They both stopped and stared at each other.
“Ladies before gentlemen,” Troy said and gestured toward her.
“You spoke first.” She motioned back at him.
Troy hardly knew where to begin. He made a couple of awkward attempts. “When I saw you…” He paused. “I never should’ve said the things I…”
Faith smiled and her expression softened. “Are you actually apologizing, Troy Davis?”
He chuckled and conceded with a nod. “I am.”
“Do the words always get stuck in your throat?”
“With you they seem to.”
“That’s a sad commentary, isn’t it?”
He had to agree.
Her shoulders relaxed. “I admit no one has the power to unsettle me as much as you do.”
They continued to stand in their respective areas, Faith near the front door, Troy on the other side of the room.
“Is that good or bad?” he asked.
She took a moment to consider. “A bit of both, I guess.”
With that, it seemed they’d said everything there was to be said. The strained silence returned. When Troy could no longer stand not knowing, he asked, “Are you still planning to move?”
Faith broke eye contact. “I don’t know…I think it might be for the best.”
“Because of me?”
She smiled at that. “Why is it men always assume they’re the sole reason for a woman’s decisions?”
“I don’t know. Why?”
“You ask that as if I’m going to give you a punch line.” She shook her head in amusement. “I guess the answer is that men tend to be self-centered.”
He didn’t argue with her. “You’re probably right.”
Troy thought he saw Megan poke her head around the corner, but she didn’t return with her “found” knitting.
His pride felt like a lump in his throat. Somehow he managed to speak around it. “Don’t leave, Faith.” If she moved away, he knew he’d regret that he hadn’t asked her to stay. He’d regret that he hadn’t tried to stop her.
To his utter astonishment, her eyes filled with tears. He had no idea what he could’ve said to cause such a reaction. Every time he opened his mouth he upset her. That was the last thing he wanted. Feeling completely helpless, he covered the distance between them and wrapped his arms around her.
At first she resisted and then, gradually, he felt her resolve weaken as she leaned against him. Troy held her enclosed in his embrace.
Megan cleared her throat as she entered the room.
They broke apart like guilty teenagers.
“Here’s the blanket,” his daughter announced in an unnecessarily loud voice.
“Oh, let me see,” Faith said with more enthusiasm than warranted. Almost eagerly she walked away from Troy and toward Megan.
Troy could see that Faith’s skin was flushed with embarrassment. While she examined Megan’s knitting, Troy’s mind whirled with hope and excitement, and his spirits felt lighter than they’d been in weeks.
In his heart of hearts, he was convinced Faith loved him as much as he loved her. This being apart was ridiculous. He knew what he wanted, and that was to have Faith in his life. They were meant to be together. He felt sure that, given time, she’d admit it, too.
“Oh, Megan, you’ve done a splendid job.”
His daughter fairly beamed at Faith’s praise. “Did you notice the mistake I made here?” she asked, pointing to what must’ve been a small flaw in the blanket.
“No, and no one else will, either.”
“I do, but I have to look for it. Remember what you told me when I first started knitting?”
Faith frowned and gave a slight shrug.
“You said,” Megan reminded her, “that if it bothered me I should rip it out and repair the mistake, but if it was something small and barely noticeable I should simply forget it.”
“Remember there are three stitches in knitting. Knit, purl—”
“—and rip,” Megan completed for her. “That isn’t technically a stitch, but it’s certainly part of my knitting process.”
“It’s part of everyone’s process,” Faith said, and they both laughed.
Faith made a couple of other complimentary remarks about the blanket while Troy waited patiently.
“I should be going,” he said pointedly when Megan brought out the new yarn she’d purchased. It was obvious that she and Faith had become good friends and shared an easy camaraderie.
Faith turned and her gaze immediately found his. “I should go, too. Oh, look at the time,” she said. “Craig will be home soon, won’t he? You two will want to have dinner.”
“Okay,” Megan said. Troy supposed she figured her work was done.
Troy held the door for Faith and was about to follow her when Megan placed her hand on his arm, stopping him. “You’re not upset with me, are you?”
Troy looked over at Faith and saw that she stood next to her car, waiting for him.
“Not in the least.”
“Someone had to do something, and I could see you were too stubborn.”
“Me? Stubborn?” Troy protested. “What about Faith? She’s the stubborn one.”
“Maybe so, but I doubt it.” Megan rose up on the tips of her toes and kissed his cheek. “Don’t let her get away, Dad.”
“I won’t,” he promised.
“Good.” She gave him a gentle shove. “Now what are you doing standing here? Go talk to Faith.”
“That’s exactly what I plan to do.” He bounded down the steps and met Faith in the driveway.
The words he’d planned to say were trapped in his throat.
“Would you like to stop by the house for a little while?” Faith asked when he reached her.
By some miracle he managed to nod.
“Shall we say in fifteen minutes?”
“Ten?” he suggested instead.
Faith laughed. “Five?”
“Why don’t I just follow you home?”
She nodded.
Troy started toward his own car. “I’ll see you there.”
“Troy?” Faith stopped him, sounding uncertain.
“Yes?” He turned to face her again.
She paused. “I want to settle these…these differences between us.”
“I do, too.”
“It’s just that…Oh, I don’t know…”
“Faith,” he said softly, walking back to stand in front of her. “Let’s not make any decisions yet. Let’s talk honestly and openly, and if we both decide a relationship is wrong, we’ll lay it to rest once and for all. Does that seem fair to you?”
She looked up at him, her eyes vulnerable, exposing what was in her heart. “It does,” she whispered.
He touched her cheek, then hurried to his car.
On the short drive, Troy felt almost drunk. Drunk on love and hope…For no real reason he burst into laughter.
They were finally going to resolve this situation between them.
It wasn’t until Troy made the turn onto Rosewood Lane that he saw the twirling lights of two patrol cars. Both were parked outside Faith’s house.
Troy was out of his vehicle before Faith had even pulled into her driveway.
“What’s going on here?” he asked Deputy Weaver, who met him halfway up the walk.
“The alarm company phoned in a breach.”
Faith hurried toward him, eyes wide and frightened. “Troy, what’s happened?”
“It appears someone broke into the house.” In an effort to calm her, he slipped his arm around her shoulders. “The alarm company alerted my office.”
“A 9-1-1 call came in from a neighbor, as well,” Deputy Weaver added.
Faith covered her mouth with both hands. “Is this ever going to stop?” she cried. “What do these people want from me?”
Unfortunately, Troy didn’t have any answers.
After conferring with his deputies, he entered the house with Faith. The destruction was minor—a broken window,
a lamp on the floor and a toppled vase. Still, it was bad enough. Faith gasped and he put out a hand to steady her.
Troy stayed while his deputies finished their report. After they’d left and the house was quiet again, he turned to her.
“I’ll help you straighten up.”
“No,” she said and shook her head. “I can’t deal with this now. I’m going to spend the night with Scott and his family.”
Troy could understand how upset she must be. He’d give just about anything to solve this and to find out why Faith, of all people, was being targeted.
“It seems to me,” she said, her voice quavering, “that while you’d like me to remain in Cedar Cove, someone else wants me to leave.”
Chapter Nineteen
It was the first Tuesday of March and Christie had driven her almost-new car over to Teri’s. She tried to visit every few days, especially now that Teri hardly ever left the house anymore.
Christie carried the teapot into the family room, where Teri sat with her swollen feet propped up. “You look wonderful,” she told her sister. Despite everything—Teri’s obvious discomfort and the inconvenience of enforced bed rest—it was true.
“I feel like a blimp.” Teri rested her hands on her protruding abdomen. “I’ve got three and a half months to go and by the time I’m ready, they’ll have to get a forklift to move me.”
Christie laughed. Triplets! Something like this would only happen to Teri. Triplets—and without fertility drugs, too.
“You’ll probably deliver early.”
“Thank goodness,” Teri said wryly.
“You feel okay, though. Right?” Christie placed the tray with the teapot and two cups on the coffee table and sat on the sofa.
“I feel like Sigourney Weaver in that movie. You know, where she gives birth to an alien. You wouldn’t believe what it’s like to have three little soccer players kicking away at my ribs and—”
“Oh, Teri.”
“Wipe that smirk off your face.”
Christie couldn’t stop smiling. “You’re going to have so much fun with your babies.”
Her sister shrugged. “Yeah, maybe.”
“I plan to have fun with them myself. I’m going to love being an aunt.” She knew she’d probably never be a mother, so Teri’s babies would have to be hers, too.
Teri and Bobby were both elated, and Christie had never seen a husband more attentive and caring than Bobby. He’d brought Teri real happiness; she’d told Christie that when she’d imagined she was happy in the past, those feelings didn’t even compare to what she felt now.
For a while, Christie believed she’d found that same kind of happiness with James Wilbur, but as was so often the case, she’d been wrong. He was like every other man she’d ever cared about—only it’d taken him a bit longer to reveal his true nature.
As if her sister had been reading her thoughts, Teri glanced speculatively at Christie. “James—”
“Don’t even start,” Christie warned. Teri seemed convinced that Christie could be as fortunate, as contented, as she was; Christie knew better. She poured the herbal tea, and handed Teri a cup.
Her sister gratefully accepted it. “You can’t ignore James forever.”
“Who says I can’t?” She crossed one leg over the other and swung her foot to hide her nervousness.
Teri’s eyes grew sad. “You love him and you know it. I had no idea you could be so stubborn.”
“Sure you did,” Christie returned, remembering their youth. Her sister was more familiar with her character flaws than anyone. “You want to defend James and that’s your choice, but I’ve made my decision.”
“James loves you!”
“Sure he does. That’s why he walked out on me.”
“He panicked,” Teri said, defending him. “It had nothing to do with you.”
“Uh-huh.” That just proved her point; when he was in trouble, when he’d needed help, it hadn’t occurred to him to confide in her—the woman he supposedly loved.
But Christie didn’t want to argue with her sister. They’d done enough of that through the years. “Would you mind if we didn’t discuss James?” she asked instead.
One look told her how disappointed Teri was.
“Let me tell you about my classes,” Christie said. To her own surprise she liked her courses. The photography was an interesting challenge, and she’d mastered the basics. She’d been working with a camera provided by the school but planned to buy her own. She’d met Jon Bowman, Grace Sherman’s son-in-law, once or twice; maybe he’d be willing to recommend a digital camera. And since she was starting her own business, she knew she needed some accounting skills. To her delight, she’d discovered that she thoroughly enjoyed the classes and had no problem with the homework.
Even as a kid Christie had always had a head for math. She never had difficulty remembering phone numbers after hearing them only once or twice. Her skill with figures was one of the reasons she’d made cashier at Wal-Mart. Balancing her bank account had never been a problem, either—especially since her balance generally hovered around zero.
“You sent back his Valentine gift.” She paused. “The flowers were gorgeous—I know because he ended up giving them to me.”
Christie forcefully expelled her breath. “Are you back to James again?”
Teri’s gaze pleaded with hers. “Explain it to me.”
“Explain what?”
“Why you’re so unforgiving. Why can’t you accept the fact that once the news story broke, James felt he had no option but to run. Surely you can put yourself in his position.”
“No,” she snapped. “I can’t.”
“I don’t believe that,” Teri said. “Poor James, he—”
“He walked out on you and Bobby, and he walked out on me, just like every other man I’ve ever loved.”
“Christie, you’ve got to know James isn’t like anyone else. He’s James. His childhood was hell. His parents drove him to mental collapse, to the point that he ended up in a psych ward. Once it was obvious that he couldn’t play chess anymore, they turned their backs on him—their own son! If it wasn’t for Bobby, I don’t know what would’ve happened to him.”
“He doesn’t seem all that grateful to Bobby—or at least that’s how it looks from where I’m sitting,” Christie said. “When Bobby needed him, James left.”
“You mean when you needed him, James left.”
“Yes,” she flared. “I thought James was different. I thought I could trust him. What an idiot I was.”
“He came back because of you,” Teri said quietly.
“Too bad. I’m not interested.”
Teri pretended not to hear. “James realized it didn’t matter what kind of ugly sensationalism that reporter put out there. He decided to stop hiding.”
She paused as though she expected Christie to appreciate how hard it’d been for James to confront his past. Okay, Christie could understand his fears; still, that didn’t justify the way he’d abandoned her.
“Can’t you imagine what it must have been like for him?” Teri asked rhetorically. “He’s stayed in the shadows all these years and then to be thrust into the limelight without his knowledge or consent. It was his worst nightmare. Instinct took over, and he ran. Who’s to say what either of us would’ve done in the same situation? But once his head cleared, he came back, and the first person he asked to see was you.”
Christie’s resolve remained unchanged. “I learned something important about myself through all of this,” she said. “I don’t need a man.” It’d been a liberating insight. After each breakup, she’d instantly gone in search of a new relationship, afraid to be alone. Afraid that on her own she hadn’t been enough. All those associations had been with a certain type—drunks, drug addicts, assorted losers. Men she felt she could rescue with sufficient love, sympathy and understanding. Not to mention money…
In the dark, lonely hours after James’s defection, Christie had arrived at some conclusions. First
, she was good enough—and no man would ever make her feel whole or complete. That had to come from within herself. Second, she had an excessive need to be needed. She recognized that about herself now and wasn’t about to fall back into the same patterns.
While she enjoyed her job, she wanted more. With her photography and business classes, Christie was going to establish a career. Initially, she’d take photographic assignments on her off-hours, while she still had the protection of a steady paycheck. No matter how long it took, she wasn’t about to let a man, any man, ruin her chances or stand in her way.
“I know you’re feeling hurt,” Teri said, “but I wish you’d give James another chance.”
Unwilling to bend, Christie shook her head.
Once she succeeded in steering the conversation away from James, she enjoyed the visit with her sister. Although Teri was positive and uncomplaining—other than in humorous asides—Christie knew this pregnancy had taken a toll on her. Teri was an active, social person, and she found being confined to the house extremely difficult.
Even though Christie preferred to avoid any possible contact with James, Teri needed her. She promised she’d stop by again in a day or two.
Bobby walked her to the front door, which was unusual. She figured he wanted to tell her something out of earshot of his wife. He glanced furtively at the family room, where Teri was still sitting.
“She’s doing well,” Christie said reassuringly.
“All three are boys,” Bobby announced without preamble.
“You know already?”
Bobby nodded. “I saw the picture. Teri wouldn’t look but I did.”
“Three sons,” Christie repeated, smiling widely.
“Teri wants a girl,” he said with a frown.
“Trust me, my sister won’t be disappointed,” Christie told him.
“She’ll want to get pregnant again—until she has her girl. I’m just not sure she should.”
Christie knew he was concerned about Teri’s health and the physical demands of this pregnancy. But she also knew the power Teri had over him.
“What you mean is that if my sister wants something and you can make it happen, you will. Right?”
Bobby lowered his eyes.
Christie had to struggle not to laugh. He adored Teri so much, he could refuse her nothing. Oh, to have a man who loved her that intensely. Christie hoped Teri knew how lucky she was.
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