Chapter Thirteen
Good morning…
I hope you had a good night’s rest. Here are my final thoughts on our assignment. I tried to focus on it but I couldn’t. This whole thing between us is really upsetting so I hope you can salvage something out of this mess.
Well… I guess I will see you around then.
Love James
I stare at the attachment and take a deep breath before I open it. I scan through the words and in some parts I can find something concrete he wanted to say but the most of it is an out pour of feelings and emotions. I close it and close the email too. I stare at my final thoughts and it looks much the same. The paper is due next week Thursday so I hope I will have all my bearings back by then. My parents had decided it would be a good idea if I stayed home for a couple of days. They had called the Dean and explained why I will not be attending classes and asked that the professors send all work material to me via email. I look out through the window and see nothing. It was like my life had been stolen and was now in someone else’s control. It angers me that I was giving this guy power over my life like this. I look at myself in the mirror and know that I can’t allow this fool to take over my life. I look at my watch and see that is four in the afternoon. Tonight was Fest and I had promised Nicole and Garett that I would go and I will go. Maybe I could talk to Garett and then we can make up and be friends again. I hate that things were like this between us. Nicole was trying to act like it wasn’t a big deal but I could see it was putting a lot strain on her to having to choose between us. It wasn’t fair either; not that the pressure was coming from me. A part of me is very angry with Garett for acting like a child about everything. It wasn’t right and I think I need to give him a piece of my mind when I see him or maybe not. It might just make him angrier. No I should just focus on getting things back to normal between us. I would never forgive myself if I leave for London without us being best friends again. “Hey…” I hear my aunt speaking behind me and I look over to her. She comes walking towards me and I close my laptop screen. “How are you?” She asks and I try to keep my feelings under control. “I’m okay… Tired of sitting here doing nothing.” I say and she gives me a compassionate smile. “I can’t just sit locked up like this. This guy will realize that he can’t have me and he will give up. I’m leaving for London soon and I doubt that he will be following me all the way out there” I say and get up from the bed and walk around the room. My aunt looks at me and I know she wants to tell me something but she doesn’t know how. “What is it” I say and then she looks behind her and I see the concern on her face. “What is going on with Summer… She has been acting strange lately and she barely eats” I hear the worry in my aunt’s voice and don’t know what to say. “I don’t know… Maybe she is having trouble with Peter… You know how dramatic Summer can get” I say and hope it’s enough to set my aunts heart at rest but she gets up and paces around the room. “She has been sick the last couple of mornings… She tries to hide it but I heard her a few times…” She says and my heart misses a beat. Oh shit the morning sickness. “She would tell me if she was having trouble with Peter… She always comes to me for advice, but this; this is something else… Belle… I think she is pregnant” I hear the words come out of her mouth and I don’t know how to hide my shock better. “Pregnant? Summer?” I ask knowing good and well that she is in fact pregnant. “Yes all the signs are there, but she is not saying anything” I see the worry glisten in her eyes. I feel like shit again. “Did she say anything to you Belle” She asks and I look at her wide eyed. “Why would she say anything to me? We just barely started talking again and I doubt if she would open up to me about something like that” I say and see my aunt close her eyes and put her hand on her forehead. “I just hope she is not thinking of doing something stupid” She says and shakes her head. “I will try and talk to her… See what’s up… Maybe she’s just sick over something she ate or the nerves of finals coming up… Even I’m a little nausea about it” I say and pull my shoulders up but I know my aunt is not completely convinced. “Okay babe… I don’t want her to feel like she needs to go through this alone; whatever it is.” She says and lifts her brow at me. “Just like you babe… We will find out who this guy is and we will fuck him up” She says and walks out of my room. I stand thinking about what had just happened. I need to talk to Summer and find out what is going on her mind. I open the laptop and start reading through our notes on the paper and take out the good pieces and put them one side. I think about James and I can’t shake the shitty feeling this whole thing between us was leaving in the pit of my stomach. Maybe I shouldn’t be so hard on him, but I know I can’t offer him anything either since I was leaving for London in a few weeks. Starting something and then having to say goodbye is going to be the worst thing ever. I was just getting myself in some kind of order and to now have this going on with the stalker and also having him tugging at my heart. I really didn’t need any more complications. I lay thinking about our kiss. Oh my God… I feel my nipples go hard thinking about his fingers in the hair and his lips softly stroking mine and his tongue how hard it had pressed into my mouth and taking me to him and tasting me. Oh my lady parts start throbbing. I feel his chest against my breast and then his words in my ear. I have to go…If I stay I will not be able to control myself… How his forehead rested against mine. How hard his blue heaven penetrated to the core of my deepest thoughts. I let out a rushed gasp and glance over at my phone. Should I text him… Tell him what the kiss had done to me what it meant to me? Tell him I want him to kiss me again and lose control. I close my eyes and allow the excitement to rush through my body and up into my mind. “Hey…” I hear someone’s voice above me and I try to keep my thoughts together and not let the alarm show on my face. I open my eyes slowly. “Are you okay you look like you’re about to fucking orgasm” I see Summer looking at me suspiciously. “What do I know about orgasm” I say and she rolls her eyes at me and then she smiles coyly. “So you are really going to London a virgin” She asks and sits down next to me on the bed. “You say it like I planned on being a virgin my whole life” I say and look at her hurt. “Well you never dated or ever really partied or ever really put yourself out there… So how did you think you were going to lose your virginity? Not everyone can be mother Mary you know.” She says and then she laughed. “Maybe you can ask Garett too help you out… His hangs on every word you say… I swear if he wasn’t gay he would like totally jump you” She says and I hate her for making such a shitty joke. “Stop… Okay it’s not that fucking funny” I say and she lets out a little laughing sigh. “Sure… Are you coming out to Fest with us tonight?” She asks and looks at me hard. I look at her hard too and then down to her stomach. “Your mom knows” I say and she looks at me surprised “What do you mean she knows” She asks quickly and walks to the door and closes it. “I threw the test away at the campus” She says and comes sit next to me on the bed again. “Well she doesn’t know know… But she has a suspicion Summer.” I say and she looks panicked. “The morning sickness… Shit” She says and looks at me with eyes screaming for help. “She is your mother… They are normally the first people who know when something is wrong… Just tell her Summer… She has always been there for you… I doubt that she is going to turn her back on you now” I say and take her hands. Her eyes glisten and I feel sorry for her. “I need to speak to Peter first… Tell me that I didn’t plan this or am trying to trap him” She says and for a second I feel hope returning again to the situation. “Are you going to keep it?” I ask and she looks at me with lost eyes. “I don’t know…I really don’t know Annabelle” She says and I pull her into my arms. We hear a knock on the door and I yell for the person to come in. It was Nicole. “Hey… Is everything okay? I hope I didn’t interrupt anything” She asks and stands in the door. “No we were just talking about Fest… I told Belle that she has to come out with us tonight” Summer says and smiles brightly at Nicole. “Do you think it’s a good idea…? I mean with this guy�
�s still roaming out there” She says and looks worried. I feel frustrated and get up from the bed. “You know what… Fuck this guy. He can’t control my life forever. And I doubt he would make a move with hundreds of people around us… I can’t stay locked up forever and I refuse to give this assehole power over my life anymore” I say and Nicole looks at me still not completely convinced that it’s a good idea. “So yes…I’m going to Fest” I say and shrugs at Nicole. “Okay… So I guess I will see you later then… Ethan is luckily going to be there too so we should be okay” She says and gets up and walks over to my bag. “So what are you going to wear” She ask and I remember this very cute dress I had bought on my day out with my mother.
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