To John

Home > Other > To John > Page 6
To John Page 6

by Kim Itae


  Ana became restless, so she saw some news.

  'FBI says its analysis spotted distinct similarities between the type of malware used in the Sony Pictures hack and code used in an attack on South Korea last year.(BBC)'

  Ana thought,

  'This is a real comedy. Similarity between what and what? Type of malware and Code? I have a headache... So stupid. Ah... CIA won.'

  "John, which do you prefer, a thriller or a horror?"

  "Ana, I like hard core pornos."

  "Ok. Anyway, 12 min. I will do some hard cording."

  "Hard core, not hard cording."

  "Same to me. I will use Prolog or Lua."

  "Are they sexy?"

  "I will try..."

  But Ana found it too difficult. She called Brazilian Jose.

  "Jose, are you still using Prolog?"

  "Nope. Ancient."

  "Never mind. Can you do something for me?"

  "What is it?"

  "Can you delete certain objects on the charts for 4-5 secs?"

  "I will have a look and let you know."

  "Very similar to holding the screen with 'Please wait...'. Just one or two lines. That's all."

  Ana got a go-ahead call from Jose.

  "John, here is your porno scenario. Jump, suck, clear... jump, suck, clear... jump, suck, clear."

  "Sofia, do not bother tonight. Porno for boys. We start fresh tomorrow like any other office girls. Take a good rest."

  "Sorry Ana, I do not mind Gang Bang."

  Ana envied her youth and groaned.

  'When I get bored, I make mistakes. I should try not to dig out the old and easy shit instead of trying to tackle new and fresh shit. The old and easy shit is that American shit. The new and fresh shit is Tax Return. I will tackle maybe after Christmas. I am definitely in the anal stage in Freudian phycology. Everything is shit. Pleasure and conflict from controlling bowel movement? He is so right. Rea must have been derived from diarrhea unconsciously. Diarrhea means thourough flow in Greek, by the way. Now I get into that horrible constipation level 78 at Candy.'

  4th Week Dec 2014

  22 Dec 2014

  Ana called him directly.

  "Did you do it?"

  "No."

  "Who did it?"

  "Sony. They want to show that they can help Texans. That's why they could not tell to Obama. They made the film to attack us. They made an excuse. They are Japs. They will be very happy if we use long range."

  "Do you have any?"

  "What do you think, sis? That's our life saver."

  Ana had to keep on going whatever happened in her family life. She appreciated Jose's job yesterday. She meant it.

  "Obrigada, Jose. Obrigada."

  "Ho ho, John. Did you enjoy the poll dance last night? Take it as my little present for Christmas."

  "Sofia, I have no tongue for you. I envy you. I know you stayed up all night. But time to get up and dressed, though. Cheers, Ana."

  Morning passed. Afternoon came.

  "I know it is my mistake and my fault. Look at you. You can not even stand up properly. Your legs are trembling. I did not konw you are not like us. We used to do three nights in a raw without any nerves break down. Maybe you are just different generation. But which do you prefer? Struggling through the crowd in sweat or ordering online to deliver in front of your house in time? One day you will have an assistent who can do all the shopping for you perfectly, don't you think?"

  Ana thought something different.

  'I do not care whether Henry is fucking a woman with arthritis. It's just funny and sad as he has a sciatica. Nigel Farage did not mind fucking a woman with a casted leg. Sad and funny too. All this funny and sad thing came from the fact that I could not take my nap after work. I am not blaming anybody. Who invented this Christmas thingi?'

  She took a nap and woke up and wrote this.

  'Taste a little bit of sky. If you leave me, you are dead.'

  She thought,

  'Shit, I am possessed again. What the hell am I talking things like this? But I can say the same thing to Henry.'

  Then her body started shaking and her hand started moving again.

  'After you are dead, you will walk in the darkness permanently. I am your savior. Seven seals are all open. I am the ultimate. I am the source. I am the flow. I am the monster. I am the one.'

  Then everything became very quiet. Utter silence.

  'What can I do for you, Super Power?'

  Nothing happened.

  'Is there anything I can do for you?'

  Her hand started moving again.

  'Nothing.'

  Ana got really scared of nothing.

  "Why are you so fucked? What's the matter with you? You know I am not a monster. You saw me before and you see me today. The same. But for a matter of fact, without you, I will just disappear. If I didn't see you hoping around on the deck, I simply jump into the deep ocean and the wild sky, which are mine. You made me stay in this world. You that little creature. Something made me think that you were more important than my own existance or my euphoria with this universe. You reminded me that there is something I have to do. Homework. I stayed. I stayed. I remember more than I am supposed to remember. My consciousness is exposed to that formidable memories, utter hatred and fury. Pure destruction under my finger tips. Do not think I am fond of you. You are a little creature. Like a virus. A primitive compound of an organic form."

  "I have to ask myself what I am doing here? Anti-biotics. That's what I am. I kill those, who are harmful to the body. Nature, surviving, nature, surviving. Nature, balancing, nature, balancing. Nature, absolute, nature, absolute. Nature, nothing, nothing, everything."

  She didn't feel like being possessed. It was her. Maybe the possessing spirit finally possessed all of her. There was no Ana. Poor thing. She is gone.

  23 Dec 2014

  "Morning. China suggested a loan of $24bil to Russia through currency swap. China saw Putin's gut. They want to get in Forex together."

  Ana saw the map and the scene. She had to write it down before she forget.

  'The formation of 26 remained GE reactor Mark 1 is a minefield of thermonuclear ie hydrogen bombs. The main artery is aligned with the KP pipeline. Unprecedented explosion in human history can happen by nature or a bad tempered man. The minefield was made by US all themselves. It could be fixed several times. Their greed made them bury it.

  "Another morning. 'Opec leader vows not to cut oil output:

  Saudi oil minister Ali al-Naimi says even if prices hit $20 a barrel production will not drop.' Declaration of war against USA from OPEC. $20... Scary... In this case, China and Russia will back up North Korea."

  "Let's have a party even though you are highly constipated as you will never know what will be on news tomorrow."

  25 Dec 2014

  Ana wrote a Christmas card to her little brother.

  'I don't konw what on earth you are thinking. But once you started, you have to finish your job. As your sister, I am always behind you. At least your timing was ok. Do not tell me about your deal. Turn them into cash before the new year. Hack the Texans into pieces. Obama was in your team from the start, wasn't he? You clever sod. Finish the year with nightmare and pleasure as you wrote to Park. And you know how much I charge per second for publicity. I'm doing this for free as you are my family. I will check your bank account. If it is still in red, I will kill you first. Merry Christmas.'

  북한 GDP가 남한의 4.8%입니다. 말이 안되지요? 통일해야죠. 세상에 이런 망신꼬라지를 당하고, 춘궁기라는 것이 아직 있고, 창피하네요. 한 마디로 거지 발싸개 신세가 된겁니다.

  GDP of North Korea is 4.8% of South Korean. Does it make sense? We should be reunited. So internationally embarrsing. You still have the spring starvation. So shameful. You became into this foot wrapper for a begger.

  26 Dec 2014

  "Upper cut, boxing day, init?"

  "US GDP faked."

  "Holiday sa
le started."

  "One red cherry is all we needs."

  "Buy ABBA. Samsung's order."

  "John, I heard you died. I will miss your smile and all your effort here. See you there. I might not recognize you. In that case, you just tell me that you are the farmer John."

  "John, this is different John I know. But the same. Relentless farming under all miserable English weather. I will remember his clear blue eyes and his little joys in this life like bargain hunt and a tiny flower pot. I am full of rage. I know what cancers are like."

  "By the way, are you really playing boxing because it's a boxing day?"

  "In that case, KO for this round. Finish the game early, and go home. Or are you crying out for a towel?"

  "Boxing is over. Heading for a dramatical sex."

  27 Dec 2014

  "Open up before you are forced to open up. Who knows? You can be the next Merkel. Anyway South Korea knows how to sell your natural resources at a very decent price. Nobody is a Imperial America's friend. Didn't you know that yet?"

  "Words game is over. Do not ridicule yourself anymore. Your GDP, that's the point whatever you say. That's why you are internationally ridiculed. You are so poor."

  "We are the only and the last country on this earth, which was divided by Cold war. Dynasty? Fuck off. Get me the list of those fucking old generals, who are threatening you not to open in order to hold their positions. They have fucked you so long. Do not appreciate them as they did not do the Coup d'etat. They miscalculated you. Be a man. Hold your bollocks. Got it? Hack their bank accounts. Sack them all. Time's up. Even your own biological mother will not be a help. Who bought quite a few 4,000 dollar Prada & Hermes bags in San Francisco the other day?"

  "Begin a housecleaning. Otherwise you will be housecleaned."

  "By the way, if you still have swiss accounts, you had better move to either Deutche or Natwest. Santander possible. As the Swiss database got hacked. Your name will be exposed. That will be the end of your political career. You move yours and sack the others who remained."

  'It's like a dream. I became what I wanted. Real. Through all these shits and pains. Still very shitty and painful though. Let's reckon. How much real is it? 3 trillion a day. I am fucking crazy. Ha ha... Am I really crazy? If you think yes, ignore me. If not, follow me.'

  'Then again, it has nothing to do with our own individual will. If you think, you can choose, you are in trouble. This is pre-planned by what you call a God. I am a kind of a mediator, possessed by my own spirit, which started breathing on this earth for the first time. I can breathe... I can vibrate... I can spin. I feel free. I can see what I am doing...'

  'But I can not think. There's no thinking. I am trying to think but I can not think. Holly shit... My father said if you see a Buddha, kill it. I see a Buddha in me, I will kill it. I will kill it as I feel something is not right. Not right at all. I cannot wank like Suckamoney. He named his son Lahoula meaning obstacle. My kids are not obstacles. They made me live here. Different. Still he made a point. The last phase of enlightenment is like as if your eardrum is about to be burst. Very painful. I appreciate it and I say thank you for that tip. That means this heavenly energy has to penetrate through your hypothalamus, joining two seperated brains. Oh so painful. But that's how you have an excess to this universal mind and knowledge. Finally we become into One.'

  'Something is terribly missing here. But I can not think. Tomorrow.'

  Ana's possessed state was getting funnier with all those Christmas buzz.

  28 Dec 2014

  'No fun whatsoever. All I want to do is a housecleaning. My head is about to burst. Too many bottles. No news. No contacts. The whole world is so quiet. Clearance sale? No way. Hang on... Yes, too many stuff. I like to get rid of any old rubbish. I want a simple, simple life. And you, bro?'

  'Absolute stability? Are you talking about water? Does water have consciousness to try the stability? Ha ha no. But I am not water. I am a human. I need an absolute rest. How can I get that kind of stuff? Do I feel tired? Not sure. I feel unstabilized by all that Christmas thingis and stuffs. I like to go back to work, which I am good at. Work, dinner, sleep, work, dinner, sleep. I like that routine. That routine made me feel safe. Clean and clear. Anything wrong with it? Am I depressed here? Possible. The aftermath.'

  'I must be severly depressed. I can see but I can not feel. I have no motivation either.'

  'Good question. What shall I do now? My eyelids started twitching.'

  'There were things I loved to do. What were they?'

  'I do not know what hit me. Something hit me hard. My heart got stunned. I will find out later. Something happened. I am going to John's funeral next Saturday. I do not know whether two things are related.'

  'Was this your problem, the bordum? I have the same problem now. Possibly just tonight. If I have the same problem tomorrow, I have to think about my life. I just lived and I have never thought about it properly.'

  Suddely Ana woke up from three days of hangover.

  "John, did you konw NASA is using Linux, Ubuntu? Change our OS. Urgent. Ana."

  "Ana, do not jump. Just downdate the version in order to limit the access. Or we can use google chrome for tonight until it settled."

  Ana thought,

  'Who was talking about absolute stability? There is no such a thing. My ears are getting hot. I feel like a steamed dumpling. Sweating all around again... Why is NASA using Ubuntu? They got fucked the other day anyway. They have to change their operating system, not us. They are a pathetic excuse to spend money. They are leaking money everywhere like an old seniled man peeing around. They always make me angry. They make me forget bringing down my chestnuts. Move you all to Mars and do not come back.'

  5th Week Dec 2014

  29 Dec 2014

  'I had to try very hard not to put my own money in order not to lose the clarity. Shit. Does this make sense? If my own money is at stake, I will not sleep. Then I will burn myself. I will go crazy. But I like to see... Then again, nobody is using their own money for the trading. That's how they can do day after day, year after year. Still they get paid well. Where is my commission here?'

  2nd day of OS DLM

  'Shit... I put my money on the stake. I had an instant angina. I took some French brandy. Shit.... I am hooked again. I don't want to get divorced either. I am in a deep shit. I cannot tell this to John either. Shit... I will try today. If it will not work, I will withdraw the whole sum tomorrow 12 sharp. Simple. All I needed was some blood, attachment, obssession, my whole heart. I feel good whatever state I got in. My whole body is burning again. I am not a cold bitch. I am a burning hell.'

  "Ana, why are you so quiet? Did you your morning homework?"

  "John, not much thing to say until os is settled. Everything ok with transactions etc?"

  "Delayed but no problem."

  "Carl called this morning. He said something about decoupling."

  "Thanks."

  Time to time John made her feel like a little girl who did something naughty.

  It's like watching a hard core porno, which she found in her mum's wardrobe, when parents are away.

  30 Dec 2014

  3rd day of OS DLM

  "John, it's working, isn't it? We started swimming deep in Java."

  "So far so good. I don't want to be crashed into Java."

  "Sorry, I mean the computer language, not the actual sea."

  "Ok."

  "Ignore what King said. He was quite useless, wasn't he? Anyway Mark gave up his bonus. We all know why. Anyway, whenever there are two mountains, go for it. We used to call it Twin Peak."

  "Jose, you're such a genius. I took my bonus. 25%. And you? Why not? We should take our chunk. This is not a charity show."

  "Ana, can I ignore the terms and conditions of the bonus? It feels a bit weiry."

  "Yes, you can ignore them unless you want to cash out within this year."

  "John. Sureal init? I still remember your first lesson to me. Take profits first. I
did. And we are heading for another big wave. Wohoo. I will publish our job online. That's one way to pay future fine whatever. Once it's published, it belongs to the public. Anyone can use. Meaning we have more funding. I cannot think of anything negative. And you?"

  John wanted to say shut up to Ana.

  "All agreed, Ana."

  He was a kind of gentleman. Ana got used to his tone. He meant shut up.

  'I am glad I have my own real account. Otherwise, I would be deeply pissed off after all these hard works. I ate too much chocolate. I ate the whole Galaxy. I can burp ABC.'

  Ana heard her little voice.

  'I don't want to be a princess. This dress sucks. I want to be a king. I will be an emperor. This is my Empire. I am the Genghis Khan.'

  Which game was it? She cannot remember. She could hear one of her brothers saying go away.

  "Shall we burp together, John?"

  "Fair enough. Even you feel sick, hold your hand tight on your mouth. Do not puke around, Ana."

  "Ok.... I want to go to toilet."

  "No, you can't. 30 more minutes, ok?"

  Ana waited for 30 minutes and exploded.

  'You think you ate enough? You have to make a turning point, man. Then it will start flying like June last year. No one can stop it. This time. 30,000 ft. like ghost flying. I mean automatic flying as oil dollar is in question. Get the timing right. Do not play your ordinary, analytic dealing, which dip you in sour salsa sauce 2008.'

  Ana was shouting to herself because she saw a similar pattern. One day good, next day too bad. One step forward, two step backward. She thought they should make a turning. A big turning. In order to make an end to this ridiculous George Soros kind of shit. It was 1992. The death of BOE.

  "There is no normal life, John. Fuck it. If you don't fuck it, you will be fucked."

  'So as a Canadian, do you think, to refuse a bonus is a good gesture? Gesture is not good enough. Didn't you see Putin the other day? He got 20 billion loan from China just like that. Think of the interest per a day. You can do better than this, Mark Carney. Maybe you have something which you can not have as a foreigner. You do not have a crazy heart. That cannot be faked for million years. I bet when you protected your country 2008, you thought you were crazy. Am I right? Why did you let that King express his opinion about the interest rate? Are you in charge or what? Let's be happy together. Do not let any other voice in media. Raise the interest rate. Or just an announcement like Putin. Or you just play safe for yourself not for this country. Trust me, you said?'

 

‹ Prev