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[Night Walkers 02] - Paranoia (2014)

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by J. R. Johansson


  Now I didn’t think she would even give me the chance.

  Now I knew she probably shouldn’t.

  I deleted the pictures, tossed my phone onto my desk, and pulled my pillow on top of my head. My dad was being held prisoner. I couldn’t help him. My best friend was mad at me. Addie hated me. And I agreed with her.

  This week was already tied for Worst Week Ever with the one when Jeff had tried to set me on fire, and it was only Monday. Super.

  There was a light knock on my open door. I grunted but didn’t remove the pillow.

  “Can I come in?” Mom’s voice sounded concerned.

  “Yeah.” My voice was muffled, but I felt the bed shift when she sat on the edge of it a minute later.

  “Did I see Jack leave this morning with Addie?”

  I tried to force the emotion out of my voice when I answered. “Yep.”

  Her hand landed on my knee and squeezed. “You want to talk about it?”

  “Not really.” I pulled the pillow off my head and sat up. “But all I seem to do is mess things up lately. Maybe if I let someone else tell me what to do, that might change.”

  Mom was dressed for work, but she sat against the end of my bed and acted like she had all the time in the world. “Let’s give it a try.”

  “Addie is … well … ” This was more awkward than I’d expected.

  “You like her and she likes you,” Mom stated without any doubt.

  “Yeah … ” I tilted my head. “How long have you … ”

  “A long time.” She smiled. “Probably longer than you. Moms notice these things. It’s part of the job.”

  “Guess so … well, I did some things, not intentionally, that really hurt her.” I ran my right hand through my hair. “Now she’s hurt and angry, and I don’t think I can fix it. I’m not even sure if I should.”

  “Why not?” Now she looked surprised.

  “Maybe she’s better off?” I shrugged and looked down at Jack’s pillow. At least he could control his own actions. At least he could be trusted.

  Mom didn’t respond until I looked up at her. She had a sad smile on her face. “Your dad hurt me a lot when he left. I know he hurt you, too.”

  This conversation had taken an unexpected turn. I nodded, trying not to let the secrets I held about Dad show on my face.

  “Still, I wouldn’t trade a minute I had with him to take all the pain away.” She reached out and squeezed my hand. “I’ve seen the way Addie looks at you, Parker. She doesn’t look at Jack like that. Give her a reason to forgive you, say you’re sorry, and don’t make the same mistake again.”

  The only thing I could think was, what if I can’t make that promise? But I said, “Thanks, Mom.”

  She smiled and stood up. “I’m going to work. Don’t waste your day. Go fix things with your friends … fix things with Addie.”

  I gave her a crooked grin. “Why are you trying to help me make up with her? Aren’t you supposed to want me to stay single forever?”

  Mom ruffled my hair and this time I didn’t pull away. “I’m supposed to want my son to be happy. You’re happy around Addie. It’s simple.”

  She was right. Addie made me happy. And Jack was right, too. Addie was amazing and she deserved better. As Mom walked out and shut the door, I knew there was only one thing left to do.

  I would be better.

  Time felt like it slowed down as I got ready and drove to Finn’s house. I’d let Addie and Jack go on their date. I wouldn’t get in their way. Instead, I’d tell Finn how I felt about his sister and see if I could do anything to fix whatever had pissed him off.

  Then … I’d talk to Mia and hope that I was wrong about what she wanted to tell me.

  Darkness appeared in the passenger seat and it took all my strength not to try to smash his nonexistent face through the windshield. He didn’t say anything, but he looked pretty pleased with himself.

  “Why?” It was the only word I trusted myself to speak.

  “You know why I let you watch. As for the rest … I’m helping you. You said I always ruin things and so this time I decided to help.” He smiled, and there was a touch of acid behind it. “You’re welcome.”

  “How on earth did this help?” Every word scratched my throat with raw anger.

  “You were stuck in between. Even after the fight, Addie might have forgiven you and ditched Jack, and things would have gone back to the way they were. You were hoping that.” He stared at me hard and then gave a little nod. “Now she won’t. No more sitting on the fence. You’re all in or you’re out in the cold. It’s better this way.”

  “How is this better and why do you even care?”

  “You’re stronger with your friends, but you’re weaker when your secrets keep you trapped in the middle.” His mouth pressed into a firm line. “The less Divided we are when going after the NWS, the better. I’m really not sure about you, but I like surviving.”

  I pulled up to the curb in front of Finn’s house, getting more confused by the minute. “First—in case you didn’t notice, we don’t even know where the NWS is, let alone how to go after them. Second—if this is how you do it, please stop trying to help me!”

  Turning off the car, I jumped out before he could try to argue any further, but when I stepped out he was right in front of me. Fury drove me forward and I swung at him, knowing it would do no good. I fell back against the car and he crossed his arms over his chest.

  “Well, that was stupid.”

  I leaned my head back against the car. “All I want in the world is for you to shut up and leave me alone. Just stop all this.”

  “It’s good to want things … ” He gave me a lazy grin, positively reveling in my frustration. “But as I was saying, we don’t have to know where the NWS is. We know who the Taker is. All we have to do is ask, and I’m sure he’ll take us to whoever has Dad. We just need to know how to get back out.”

  I blinked at the absolute conviction in my own eyes. “You are crazy.”

  “If Jack won’t tell us, it’s the only way.”

  “Why should we go after Dad?” My mind filled with acrid resentment. I knew Jack said he was trying to protect me and Mom, but Dad could have let us know he was okay if he’d wanted to. He never even cared enough to drop a post card in the mail.

  “Your bitterness rules you.”

  I stared at Darkness in utter confusion. “Says the king of revenge body snatching! You make absolutely no sense!”

  He shook his head and opened his mouth to speak again when I heard Finn’s voice behind me.

  “Who are you talking to?” Finn sounded worried, but when I turned to face him, he took a step back. What I read on his face was more than worry; it was fear.

  “It’s kind of a long story.” I wanted to kick myself for not being more careful. Addie was the only one I’d ever told about Darkness. I’d kept Finn out of it. When would I learn that keeping my friends in the dark never paid off?

  I would learn it now—right now. “But I’ll tell you everything,” I added. “If you’ll let me.”

  chapter seventeen

  We sat on a low garden wall behind Finn’s house, across from the basketball hoop. He’d agreed to listen, but he wouldn’t look at me and the muscle in his jaw kept twitching. His shirt of the day read, You’ll Regret Reading This Shirt When the Sketch Artist Asks You to Describe My Face.

  I really wasn’t sure where to begin, but I figured the best option would be to start with the secret I’d been hiding the longest. That way it would be harder to chicken out.

  “I like Addie.” I forced the words out as quick and straightforward as I could. “I don’t know how much of our conversation you heard yesterday, but I’m guessing at least that much.”

  Finn didn’t look up, but he picked the basketball up from between his feet.

  “We’ve … liked each other for a while, but I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want to make you angry after all your bro-code talk.”

  Finn laughed, col
d as ice, and shook his head. “You should’ve just told me when it started.”

  “I know. I’m sorry.”

  “I’m not the one you should be saying you’re sorry to.” His fingers tightened on the ball until I thought it might pop.

  “I’ll be doing that next.” I couldn’t get a feel for how this conversation was going. Finn almost seemed to be getting angrier. “You should know that I’d never intentionally hurt Addie.”

  “Well, intentionally or not, you sure have been hurting a lot of people lately.” Finn stood up and threw the ball up so hard the backboard vibrated loudly for what felt like minutes.

  “I get why Addie is mad at me, and I really deserve it.” Standing up, I stretched, then walked around Finn and looked him in the eye. “But why are you? You’ve seemed mad since you got back.”

  “Because I’m tired of watching you hurt people I care about. What were you thinking, Parker? That you could just toy with them both and it would be fine?” Finn’s fist kept clenching and unclenching at his side. If he didn’t have superhuman levels of restraint, I was pretty sure he would have punched me already.

  “Wait, toy with who?”

  Finn scoffed. “Oh that’s right, you haven’t confessed to that part of it yet. Are you going to or do you just want

  to keep the secrets that are convenient for you?”

  I shook my head. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

  “The fact that you’ve been messing around with Mia and Addie at the same time. It was bad enough knowing you were making out with my sister every time I turned my back, but then I found out you had something going with Mia, too. It’s just too much, man.”

  “Whoa, what? I don’t understand … ” My mind whirled trying to keep up with everything he’d said. I took a step forward, but when I put my hand on his shoulder, Finn jerked back and shoved my arm away. I looked him straight in the eye and spoke slowly, emphasizing every word. “Listen to me—I have never had anything going on with Mia.”

  Finn looked at me, his conviction wavering for a second, then said, “And if I’d asked you a week ago, would you have said the same thing about Addie?”

  I hesitated. He had me on that one, and I wasn’t going to lie about it. I couldn’t believe he’d known all along. “Probably … but I’m telling the truth about Mia. Where did you even get the idea there was something going on between us?”

  Finn walked back to the wall and sat down, looking confused. “When we were on vacation, she asked me to go get her phone and a text from you came in. When I pulled it up, I saw the text about her missing you and wanting to talk to you and everything. Did I read it wrong?”

  Slumping down beside him, I pushed one hand through my hair, tugging on the strands. “I don’t know … to be honest, that message freaked me out a little, too.”

  He turned to face me and I could see defeat written on his face. “So there hasn’t been anything going on, but she wants there to be?”

  “I don’t know, Finn, and honestly it doesn’t matter. I want to be with Addie and as much as you deny it, I know you like Mia.”

  His cheeks flushed red all the way up to his hairline, but he didn’t argue.

  “I might bend your bro-code with the sister rule, but I wouldn’t stomp all over it like that.” I grinned, got up, and jogged over to the basketball. When I came back, Finn was on his feet and had a small smile on his face. He looked like the normal Finn for the first time since he’d gotten back from Disney World.

  “No more vacations.” I tossed him the ball and he gave me a confused look. “They change you, man.”

  He laughed, then jogged to the hoop and made a layup. When I ran up next to him, he passed me the ball and looked hesitant for a second.

  “When you do find out what’s going on with Mia … ” His words came out fast and uncomfortable. Finn had always talked big about the cheerleaders and girls he’d gone out with, but I could tell pretty early on that Mia was different.

  “I’ll tell you as soon as I know.” I dribbled the ball, and then looked up. “How long have you known about Addie and me?”

  “Since the day of the fire at the school.” Finn frowned. “You should’ve heard her voice when she called and asked me to go after you. It was obvious. After that, well … you guys just aren’t as sneaky as you think you are.”

  My mouth dropped open. “Why didn’t you ever tell us that you knew?”

  He shrugged and looked a little uncomfortable. “It was nice to keep it a secret. I was afraid that if you knew that I knew, then everything would change. With the fire and you being a Watcher—I just felt like enough had changed already. I decided to wait until you told me. I just didn’t think it would take this long.”

  I nodded. “I’m sorry. I’ve screwed a lot of things up.”

  “It’s okay.” He looked serious, but I could see him holding back a smile. “It’s kind of what you do.”

  “Sad but true.” I put up a shot and made it.

  “Do me a favor, though?” Finn caught the ball, dribbled it out to the three-point line, and made the shot.

  “Yeah?”

  “Whether I’m okay with it or not, don’t make out with my sister in front of me. Just the few seconds I saw yesterday gave me nightmares.”

  “Yeah, that isn’t something you need to worry about.”

  “Oh, but it is.” He shuddered and missed his first shot all day.

  “I doubt it. She said yes to a date with Jack because I was stupid. And then their date happened today because I was even more stupid. She’s angry at me, Finn, and she has several very good reasons to be.” I groaned. Just thinking about what Addie and Jack could be doing right now made me feel ill. How could I have screwed up this bad?

  “Jack’s a hoser.” Finn stopped bouncing the ball and palmed it in his right hand. “Why is he going after her?”

  “He basically thinks she’s the thing he’s been looking for since he became a Watcher. Oh, and that I don’t deserve her,” I muttered, kicking a small rock into the garden. “It doesn’t help that I agree with him.”

  “Don’t be an idiot.”

  “Too late.” I sat back down on the wall. “Remember how you asked who I was talking to, over by the car? Well, I’ve done a lot worse things than talk to myself. You sure you want to hear all of it?”

  “One question.” Finn grabbed the basketball, sat next to me, and spun it on one finger. “Am I going to need popcorn for this?”

  It took about a half an hour and a whole lot of discussion to explain everything to Finn. I told him about Darkness and how he sometimes took control, and what Jack had said about being Divided. I talked about how making eye contact with Cooper had somehow landed me in jail, the picture Darkness sent Addie, the painting episode from Mia’s dream last night, even Dr. Freeburg. I told him everything I’d been wanting to, plus a whole lot of things I wished I never had to tell anyone.

  Finn asked some questions at the end: about split personalities, multiple personalities, and why I was pretty sure this wasn’t some kind of demonic possession. Finally he shook his head and stopped asking questions. He didn’t look horrified, disgusted, or—what I’d feared most—afraid of me.

  He sat for a little while in silence, then tugged on his ear before saying, “Well, you sure know how to keep things interesting.”

  “I guess so.”

  “So you have an alternate personality type thing that likes to cause massive amounts of trouble, you may have killed some old geezer in his dreams … ”

  “Probably—”

  “Maybe—I’m with Addie on this one. You don’t know for certain and believe me, the rest is bad enough as it is.” Finn stared at me hard, his face unreadable. “You’ve been thrown in jail,” he continued, “made out with random girls you don’t know, are a proven stalker, have a history of screwing everything up whenever you try to help—and you want to date my little sister.”

  I couldn’t meet his stare any longer. Every detail w
as absolutely true.

  He shrugged and stood up, stretching his back. “I guess she could do worse.”

  A startled laugh burst from my chest and I studied his face. Finn gave me a sideways grin, then picked up the ball and headed for the house.

  “How could she possibly do worse?” I followed, a little stunned, in his wake.

  “I don’t know. You could be a terrorist, or … ” He turned and gave me a horrified expression. “Someone who can’t appreciate old kung-fu movies.”

  I laughed. “I’m surprised I met your high expectations.”

  “Don’t get me wrong. I’m worried about what’s going on with you, and if you hurt her I will kill you in both my dreams and reality.” He held open the back door, his face serious as he waited for me to catch up. “But I’ve known you my whole life. You’re a good guy. I know that … and so does Addie.”

  “Thanks, man.” I ducked past him out of the bright sunlight and into the dark kitchen—and ran straight into Mia. I had to grab her arms to keep her upright.

  “Sorry, Mia!”

  Finn came in behind me and I quickly jerked my hands back. Mia nearly lost her balance with the sudden movement. Finn gave me a small smile, and Mia glanced between us in confusion before turning to me.

  “I’ve been looking for you. Do you have a second to talk to me now?”

  I sat down at the kitchen table. “Sure. Go ahead.”

  Finn grabbed us each a bottled water from the fridge and tossed one over Mia’s shoulder, straight into my hand.

  She flinched. “Uh, can we go outside where there are less … ” She glanced toward Finn. “Flying objects?”

  I looked at Finn. His face fell, but he nodded slightly and spoke up. “It’s fine. I was going to go watch some TV anyway.”

  He walked past us with a wave and down the hall. I heard the TV turn on, but I wondered if he was actually watching it.

  Pivoting in my seat, I kicked the chair across from me out and Mia slid into it. Her long brown hair was pulled back from her face and it made her eyes look even bigger than normal. She was really pretty, but even so, I just didn’t feel that way about her. She was more like a sister to me, one that I alternated between tormenting and wanting to protect—a lot like a sister, actually. At least, what I’d think it would be like to have one. Now, I just hoped I didn’t have to hurt her more than I already had.

 

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