When we head back inside, Dwayne is long gone. I thank Brenna, but she just shrugs and says, “No problem.” Her attention seems to be on a man walking with a teenage girl who has striking red hair. The girl glances back, her eyes stopping on Brenna, and gives her a small, barely perceivable nod.
“Who’s that?” I ask as the girl turns away.
“No one.” Brenna blushes. “Look, I have shit to do. Can you make it back by yourself?”
“Uh, sure.” I adjust my pack on my shoulders, automatically checking that my gun and knives are where they should be. “I think I can make it the hundred feet back to Cellblock B.”
“Smartass,” Brenna says, giving me a friendly punch on the shoulder with more than a little force behind it. “See ya around.”
I turn to start back when I begin to get that feeling again, like I’m being watched. I hurry forward but hear heavy breathing behind me. I whirl around to find Tank a few feet away, watching me.
“Hello again,” he tells me, his eyes flicking from side to side, seeing who else is around.
My breath catches, and I back away quickly.
“Why are you following me?” I think to those papers and what Jacks told me about his sister. Adrenaline begins to flood my system, making my heart beat wildly.
“Fort Black ain’t that big,” Tank tells me, stepping forward. His eyes rest firmly on me now, roaming up and down my body.
“And it ain’t that small, either,” someone says from behind me. I turn to find the Warden walking toward us. “Don’t you have somewhere you need to be?” he asks Tank.
“Yes, boss.” Tank’s heated gaze has cooled, his tone sunken to a dull submission.
“Well, get, then,” the Warden tells him. Tank turns and goes through the door that leads to the parking garage.
When I look at the Warden, he’s scowling, but not after Tank. “Causing trouble, Amy?”
“No. I was just getting a bike.”
“You shouldn’t be out her on your own.” The Warden reaches out and grabs my elbow firmly. “Let’s return you to Jacks.”
His fingers dig into my skin, all the feigned kindness from our first meeting gone. He doesn’t even offer me the respect he seemed to hold when he visited the cell and talked to me about Jacks.
My face burns at how powerless I feel as the Warden steers me back toward the cell. Everyone gets out of our way and most call greetings to the Warden, who smiles and tips his hat.
When we reach Jacks’s cell, the Warden gives me a little shove inside. “You missing something?” Jacks looks up from his sketch and sees us. He jumps to his feet, concerned.
“No, sir. Amy just went to see about getting a bike.”
The Warden beckons Jacks closer. When Jacks is near, he says in a low tone, “You can’t let your woman just wander off like that. She could get hurt. You have to take care of your property. I thought you’d be more careful, especially after what happened to Layla.”
Jacks’s face darkens, and he looks as if he’s about to defend himself, but instead he drops his head. “Yes, sir,” he mumbles.
I glare at the Warden, but he keeps speaking to Jacks in the same, disappointed tone.
“It broke my heart when you let that little girl die, and it just about killed your father.”
Jacks’s jaw tightens. “I know. I’ll be more careful.”
He gives Jacks one last stern look, then turns to me. “All right now, see ya, little lady.” He smiles at me as if I’m a child, and walks away.
“What the hell happened to Brenna?” he asks, deflated.
“She had to go,” I snap. “She’s not my keeper. And why the hell did your uncle treat me like that?”
“Like what?”
“Like I’m your dog. Does he really believe in this ‘women as property’ crap?”
“Well, obviously,” Jacks grumbles. “He runs the place.”
“That’s sick. And you just let him talk to you like what happened to your sister was your fault.”
“I can’t help who my uncle is,” Jacks says. “Look, he’s an asshole. He’s always been a self-centered prick. What happened to Layla can’t possibly be his fault, even though he’s the big man here and should have protected her. So he blames me. He’s just scared, like everyone else here.”
“Well, why don’t you say something to put a stop to it?”
“You don’t get it, do you?” Jacks says, seething. “My uncle is in charge. He’s like a king. If you don’t do what he says, you aren’t welcome in Fort Black.”
“And you’re too scared to risk that,” I say bitterly.
Jacks stares at me; then, in a fit of frustration, he kicks the wall.
“I don’t have any power, Amy,” he says. “You think I like how things work here? I don’t. But I don’t want to die.”
“Neither do I,” I say. “But—”
“But what? I get that you fought for what was right at that other place you were at. And what happened? You ended up out there.” He gestures out the window. “And what’s more, you’re stuck here, while your sister might be dead.”
“She’s not dead!” I scream.
“Face facts. She probably is. It happens to everyone we love. That’s the world now.” His voice lacks any emotion.
“Screw you, Jacks!” Without a pause, I tear the door open and sprint down the corridor. My footsteps rattle the iron walkway in loud, bullet-like bursts.
I can hear him running after me.
“Amy!” he yells.
“What? Afraid your uncle will find out I’m not under your control?”
There’s a whoop from the cells below me, followed by catcalls. People are starting to gather in their doorways to watch.
“Get your woman, Jacks!” someone yells.
“Bitch can run!” another screams.
I fly down a stairwell, then another. I don’t even know where I’m going—I just need to run. Now I’m out of B and have shot into Cellblock A. Which is when two pairs of hands grab my arms. I look to either side of me and see shaved heads. It’s the fighters.
“Hey, I remember you,” one says, shoving me up against a wall. I deliver a swift kick to one of their shins, but the other one’s got me pinned.
“Guys,” the first one says backing away. “That’s Jacks’s girl. You don’t want to mess with that.”
I can see the hesitation on their faces. I’m about to make another escape attempt when suddenly, from behind me, I hear a voice. Brenna.
“Leave her alone, you bastards.”
The men look up. When the one to my left loosens his grip, I wrench free, then throw my elbow in the other man’s ribs.
“We was just having a little fun,” the larger of the two says, snarling. “We was just going to scare her a little . . . you ugly cow.” He adds under his breath.
Brenna just laughs. “You think I care what you say, you stupid monkey? You’re not worth my time, not now and not the ten seconds it takes me to kick your ass in the Arena.” She glares at them until they back off.
“Come on,” she says to me. I move away until we’re safely around the corner. She puts her hand in her mine.
“You’re fine,” Brenna says. “You would’ve had ’em.”
“Maybe.”
“Listen, I heard you and Jacks fighting. The whole damned place did. Not that smart, you know.”
“What?” I look at her, hurt. “I thought you of all people would understand that I hate the concept of being ‘owned.’”
“Yeah, I get it. You’re not really into playing the game. I’m not either.” She pauses. “But if you wanted to win, you could.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’ve heard you’re looking for some dude. Pam told me. Someone we’ve never heard of. Well, you ain’t gonna find him by being a pain in the ass to the only guy here who really cares about you.”
“But Jacks—”
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I can feel my face go crimson.
“Anyway. Let’s go back. I gotta rest up for the fight tomorrow.”
“Thanks, Brenna,” I say as we approach Jacks’s cell. “Seriously. For everything.”
“Forget it,” she says before we’re within earshot of Jacks. “Just remember: If you’re gonna break his heart, make sure it’s worth it.”
“I don’t plan on doing that,” I say carefully. “But I do have to see this through. I won’t be here forever, Brenna.”
“All the more reason to play the game and be careful,” she tells me. “It won’t help anyone if you’re dead.”
I nod and make my way back to the cell. Jacks looks up, and I offer a small smile. “Sorry I ran off. Again.”
He smiles back. “Sorry I said those things. It’s hard to have hope, especially in here.”
“My sister is alive. And I’m going to save her,” I say with a certainty I don’t feel.
His eyes meet mine and he nods. It doesn’t exactly inspire confidence, but it’s a start.
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CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
After two days filled with long stretches of silences and awkwardly trying to avoid each other in our tiny cell, I decide to win Jacks over by requesting a tattoo of my own. I pick one of his sketches: a small golden sun, round and bright. I like the idea of me having the sun with me always, even in the dark. Next to it is a small moon with BABY written in silver flowing letters. Baby will like it when she sees it.
He looks up from the sketch he’s working on and catches me staring at it again in the mirror, my synth-suit pulled off my shoulder, my head craning to look.
He grins. “How’s the shoulder?”
“Fine.” I shrug. I don’t want him to think that I’m weak, but it still hurts. “Maybe next time I’ll get a full sleeve, like yours.”
He holds out his arms to look at them, flexing them slightly. “I don’t know Amy, that’s pretty hardcore. . . . You sure you don’t want a cute little butterfly on your ankle or something first?”
I shake my head. Maybe at one point, if the world had stayed normal. If I had gone to college and gotten a tattoo to be a rebel. “Do I look like a butterfly kind of girl? I want a unicorn . . . or maybe those Chinese letters that people think mean serenity or peace, but really say sweet and sour chicken.”
Jacks laughs at that, deep and unexpected. “It used to happen a lot. People would come into my tattoo shop with letters in a different language, and I’d always tried to talk them out of it but . . .” He pauses, lost in thought. “Layla wanted a butterfly tattoo. She was that kind of girl. Until we got here.” He goes back to working on his sketch.
There seems to be more noise than usual coming from outside, so I walk to the window and look out. The Yard seems deserted.
“What’s going on?” I ask.
“Just the fights,” Jacks says. “I’m not interested in watching.”
A voice booms across the cell, making me jump. “Well, you’d better get interested real quick.” I turn to find the Warden staring at us, his presence making my skin crawl.
“What do you want?” Jacks asks, his voice cold.
The Warden stares him down. “I’ve got all of Fort Black at the fights. How do you think it will look if you and your girl there aren’t?”
Jacks takes a deep breath. “I’ve seen enough blood. . . .”
“It ain’t about the blood,” the Warden says loudly, talking over him. “It’s about the release. It’s about people getting a little entertainment.”
“It’s about you keeping them entertained so they don’t see how shitty their lives are,” Jacks shoots back.
The Warden just chuckles. “A little. Come on now. I need you there.”
Jacks looks to me, and the Warden whistles. “Sorry, didn’t know you needed permission from the missus.”
Jacks stands and comes to me. “Amy,” he whispers, “do you mind coming? It’s easier just to do what he wants.”
I look at him. He’s torn between standing up to his uncle and keeping the long-standing peace between them. There’s something else in his expression: shame. He doesn’t want me to think he’s a coward.
“I’ll go with you,” I say, then add, “if that’s what you want.”
Jacks nods, and we follow the Warden down the stairs and out to the Yard, turning right past Cellblock A to reach the Arena.
The fights haven’t started yet, but nearly all the seats in both sets of bleachers are filled with cheering fans. I see Dwayne up at the top with a few seats next to him and wave to him. “Here, let’s sit in the back,” I tell Jacks, pointing to the empty seats. “Unless you have to be up front?”
“No, the back is fine.” We climb the bleachers to the few free seats on the top row.
“Hey, Amy.” Dwayne grins at us. “Jacks, you’re lucky to have a girl like this.”
“I know.” Jacks smiles back half-heartedly, and I grimace. I’m not in the mood to watch people fight. But I take advantage of the crowds and feverishly scan for anyone who could be Ken.
“Want some?” Dwayne offers me a flask. “It’s not anything like that vodka you gave me, just some nasty toilet hooch, but it gets the job done.”
“Um . . . no, thanks.” I shake my head.
“Suit yourself,” he tells me with a shrug and takes a long sip.
The crowd has spilled down around the fighters’ circle. Jacks explains that only the fighters are allowed in the red circle, and usually the crowd is pretty good about giving them space.
The Warden appears in the middle of the circle and raises his arms to quiet the crowd, whose shouts turn to hushed whispers remarkably fast.
“Fort Black!” The Warden yells. “It’s been a long two weeks since the last fight, but what a show! Kid Gorilla is still recuperating, and ya’ll know Pretty Parker ain’t so pretty anymore!” The crowd goes wild, and the Warden takes off his hat and waves it in the air. He lets them scream a bit before raising his arms again.
“Are ya’ll ready?” The crowd goes crazy again, and I give Jacks a glance. He gives me an apologetic look and grabs my hand. For a moment I wish I weren’t wearing my synth-suit so I could truly feel his hand in mine.
“I hate this shit,” Jacks whispers. “My uncle keeps everyone happy with blood and fear. They don’t even care. All they want is a little distraction from their crappy lives.”
The Warden’s voice carries across the Arena. “All right, let’s get the first two fighters: Georgie and Young Dan . . . You’re up!”
Two large men with shaved heads appear from the crowd. I remember that when we helped Brenna, the man I was fighting automatically tried to grab a handful of my hair. Brenna’s shaved head makes sense now. She wouldn’t want to give away any advantage.
Both men showboat for a while, trying to work up the crowd. One flexes, while the other shouts obscenities at his opponent. The Warden takes out his gun and fires a shot into the air. The men rush each other immediately.
At first it looks like they’re boxing without gloves, dancing around each other, trading jabs and punches. Then one of the men backs up and kicks the other’s legs. The man doesn’t fall, but he stumbles into the wall of the crowd, who push him back into the center of the circle only to be kicked again. He goes down and cowers into the fetal position. The man still standing kicks him a few more times until the man on the ground shouts, “Forfeit!” The crowd erupts in cheers.
“Is it over?” I ask.
“Yeah. Someone has to give up or be knocked unconscious.”
The winner leaves the circle, pushing his way through the crowd, while someone helps the loser to his feet. Two more fighters emerge from the crowd and take their places in the red circle.
“Look, it’s Brenna,” I say. I’m excited, despite myself. She also has on baggy shorts, along with a s
ports bra. She jumps up and down, punching the air. She looks tough, a real threat. Her spinal column tattoo only heightens the effect, running from her neck down her back and disappearing into her shorts. It makes her look like a total badass.
“Want to make a bet?” Jacks asks, who seems to have perked up.
“Bet against Brenna? You’re crazy.” I look over Dwayne. “He knows better.”
“That’s right. I learned my lesson last time.” Dwayne’s eyes are glued on the Arena.
The Warden again stands in the circle. “And now we have a crowd favorite . . . Beautiful Brenna!” Half the crowd cheers while the other half boos, but Brenna puts her pointer finger in the air to show she’s number one. “And Beautiful Brenna will be fighting . . . Charlie Boy Brandt!” The man she’s fighting is taller than her by a good six inches, but Brenna is at least as muscular.
After a few more minutes of riling up the crowd, the Warden shoots his gun and backs away. At first the fighters circle around the ring. Brenna goes in for the first punch and is knocked down. I stand, concerned, but she gets up quickly, bouncing back into a boxing stance.
I sit and look at Jacks. “She’ll be fine,” he assures me.
Brenna moves in again, this time more carefully. The man has a longer wingspan and hits her twice in the face. I hold my breath, but when the man, cocky now, steps in for another blow, Brenna drops low and drives a punch into his crotch. He folds over and she springs up, connecting her knee with his face. He crumples to the ground.
“Anything goes,” I whisper, shaking my head as Brenna raises her arms in victory.
“I love that girl!” Dwayne jumps up to cheer on Brenna.
I stand up to cheer for her too, amazed at how desensitized to violence I’ve become. Maybe because the fights in the Arena are very like the fights I had to participate in during Guardian training. I see Brenna make her way through the crowd, pausing at the girl with red hair for just a moment before moving on.
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