by Abbi Glines
“So, does this mean I win? Will you do me the honor of accompanying me in my house as a guest, instead of the hired help?”
I grinned. “As long as I’m off the clock.”
He sighed in defeat. “I’ll take what I can get.”
He took my hand and led me into the house. I wasn’t sure how I would handle facing his mother or father. How were they going to react when they found out he was dating the help? But then again, I doubted if they even knew I worked here. Except for the one time I served Jax, I’d never been around either of his parents.
Jax squeezed my hand. “Wait here, let me grab my cell and have Kane get our ride brought around front.”
I nodded and watched him go to the coat closet and open it. He reached inside and took out the black leather jacket I remembered seeing him wear in a recent magazine photo.
He took a slim flat phone out of his pocket and tapped it a few times, and then slipped it into his pocket. He turned his smile on me and crooked his finger. My heart picked up its pace at the expression on his face.
“Your carriage awaits, my lady.”
I walked up to him and slipped my hand in his extended arm. “Ever the gentleman,” I teased.
“Whatever it takes to make the lady smile.”
Once home, I lay in bed staring at the ceiling and wondering how I could pack a lifetime into two short months. I wouldn’t be enough to hold Jax’s interest. But I’d love him enough to enjoy the short window of time we’d have together. When the summer ended, and he left, I’d have my mother and the new baby to be concerned about. If I threw myself into keeping my grade point average of 4.0, school may be an outlet to keep my mind off of the pain. But then again, I might never breathe again once he walked away from me.
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Chapter Seven
I walked into the kitchen the next morning and hung my backpack up on the hook before glancing at the stove where I knew Ms. Mary would be working on the Stone’s breakfast.
“Morning, Ms. Mary, I will be back to help as soon as I get changed.”
Ms. Mary cut her eyes toward me and back toward the table with a frown. I followed her gaze. Leaning back in a kitchen chair, looking ridiculously sexy for seven in the morning, sat Jax. He gave me a crooked grin, and my heart went into a frenzy.
“Hey,” I said this without sounding affected by his presence. I knew he’d said he would be hanging out in the kitchen more often, but I hadn’t realized he meant this early in the morning. “What? Why are you here?”
He raised his eyebrows and grinned at me. “I would have thought that would have been obvious.”
I knew I was blushing. I turned to Ms. Mary and back at him. I knew she wasn’t happy about his presence, and I realized this might cause a problem.
“It’s okay, Sadie. She isn’t mad at you. She’s upset with me. You happen to be who she’s protecting.”
“I, um, need to go change. I’ll be right back,” I said, hoping Ms. Mary’s scowl wasn’t for me.
I walked toward the laundry room. My heart was racing from the frustration of my mixed feelings. Knowing Jax wanted to see me made me extremely happy, but I also didn’t want to upset Ms. Mary. Jax whispered something that sounded defensive. I needed to hurry up. I didn’t want to leave him by himself with Ms. Mary. Which seemed silly, since she worked for him.
“I am not going to hurt her. I know she is special and I tried to stay away, but when I’m with her I don’t feel so cold and alone.”
Jax stood in front of the table with his attention on Ms. Mary. I froze outside the door.
Ms. Mary turned from the stove and pointed a wooden spoon at Jax. “I understand that. But that girl has a lot on her shoulders for a kid her age, and, well, you can’t help it, but you'll break her heart when you leave.” Her whisper wasn’t very quiet. She went back to stirring the pot and shook her head. “I just don’t want her hurt.”
Jax didn’t reply right away. Finally, he said in a whisper, “I’m trying to figure out how I’m going to keep her from getting hurt. Hurting her is the very last thing I want to do.”
I waited a minute more, and then walked back into the kitchen. “Okay, Ms. Mary, where do I start?”
Ms. Mary held out two plates for me. “You go on ahead and enjoy your breakfast with Master Jax.”
I turned toward him as he walked up beside me. “Don’t argue, please,” he whispered, and then took the plates from my hands and went back to the table. I stared helplessly at Ms. Mary. She grinned and handed me two tall glasses of orange juice.
“Just eat with the boy before he starts begging and embarrasses himself,” she said loud enough for him to hear.
He set the plates down grinning.
“It’s the truth and you know it,” she said.
I couldn’t help but smile. I took the glasses and went to the table. Jax pulled out my chair, and I sat down. He sat down beside me and reached under the table and took my hand.
“Thank you for having breakfast with me.”
I smiled at him and nodded. I didn’t think saying “you’re welcome” sounded right. I should be the one thanking him.
I was so hungry, and today’s breakfast tasted much better than what I normally scarfed down after the Stones finished their breakfast. I picked up a piece of bacon and chewed, but the weight of Jax’s gaze made me uncomfortable.
I swallowed and whispered, not wanting Ms. Mary to hear me, “I won’t be able to eat if you are watching me.”
He grinned. “Sorry, it is just something I’ve never seen before.”
I frowned, not really sure what he meant. “You’ve never seen a girl eat?” I asked, confused.
He laughed. “Well, now you mention it, no, I haven’t seen many eat. They normally can’t eat in front of me, or they just don’t as a rule. But what I meant was I’ve never seen you eat, and it’s cute. I didn’t mean to stare. I’m sorry.”
He reminded me of that little boy again, trying to get out of a punishment, and I couldn’t help but smile. “It’s okay, but now you have seen me, so stop watching and eat your breakfast before it gets cold.”
He grinned and looked down at his own food.
The kitchen door swung open, and Marcus stepped inside whistling. “Morning Ms. Mary, got me something good to eat?”
Ms. Mary shot him a silent warning that clearly said behave, and Marcus frowned and turned toward us. Jax leaned back in his chair and took a drink of his juice.
“Ah, good morning, Sadie, Mr. Stone.”
Jax nodded his head toward Marcus, and Marcus’s gaze didn’t linger. He just headed back toward the laundry to get into uniform. I sighed in relief that he hadn’t said anything stupid. Jax leaned toward me.
“Nothing he can say will make me fire him, unless it is against you. Stop worrying. I realize he is angry with me, and part of me doesn’t blame him, but the other part is just relieved you wanted me.”
The place in my heart, where Jax had taken up residence, grew. I smiled at him. “Thank you.”
He shrugged and leaned back again. “You have nothing to thank me for, but you’re welcome.”
The rest of breakfast went smoothly, and Jax pulled me aside before I went to help clean up from breakfast.
“I will try to stay away from you, if I can, while you’re working. But as soon as you’re off, I’m coming to get you.”
A silly grin plastered itself on my face, and I nodded. He took my hand and kissed it before turning to walk away.
I forced myself to push all thoughts of Jax aside in order to stay focused the rest of the day. Several times, a warm tingling sensation coursed through me, and my heart would race knowing he watched me. The end of my workday couldn’t come soon enough. Just as I walked out of the laundry from changing out of my uniform and into my clothes, a hand came out and grabbed me by the arm.
“Come with me,” Jax whispered, and I let him lead me up steps I’d never used and through several doors and hall’s I hadn’t known existed. Final
ly, we were at his bedroom door. I remembered clearly the last time I’d been in there, but walking into it with my hand in his made everything different. This was the place where he slept and wrote songs. Something inside me knew each time I got closer to him, it would make it so much harder when I let him go. I stepped inside, and he closed the door and turned to grin at me.
“I wanted you to see my room. Well, I guess I should say I wanted you to see my room with me.”
He took my hand and pulled me over to the wall of guitars. He reached for the old worn guitar in the middle and took it down. The reverence he seemed to hold for the instrument made me smile.
“That must have been your first one. It looks well loved.”
He nodded and held it out to me. I took the cool, hard wood in my hands and studied the writing on it. I thought at first it was autographed by someone else, but holding it up close, I saw the childish signature clearly read, “Jax Stone.” I ran my fingers over the name, thinking how long ago it must seem to him now.
“When I was seven, I begged my parents for a guitar. They wouldn’t buy me one since I’d also begged for drums the year before and not stayed with my lessons. I promised them I would learn to play without lessons if I could just have one. It took two years before I finally wore them down. I woke up one Christmas, and it was standing in front of the Christmas tree. I’ll never forget the thrill that ran through me. I grabbed the guitar and ran straight back to my bedroom. I played it until I figured out the chorus to ‘Wanted Dead or Alive.’ It was then I realized I could play by ear.”
I read that tidbit once, but I had chalked it up to publicity fiction. “I bet your parents were surprised.”
He laughed and nodded. “Yes, it isn’t every day a nine year old boy picks up a guitar and strums out a Bon Jovi song without any formal training.”
I grinned and handed him the guitar. “So, this is where it all began. No wonder you have this one in the center.”
He nodded and turned to hang it back on the wall.
“No, wait,” I reached out and touched his arm. He glanced back at me. “Play it for me.”
He turned back to the wall of expensive guitars. “Well, I actually lured you in here to unleash my chick magnet gift on you.” He gave me a crooked grin. “Considering my star persona does not impress you, I was going to cheat and pull down the Fender Stratocaster original over there and play you one of my number ones and see if I could get you to become putty in my hands.”
I laughed and shook my head no. “I’m sorry to disappoint you, but your Fender Stratocaster original and a number one hit I have heard countless times on the radio will not make me putty. However, if I can hear you play on that guitar, the first song you ever played, I will see what I can do about turning into putty.”
He sighed playfully and sat down on the edge of his bed. He patted the spot next to him, and I sat down beside him. “I am working with a handicap of an old worn out guitar and a song I haven’t played in years, but if this is what it takes to impress you, then here goes nothing.” He began to play and soon his voice joined the guitar.
If he had been aiming for putty, he succeeded because the sound of his voice made me warm all over. I wanted to close my eyes and picture the little boy in his room on Christmas morning. I could see the boy before he had become a star. The wish that he was normal, and not famous, grew stronger. I felt guilty, but I couldn’t make it go away. If only he were a regular guy who played the guitar well and sang for me on dates down by the water. I let myself look at him as he sang the words, with a grin on his face. I pictured him singing to himself as a boy, as he roamed the outdoors pretending to be a cowboy.
The song came to a close, and he grinned at me. “Well, what did you think?”
I smiled back. “Perfect.”
He laughed and shook his head. “Most girls want love sonnets, and you want a song about a cowboy wanted dead or alive.”
He hung the guitar back up on the wall.
A knock sounded on the door, and Jason Stone entered. He noticed me and stopped. “Uh, sorry, I didn’t realize you were with company. I just walked by and heard you playing that old song and thought I would stop in and see what the reminiscing was about.”
Jax turned and grinned at his brother. “It’s okay. You can come in.”
Jason stepped into the room and closed the door behind him.
“I brought Sadie in here to play one of her favorite number ones I’ve done, and come to find out, she didn’t have one. She doesn’t like me at all.”
I laughed at his expression, and Jason’s shocked look instantly went to a smile when he realized his brother meant to tease me.
“Not true. I happen to really like the song you sang about fighting to find yourself.”
Jax reached for another guitar and froze. He turned back to me. I didn’t know what I said wrong, but he gazed straight into my eyes very seriously for what seemed an eternity. Slowly, a smile formed on his perfect lips right before he asked, “Really?”
I nodded, not sure why this surprised him.
“Me, too,” he finally said, before taking down the other guitar.
I glanced over at his brother, confused, and Jason smiled at me.
“‘Inside War’ was the first song Jax ever wrote. He fought tooth and nail to get it released. Up until that point in his career, he’d recorded songs written by other people. He fought hard for ‘Inside War,’ and it never made it all the way to number one, but got in the top ten. From then on, he was given more free reign on what he sang on his albums.”
I nodded.
Jax had retrieved another guitar and stood by the bed watching me. “Most girls like my love songs.” He shrugged. “You keep surprising me.”
I tried to remember a love song he’d recorded, but none came to mind. At home, Jessica forced me to listen to 80s music. She listened to little else. Music wasn’t something I knew a lot about.
“Okay, sing me one of those famous love songs.”
He grinned and played a soft smooth melody. Soon his voice joined in, and I found myself unable to take my eyes off of him.
“Just to make your eyes sparkle, I’d do anything. I could give it all up to know you were my girl. Just being with you and listening to your laugh is what makes up my other half. I was lost and cold inside when your heart called out to mine. Now I know you’re the only thing that keeps me hanging on, when the rest of the world seems to come crashing down.
“Don’t leave me now! I’ll never make it! Don’t leave me now. I’m not strong enough! You're the reason I can take this guitar and make it sing. Don’t leave me now, or I’ll fall apart.
“I know sometimes life with me is hard to handle. I get caught up in the lights and the crowd. But you’re the reason I keep on playing. Without you girl, it would all die down. Hold onto me through this ride please, because if you let go I will too. If the sparkle in your eyes starts to fade, my heart won’t beat and my song will disappear.
“Don’t leave me now! I’ll never make it! Don’t leave me now. I’m not strong enough! You’re the reason I can take this guitar and make it sing. Don’t leave me now, or I’ll fall apart. Don’t leave me now, or I’ll fall apart. Girl, if you leave me, it will all fall apart.”
His smooth, husky voice stopped, and the guitar playing slowed. When the song ended, I stared at him unable to say anything.
He smiled sheepishly. “The first number one I actually wrote. It’s the song girls always want to hear.”
I smiled, and then sighed. “I wish I could make a wisecrack, but after that performance, I’m torn between standing up and clapping or swooning.”
He threw back his head and laughed. “Ah, finally!”
“I wish I’d learned to play the guitar. I have never seen a girl not get reeled in when he breaks into a love song,” Jason said.
I shrugged in defeat. “I wish I could argue, but I have to admit, watching him sing that song and play the guitar is incredibly hard to resist. I have
heard it before, but never with the view he just gave me, and I will never turn the station when it comes on again.”
Jason burst into laughter, and Jax grinned at me. “You couldn’t let it go without reminding me how unaffected you are by who I am, could you?”
“We wouldn’t want you to get a big head.”
Jason laughed again. “His head has been big since the first time he realized he was a prodigy.”
“I’m just teasing. I have never turned your songs off. The truth is I hardly ever listen to the radio. We have one radio at our house, and my mother loves the 80s. I know more songs from that time frame than I do current songs.”
“I hate 80s music, and I’m very sorry for you,” Jason said with sincerity.
I smiled and shrugged. “It’s not so bad when it’s all you’ve ever known.”
Jason raised his eyebrows like he wasn’t so sure. “Ah, yeah, sure,” he said and grimaced.
Jason looked behind me at Jax, and then cleared his voice and stood up. “Um, well, I guess I will be going. I got somewhere to be. See ya later, Sadie.”
“Okay, bye.”
“Yeah, see ya.”
I turned my attention to Jax after his brother’s hasty departure. “Why did you run him off?”
Jax faked innocence. “I have no idea what you’re talking about. You heard the man, he has somewhere to be.”
I laughed. “Sure he did.”
Jax grinned at me, walked over to a tall chest, and opened a drawer. “If I give you something of mine, will you accept it if I really want you to have it?”
I wasn’t sure how to answer. “Um, I guess it depends on what it is you want to give me.”
He pulled out an iPod and brought it over. “I want you to take this. It’s mine and has some really great artists on there, but I want you to have it because every song I have ever recorded is on there too.”
I took the iPod from his hands. “Thank you.”
“If you don’t want to listen to me, it’s all right. If there are other artists you want on there, just bring it to me, and I will put them on there for you.” He reached back into the drawer. “Oh, and here are some ear buds. I’ll get you a wireless pair, but I need to have them made to fit your ears. We can get