by Nikisha Mock
I had grown fond of Darren because I could tell he really loved Ciara. He was really stepping his game up. The way he was being so supportive of her let me know that Ciara had finally found her a good one.
“Yeah, he already talked to his boss about the transfer. It’s good that they have a sister dealership real close to the area where we’ll be moving. He even made plans to go see a realtor about some properties. For now, we got a little condo but Darren promises that he will move me into a home by the summer. I’m so happy and sad at the same time. I’m happy because I feel like I have a good man who loves me. I’m sad because not only am I leaving you guys but I’m leaving my job. That place has been my home for so long. I’m scared because I don’t know what the future holds for my Judy Lee but I do know she is a fighter. I will be right there helping her kick cancer’s ass. I’m gonna miss y’all crazy girls,” she said, poking her lip out.
“Girl, you will be fine. We will do like we do now. Pick up the phone when we wanna tell each other the latest tea. I know you’re not moving to Miami but you’re close enough. We love Miami so now we got an excuse for more vacations!” Yanna said.
My girl Ayanna was always the one to lighten the mood when it was getting too heavy. She had been through her fair share of ups and downs too. Somehow, she managed to keep it all together.
They had let Cam out on bail. From what Yanna said it looked like they didn’t have enough evidence to take him to trial for the shooting. She told me Fallon skipped town. Nobody knew where she was. I’m sure Cam wasn’t pressed about that. Yanna had stuck to her guns about him moving out though. I wasn’t surprised but I’m sure he was. Once Ayanna made up her mind about something, there was no changing it. There was one thing I had been wondering about though. I decided to ask her.
“Hey, Yanna, I meant to ask you something. Did you ever go see Mario and his freaky wife, Karen?”
“Oh my gosh! I can’t believe I never told y’all about that. Yeah, I took my crazy ass over there. I knew Mario was freaky before but this Karen chick has really turned him out! As quiet as kept, she almost turned me out too,” she said as she smiled and fanned herself.
“You nasty heffa! Spill it!” Ciara squealed as we laughed and waited for another one of Yanna’s juicy stories.
“Long story short, they were really bugging me about joining them for a threesome so I said what the hell right? When I got there, the first thing I did was tell Karen I am in no way interested in going down on a female or anything like that. She was like ‘oh that’s fine; let me do all the work.’ Baby, she put in work, let me tell you! I have never had an orgasm so fast from getting my clit licked in my entire life. I think it was a combination of the wine we drank, the fact that Mario was there with his sexy self, and the fact that I had never been touched by a woman. All of my senses were on super alert. Every time she touched me, I felt like I was tingling all over. I still enjoy having sex with Mario’s aggressive ass. He takes it whether you like it or not. I love it. At one point, it was like Karen wasn’t even there because me. Mario were going at it. I think she enjoyed watching us as much. At one point, I looked over and she was going to town on her clit, fingering herself and rubbing her breasts. I’m telling y’all, we fucked like wild animals for hours. When I finally left their house, the sun was coming up.”
Ayanna always had the best stories. We got a good little laugh off of that. She would always be the one that had that free spirit who didn’t really care what anybody thought about her. I loved that about Ayanna. I prayed that she would never change.
“Oh y’all bitches over here having a moment without me, huh? Ain’t that some shit?”
“Star! I didn’t think you would be able to make it but I’m glad you did. Come here, girl,” Ciara said as she jumped up to go. Give Star a big hug.
“Yeah, I was gonna make it. Y’all like to get into all kinda shit when y’all get together so I figured I needed to come make sure things was straight. Nah, I’m kidding. I feel like a part of this circle. I can’t believe you’re leaving, little mama, but I can dig it though. Sad to see you go for sure,” Star said in her usual upbeat self.
“Aww, group hug!” I yelled out.
We all hugged and laughed, making made people stare at us. That’s how we did when we all got together. Star told us all about her new relationship with Reign. It was good that she seemed happy and at ease with this one. When she was with Indigo, she seemed so on edge all the time. Speaking of Indigo, Star told us that she had quit the club. Nobody had seen her.
“Well my flight is about to board. I’m so glad that all of you came here with me. This isn’t goodbye, ladies. I’m going to Florida. It’s not like I’m moving to Mexico. Come visit me as much and as soon as possible!” Ciara said.
I got a little teary eyed. I knew it wouldn’t be the last time we saw each other but everything was so different now. Things felt off to me.
We all parted ways after she went to board her flight. I had a lonely ride home, thinking about the things that had happened to me over the past year. It had been one hell of a journey. After being put on blast at the gym, Tyler got all his stuff and moved out of the house. I had my suspicions as to where he was but what could I say? The biggest difference between me and him was that I slept with Bryce a few times out of anger. It backfired on me. Ty not only slept with Tiana, he had been carrying on a full-blown relationship with her. I had no idea.
The fact that she knew about me spoke volumes about her. Then again, who am I kidding? Nowadays people don’t care about that at all. If the other person is willing, then their man or woman is the least of anyone’s concern. People don’t value or respect relationships anymore. We’re too busy out here playing games and risking everything for instant gratification. The very ones that we are supposed to love are the same ones that we keep hurting. I had cried so many nights over losing Ty.
The kids kept asking why he wasn’t living with us anymore. It killed me that I couldn’t tell them the real truth. I told them that sometimes grownups have disagreements that can’t be fixed so they have to part ways. Kyla was the most pitiful. She loved Tyler. She had really gotten used to him being around. My mama cussed me up one side and down the other but not for long because she was busy cussing Tyler up those same two sides for the things he had done. I knew she would be mad at me. I couldn’t blame her because I had messed up.
I guess Bryce had gotten what he wanted because he hadn’t bothered to call or text me at all since that day at the gym. That was a blessing because I wanted nothing to do with him. I had never been the one to cheat before so I wasn’t really sure why I let him get under my skin the way he did. I shook my head at the thoughts and continued reading a new book I had picked up.
When day turned to night, I still found myself curled up on the couch reading. It was a Friday night. The kids had gone to Mama’s for the weekend. I was glad to have some quiet time at home. If I felt the need to cry, I didn’t have to hide it from them. My phone started ringing. When I reached over to answer it, I couldn’t believe the name that I saw on the screen.
“Tyler?” I said, almost in a whisper.
“Open the door” he said.
No hello or anything. I almost broke my ankle getting up off of the couch so fast. I snatched the door open. The man of my dreams was standing there, looking even better than the last time that I saw him. I couldn’t speak. I damn near couldn’t breathe. I needed him to speak first. I was shocked but so glad that he was here.
“You gonna let me in or what?”
I stepped aside for him to come in. he walked right past me and sat down on the couch. I sat down beside him and stared at him. I was scared to say anything. He was so fine to me. His dimples, his goatee that he had grown which was new, but I liked it. It fit him. Everything about him was everything that I craved. Please Lord, let him say something.
“I had a lot of time to think. I ain’t gonna lie. That shit you pulled almost got you messed up. I have known Bryce for m
any years. We played football together in college. None of that mattered once he said that shit. I saw red. All I could think was, not my Eva. She wouldn’t do that to me. I left because my pride was hurt. I’m supposed to be the man. I had asked you to marry me. I damn sure didn’t expect another man to be getting what I thought belonged to me. Deep down though, I knew I was bogus. I don’t know how it happened or why I let it happen, but I had hurt you long before you did what you did. You didn’t even know it. I need to apologize to you for being with Tiana. At first, she was somebody to talk to. She was always hanging around at the club whenever Jay and I would go out. I wasn’t checking for her though. Then you started acting distant towards me. Man, I don’t know it turned me off. Questions started coming out of nowhere. It wasn’t like you to be that way. Instead of talking to you about it, I turned to her. That was the biggest mistake of my life.”
“Please don’t put that on me. I started asking questions because you started changing. Even then I still wanted to believe in you and trust you because I didn’t see you as being that type of guy,” I interrupted him but he sure wasn’t having it.
“Eva, don’t cut me off again. I need to say this. So you’re gonna have to shut up and listen to me for a change.”
I shut the hell up too. I had dreamed of the day that we would be able to talk again. I wasn’t about to mess that up. He continued.
“Eva, I shouldn’t have done what I did. I am damn sure paying for it now. I thought you should know that Tiana was never pregnant. She told me that bullshit thinking that it would get me to leave you. When she saw that it didn’t, she decided to blurt it out to you when she saw you that day at the gym. I would have never known had her friend not slipped up and told Jay the truth. That’s beside the point. I should have never put myself in a position to even potentially be the father of someone else’s baby. I said all that to say this to you, Eva, I love you. I love you for the woman that you are. I know we both made some real bad decisions that fucked everything up but I still love you. That won’t ever change.”
As he talked, I began to cry. Everything I had been hoping for over these last miserable three months, Tyler was confirming. He still loved me. I damn sure loved him. He stood up then looked down at me. He wiped the tears away from my face. It was hard for me to even look up at him because I still felt a little ashamed but what he did next completely floored me. He put one hand in his pocket and got down on one knee in front of me. I let out a brief Oh my God! My hand covered my mouth as the tears flowed even faster.
“Eva, these last three months have been complete hell. I don’t want to spend another day away from you or away from the kids. I want my family back. I want you back. I don’t give a damn about anything that happened before this moment right here. All I want to know is, will you still do me the honor of becoming my beautiful wife?”
He took his hand from his pocket and produced the beautiful princess cut diamond ring that had once graced my left hand. I had given it back to him when he moved out. I was so happy to see it now.
“Yes! Absolutely! I will definitely marry you!” I screamed.
He put the ring on my finger then hugged me. I think I even saw him tear up too. He stood up then he picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist, trying to kiss every part of his face. I was so happy that I didn’t think my heart would stand it. I had been given another chance. I damn sure wasn’t about to mess it up.
That night, we made love like it was the first time. I felt like the luckiest woman on the planet. I said a silent prayer of thankfulness because I had almost lost faith in ever being with this man again. I vowed to spend the rest of my life showing how much I loved him every chance I got. I knew the kids would be ecstatic when they saw him.
I had been hurt, lied to, cheated on, and betrayed. I had lived by the motto that you can either love me, or leave me alone. I had failed at living up to my own self-imposed standards. Not too many people are given a second chance at love but if you do get it, hold on tight to it!
I knew that I loved Tyler more than anything. The fact that he had forgiven me was more than enough for me to forgive him. I didn’t even ask him any more questions about what’s her face because I didn’t care. Tyler was my man. Soon I would be his wife! Don’t tell me true love doesn’t exist because I will show you that you are wrong. I’m a hopeless romantic. I live for love. All I’ve ever wanted was to be happy. Finally, I am.
The End
Acknowledgements
First, I want to say how thankful and humbled I am to be able to share my thoughts and ideas with the world.
I want to thank the TVP CEOs, Natissha Hayden and Nesha Mikell. Tish, thanks for the late night chats, the back and forth decisions, revisions, and cuts, and most of all, for putting up with a temperamental author (smile).
To my Keys & No Lock family, I cannot thank you all enough for all of the support, laughs, and cheers. Arkeya, you welcomed me with open arms and I am forever grateful. Good luck in all of your future endeavors. You’re about to bust the scene wide open!
My “Village” family. Ah man, what can I say about the little place that I call home, Thomasville, NC? It means so much to me when I get the love and support from the people right here that grew up with me and watched things evolve into what they are now. It truly does take a village and I am appreciative for everything that the Ville taught me, has shown me, and has done for me.
Marilla Montgomery and Aisha Baker, I want to thank you ladies so much for always being right there with your support, your input, and reading material when I was in the trenches! LOL
Lastly, but most importantly, to the fans and readers who enjoy my work, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!! Without you, none of this would even be worth it.
I read every inbox, email, and message that you all send to me and I get so excited to hear from people who don’t even know me personally, but truly love my work. You guys are all awesome! If I left anyone out, please charge it to my head and never my heart.
This is IT guys! I hope you enjoy it
~ <3 Kisha <3
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Copyright © 2015 Nikisha Mock
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Table of Contents
Main Menu
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Acknowledgements
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