* * * *
Since Chalsapila, when Corgen finds me in alley, I don't drink. Even the Rus blue and black wodka, sharp as spikes, I left it alone.
I saw to the work I can do, and I eat when others have their food, though they keep back the food the tramper gave us for when this is done and over. Also I play them cards. Corgen gives me some money, so I can gamble on cards too and pay up when lose, which I do. Sometimes when I climb up the yards, I tend the ties and canvas, but then I set a while, and look back along the ship to her stern, back to where the berg is. It is about half ship's length behind, seems to drift there. If was not for the iron cables, you should think it only followed us.
He said, the officer, the ice is twenty feet thick.
Yet I see through. Transparent, the officer say, like crystal, this type of berg. Means nothing, still thick as five stone walls.
By see through it, I mean it's as like you look through frost on glass. I remember a gurl once, she wants her drink in a frost glass. Like that.
If any of the others see me, staring back, they never show at that time. Only Bacherly is sick, crying in the hold on his blankets. When I go to want to give him the hot soup he throws it down and he say I'm mad, to sail the ship. He say I never needed to go on, I coulda gone over side and ashore, I, like the other two that jumped over. He forget me that I can't swim.
But anyhow, strange though that is, I amn't afraid of it. What I am feeling as I look at it, I don't think to be fear. But each day or night then, either I'm up in the rigging, and watch toward the stern, or then I go up on the aft deck, and whoever is to be there at wheel, he give me a glance.
One say —Right glad I am that sail tween me and that sea.
One say —You insane, Pete Corgen. I allays knew ye was. Is drink rottened yor brain.
As him he drink from wodka can.
But I go on by to rail, and I stood there, and I look. The first night I am doing it, the moon's up, and the biggest, brightest of the stars. Shines right through the ice, like the electric light in the bar shone through that gurl's frost glass.
I never am mad, as that man say. I be have seen them as are mad. I am not.
Now it seems, that first time, never I see it so good, not when it come, and they ties it to the ship. Perhaps then I couldn't. As when you young, the first time you truly see a gurl, you canna look proper at her, though she is to be all you ever think on.
But first night in moon's shine. Well.
Christ. Like fire it is. But dull in frost. Frozened. Yet beautiful.
Beautiful.
Once saw a metal forged, was steel. It went go that color, afore the cooling starts. But this, this is tween the heat and the cool. White red. Red silver. How can I say?
The shape.
Well.
I have see a lizard once. Yet this now not really like this lizard, which was only small, a kind creature.
And this ain't kind. Nor small.
Well.
How can I say?
Well, let me say, first time I fuck a gurl, when I have seen her nakd, and there she is, my heart in my throat she so sweet and so.
There's no word.
And this, neither no word.
And still I must try explain.
Up in the column of the narrer ice the shape do stood, and it have the body of a lizard among the giant kind. The backbone is curving, flext like a curl of rope. And all covered with scale is it, like a great fish. And it is have wings. The wings are more like they of the butterfly. But tough, the wings, tough as sails, and have a pattern, but this like the kind of written book I canna read, the pattern. And it has legs, and forelegs like long arms, and on them like hands, both on the feet and the front feet, hands. And the hands do have to be with claws. Each claw look to be length my forearm. Then there is long neck, and the head.
What is head of it? Like horse, a little. But not like horse. No, like the lean head of race dog, long, and thin. It with two ears, set back. Ears are like dog ears. And the shut eyes like lizard's eys.
I don't know what it is, this thing, in the ice. But I say to you, long afore I see this, I've look in some books. What books say want go hard for me, and the picture too, and yet, piece by piece, sometime I will read then. This name I bring out. Dragon.
Dragon, dull red as burnt fire and cloved over frost white, wings spread like a moth against a lighted candle, and the eys shut. Shut eyes. No moving. Still like dead. Dragon. Dragon.
This we tow.
* * * *
The weather it held, with the sea in pleats and slow, and soft gray sky that has sun like a lemon slice, and by night a moon like a ghost.
Porpus teem through water, wet slick speckle, like cats. Then is later, and the packs of the flat ice drifting by, and above over us black head tarna flying.
All this while the dragon coil in the berg. No moving.
The twenty feet ice of the berg glister but never cracks. Each dayup, Corgen comes out with gun, and look over the berg ice, check.
I try say to him about the dragon in the ice.
Corgen won't say back. Three times I try. Third time he slap me hard in the mouth so down I fall. Beau pulls me away, but as I not any drink in me, I feel no will ter do nothing on this, only sad, like as when I child.
Nights though, he, me, and Beau we eat in the cabin. The wodka is still plenty. The guys from the tramper, they brung over a lot. Good best stuff, best than any ever drunk. Only tastes bit of kerosene, Corgen say. Who care for that? They drink, try to make me, laugh at me that I won't.
They sing some nights. So I with them.
In the ice it never moving. Eyes shut.
I think what eyes did it had behind the close, hot metal color lids. Were they like fire? Was fire what it breathed as the book say?
As Corgen won't speak, I ask of Beau, what did the officers on the other ship say of the dragon, when first they make Corgen and he to see it.
—They come out talk of prehistry, say Beau. —Say this like elephant thing in Rus, that was trapt in hard old ice. This one some kind of dynosar. But I see them dead dynosars in a show once. This out there nothing like them.
—Is it died? I say.
—For Christ, Pete, how fuck am I go to know? Looks well dead to me.
But the one who dies around then is Bacherly. I find him, as we was getting well up north, toward the world's top.
Dense white mist that day, and we to go very slowly cos for of the ice drifts, which you hear grunt and creak and squeak now near, and now far off, but never see till close. And I go down with mess of meatpotato, and Bacherly is there and he's dead, with a red smear on chin.
Corgen come and kicks him to wake up. Bacherly don't take notice. We havta put him over side, and Ando say the prayer.
Some of the others have gutache too. But Corgen say they are all time drunken and that this is why, can't hold Rus wodka, it too good for them.
Then he say soft to me, —Or it that thing in there.
Meaning the dragon in the ice.
He say, —Some shitten disease carry on it. Those guys from the military, they jaw on, say too cold for any germ. How the fuck they knows? Couldna wait to get rid, and we the fuckfools to do muck work for them.
The stillness is like a dream.
When mist melts, I see three storms, three, four mile off north and east, boiling. But these never come up with Corgen's bucket. As if afraid to.
* * * *
Tward nothard, that a strange place. Never had I been up so high. A terrible white place, with islands of ice that look to anchor, so steady they are stuck on the water. And the land what seem ter go to want draw near, white land, bare as a cracked china plate, but it's ice. And now we was to see animals about, the lolling seals and walrus. One time there is two like swords flash, fish with horns that fight in the sea. —Narhl, say Corgen.
He was been here afore and know such beasts.
We is both to forard, us, when he tell me that. He never at back of ship, save wh
en at helm, or when he checks the berg.
We be have long days on this travel. I forgetten how many.
* * * *
Then one day, just like that one I describe, Corgen and I is by the rail, when he lean over, and I hear he's throw up. When back he come, he have a smear of red on his lip.
One or two other of his men are sick now days on days, and all the rest belly rotten. Only I am not.
—Pete, Corgen say. —You never taste that filthy Rus piss muck, say you never?
—The wodka? Nar, Corgen. I swore I'd never, after Chalsapila.
—Thanks Christ, say Corgen. —Listen now, it's gotten be medcin in.
—What medcin?
—Don't you be bludy fool. What medcin ya think? To fuckkill us all. Govment do it. We haul thing up here, and all while drinken, and it gets hold. No bludy nine hundred dolla for us, but poisoned. Done for, the boatload ofn us.
I start to cry. He hits me. Then we hug hard, like long ago.
—Why they do it? I say.
—To sew up our mouths. Christ know they want that thing us be to tow kept safe and froze and none to find.
I turn my head, canna help that, look all the way of the ship, to where the ghostly berg she float there still on her cables, as if she follow us. And in the yeller blubber white amba of the ice, the dragon not moving, curven, and I see.
—Corgen, I say. —Corgen
—Now, say Corgen. —Listen close. The men and I are up to go the cabin. Have a final drunk of the piss muck, feel good one last, then I use the gun. Cap'n's job. And me the last.
—Christ. Nar, nar. We lay over tward the west, some settled place, get help.
—Too late, Peter. And beside, what to do of that in some settled place? That lizard. No, we go in cabin, we already done for. You'll hear some shots is all. Soon done. Leave it be. We two do say our god's bye here. Ye never had a stomache for a ruckus. Keep yor head, you'll make shore. Leave bludy ship. Take the boat. Leave ship and us and the thing. Sea is very calm and slow. You will make ter shore.
I never have words. Now neither, they don't come. He wring me in his arms, and then go, and the other men appearing and they go after, some even lifting a hand to me, and Beau give me a sorry grin, as they are leaving like for a new ship. The cabin door shuts.
I stand alone.
Above, over I the sails swing and sigh, and every side the pack ice grind in the waves. There's shout and cussing and a can thrown behind the door which make it to shake.
I stand alone till and I hear the shots. One, two, three. Then a bit. Then four. Which is he, my brother.
I set down on the planks and cry, all the ice and water and empty around me. He were never my brother in blood. Ma's son she allays beat, and I only her died brother's boy she beat too, but never me so hard and cruel as he. Hated me he shoulda. Never done that. My brother, Corgen.
The dark by this time is to be coming, and never is quite dark, nor never now quite day. But I go down to ship's end, and stare at the dragon in the ice. And I saw as I had when I look ahind just before Corgen go in to die, that its eys are have come open, open wide.
* * * *
Its eyes not like fire, no, they look like an old piece silver I once see in a church, pale but tarnish of black, and shine behind.
Very slow, slow as think, they seem to move. The rest dead still, no breath, no trembler of leg or head. But just these eyes move this and that way.
All Corgen and crew be stark dead, they, and this have awaken sure, and not dead, there alive in the white amba of the ice.
And then its eyes look down, at me, so far down on the planks of the ship. The eys are to stare. And I know it have never, in all the time of its living days afore seen a thing like I am. As I, in all my living, never saw a thing like it but in a book I proper couldna read.
All around the dark drop like snow.
* * * *
When I have the things set right, I beginning what now I must.
So long a great while, the steel tooth works on the cabling, and the green sparks fly. I look up and they are reflect like thoughts in the old silver of the dragon's eyes.
All night I am take to cut the cords that bind the berg to the stern of Corgen's ship.
The big heat of cutting make me sweat, and make too the berg true sweat, and near the half dawn time, I see there are a crack all up the crystal ice, all splintery and furred white, and it leak, drip, drip, away in the cold area.
The dragon watch all that.
No moving, but only the eys.
When part of the sky lift to the east, last of the iron cords smokes and screams off and crash down in the water. The berg shudder. There is wind now, blow fierce straight out of the sun, and drive Corgen's bucket over to port, to the west, and maybee we are to go to smash on the ice there. But I look back, and I see the berg drift now, free, and how the heat from the cutting I was made get ice to run down, and the sun catch on these flows, and sudden a chunk of the old, old ice fall out and into the water.
Then was a horrible circling tide that hides up in the ice packs, and hauls ship aways, with the wind too bending her, so she lie to her side, and the great berg go smaller and smaller. But I think of its eyes.
I go down in hold, where Bacherly died the first. I cover up me in his blude-mark blankets and sleep, for there's now no more of any kind I can be to do.
* * * *
She run in, time later, on Spalt Island, where the codfishers have a camp town of huts, and they come take me from the ship to their fires. Later we bury my brother and his men in the deep inland snow. An old man he say words over them from the Bible. A young woman of the older peoples here, with hair black as oil, she rubs my hands in her square, hot, fat hands, to bring me warm. She's kind, the black haired woman.
The fishers go out and come in again in their boats with the nets thrashing with the codfish. But never have they to say that they see any odd thing.
Berg must of drift north and froze, or away again to south, or west or east, and burst like a frost glass on sharp wall of sun. Perhaps and too, what is in there maybee allays was dead, under the ice, its eyes only to open as sometimes a dead man's will, or he make groan or sigh, even though he dead as stone when you check him, but it's as you picken him up the final air go out. The men here say they have seen like this in shark. And too, it is like dead Beau done, yet he is rotten. But Corgen never did.
Long while since, I am on this island.
I am walking out to the land's edge, where ice thick as twenty feet. Stand there, I, and see the sky and the water. I think and think, but no word comes. Can such thing as a dragon come back from so far past? Such a thing as that, so pale metal red, so long shut in its prison of frost glass, just the sparks of the cutting free and the Artic sun's shine to warm it, just the tides to push it here or there, back into the cold on the world's roof, or down into the melt of the thaw. Or down otherways under the top of the sea.
The black haired woman kind to me, like they kind to the dead here. Ask no question.
I think all hour of all day. And night when I wait for to go sleep. Of Corgen shut in the snow and dragon in the berg, and of that in me that is me, clove in the ice, gone out like a match. Forever and tomorrow and forever.
The black hair woman kind.
—from an idea by John Kaiine
Copyright (c) 2006 Tanith Lee
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THE CHIMERA TRANSIT by Jack Skillingstead
The author reports a particular fondness for the short fiction of John Cheever and would like to make it known that the present offering's title, if nothing else, is a nod in that gentleman's direction.
After sex the stranger, whose name was Rebecca, cuddled under my arm. I transmitted serotonin—enough to raise my mood above depression without inviting further arousal. The stranger moved against me, her leg slung over my hip, her hand on my chest, breath in my face. She had a mouth like Lynn's, the shape of it. I waited until she was asleep, then car
efully extricated myself from her body and her bed.
I walked home in the rain. It was past two AM. The gloom came upon me again. Looking up, rain anointing my face, I transmitted a dopamine and norepinephrine brain cocktail. My mood soared, and for a moment I was infatuated with the sky, as I used to be. A distant roll of thunder reminded me of the Outbound shuttle launches I used to watch with my dad when I was a kid, daydreaming stars. My mind felt nimble. Jazzed. City lights underlit the cloud cover. I thought of starships, which led to my father and the Big Bang (weapon discharge in the basement), which led to Lynn, and I wondered what she was to me.
A woman laughed. I looked across the street. She wore a long coat and floppy hat and she was with a man, hanging on his arm, ducking. A green Tinkerbell Flirt hovered around her, flew away, returned. The man reached out and captured it in his hand. They bent over it together, their faces illuminated by a green flicker. I heard her say, “It's beautiful, I love you!” She moved her face under his and kissed his mouth. I looked away.
What Lynn was to me: gone.
* * * *
The next evening as I was dressing to go out a fairy light hovered in close to my window. I stared at it, my shirt hanging open. I thought of half a dozen women who knew my name and could access my People Finder code. But none of them possessed a romantically flirtatious disposition. They might call, or pop me an EyeText on my retinal repeater. Fairy Flirts were kid stuff. I whacked the window with a rolled up New Yorker. The Flirt drifted back, flimmering wings making a ruby nimbus in the rain.
* * * *
I sat by the window in a coffee bar on lower Queen Anne, sipping espresso and reading a flashprint copy of a faux Updike novel. The style and plot were perfect Updike (Rabbit in the twenty-second century) but thin under the surface, like all program-written books. I read the sentences and listened to the words in my head. It improved when I transmitted some phenylethylamine into my limbic system. A boost of joy surged through me. The words glowed. Analog or not, it didn't matter.
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