couldn’t wait to.
I’d promised myself not to come anywhere but deep inside her until I was sure she carried my baby, now that she did, it was time to have some fun.
And once I learned that pregnant women became somewhat inhibited in their last months of carrying, I became obsessed with the idea of fucking her ass.
Besides, the thought of not being close to her for any amount of time was unacceptable. It helped that she liked the idea.
I bought plugs and lubricants to make it easy for her to take me. Now I’ve stretched her ass open as wide and deep as her cunt.
Lately in her last month her tummy’s been getting in the way and the only way I can take her is on her side or her hands and knees.
But my fear of hurting her was keeping me out of her tight pussy, so more and more of late it’s her ass that has been getting the best of me.
We’d been married in her fourth month, just as she was starting to show, but only to me. It was only when she was naked that the proof of her pregnancy showed.
It started first in her breasts that were now fuller and more sensitive to my mouth. But then her tummy got this cute little paunch that my hands couldn’t seem to stay away from.
I spent hours over the following months playing with her growing stomach and getting to know my child.
Now he or she was ready to make an appearance and scaring the shit out of me. I sat at my desk lost in thought when my brother walked in.
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