Sands of the Soul s-5

by Voronica Whitney-Robinson

  "Get away from me!" Steorf shouted at Tazi and Fannah.

  He stood swaying in the sand. With one hand he rubbed uselessly at his desiccated eyes. His eyelids had dried, and Tazi had noticed how difficult it had become for him to close them. He had taken on a blank stare because of it. He flailed his other hand out in front of him, desperately trying to ward off his imagined attackers.

  "What's wrong?" Tazi asked him.

  "It's all right," Fannah tried to soothe him, somewhat more aware of the confused state of mind Steorf was slipping into. "We're here."

  Neither of the women's words had their desired effect on the failing mage. He staggered a few steps back from them and started to fumble around with his tattered shirt.

  "Where's Tazi?" he demanded of his apparitions. "What have you done with her?"

  Before Fannah could stop her, Tazi started to move slowly toward Steorf.

  "I'm right here," she tried to convince him.

  "Don't," Fannah warned her. "He no longer knows who we are."

  Steorf tugged at his ripped shirt, and Tazi was startled to see that he was struggling to remove it. Without thinking, she reached over to him and tried to stop his jittery fingers. The moment she touched his hot, dry skin, Steorf swung a fist in her direction. The only reason it didn't connect was because Steorf was so disorientated that his aim was off. Tazi herself was too stunned to move out of his way.

  Steorf staggered a bit more from the momentum of his badly executed punch but recovered enough to yell, "Where is she?"

  "He needs to be stopped before he hurts himself," Fannah exclaimed, closing in on him from one side as Tazi finally made a move from the other.

  Or hurts one of us unintentionally with either his fists or his magic, she thought.

  Steorf was clawing at his sword's scabbard. She sprang at him, all the while trying to be careful of his open wound. Tazi hit him in the shoulders with her outstretched hands, and as they both tumbled to the ground, she tucked herself up to somersault away from him. As soon as her feet hit the ground, Tazi scrambled around and slipped her right arm around his throat. Kneeling behind his prostrate form, she grabbed her left shoulder with her right hand and secured him in a head-lock. She slipped her left forearm between her chest and the back of his head and applied increasing pressure until he became still, her chokehold the gentlest way she knew how to take him out.

  "I'm sorry," she whispered as she relaxed her hold on him, certain he was unconscious.

  She even allowed herself a moment to pass her hand through his hair. The strawlike quality it had taken on was simply one more reminder of their predicament.

  "Are you all right?" Fannah asked her.

  "Yes," Tazi choked out, "but we can't go on any farther like this."

  "Then this is where we'll rest," Fannah replied and kneeled down.

  As Fannah began to scrape away a large layer of sand from in front of her, Tazi asked, "What are you doing?"

  "I'm removing the top cover of sand, which is the hottest. A few inches down," she explained to Tazi, "the sand will be significantly cooler."

  Tazi fell to her knees as well and helped clear away the hot sands. When they had cleared a furrow large enough to hold Steorf, both she and Fannah dragged his inert body over and laid him in it. Tazi felt as though they were lowering him into a grave and tried desperately to keep that image from creeping back into her thoughts.

  Tazi could only watch uselessly as Steorf suffered in mute torment. He came around shortly after being placed in the cooling pit, but he shook uncontrollably, caught in the grip of fever chills. When he faced Tazi, however, there was recognition in his eyes.

  "What happened?" he asked weakly.

  "You got a little confused," Tazi explained gently.

  "And?" he prompted her.

  Tazi wasn't sure what offered the most temporary relief: that he had regained consciousness at all or that he actually appeared to understand the conversation they were having.

  "I think this was your way of getting even with me for years of tricks," she admitted. "You took a swing at me."

  "Are you all right?" he asked, his own eyes filling with concern.

  She leaned closer to him and whispered, "Not even on your best day could you ever hope to touch me."

  Steorf tried to smile but instead stifled a cry of pain. Though he tried to maintain a brave front, Tazi knew with an absolute certainty that he was dying. Her faint smile died on her chapped lips. She and Fannah busied themselves and tried to make him as comfortable as possible. Fannah removed her outer robe and pillowed it under his head.

  "There is not much more we can do for him," Fannah whispered to Tazi.

  She looked more closely at him and saw that his wound continued to slowly seep. The discharge was a mixture of the worm's milky venom and a trace of his own blood. What filled Tazi's heart with dread were the red lines of infection that had spidered out from the original injury. Tazi knew that their inexorable march to his heart was what spelled Steorf's doom.

  "I will not accept this," Tazi said. She was filled with the absolute need to move. "There has to be something we can do."

  "I do not know of anything within the Calim that could cure him," Fannah replied.

  She rubbed her forehead, tired.

  "Think!" Tazi ordered the Calishite angrily. "There has got to be something here. Anything!"

  "There maybe something that might at least alleviate his suffering somewhat," Fannah recalled eventually.

  "What is it?" Tazi asked, ready to grasp at any straw offered.

  "Before the worm attacked us," Fannah explained, "I had been telling Steorf about a plant that we might come across, and I had wanted him to watch for it. It is called the Calim cactus."

  "What's so special about it?"

  "The plant is rather unassuming; growing no more than three to four inches tall, and it provides very little nutrition. But it has an extensive root system that runs several feet across just under the sand."

  Fannah described the thing deliberately, accurately drawing a mental picture for Tazi with her words.

  "How can this help us?" Tazi asked, a seed of hope growing inside her as she committed the description to memory.

  "What the plant does to trap moisture is raise its roots above the sands and absorb what water there is before pulling them back underground."

  "So the roots are full of water," Tazi deduced, growing excited.

  "If we can find some that have buried roots," Fannah cautioned her. "Only those will have liquid in them."

  "I will find them," Tazi swore. "I want you to stay with Steorf in case he needs something."

  "I don't know what I can do for him," Fannah said, slightly flustered.

  "You can be with him," Tazi explained. "Let him know he's not alone."

  Fannah nodded and moved back over to Steorf's side. She gathered up one of his hands in hers and squeezed it tight. Tazi wasn't sure what he was aware of at this point. She emptied the sack containing Ciredor's writings and left them in Fannah's keeping.

  "I'll need something to put the roots in," she told Fannah confidently.

  She stroked Steorf's forehead, shocked by the heat that radiated from him.

  "I'll be back as quick as I can," she promised her two friends.

  "We will be waiting," Fannah answered.

  Tazi turned and marched off to the west. The sun had reached its apex, and Tazi could feel her arms burn under its glare. With only her leather vest and pants, her arms were near to blistering. She occasionally wiped at her eyes, which had become bitterly painful. As she became more and more dehydrated, she could literally feel her eyes pull back in their sockets. Tazi realized that her orbs were mostly comprised of water and she was losing that at an alarming rate, so her body stole from itself. There was nothing to be done about it other than finding the Calim cactus.

  Part of her rational mind was convinced that they were going to fail. There was no other logical outcome. But deeper down, in h
er soul, she hadn't quit, and that was the force that drove her on. It was as though the desert had burned away everything excessive that she carried and left her only her core intact, like a worn stone. The mild winds had smoothed and shaped her and left her determined.

  "That's why Fannah knew I needed to pass through the ritual successfully," she said aloud. "Out here, we are nothing but our true selves, whatever they may be."

  A little farther to the west, Tazi saw what she thought was some scrub and rocks.

  "Please," she whispered in a voice rapidly becoming hoarse, "let that be real. No more illusions."

  As she trudged closer, the scrub did not fade from view or remain in the distance. Tazi realized she was actually gaining on it. Heartened, she picked up speed, and soon enough she was in the middle of a small area of brush. Though it was mostly insignificant piles of rocks and quick-moving lizards, there was a little plant life.

  Everything she saw was dead. Tazi slumped down on the ground and dropped her head in defeat. She wanted to scream but didn't possess the energy.

  Shaking her head, she whispered, "I don't even have enough water for tears. In the end, I'm not even allowed that."

  She debated going farther but knew she had reached her limit if she was going to return to her friends.

  "If I'm going to die," she finally said, "there's no finer company to be in."

  She started to rise wearily to her feet when some movement to her right caught her eye. Several speckled lizards darted in and out of a cluster of stones. Almost as though mocking her, one sat on a small boulder and defiantly licked at the moisture on its own eyeball. Tazi toyed with the idea of trying to catch some of them, but tossed the thought aside.

  "Even if I could snare you little demons," she muttered, "all of you put together wouldn't make a meal worth the effort."

  Something about their numbers puzzled her, though. Nowhere else in this little haven had she seen any wildlife.

  "Just what makes that pile of rocks so special," she wondered aloud, "that you all have to hide there?"

  She moved over to investigate, and the moment her shadow passed over the lizards they scattered in every direction on their spindly legs. She didn't bother worrying about whether they might be poisonous or not, if any still remained. She simply thrust her hands into the clutch of stones and started moving them around.

  There, nestled in the protective shelter of the gravel, was a small clump of what could only be Calim cacti.

  "Thank you," she murmured to no one in particular.

  More precious than gold, the group of plants meant possible salvation. Tazi was overjoyed to discover that there was more than one and all of them had submerged roots. She carefully brushed away some of the sand and began to pluck the cacti. They had sharp thorns that tore at her cracked hands but Tazi hardly felt the pain as she pulled out the only desert treasure worth harvesting.

  True to Fannah's description, the tiny plants had tremendously long roots and Tazi could feel that they were heavy with moisture. She used her sword to hack the roots free from the thorny part of the plants. Tazi then tossed the cactus tops aside and hoped that they might form new root systems.

  "Something for the next lost soul," she explained to a lone lizard before it skittered away.

  When her sack was full of the priceless fauna, she stood up and started to turn around. One last cactus caught her attention, and she nearly dismissed it as the plant's roots were fully exposed. Prom what Fannah had explained, that meant the plant was seeking water and of no use to Tazi-but a strange thought came to her mind.

  "It's worth a try," she said as she carefully removed the whole plant.

  She carried this one away from the bag crammed with the engorged roots and started the trek back to her friends. She debated about trying one of the roots on the march back, and though her logical mind argued that it made sense since she had expended so much energy to find them, she found she couldn't do it knowing that Fannah and Steorf still suffered without water.

  "We'll all have some soon enough," she promised to the little voice of reason that nagged her.

  Whether it was because she had simply not accurately kept track of time or her excitement had quickened her pace, Tazi made it back to her friends in short order. Even from a brief distance, one look at Fannah's face spoke volumes to Tazi. There wasn't much time left for Steorf. She rushed to their side.

  "Fannah," her voice cracked, "I found them."

  "Thank Sharess," Fannah offered in prayer. "I knew she would show you the way."

  Tazi found herself tempted to make a joke about Sharess and speckled lizards, but she didn't. She realized that she wasn't sure if someone had led her to the plants or not, so instead of insulting any benevolent forces, Tazi dropped her sack in front of Fannah and laid the intact plant beside Steorf.

  "What's the best way to get the water from them?" she asked.

  Fannah took a chunk of one of the roots and scored it with Tazi's dagger. It started to bleed water.

  "Hold this with both hands," she instructed Tazi, "and suck on it. When you can't get any more liquid out of it, chew up the pulp and extract the last bit of water that way."

  Tazi took the first piece that Fannah had cut and held it to Steorf's lips. His face was flushed, and Tazi was alarmed to see that he had stopped perspiring altogether. For a heartbeat, he didn't respond to the liquid Tazi could see rolling into his mouth and she feared the worst.

  She leaned close to his ear and implored, "Please take it, Steorf. I won't go on without you."

  She held her breath.

  Slowly, Tazi could see Steorf's eyes flicker and his tongue gingerly dab at his moistened lips and the strange object he found near his mouth. His eyes opened slightly, and Tazi knew he recognized her. She hadn't lost him.

  "Don't talk," she whispered. "Just keep sucking on this. I'll explain it all later."

  She placed his hands onto the plant.

  "Take this," Fannah told her gently and handed her a section of the root. While Tazi sucked out the life-saving liquid, Fannah asked, "Did you bring any of the little cacti as well?"

  "I thought about it," Tazi said between slurps, "but, in the end, I left the tops where I found them. I hoped that they might form new roots and continue to grow. That way, they might be there for someone else one day."

  Her idea sounded ridiculous when spoken aloud.

  I should have taken them for what little food they would have provided, she berated herself.

  Fannah, however, nodded.

  "A wise offering back to the desert," she complimented her bewildered friend. "You know more about life than you give yourself credit for."

  "I did bring one plant back intact," Tazi said quietly, "because I have an idea. You said the cactus uses its roots to suck in moisture, right?"

  Fannah agreed and Tazi could see the same idea now dawn on her friend.

  "I found one that was thirsty," Tazi continued, "and I'm sure it's even thirstier now. Maybe the sun has gotten to me, but I'd like to try something."

  Tazi knew Fannah had grasped her train of thought. She turned to face Steorf.

  "I have an idea that I want to try out," she explained to him.

  He nodded at her with glazed eyes, not really comprehending what she was saying but simply trusting her.

  Tazi reached for the cactus and gripped the base of the plant with one hand and held one of its longest roots, nearly three feet in length, against the wound on Steorf's chest. Almost immediately, Tazi could see the milky discharge disappear into the moisture-starved plant. Several minutes passed, and Tazi watched as the root started to swell where it touched Steorf. That swelling slowly grew and progressed up the length of the root, but when the swelling reached the base of the plant, the thorny cactus started to sag. Tazi pulled the dying plant away from Steorf.

  She knew that the plant wouldn't be able to draw out all of the poison, but judging from the new width of the root, it had removed a significant portion. Between
that and the water, Steorf started to lose the vacant glaze in his eyes. Tazi squeezed his hand and gave him a new section of root.

  When all the cacti were gone, Steorf was much more alert. However, though he was somewhat recovered, he was by no means cured of the worm toxin, and Tazi knew it.

  "When this is all over," she told him, "I'll get you to a proper healer."

  " 'When this is over…' " he repeated, marveling at her choice of words.

  "Yes," Tazi answered him, "when this is all finished."

  "If you are feeling a little stronger," Fannah interrupted, "perhaps you can finish these."

  She held out Ciredor's parchments, and Steorf accepted the sheaf of papers. Both Tazi and Fannah helped him to a sitting position. He looked at his two friends, obviously worried.

  "I'm not sure I can do this," he finally admitted.

  "Yes, you can," Tazi encouraged him. "You were almost finished before you were injured. You can do this now."

  Tazi could see how worried he looked. She suspected that since his physical strength had failed him, he was frightened that his sorcerous abilities would, too.

  "Fannah needs your help." She lowered her voice so only he would hear her. "I can't translate these papers, and we need to find Ciredor."

  "You're right," he said finally. "Give me a moment."

  He handed the parchments back to Tazi. She gripped the papers and watched Steorf expectantly.

  Steorf closed his eyes and concentrated. For a brief time, Tazi thought he was going to fall short again, but his hands started to glow with a white intensity he had failed to reach on his first attempt after the worm was vanquished. Tazi found she was holding her breath and was wrinkling the parchments in her fists.

  "Please…" she whispered.

  Steorf broke into a sweat, and Tazi recognized what a conundrum he was in. Exhausted from the poison, he was straining what meager reserves he had left to heal himself. Tazi shook her head with the realization that they were using themselves up, one by one.