by Diana Palmer
“I couldn’t very well carry a wife and child around the jungles with me,” Micah told her with a grin. He was tall and big, and not at all bad-looking. She could picture him with a rifle in one arm. But now, in a white lab coat with a stethoscope thrown carelessly around his neck, he seemed equally at home.
“When’s Callie due?” Leo asked.
“Any minute,” he said, tongue-in-cheek. “Can’t you see me shaking? I’m the soul of self-confidence around here, but one little pregnant woman makes me a basket case!”
“Callie’s quite a girl,” Rey agreed, smiling at the big man.
Micah gave him a look. “Yes, and isn’t it lucky for me that you hardly ever went into her boss Kemp’s office for legal advice, while she was still single?”
Rey pursed his lips. “Kemp eats scorpions for breakfast, I hear. I like my lawyers less caustic.”
“Last I heard, the local bar association had you down as a contagious plague and was warning its members to avoid you at all costs,” Micah replied wickedly.
“I never hit any local lawyers.” Rey looked uncomfortable. “It was that Victoria lawyer, Matherson,” he muttered. “And I didn’t even hit him that hard. Hell, he’s lucky I wasn’t sober at the time! Otherwise, he’d have had twice the number of stitches!”
Meredith listened to the repartee with wide, fascinated eyes, but Rey wouldn’t meet her eyes and Micah, too, cleared his throat and didn’t pursue the subject.
“Matherson took a client who accused us of assault,” Leo volunteered. “Cag had hit him, several times, after he got drunk and assaulted Tess, who’s now Cag’s wife. But the bounder swore that he was the injured party, that we falsely accused him and all took turns pounding him. He convinced a jury to award him damages. Not a lot of money,” Leo added solemnly, “but the principle was what set Rey off. He was in a bad mood already and he had a few too many drinks at Shea’s Bar, out on the Victoria road. To make a long story short,” he added with a chuckle, “Matherson was having a quiet beer when Rey accused him of handling the ex-employee’s case for spite because he lost an argument with us over Tess when he was handling her inheritance. Matherson took exception to Rey’s remarks, and the two of them set about wrecking the pretty stained-glass window that used to overlook the parking lot.”
“Used to?” Meredith fished, sensing something ominous.
“Yes, well, Matherson made a rather large hole in it when Rey helped him into the parking lot the hard way,” Leo concluded.
Micah Steele looked as if it was killing him not to burst out laughing.
“He,” Leo jerked his thumb toward Steele, “had to remove quite a number of glass particles from Matherson’s rear end. And we got sued again, for that!”
“But the jury, after hearing Kemp’s masterful summation of our grievances,” Rey interrupted, “decided that Matherson was only entitled to the cost of the repair job on his butt. Shea had insurance that replaced the stained-glass window with one of comparable age and exclusivity.” Rey smiled smugly. “And the judge said that if she’d been sitting on the first case, the rat Matherson was representing would have gotten a jail sentence.”
Leo chuckled. “Only because Kemp put Tess on the stand and had her testify about what really happened the night Matherson’s client took her on a date. The jury felt that Rey was justifiably incensed by the former verdict.” He glanced at Meredith wryly.
“Yes, but I understand that Shea’s two bouncers meet Rey at the door these days and won’t let him in if he’s not smiling,” Micah contributed.
Rey shrugged. “I never get drunk anymore. I’ve learned to handle aggression in a nonphysical manner.”
The other two men actually walked down the hall. Meredith noticed their shoulders vibrating.
Rey took a step toward Meredith, half irritated by the character assassination job his brother and Micah Steele had just done on him, and even more put out by Meredith’s unmasking.
“You knew I had no idea about your education,” Rey accused Meredith. “Why didn’t you say something at the outset, when Leo first went to the hospital?” he demanded in a low, deep tone. “I may have jumped to conclusions, but you provided the springs, didn’t you?”
She grimaced. “I guess so. But it was only a little jump from telling you about my job to talking about the reason Daddy started drinking. It’s…still very fresh in my mind,” she added huskily. “It’s only been six months. The memories are—” she swallowed and looked away “—bad.”
Unexpectedly he reached out and caught her fingers in his, tugging her closer. The hall was deserted. In the background there were muted bell-tones and announcements and the sound of lunch trays being distributed. “Tell me,” he said gently.
She bit her lower lip hard and lifted her tormented eyes to his curious ones. “Not…yet,” she whispered tightly. “One day, but…not yet. I can’t.”
“Okay,” he said after a minute. “But I’d like to know how you learned to shoot.”
“My brother, Mike, taught me,” she said reluctantly, staring at his broad chest. She wanted to lay her head on it and cry out her pain. There hadn’t been anyone to hold her, not when it happened, not afterward. Her father withdrew into his own mind and started drinking to excess at once. Her job was all that had kept Meredith sane. She hadn’t been able to let out her grief in any normal way.
Rey’s mind was working overtime. He stared down at her, still holding her fingers entwined tightly with his own, and he frowned as bits and pieces of memory began fitting themselves together.
“Mike. Mike Johns.” His eyes narrowed. “Our cousin Colter’s best friend, and one of Leo’s acquaintances. He was killed…!”
She tried to tug her fingers away. He wouldn’t let her. He pulled her into his arms, holding her there even when she struggled. But a few seconds of resistance were all she had. She laid her flushed cheek against his broad chest and let the tears flow.
Rey’s arms contracted roughly. He smoothed his hand over her nape, caressing, soothing. “There was a bank robbery in Houston,” he recalled quietly. “Mike was a cop. He was at the bank with your mother. It was Saturday. He was off duty, but he had his service revolver under his jacket.” His arms tightened as her sobs grew painful to hear. “He drew and fired automatically, and one of the robbers sprayed fire from one of those damned little automatic rifles in his general direction. He and your mother died instantly…”
Meredith’s fingers dug into his wide back. He rocked her, barely aware of curious glances from passersby.
“Both men were caught. You don’t kill a cop and get away with it in Texas,” he added softly. “They were arraigned and treated to a speedy trial just a month ago. You and your father testified. That was when your father really went off the deep end, wasn’t it, when he had to see the autopsy photos…”
Micah and Leo came back down the hall, frowning when they saw the condition Meredith was in. Even as they watched, her eyes rolled back and she would have fallen to the floor except for Rey’s strong arms lifting her.
Later, she wouldn’t recall much except that she was hustled into a cubicle and revived. But when she started sobbing hysterically, they’d given her a shot of something that put her out like a light. She came to back at the ranch, in her own little garage apartment.
She opened her eyes, and there was Rey, sitting by the bed, still wearing the same jeans and shirt and boots he’d worn to the shooting range. Meredith was aware of the bedspread covering her up to her waist. Her boots were off, but she was also wearing the same clothes she’d started out in that morning.
“What time is it?” she asked in a husky, slightly disoriented tone.
“Five hours past the time you flaked out on me,” he said, smiling gently. “Micah knocked you out. He thought some sleep might help.” The smile faded into quiet concern. “You don’t sleep much, do you, Meredith?” he asked surprisingly.
She sighed, brushed back her disheveled blond hair, and shook her head. “When I go
to sleep, I have nightmares. I wake up in a cold sweat, and I see them, lying there on the floor, just the way they looked in those vivid crime scene photos.” She closed her eyes and shivered. “People look so fragile like that, they look like big dolls, sprawled in pitiful disarray on the floor. Everybody stares at them…”
He brushed back her hair with a lean, gentle hand. “They got the guys who did it,” he reminded her. “Including the trigger man. He’ll serve life without any hope of parole. He’ll pay for it.”
Her pale eyes were tormented as they met his. “Yes, but it won’t bring them back, will it?” she asked. “And do you know why they said they did it? For a bet. For a stupid bet, they killed two innocent people!”
“They also ruined their own lives,” he reminded her, “and the lives of their own families.”
She looked at him blankly, scowling.
“Don’t you ever think about that?” he asked softly. “Criminals have families, too. Most of them have loving, decent parents who took care of them and disciplined them and blame themselves for what their children do. It must be pure hell, to have your child kill someone, and feel responsible for it.”
“I haven’t considered that,” she admitted.
He continued. “When I was in high school, one of my best friends was arrested for murder. He killed the old man next door in the process of stealing his wallet. He wanted to buy his girl a diamond necklace she liked, and he didn’t have any money. He figured the man was old and didn’t need money anyway, so he might as well take it. He was sorry about it, but he never figured on killing the man or getting caught.”
“Was he a good friend?” she asked.
He looked at their linked fingers. He nodded. “We were pals since grammar school. He wasn’t quite as bright as some of the other boys, but he had a gentle nature. Or so we thought.” He met her eyes. “His mom and dad always had a houseful of other peoples’ kids. They were everybody’s mom and dad. It shattered them when Joey went to prison. Even the children of the old man felt sorry for them.”
“Funny,” she mused. “I never even thought of how it would feel to have a child or a parent or a sibling who broke the law in some terrible way.” She met his eyes. “I guess I’d feel guilty, too.”
“Most kids are raised right. But some of them have a wild streak that nobody can tame, others have poor impulse control. Many are handicapped. Nobody goes to jail because he wants to.”
“I never thought of you as a sensitive man,” she blurted out, and then flushed at the insult.
His eyebrows lifted. “Who, me? I stop to pick worms out of the highway so my tires won’t bruise their little bodies, and you think I’m insensitive?”
It took a minute for the words to make sense, and then she burst out laughing.
“That’s better,” he said. He smiled and squeezed her fingers. “You’re going to be okay. You’ve had a lot of traumatic experiences just lately. No wonder you caved in.”
“Lucky for you,” she shot back.
“Me? Why?”
“Because if we’d unpacked those shotguns, I’d have destroyed your ego,” she said with a smug smile. “At Mike’s gun club, they used to call me ‘dead-eye.’”
“Oh, they did, did they?” he challenged. “Well, we’ll see about that when you step up to my gun range.”
She studied his lean face. He wasn’t handsome, but he had strong, stubborn features. He was familiar to her now, almost necessary. She thought about going back to Houston with real panic.
He touched her cheek where the bruises were a mixture of purple and yellow, much less vivid now. “He really knocked you around,” he said, and his face hardened visibly. “I don’t care if a man is drunk, there’s no excuse for hitting a woman.”
“Shades of primitive man,” she chided with a smile.
“Women are the cradles of life,” he said simply. “What sort of man tries to break a cradle?”
“You have a unique way of putting things.”
“We had Spanish ancestors,” he told her. “They were old-world men, conquerors, adventurers. One of them made his way to Texas and was given a huge tract of land under a Spanish land grant, for services to the crown of Spain.” He noticed a start of surprise on her face. “Do you know the legend of the Cid?”
“Yes!” she exclaimed. “He was a great Spanish hero. Cid is for the Arabic Sidi which means Lord.”
“Well, our ancestor wasn’t El Cid,” he said on a chuckle. “But he fought his way through hostile neighbors to claim his land, and he held it as long as he lived. Our family still holds it, through our late uncle, who left us this ranch.”
“This is the original grant?” she exclaimed.
He nodded. “It isn’t nearly as big as it was a couple of hundred years ago, but it’s no weekend farm, either. Didn’t you notice the antique silver service in the dining room?”
“Yes, I’ve been afraid to touch it. It looks very old.”
He smiled. “It came from Madrid. It’s over two hundred years old.”
“An heirloom!” she breathed.
“Yes. Like the ranch itself.” He tilted his head and studied her for a long time. “Now I understand. Your father wasn’t violent until the killer’s trial, was he?”
“No, he wasn’t.” She looked down at Rey’s big, warm hand wrapped around her own. It made her feel safe. “He told Mike to drive Mama to the bank,” she added reluctantly. “He had papers to grade. He couldn’t spare the time, he said, and he snapped at her when she protested that Mike was spending his day off, carting her all over Houston.” She glanced at him. “I was called in to work at a clinic my boss holds in the Hispanic community every Saturday. There’s a regular nurse, but she was at home with a sick child. I went to stand in for her.” Her eyes fell to his broad chest. “I could have asked someone to go in my place. I didn’t. So he and I both have our guilt.”
“Because you lived and they didn’t,” Rey said bluntly.
She gasped. “No, that’s not true!”
“It is true.” His black eyes held hers relentlessly. “The same thing happens to people who survive airplane crashes, automobile wrecks, sinking ships. It’s a normal, human reaction to surviving when other people don’t. It’s worse when the victims include close relatives or friends.”
“Where did you learn that?” she asked.
“From Janie Brewster,” he said.
She frowned. “That name sounds familiar.”
“We’ve mentioned her to you. She’s the daughter of a neighboring cattleman,” he related. “She got her associate degree in psychology from our community college, and now she’s studying it in Houston,” he added with a grin. “She’s almost twenty. They let her take college courses while she was still in high school, so she’s ahead.”
“Oh.”
“She’s not hard on the eyes, either,” he murmured, avoiding her eyes. “She and her father live alone. Leo and I have a standing dinner invitation, any time we care to show up.”
She started to say “oh” again, and realized how juvenile she was behaving. She straightened her shoulders against the pillow that was propping her up, and tugged at the hand Rey still held. “Then if she can bake biscuits, you’re saved when I leave, aren’t you?” she asked coolly.
“Well, she can’t exactly bake stuff,” Rey had to admit.
“Why?”
“She has no sense of time. She sets the timer and it goes off, and she never hears it. So the chicken bounces, the heat-and-serve rolls usually come out black, and I won’t even mention what happens to vegetables she tries to cook on top of the stove.” He gave her a sad look. “She did try to make us a pan of biscuits once.” He actually shuddered.
“Not a successful try?” she fished.
“We had to take the damned things home, or her father would never have let us near the Salers heifers he was offering for sale.” He glanced at her. “Leo just bought us a big Salers bull, and we needed purebred heifers to breed to him. Purebred bre
eding stock brings a big price, especially if you show cattle and win ribbons.” He shrugged. “So we took the biscuits home.”
“Did you eat them?” she persisted.
He shook his head and he shuddered again.
“Then what did you do with them?” she asked, thinking he probably fed them to the cattle dogs or some livestock.
“Well, actually, we took them out to the skeet field and used them for clay pigeons,” he confessed with a grin. “They were the best damned targets we ever had, but we didn’t dare say where we got them!”
She put her face in her hands and burst out laughing. “Oh, the poor girl!” she chuckled.
“Don’t worry, we’d never tell her,” he promised. “But we did ask her for another pan of biscuits, without telling her why.” He sighed. “That woman has a ready-made profession as a target maker, and we haven’t got the guts to tell her so. Hell of a shame!”
She brushed at her eyes with the hem of her blouse. Poor Janie. And she’d been jealous.
“What does she look like?” she asked, curious.
“She comes up to my shoulder. She’s got light brown hair, longer than yours, and her eyes are green. If she didn’t know everything, and tell you so every time you saw her, she might get married one day.”
“You don’t want to marry her?” she teased. “Not even for an inexhaustible supply of skeet targets?”
“I don’t want to marry anybody,” he said bluntly, and he looked her straight in the eye when he said it. “I love my freedom.”
She sighed and smiled. “So do I,” she confessed. “I don’t think I could ever settle for diapers and dishes. Not with my background.”
“You were a science major, weren’t you?” he asked abruptly.
“Yes. Chemistry and biology, genetics—stuff like that. I made good grades, but it was hard work. Then I went right to work for my boss, straight out of college. I need to be two people, just to catch up. I run my legs off. The stress is pretty bad sometimes.”
“No wonder keeping house and baking biscuits seemed like a holiday to you,” he said to himself.
“It’s been fun,” she agreed. “I love to cook. I do it a lot, at home. I used to when Mama was alive,” she recalled. “She hated housework and cooking. I came home from work and did it all.”