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by John Norman


  “Master did not forget me,” I said.

  “No,” he said.

  I was pleased to see that he was folding the five blades of the slave whip about the staff, which might easily accommodate a two-handed grip.

  “I think Master cares for me,” I said.

  “Do not be foolish,” he said.

  “I understand that Master finds me of interest,” I said.

  “Of slave interest,” he said.

  “Perhaps a slave might be freed,” I suggested.

  “I am not a fool,” he said.

  There is a saying, of course, that only a fool frees a slave girl. I wonder if it is not true. What man truly, honestly, does not want a slave?

  “Perhaps Master finds me of companion interest,” I said.

  “You are a barbarian,” he said.

  “Even so,” I said.

  He walked about me, a bit, and then, again, stood before me. “You are nicely marked, and collared,” he said.

  “Will you not free me?” I asked.

  “No,” he said.

  I uneasily noted that he was slowly, thoughtfully, unwrapping the blades of the slave whip.

  “Master?” I said.

  I saw him shake loose the blades of the whip, and they dangled. I could see the shadow of the blades on the ground.

  “But I may sell you,” he said.

  “Please do not,” I said.

  “Do you wish to be freed?” he asked.

  “I have learned on Gor what I suspected on Earth,” I said. “I am a slave. I need a master.”

  “Any man will do,” he said.

  “Yes,” I said. “Any man will do. I am such as can be owned, and mastered. But every slave hopes for the master of her secret dreams, the master of her heart, he for whose collar her throat was bred for millennia.”

  “And every master,” he said, “for she who was born to wear his collar.”

  “A slave,” I said, “wants to be owned, to belong, to love, to serve, to be helpless, to be mastered, to be subject to discipline, to be dominated without qualification, concession, or compromise, to be treated as the female she is, to be overwhelmed, taught, controlled, and commanded. What woman wants to relate to a man by whom she is not so wanted, wanted with such force and power, with such demand and uncompromising will, with such desire, with such lust, that nothing less than her absolute possession will satisfy him? The master will be satisfied with nothing less than his slave, and the slave with nothing less than her master.”

  “Do you expect me to be easy with you?” he asked.

  “No, Master,” I said.

  “You understand clearly, do you not,” he asked, “that you have been bought, that you have been purchased?”

  “Yes, Master,” I said.

  “And for a normal price,” he said, “one which might typically take one such as you off the block?”

  “Yes, Master,” I said.

  “Do you realize how you have tortured me these many months?” he asked.

  “Perhaps I have been tortured, as well,” I said.

  “Even before the Sul Market,” he said, “I saw you, and watched you, conjectured your lineaments beneath your tunic, considered the motion of your body as you walked, observed the carriage of your body, the attitude of your head, those of a trained slave, the nice encirclement of a band of metal on your neck.”

  I was silent.

  “I wanted you,” he said. “How could I sleep, how could I eat? But, oh yes, too, I knew of the monster. And I knew there were other such things. I had heard of sky vessels, not those of Priest-Kings. Masses of half-melted, disrupted metal had been found, though sometimes quickly buried or borne away. In the air, occasionally, were the hints of rumors. I learned of others, others also suspecting dangers, dangers undreamt of by most. Contacts were made. Should investigations not be initiated? Should some surveillance, of a type, where possible, not be attempted? Were such suspicions foolish? One does not suspect sleen and larls of intrigue and infamy. Was there peril here, at all? And, if so, of what dimension? And how might it be countered, if at all? So, discovering the strange pet, or guard, of the Lady Bina, a beast whose presence had been noted by several, one actually about in the streets of Ar, I sought to learn its nature, its plans and projects, if any, its relation to others, and such. I soon learned that it was rational, and could communicate in Gorean, by means of a translator. And later I learned it might, when it wished, dispense with the translator. Soon I discovered that the Lady Bina, who seemed somehow associated with the beast, owned a barbarian slave, the very one whose flanks and carriage had tormented me. I confronted them in the Sul Market, and knelt the slave, she then half-naked. I looked down upon her and knew that I must have her in my collar. I must make her mine! I must own her! But what was her relationship to the Lady Bina and the monster? Surely she was a shapely thrall, but what else? I feared she might be in some terrible danger.”

  “Master was solicitous for the welfare of a slave?” I asked.

  “Merely for the integrity and welfare of a pleasant set of curves,” he said.

  “I see,” I said.

  “Such have value,” he said.

  “I see,” I said.

  “They sell well,” he said.

  “Of course,” I said.

  “But I thought it possible, as well,” he said, “that the shapely slut might be less innocent, not only that she might be implicated, but that she might be a cognizant villainess, a knowing part of some nefarious scheme. And for such things there are serious consequences, even for a slave.”

  “Lord Grendel,” I said, “meant no harm to men, or the world.”

  “I did not know that,” he said. “And I learned that he contemplated a mysterious trip to the Voltai.”

  “On behalf of a blinded beast,” I said, “that he might succor him, and return him to his fellows.”

  “More was involved in the Voltai,” said Desmond of Harfax.

  “The blinded Kur knew that,” I said. “Lord Grendel, and the others, did not.”

  “It was my intention,” he said, “to join, or somehow follow, this expedition, that I might keep it under surveillance. Accordingly, learning that it was being outfitted and organized by Astrinax, I petitioned service, as a Teamster.”

  “You were accepted,” I said.

  “It was not difficult,” he said. “Few in Ar were interested in hazarding the perils of the Voltai, particularly in the late summer or fall, and fewer yet when the nature of the expedition, its purpose, its destination, its length, and its time of return, seemed not only obscure, but secret. You may remember that the expedition was still short of guardsmen when it reached Venna.”

  “Trachinos and Akesinos were placed in fee,” I said.

  “Bandits,” he said, “whose intention was despoliation.”

  “You were Teamster for the slave wagon,” I said.

  “I permitted Astrinax to know that the curves of a slave were of interest to me,” he said. “He was accommodating.”

  “I see,” I said.

  “Your ankles,” he said, “which are attractively slender, looked well shackled to the central bar.”

  “I was given into your charge by the Lady Bina,” I said.

  “That was natural,” he said, “as I was driving the slave wagon.”

  “It seems things worked out rather well for you,” I said.

  “Quite,” he said. “I was well placed to monitor the expedition and, at the same time, to find myself in the vicinity of a particular slave.”

  “Who was placed in your keeping,” I said.

  “Yes,” he said.

  “But you never put her to your pleasure,” I said.

  “No,” he said.

  “Honor?” I said.

  “Certainly,” he said, “I did not own her. Her keeping was mine, not her use.”

  “But you came to understand, I trust,” I said, “that she was not some sort of traitress to a species or world, a cognizant conspira
tor, a cooperating, malevolent, unscrupulous villainess?”

  “That sort of thing would have serious consequences,” he said, “for a free woman, one supposes impalement, and, for a slave, as she is a beast, presumably something like heavy chains and drawing ore carts in the mines.”

  “I am pleased that you then understood her to be innocent,” I said.

  “In any event,” he said, “I no longer feared that she might be knowingly implicated in some planetary felony, some broadcast treason, some subversive, global malefaction.”

  “Good,” I said.

  “I found her too simple, too petty, too shallow, too trivial, for such things,” he said. “She would lack the depth, the force, the power, for such calculations, such intrigues, and risks.”

  “I see,” I said.

  “She was only a meaningless, worthless little barbarian collar slut,” he said. “What conspirators would entrust matters of import to one such as she?”

  “Indeed,” I said, annoyed.

  “Only a self-centered, simple, shallow, naive little brute,” he said, “a trivial, selfish little beast, of inferior character, who would steal a candy from a sister slave, if it might be done with impunity.”

  “You listened to Astrinax,” I said.

  “He made clear to me what you were, in that pretty collar,” he said.

  “I am different now,” I said.

  “How I wanted to take you in my arms,” he said, “and teach you what it was to be a slave!”

  “But you did not do so!” I said.

  “Can you imagine the torture,” he said, “what it was to be with you, each day, day in and day out, Ahn by Ahn, so close, wanting to get my hands on you, wanting to seize you, and ravish you, again and again, to take your meaningless pettiness in hand, and make it cry out, and moan, and leap spasmodically, helplessly, in my arms, gasping, and begging for more, fearing only that I might, for my amusement, too soon desist in the depredations to which your body was subjected.”

  “It was not only you who were tortured,” I said. “You speak of torment! What do you know of torment? What do you know of a woman’s slave fires, once men have kindled them, and forced them to burn? Can you imagine what it is to feel such things, not just in one’s belly, but throughout one’s helpless slave’s body? We cannot seize and command a master! We cannot exceed the length of our chains! We can only beg! And will men be kind to us, or not? It is up to them and not us, for we are slaves! Can you imagine what it was to be naked in a slave wagon, shackled within reach of you? Can you understand what it is to serve a master, to cook for him, to serve him food, to fetch and carry for him, and not be touched? Can you understand what it is for a woman to wear a man’s bonds, and not be exploited at his whim? Can you imagine what it is to be half stripped, and collared, only a slave, readied by an entire society for service and sex, and be ignored? Can you imagine what it is to be clad only in a tunic, or a camisk, as in the Cave, near one to whom you would beg to belong, and not be so much as touched?”

  “It seems,” said he, “that we have tortured one another.”

  “Yes, Master,” I said.

  “If you are telling the truth,” he said.

  “Master?” I said.

  “You do not think I trust you, do you?” he asked.

  “It would be my hope that a Master might trust his slave,” I said. “Surely she would be punished, if found untrustworthy.”

  “And severely,” he said.

  “Yes, Master,” I said.

  He looked away, angrily. I could not see his face.

  “Slaves are not free women,” he said. “Slaves are meaningless. Why should one care for them?”

  “Men are sometimes fond of their possessions,” I said.

  I knew that some men, while professing to despise their slaves, scoffing at the very thought that they might find them of interest, would risk their lives for them, even die for them. How precious then must be a mere collar slut, marketable goods, to some men! Who then is slave and who is master? It becomes clear, of course, when the whip is removed from its peg.

  One might risk one’s life or die for a free woman because she is free, or because a Home Stone is shared, or because it is expected, or because it is thought to be a duty, or a matter of honor, but why might one risk one’s life for, or die for, a slave?

  What could be the reason?

  She is no more than her master’s beast. She strives selflessly to serve her master. She is submitted. She is worked. She is owned. She is under discipline. She is dominated, and as a slave is dominated. She strives to be found pleasing. She is needful. Well she knows the restlessness and agony of slave fires, imposed on her by men. She is ready on her chain. She knows herself no more than his meaningless, begging pleasure object. She is an eager and subservient passion beast.

  How utterly different is the exalted, noble, proud free woman, suspicious and demanding, bargaining and calculating, insisting on her hundred rights, jealous of a thousand prerogatives!

  How strange then that men would be willing to risk their lives, even die, for the slave, no more than a collared chattel.

  “Why should a man care for you, not that one does?” he asked.

  “I do not know,” I said.

  He turned about, and I lowered my head, unwilling to meet his eyes.

  “Perhaps as an investment,” he said. “One might improve you, with chain training, whip training, slave dance, and such, and then sell you for a profit.”

  “Perhaps, Master,” I said.

  “You are poor stuff,” he said.

  I looked up.

  “Might I not now bring a good price on the block?” I asked.

  “That would be easy enough to see,” he said.

  “Please do not do so,” I said.

  “Poor meaningless stuff,” he said, looking down upon me.

  “You bought me,” I said.

  “Yes,” he said, “I bought you.”

  “I know you had the means to buy others, Master,” I said. “Why then did you not buy them?”

  “Do you wish to be beaten?” he asked.

  “No, Master,” I said.

  “I do not know why,” he said. “The pens are filled with slaves, well worth collaring, and training to one’s taste.”

  “Yet Master did not forget me,” I said.

  “You are shoddy, inferior, meaningless merchandise.”

  “Perhaps less so now than before,” I said.

  “Speak,” he said.

  “I remain unimportant, and meaningless, of course, as I am a slave, Master,” I said, “but I think I am different now from what I was, perhaps a little better, perhaps a bit more worth owning. Perhaps I am not now so shallow, so sly, so cunning, so petty, so selfish, so trivial, so worthless, as I once was. I have learned much in the collar. In the collar a slave is well taught. I want now to be worthy of my collar. It is a gift bestowed upon me by a man. I want now to be pleasing to my Master. I would hope to be worthy of wearing his collar, not only in service, devotion, and helpless passion, but in character. I desperately want him to approve of me. I will try to be a slave who is worthy of his ownership!”

  “How clever you are,” he said.

  “Master?” I said.

  “Do you think I do not know you?” he asked. “From Ar, from the wagons, from the Voltai, from the small feast in the domicile of Epicrates?”

  “I do not understand,” I said.

  “You are a lying little slut,” he said.

  “No, Master!” I said.

  I wondered how much this had to do with me, and how much it had to do with him. Was he fighting his own feelings? Might that be? Was he afraid of himself, and his feelings, standing before one who was no more than a kneeling, helpless, collared, branded animal? Did he now fear that he might care for a mere slave?

  How absurd!

  What had he to fear? The collar was on my neck, and his was the whip.

  “I have waited a long time to own you,” he
said.

  “And have I not waited a long time to be owned?” I said.

  I looked up at him, and was suddenly afraid.

  How bright his eyes were, how tense his body!

  Might not a starving larl so gaze upon a tethered tabuk doe, a hungry sleen upon a penned verr?

  In the streets of Ar I had once seen a leashed slave being dragged running and stumbling, weeping, toward a domicile, but the master found himself unable to wait, and she was thrown to the paving stones of the street, there to be publicly and rudely ravished. I had turned aside, and hurried away, but had been stirred. I had heard, too, of purchases made off the block which were unable even to reach the holding rings or slave cages, but were enjoyed in the very aisles of the market.

  I was afraid but stirred, too, as only a slave can be stirred, for she knows herself helpless and choiceless, that it will be done with her as masters will. She is without recourse.

  Gorean men, I knew, had not been culturally reduced, societally diminished, confused, crippled, taught to mistrust themselves, to doubt themselves, to castigate themselves for the simplest and most natural feelings and desires, to misinterpret and fear them, not taught to betray themselves and their manhood. As well, for the purposes of the deficient, insane, or eccentric, might one be taught the wrongness of breathing, of eyesight, of the circulating of blood, the pumping of a living heart?

  It had not occurred to Gorean men, I knew, to denounce manhood, no more than to proclaim it. They just lived it, as they were men. And without men, how could there be women?

  How frightening it can be to be a slave, but, too, how can one feel more female?

  I looked up at him, and was frightened.

  How I sensed that I was seen!

  “Master?” I said.

  How he was looking upon me!

  He did think me unworthy, still, I realized, a liar, a would-be thief, a deceitful, self-centered, manipulative, worthless, little hypocrite.

  That was how he saw me!

  Perhaps I had been such, more so on Earth than here, but I did not think I was such now.

  “No, Master,” I whispered, shaking my head. “No, Master.”

  Of course, he was looking upon me as a purchasable chattel, for that is what I was, but, too, he seemed to see me now not as a mere chattel, but as a particularly worthless one, one suitably despised, yet one that he found, despite himself, and perhaps against his best judgment, one of interest, of slave interest, of keen slave interest.

 

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