"You should have everything you need here," he said. "If not, just ask Flo."
"I'll be fine," Grace replied, while taking in the surroundings. Being a corner room, it had large windows on two walls that looked out onto a scene covered in snow. From the window on the end wall, and across an expanse of snowy grounds, she saw the stables with its corral enclosed by peeled-pole fencing. The other window looked out the front wall of the lodge, where she could see hills dotted with evergreens, everything cloaked in newly-fallen snow. On the interior wall was a large-screen TV and a cabinet with DVD's, and beside the cabinet, a door opened to a bathroom. In it was a modern footed tub with a sloping back, the perfect place to sit with water up to her chin and soak, Grace decided. And after the long stressful day, that was exactly where she wanted to be.
Jack walked up to stand behind her, and said, over the top of her head, "The tub's a little high off the floor so if you want, Flo can help you get in and out for the next two weeks."
That's when it dawned on Grace that Jack told Flo she'd be there for two weeks. "I only packed for a week," she said. She wasn't protesting, just surprised Jack hadn't consulted her first. Then maybe she shouldn't be surprised at this point. Jack seemed to be a man who pretty much did things the way he wanted. Period!
"You won't need much in the way of clothes since you'll be in bed," Jack said.
"I can't sit in bed for two weeks," Grace replied. "I'll go crazy."
"Are you interested in carrying our child to full term?" Jack asked.
"I've been carrying my child for almost eight months now," Grace emphasized the my. "Of course I want to carry him to full term."
"You can word it anyway you want," Jack said, "but the baby you're carrying is half you and half me. Not mostly you and a little bit me. He's got my DNA, and there's a good chance he'll be built like me and look like me. He's not just yours, Grace. He's every bit as much mine, and you might as well get used to the idea. But I'll see about renting a motorized wheelchair so you can get around without walking."
Jack's unyielding face prompted a question that had been nagging Grace from the start. "You're not married," she said, "so why is it so important for you to have a son? Most men in your situation would be glad to get out of any responsibility, yet you're ready to give me five-hundred dollars a month to make your claim."
Jack said nothing, and when the silence became awkward, Grace said, "Alright. Obviously you don't want to talk about it so forget I asked. Just curious."
"Yeah, well, don't try to figure it out," Jack said. "I'll get the rest of your stuff." He turned and walked away.
And Grace was more determined than ever to learn what was behind what she was coming to view as Jack's obsession with having a son. Not a wife. He gave no indication that she and her baby were a package deal. Jack wanted his son, and he wanted control of what happened to him. And that scared Grace more than she cared to think.
CHAPTER 3
Jack insisted that Grace stay in bed while he set up the cat's gear, which he'd done under Grace's direction… the cat bed beside Grace's bed, even though the cat was on the bed. The scratching post inside the door to the bedroom. The sky room under the window so the cat could look out. The post with the pole and feathers where the cat could swat it when she came out of the bathroom after using the litter box. The cat had taken up the whole damn bedroom. But Grace looked contented, sitting in bed while stroking the cat. Stroking Mei Ling, Jack conceded. Grace got pissed when he referred to her as the cat.
It seemed odd having a pregnant woman to fuss over again. He'd been watching Sam hovering over Susan the entire length of her pregnancy, and although it hadn't been an issue, he couldn't deny it had bothered him that Sam and Susan would be raising his son. And although he'd been resigned to it, he knew that watching his boy grow up as his nephew wouldn't fill the void. But the child Grace was carrying would. And someday, half the ranch would be his. He'd get the boy an older settled pony when he was around three so they could ride in the mountains. Before then, he'd put him in the saddle in front of him and let him hold the reins...
"Is there something you want?" Grace asked, and Jack realized he'd been staring at her stomach for an inordinate amount of time. He'd been looking for a chance to bring up the cord blood transplant. Grace's due date could be less than a month away if contractions were an indication so there was little time for her to get adjusted to the idea of flying to New Jersey to have the baby. He wouldn't hit her with it yet, just slip into it gradually. That was the key he realized, after knowing Grace for less than a day. Slip into things gradually...
"Maybe we could talk for a few minutes," he said.
Grace gave a little shrug. "If you'd like."
Jack pulled up a chair and sat facing her. "Susan and Ricky will be back in a couple of days so things will pick up," he said, starting with the obvious. Women liked to talk, and two pregnant woman would bond.
"Then Ricky's like a normal boy?" Grace asked, while her eyes moved almost imperceptibly from his eyes... down his nose... across his mouth... Imagining what their son would look like, Jack guessed. Like he was doing with Grace. But when he thought about his son, he didn't care whether he had Grace's lighter brown eyes and hair, or the Hansen darker ones. What he thought about was having a healthy, sturdy boy. Good lungs. A strong heart...
Realizing she was waiting for his response, he said, "Ricky's like a normal three-year-old after his treatments, which are steroids and transfusions. Then he gradually goes downhill until the next treatment. If he can get a cord blood transplant he'll lead a normal life, but the chance of finding a match outside the family is next to none. Siblings have the best chance, and with Sam and me being identical twins, the chance of a match from my gene pool is as good as from Sam's. But since Ricky's disorder is passed through the male line, the child Susan's carrying has no more chance of being a match than those outside the family."
Grace stared at him for a few moments, and from the pinched frown on her brow, he knew she understood and was mulling it over. Then the frown flattened, and he said, "So you're asking me to fly to New Jersey, and I'm terrified of flying."
"There's nothing to flying and there's no risk to the baby," Jack said, knowing it wasn't the time to press the issue, because everything that was happening was as new to Grace as it was to him, but not seeming able to drop the subject with time running out. "Ricky will die without a transplant, and even though there's no guarantee of a match from my son, if you don't have him at the hospital in New Jersey we'll never know. But the doctors think there's a better-than-likely chance that any child I father could be a match."
"So because of you I'm expected to fly off to New Jersey and risk going into labor on the plane because of stress from the flight and giving birth thirty-thousand feet above the ground." Grace folded her arms and glared at him, as if everything was his fault.
Which pissed the hell out of Jack. "Look," he said, "let's get one thing straight. I'm not responsible for getting you pregnant with my child. I didn't rape you, and I didn't pressure you into having sex with me. You're pregnant from no fault of mine. But that's my son you're carrying, and Susan's carrying your husband's son, and there's not a damn thing any of us can do to about it." He stood and left the room. Trying to reason with the stubborn, inflexible woman seemed pointless.
***
After storming out the of room and leaving Grace alone for the rest of the evening and the entire next day, with instructions to Flo to get her whatever she needed, Jack was back. This time with a couple of plastic shopping bags in his hands. He stood in the doorway looking in, like he didn't know what to do. Grace could make a suggestion. Go away and don't come back until she was gone. But she had something Jack wanted, and he wasn't about to go away, at least not for the next eighteen years. And Grace felt angry at being boxed in a corner. This was her child. A baby boy who'd been growing inside her for nearly eight months, and she didn't want Jack telling her what she should or shouldn't do regardi
ng him. And he could not begin to understand the magnitude of her fear of flying. Images of her last flight were emblazoned on her mind forever.
There were some redeeming qualities in the man though. He did care about the baby. But he had to understand that what he wanted he couldn't have. She would not let him direct her child's life. After knowing him for only two days, she could see him micromanaging what her son ate, who he played with, what he watched on TV, and on and on. And she'd have no control over where Jack would take him during visitation. Her divorced friends were going through that with their ex's and it was hell. And when she got down to it, Jack was like an ex. A man who'd fathered her child, but was as far removed from a man she wanted to be married to as any man could be...
"I got some things for you," Jack said. "Can I come in?"
"Sure." Grace eyed the bags, curious about what Jack might have brought, suspecting they were filled with baby things. But she already had a nursery set up at her house with everything the baby needed. What Jack had would be his way of making a kind of quasi Notice of Intent to Claim Paternity, like a check for five-hundred dollars.
Jack walked over to the bed, and Mei Ling took the opportunity to jump down and weave in and out of his legs. Jack looked annoyed but didn't try to stop Mei Ling.
"She's bonding with you," Grace explained when Jack seemed at a loss what to do, with Mei Ling sashaying in figure eights between his legs.
Jack offered one of the bags to Grace and set the other on the bed. Grace noted that they came from a chain of stores that stocked craft and hobby items.
"I picked up some stuff that might help you pass the time," Jack said.
Grace took the bag from Jack's hand, noticing that he'd scrubbed his fingernails. She also saw that he was clean shaved. And more handsome than before. Her heart gave a little annoying patter. "Thank you," she said. She pulled out a paint-by-numbers kit. The picture on the canvas board appeared to be a cat sitting on a pillow.
Jack searched in the bag and brought out a tube of paint and handed it to her. "The kit didn't come with gray," he said, his mouth curving slightly. "I thought you'd want it."
For some completely unexplainable and embarrassing reason, Grace's eyes misted over, and before she could stop them, tears welled. "This is ridiculous," she said. She set the painting kit aside so she could swipe the tears from her eyes.
"You don't have to paint it if you don't want to," Jack replied, sounding disappointed.
"That's not it," Grace said, even though it was... But it wasn't. It was Jack. He hated Mei Ling but he knew she loved the silly cat, and this was his way of dealing with it. And she was touched by his thoughtfulness. "I told you pregnant women get emotional. The painting kit's nice. I'll start the picture today." She smiled at him and said, with irony, "If it turns out okay you can hang it in your house to remind you of Mei Ling."
Jack smiled back, and this time, his lips curved up at both ends. He had a nice smile. And very... interesting lips...
"I also picked up this." Jack rummaged in the bag and pulled out a cross-stitch set. "I couldn't find a cat so I thought nursery blocks would do. You can put it in the nursery when it's finished. There's a place where you can stitch in his name when we decide."
"His name is Marc," Grace said, although she wasn't so sure now. Somehow, the name Marc didn't fit the child she imagined inside her. Already he seemed more like a Jack. Or maybe a Paul, as in Paul Bunyan. Something that would fit a very big man.
"There's time to decide," Jack said, ignoring the fact that she'd just told him the baby's name was Marc, even though she wasn't sure herself for the first time in nearly eight months.
"Thank you for the cross-stitching and the painting set," she said. "They will help pass the time."
Jack reached for the other bag. "And here's some wool and knitting needles and a book on how to knit if you don't know how. I thought you might want to knit hats or socks or little sweaters. I didn't know what colors you'd want so I got several."
Grace looked at the man. He was out of a different century. Women didn't sit around knitting clothes for their unborn children anymore. And she'd only knitted once in her life. But then, sitting in bed was already getting tedious and knitting would help pass the time. She took the book and paged through it. Maybe a blue hat to match his blue eyes...
Brown. Grace had to remember. Her baby's eyes would be brown. Brown eyes, brown hair. Maybe a yellow hat would be better. And a pair of matching socks on his little feet. Big feet, she corrected, moving her hand around on her tummy.
"You okay?" Jack asked, brows gathered in concern.
"I'm fine," Grace replied. "I was just feeling around for a foot while trying to determine what size socks to knit."
"Big," Jack said. "He'll wear size fourteen boots someday." To Grace's surprise, Jack sat on the bed and placed his palm where hers had been, and said, "I want to feel him kick again."
Grace said nothing, just sat still while Jack held his hand against her belly. Before long, she felt the flutter of a kick. And the expression on Jack's face was one of pure joy. But after a moment, he removed his hand and put his ear where his hand had been and listened. It was an odd moment, a man who'd been a stranger three days before, with his head on her belly while he listened to the heartbeat of his son. She looked at Jack's profile against her belly. He had a face that wouldn't be difficult to look at over the years. Even in his untidy state at the clinic she'd noticed him. Most women would...
"It's a strong beat," Jack said. "It's amazing. One egg, one sperm, and from that a child will grow into a man. I want to be there when you deliver."
"Oh no," Grace replied. "Just because I was forced into an embarrassing situation at the hospital doesn't mean anything close to that will happen again. I'll let you listen to the baby's heart and feel him kick, but you're not my husband, and that's as far as we go."
Jack stood and faced her. "Grow up, Grace," he said. "I'm thirty-three years old. I've seen my share of naked women. But get used to the idea that I'll be around when you give birth to our son, whether he's delivered by a midwife or a doctor."
"Not if I won't allow it," Grace snapped. "There's nothing legal establishing you as father."
"There will be by then," Jack said. "I have lab tests proving I'm the father, and I've already filed a Notice of Intent to Claim Paternity. I will be around during labor, and I will be there to help make decisions if our son has medical problems when he's born. Like I said, he's not just your son, Grace. He's mine too."
Grace glared at the man. If the welfare of her baby wasn't at stake she'd leave. But she was stuck. And the father of her baby was the most infuriating man she'd ever met. There was no in-between with him. It was his way or no way. The thought of having the man around for the next eighteen years was almost inconceivable.
She turned abruptly on the bed and reached for her robe…
And a pain shot low in her belly, doubling her over and drawing a groan from her.
"You're having contractions again," Jack said.
Grace shook her head. "Just a stitch in my stomach— Ohhh... Umm." She pressed her hands to her belly. "Maybe you'd better call the midwife."
"You need a doctor," Jack said.
"No, I need the midwife," Grace replied. "Her number's in my purse."
Jack handed Grace her handbag, and after she got the midwife's phone number and handed it to Jack, she said, "I think I'll take a nap until she gets here. It's been a long day."
Jack took the paper. "Just to set things straight, you don't have to worry about me taking advantage of you whether it's holding your hand during contractions or anything else you need. You're the mother of my son and I'll do whatever it takes to keep you healthy for him, and that's all." He gave her a little half smile. "And if he's still sitting on your bladder, I'll carry you to the bathroom every fifteen minutes if that's what it takes." He looked steadily at Grace with sincere eyes that told her he meant every word he'd just said.
And for
the first time since she'd met Jack, Grace wanted something more than just being an incubator for his son. But for the life of her, she didn't know what it was.
***
Grace awakened from her nap to hear Dorrie, the midwife, and Jack, in the hallway just outside her room, Jack relaying to Dorrie about their trip to the hospital and what the doctor said, using the same jargon the doctor had, so Dorrie knew Jack had been present during the exam. And from the way Jack talked, Dorrie would assume he'd been a part of Grace's life far longer than three days. Weeks in fact, and she'd soon set things straight.
But after the examination, Dorrie stepped into the hallway and said to Jack, "Grace needs bed rest and lots of fluids. I'm leaving some cramp bark for her. She won't like the taste so give it to her by the dropperful and follow with a chaser of orange juice whenever she has contractions. It should stop them within an hour." Then to Grace's dismay, Dorrie said to Jack, "If you want to be Grace's doula, start coming to birthing classes. Here's my business card with the address."
"What's a doula," Jack asked.
"He doesn't need to know because he's not going to be one," Grace called out.
Dorrie re-entered the room with Jack trailing behind. "You'll need someone," Dorrie said, then turned to Jack and added, "A doula's like a labor coach, usually the father. The doula reminds the mother to breathe right, and he walks with her, and helps her change positions when she's in hard labor. Come to the classes with Grace and you'll watch some movies and learn what to do."
Jack looked at the business card, and said, "I don't like the idea of Grace having the baby at home. He's a big baby. What if she needs a caesarian?"
"She shouldn't," Dorrie replied. "Obstetricians insist on having women on their backs when giving birth, but a woman in that position has trouble pushing a big baby out, but with an upright or squatting position, she can deliver a big baby without problems. If there looks to be trouble, you can take her to the hospital in McMinnville. But it's nice and quiet here, and the hospital's only twenty minutes away."
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