by Ben Bova
“Yes,” I admitted.
“You’re willing to get us all killed, for her?”
“She can stop the war,” I said.
“Dogshit she can. Nobody can stop this war. It’s going to go on forever.”
“Is that what you want?”
“It’s the reason I’m alive, Orion. All of us mutts. Stop the war and they freeze us.”
“Continue the war and you’ll be killed, sooner or later.”
She ran a hand through her short-cropped hair. “Some choice, huh?”
“Maybe I can change things,” I said, not really believing it myself, but wanting to give her some glimmer of hope.
She smiled weakly at me. “You asked me what I wanted. I want you, Orion. I want to get off this damned dogshit of a life and run away and find some happy little world that the Commonwealth and the Hegemony have never even heard of and live a normal life there. With you.”
The look on her face. As if she expected to be hit. Cringing, almost. She had revealed herself to me knowing that there was nothing she could expect except to be hurt.
As gently as I could I took her in my arms and held her for a long, long silent time.
At last she disengaged a little and smiled up at me again. There were tears in her eyes. “Some soldier, huh? I ought to be popped back into a freezer and given a long course in discipline and loyalty, right?”
“You ought to be allowed to live a normal life,” I murmured.
“Yeah. Right.” She pushed entirely away from me and began to strip off her army brown undershirt. “Well, a normal life for us mutts is to follow orders, fight the enemy when we’re awake, train for the next fight when we’re in the freezer. Right?”
There was nothing that I could think of to say. As I watched, Frede stripped naked, stamped barefoot to the bunk and pulled down the top sheet.
“Well, I know my rights. I may be just a mutt, but I know my rights as a soldier. Get your gorgeous ass into bed, sir. It’s time for you to do your fucking duty.”
I made myself smile and say, “Aye, aye, sir.”
Next day the tension on the bridge was thick enough to chew on. We slowed out of superlight one last time, and Frede used the few seconds to snap panoramic views of the star fields around us. Once we were safely back in superlight, she checked our position, made a slight course correction and announced in a loud, brittle voice:
“Next stop, Zeta system.”
The others on the bridge said nothing, but I could see their bodies stiffen and they avoided looking me in the eye.
I ordered the message capsules sent out, one every four hours for the next twenty-four. Thirty hours from now we would slow to relativistic speed at the edge of the Zeta system. We would either be greeted warily as ambassadors under a flag of truce or blown out of existence in a few nanoseconds.
It was a tense thirty hours. The Hegemony could deduce the direction from which we were approaching Zeta by backtracking the message capsules as they appeared in normal space. Thus they could focus their defenses on the area where we would appear. What they could not do was to send us a message in return. I would have given a lot to hear either that they were willing to accept us as ambassadors or that they were waiting to destroy us if we should enter the Zeta system. It would have saved thirty hours’ sweat.
“Lightspeed in one minute,” the navigation computer announced.
“Still plenty of time to turn around, sir,” said Emon, the weapons officer. I glared at him, then saw he was trying to grin at me. It was supposed to be a joke.
“Forty-five seconds.”
“I wonder what it’s like to be a plasma cloud,” Magro, the comm officer, muttered, loud enough for everyone on the bridge to hear.
“Peaceful,” Frede said.
“Mind-expanding.”
“Just plain expanding.”
“Thirty seconds.”
I said, “Just in case you didn’t know, I’ve enjoyed serving with you.”
“We know, sir!”
“A mutt gets to sense when his commander’s having a good time.”
“You’ve got to be born to it. Sir.”
“Ten seconds.”
I glanced at Frede at the instant she happened to look at me. No words. Not even a smile. But we understood one another.
“Lightspeed,” said the computer.
All the screens on the bridge lit up to show a sky full of dazzling stars. And Hegemony dreadnoughts.
“COMMONWEALTH SHIP, YOU WILL ESTABLISH CIRCULAR ORBIT AT FIFTY ASTRONOMICAL UNITS FROM STAR ZETA AND STAND BY FOR BOARDING AND INSPECTION.”
They were not going to shoot first.
I punched the communications keyboard and answered, “We will comply with your instructions.”
They sent Skorpis warriors aboard to inspect us and disarm our ship’s weapon systems. Then they confiscated all our sidearms and assault rifles. I accompanied the boarding team as they went through the Apollo. They were very thorough in their search for weapons, but equally careful not to tear up the ship.
“You will wait aboard your ship until further orders,” the chief of the Skorpis boarding party told me, after his team had finished.
We were standing at the main air-lock hatch. He towered over me by a full head, his shoulders so wide he would have to go through the hatch sideways. I hoped he would remember to duck his head. As it was, his furry skull was bare millimeters from the metal ribbing of our overhead.
“We are Commonwealth military personnel on a diplomatic mission,” I replied to him. “We will accept instructions from your superiors, not orders.”
His lip curled in what might have been the Skorpis equivalent of a smile. “Instructions, then.”
With that, he turned, ducked low, and went sideways through the air-lock hatch to return to his own ship.
I let out a breath of relief.
“I thought they were going to take our butter knives,” Jerron piped when I returned to the bridge.
“Makes you feel kind of naked,” said Emon, “without even a pistol.”
“We’re here to talk, not fight,” I reminded them.
“Yessir, I know. But I still feel naked.”
For two days we waited inside our ship as it swung in orbit out at the far end of the Zeta system. Prime, the capital planet, was far closer to the star Zeta. We were out in the cold and dark, the closest planet a gas giant almost as large as the one at Jilbert.
I wondered if the Old Ones inhabited that huge world, as they did Jilbert’s gas giant. But when I tried to probe for them with my mind I received only silence.
With little else to do, I called up the ship’s information system for data about the gas-giant worlds of the Zeta system. There were three of them. No native forms of life had been found on any of them, as far as the ship’s computer knew. Only the largest, the one closest to the star, bore an ocean of liquid water. The others were too cold for water to remain liquid, even under the pressure of their heavy gravity fields. I studied the information about Prime, instead, looking for all the details I could find about that gray, grim, rainswept world.
Then we received a message that we would be boarded again. I told the crew to spruce up and look snappy for the Skorpis. They complained loudly, their fears of instant annihilation long since forgotten, and grudgingly put on their best uniforms.
“Trying to impress the Skorpis is like trying to train a cat to fetch a stick,” one of the troopers grumbled.
This time, however, it was a human team that came through our air lock. Two male soldiers carrying sidearms and a young woman bearing a red sash across her tunic.
“I am Nella, of the Hegemony diplomatic corps. I am instructed by my superiors to bring your representative to Prime.”
I introduced myself and told her that I was the representative. She looked me over and I did the same to her. Nella was small, almost tiny, and seemed very young. I thought she must have been a very junior member of the diplomatic corps, an expendable, sent
to fetch me by superiors who were still worried that I might be some sort of Commonwealth trick.
I noticed that Frede was studying her even more intently than I. Only then did I realize that Nella was rather pretty, youthfully charming.
“It will be my pleasure to escort you to the capital,” Nella said, with a sparkling smile.
Turning to Frede, I said, “Lieutenant, you’re in command while I’m gone.”
“Yessir,” she said, snapping a salute.
Startled by her formality, I returned Frede’s salute, then told her, “Take care of the ship. And yourself.”
Her face a frozen mask, Frede only repeated, “Yessir.”
The capital city on Prime was a stunning surprise to me. True, most of its buildings were made of heavy gray stone quarried from the nearby cliffs, but everything else the ship’s computer had shown me seemed to be a carefully edited pack of lies—or at least, a terribly slanted view of Prime.
The sky was thick with clouds, but they scudded past on a warm wind from the sea with plenty of blue sky showing between them and sunshine beaming down on the gray old stones of the city. The avenues were thronged with people, vehicles skimming lightly over the guideways, pedestrians strolling past shop fronts displaying brightly colored fashions and all sorts of wares from hundreds of worlds.
There were Skorpis warriors in sight, but not in battle dress. They were easy to spot, their heads bobbing along well above the rest of the crowd. They seemed to be on leave, not on duty. Plenty of other aliens, too, some of them fully encased in space suits to protect themselves from an environment that was hostile to them.
The city seemed happy, busy, engrossed in the everyday matters of shopping, dining, meeting people, finding romance, earning a living, enjoying life. Not at all the grimly forbidding view painted by the Commonwealth’s computer. I was shocked by the contrast. And then I realized that the city did not seem concerned at all about the war. If these people knew that their soldiers and allies were fighting and bleeding and dying for them, they certainly did not show it. Just a few hundred kilometers above their heads orbited dreadnoughts and battle stations ready to blast an invader into subatomic particles. But down here on the busy avenues life went along in sunny unconcern.
I saw all this from inside a luxurious limousine. Nella had brought me straight to the capital’s spaceport, and then we had ridden in this spacious, well-appointed skimmer into the heart of the city. I got the impression that she was enjoying the ride tremendously; she did not often get to ride in such elegance.
We drove through the crowded shopping district, then past long rows of buildings that looked almost like ancient temples. The traffic here was lighter.
“Government offices,” Nella replied when I asked her what they were. She pointed to one as we swept past. “I usually work in there, back in the rear, you can’t see it from here. I don’t have a window, anyway.”
The street climbed up a steep hill.
“That’s the capitol, up in the old castle,” Nella told me. “That’s where we’re going.”
A full honor guard of Skorpis warriors lined the steps as we disembarked from the skimmer and entered the capitol building. I saw that they were fully armed. They fell in step behind us as Nella led me through a large and beautifully furnished entry hall toward a narrower corridor that ended in a metal door.
It was an elevator. The doors slid open to reveal two human soldiers, wearing sidearms only. Nella ushered me in, then came in behind me. The doors shut, leaving the Skorpis detachment outside.
We rode down, not up. “Medical exams,” Nella murmured when the elevator stopped. “We must make certain that you’re not carrying any disease organisms.”
Or bombs, I added silently. The examination was swift and almost completely automated. I was walked through four different scanning archways; then a white-coated human doctor watched as still another automated archway recorded my full-body scan.
“Completely normal,” the physician pronounced, running a finger across the readout display screen. “And extremely healthy.”
Satisfied that I was not a walking bomb, Nella and the two human soldiers led me back to the elevator. Again, we rode down, deeper into the bedrock upon which the city was built.
At last I was led to a massive blastproof parasteel door.
“I’ll have to leave you here,” Nella said, almost apologetic. “When the doors open, step right through. The Director is waiting for you on the other side.”
She hurried away, back to the elevator. I stood in front of the heavy doors, feeling a little silly to be standing there all alone.
Then the doors swung open as silently as the lid of a jewel box. I walked into a dimly lit room. I saw a long highly polished table that seemed to be made of granite or perhaps onyx. High-backed padded chairs lined both sides of the table. All of them empty.
The doors swung shut behind me, casting the room into even gloomier shadows.
There was someone sitting at the far end of the table, at its head. Alone, barely discernible in the dim lighting. I realized that I was bathed in light from a lamp in the ceiling high above, bathed in a cone of light while whoever it was at the head of the table hid in the shadows.
I stepped forward and the cone of light moved with me. Very well, I thought, I’ll go to the head of the table and see who’s there.
But I stopped before I had taken two steps. My eyes adjusted to the dimness and I recognized the figure watching me from the head of the table.
My knees sagged beneath me.
Anya!
Chapter 24
She did not smile at me. She did not give the slightest inkling that she knew who I was. She watched me with those incredibly beautiful gray eyes as I slowly, hesitantly, came toward her. Anya was wearing a simple cream-colored sleeveless dress; her hair was pulled back tightly, highlighting the sculptured plane of her cheekbones, the delicate yet strong curve of her jaw.
As I approached her, slowly, like a penitent making his awestruck way to a shrine, her face began to change. Her skin wrinkled, lost its youthful luster, began to look like faded parchment. Her hair turned gray, then white and lifeless, her hands became knobby claws, spotted with age.
“I am dying, Orion.” Her voice was the croak of a feeble old crone.
I rushed to her side. She barely had the strength to hold up her head. I reached out to take her in my arms, but found myself frozen in place, immobile, helpless.
“Aten and the others have sent you,” she said, her voice a weak, rasping wheeze. “They want to finish the work they began long ages ago.”
I could not even speak. I strained to break free, to reach her.
“Don’t struggle, Orion. You are in a stasis field and you will remain there until I determine what to do with you.”
But I’m not your enemy! I wanted to tell her.
Her withered face cracked into a sad smile. “My poor Orion. Of course you’re not my enemy. Not consciously. Not willingly. But you are Aten’s creature and you will do his bidding whether you want to or not. You have no choice. And I have no choice except to protect myself as best as I can and fight against the others with the last atom of my fading strength.”
You can’t be dying, I said silently.
“I am dying, Orion. It takes a long time, but the strength ebbs away a little more each day, each hour. It took an enormous effort for me to appear young, the way you once knew me, when you first entered this chamber. Now you see me as I am, with very little time left.”
No, I thundered silently. No!
Anya shook her head painfully. “I don’t want it to end this way, my beloved. I don’t want it to end at all. But I am trapped. Aten has won.”
“Never!” I roared. And with all the willpower in me, with all my anger against the smug self-styled Creators, with all the rage against my being used as a witless pawn in this battle across the millennia, with all the blood lust that had been built into me so that I would be a useful hunter, assassi
n, murderer—I broke free.
I tapped the energy of the stars, the energy of the continuum. Just as Aten and the others had sent me across space-time I reached out for Anya and leaped through the continuum, through the endless cold of absolute nothingness, across eons of time and parsecs of space.
And found the two of us standing in a forest. Tall trees dappling the warm high sun, colorful birds flitting through the foliage, squirrels scampering, insects buzzing.
“Orion!” Anya gasped. “How could you…”
Then she looked down at her hands and saw that she was young and strong again. I pulled her to me and kissed her tenderly.
“Do you know where we are?” I asked her.
She took in the entire world in a single glance. “On Earth,” she said. “In the forest of Paradise.”
The wide woodland that someday would become the Sahara Desert. We had lived here with a Neolithic band, happy and content once we had escaped Set and his reptilian invaders.
“You remember that we thought about staying here forever,” I said.
“Yes,” Anya replied. But she pulled slightly away from my arms. “Yet we decided that we could not enjoy Paradise when there were so many conflicts in the continuum that had to be resolved.”
“Perhaps we were wrong,” I said. “Why can’t we stay here and let the continuum solve its problems without us?”
She fixed me with those lustrous eyes of hers. “Because then Aten would solve the continuum’s problems. And he would take all this away from us. He hates you, Orion. He fears you. And he hates me for loving you.”
Aten fears me? That was a new concept for me to consider. “My powers are still growing,” I said. “Perhaps I could protect us, protect this whole segment of the continuum. We could be safe here.”
“Not from Aten. He’s robbed me of my power. He is deliberately killing me, and all the other Creators who sided with me.”
“But here you’re strong and young.”
“Yes,” she admitted, smiling sadly, “but that’s your doing, Orion, not mine. I can’t change form anymore; I’ve lost the power. Aten has stolen it from me. He wants me dead. Me, and all the other Creators who oppose him.”